#tw dissasociation

[inkshine]

I've reached the point in the election where I've just stopped processing information about it. This is the hardest I've disassociated in years, maybe ever. Like, I am aware of things around me and can remember things, but it's like I'm not really here, in a sense. I can't like, focus on anything.

[thatkoiboi]

//WARNING: meltdown, dissociation, spiraling//

I'm proud of you and all your accomplishments! Everything will be okay <3

[vixensofdeath]

every day it gets harder to live. I get out of bed and don’t know what I’m doing, I don’t know who I am, I don’t know what I want or need. I simply do not exist.

[stargirlanthem]

every day, i feel less and less real ✶⋆.˚

[xvelvetcoffinx]

[aliciamaynardsworld2]

Dude, the fact that you smile so fucking bright after all that shit that you went through>>>>>

[burningsolarsystem]

Still constantly seem to be going back and forth between accepting I am a system and accusing myself of faking.

Recent interaction:

"Honestly, I doubt I even am actually a system. I'm probably just faking."

"We are really back on this bullshit again, huh?"

"Yes, we are."

"..."

"..."

"Anyways..."

(Even funnier cause I can feel her staring at me during those silences. I don't have to see her at all to be able to sense her glaring at me. )

[[[Not funny you bitch. It's annoying. I get it, but like damn you're insistent. So get glared at you stubborn bitch]]]

(Yeah...not editing that part out cuz fair.)

[godofautism]

Various blinkies and stamps I found (Part 4!)

First part: here

[thenightsystem]

sometimes self care is turning on youtube to pretend like youre doing something, then disassociating for an hour

-host

[vixensofdeath]

my life has just been a series of waiting to feel better and never being able to because someone or something happening. I’m tired of going two steps back every time I step forward. I just wish there were something out there for me, and if there is, I wish it’d come faster.

[sprinkleofquirk]

Rather than explain that I cannot have Asperger’s syndrome because that hasn’t been included in the DSM since 2013 since Hans Asperger was, among other things, a fucking Nazi, I used my ✨healthy coping mechanisms✨ (kinda) and made these 🙃

And I say ‘kinda’ because I don’t… exactly… remember? Making them? They just kinda… ✨appeared✨ and a few hours had passed

[sockeyesidequest]

On Depersonalization

[mikka-minns]

Okay so im gonna share my headcanon on why kuai liang didnt react to hanzo's death with much emotion (this isnt a theory, and its the opposite of Canon, i Just need to cope. Fuck off nrs, u suck! Fuck Canon too!)

Kuai dissociated when Scorpion told him Hanzo is dead.

He couldn’t proces the Thought of losing another person he loved(platonicly or romanticly, your choice). He disconected from and questioned reality. Felt like what is happening isnt real. Didnt help that Hanzo's past self was right in front of him. And this happened to him so many times, losing people he scared about, ever since he was a small child, that he didnt know how he should feel. Should he be used to this? Cuz he sure wasnt.

He couldn’t belive Hanzo is realy dead for quite some time and when he couldn’t deny it anymore, it broke him.

Then he went to the netherrealm and found him and brought him back and they lived happily ever after

Source? Shut up, Let me be in denial and happy, please.😭

[bookmothic-dyke]

I think I have a depersonalization disorder. I should probably bring that up with my therapist next month.

I’d normally laugh after saying something like that. I’m not like upset, but I don’t feel like laughing at this realization.

That my brain coped with my trauma, by having me not be there. Taking me out of the narrative. Turning me into an reader of sorts, in my own life. For like a decade or so. A childhood as a non real observer. Disassociated. I can’t remember most of it.

And some days. When shit is bad in my brain, I slip back there. Into the fog. I’m still there. I still talk, learn, and create. But I’m not there. Not really. Memories blurred. Sat behind, a layer of narrative.

Fuck. Well, at least I have enough awareness and presence to realize this these days.

But still.

Fuck.

[burningsolarsystem]

Turns out my memory is worse than I thought, and I hate it.

My gf and I were talking and the topic of the first time we met came up. And I didn't remember. She described the whole thing and, nothing. I couldn't remember. Then she explained how we became friends and started hanging out and I still don't remember. My brain has forgotten most of the beginning and only starts remembering after we were already close and falling in love.

Apparently, the nickname she always uses for me was given to me when we first met. I didn't even remember that, I thought she gave me that nickname later on.

I don't remember meeting her. I don't remember becoming her friend. I don't remember, and I am on the verge of tears because I want to remember. I desperately want to remember, but I can't.

Why did my brain rob me of this? Of everything I could have forgotten, why this?

And I felt awful the whole conversation because I should remember. I should. What kind of partner am I if I don't? I'm just glad she understands and didn't hate me for not remembering.

I don't remember and I'm terrified. What else could I have forgotten? What other important memories will I forget? What important memories have I forgotten already?

So, yeah... my memory sucks and I hate it. That's how my day is going.

[whumpbees]

Whumpee who has a hard time processing everything that's happened to them. Even after being rescued- it all just feels... distant. Far away. They keep expecting it to hit them but it just- doesn't. Maybe they eventually start to wonder, if it doesn't hurt- could it really have been that bad to begin with?