#osdd

[botanical-garden-system]

Hey, it’s not your fault. You were just a kid. You may still BE a kid. But I know a few things for certain:

You didn’t ask to be born into this world.

You didn’t ask to be treated the way that you were treated—whether it was by bullies, parents, or other family members.

You didn’t ask to “be a burden” to your caregivers, you deserved that space to be loved and safe

You didn’t ask for your consent to be broken.

You didn’t ask for the shame and guilt someone put you through.

You aren’t bad for something happening to you. You aren’t your trauma.

I’m sorry if you were ever made to feel that way, and I know that may never mean much coming from a stranger, but I know it’s something I wish I heard more.

[oursystemblog]

really funny problem to have

[santiespeaks]

host took me down the rabbit hole of r/systemscringe, and after reading a post where someone asked "how do you know if they're faking their disorder?" and most answers were "well... you don't ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ you just kinda have to guess?" i honestly want to vomit and laugh at the same time.

we've been thinking of doing a YT channel where we talk about magick, perform tarot readings, play videogames, and so on as our plural selves, and I just... I just know we'll end up on there because our plurality is different. we switch, but there's no pause. it isn't exhausting. we simply exist, and these people scream we're faking it.

i honestly believe it's the new r/ihatefatpeople. i think it's hilarious this thing even exists. you scream at us for existing in spaces we "shouldn't exist in," and demand us to leave. and when we don't, you get upset and fakeclaim.

i'm sorry my host doesn't have 52 fragmented alters.

i'm sorry my host does not experience dissociation on a larger scale.

i'm sorry we're endogenic? (which is laughable considering most of our alters came out of voices in our head and delusional rabbit holes we went down during schizophrenic episodes where we were medicated but the medication didn't work).

i'm sorry we view each other as real people (lmao at this one???? it's such a subjective experience that i just... i just laugh. if it walks like a duck, quacks like a duck, then isn't it a duck???? lmfao @ the average person on r/systemscringe)

i'm sorry we exist in general. we're finna take up space though and talk about this. i think it's time the plural community starts branching out and making it the norm. you just like don't know that someone's faking or real -- they scream "oh, it's subtle signs!" but then it's like... how do you not know most of the general population is plural? if the signs are subtle?

the human brain is so complex and complicated. how do YOU know the button to create consciousness isn't pressed repeatedly to create co-occurring consciousnesses inside one body?

you really, truly don't.

and i'm tired of pretending like it's not.

[theredoesnotexist]

A doodle one of us made as a visual aid to help compare with another system how it feels like it works

[dissomuse]

Say it with me everybody!

Hearing voices in your head is not OSDDID

Having mood-swings in your identity is not OSDDID

Feeling like fictional characters is not OSDDID

Having multiple/subpersonalities is not OSDDID

if in some twisted world those things immediately equate to systemhood, then john across the street also has alters

[evilsystem]

being immortal and having DID must be crazy. yeah our boy Carlos hasn't fronted in 300 years and just woke up to the sound of Uptown Funk and started screaming

[sysboxes]

[Text: This system suffers from paraphilias as a result of trauma.]

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[pezpenser205]

being friends w systems is nuts cuz youll have a guy in the friend group that goes away for a bit and comes back like "i got out of the nightmare loop" or "sorry i was gone i got put in the torment nexus" and its not even an exaggeration they really were in the nightmare loop or the torment nexus for a week and are forced to be normal about it

[syscultureis]

System culture is im so fuckkng tired of being a system

Constantly

[collectivewarmth]

one of the most important things about dissociative identity disorder and generally being a system that i wish people would understand is that it truly isn’t as cut and dry as it may seem for member count.

you’ll see people who say they have “six alters” and then immediately assume it’s six fully fleshed out equal individuals with no confusion or fuzziness regarding identity. that’s simply not true in a majority of cases, as i have seen.

most systems still VERY much deal with confusion regarding potential splits, go through dissociative episodes where they’re unsure of who they are, sometimes feel no attachment towards any identities, feel like they might have split and then suddenly that person is gone, unsure if alters they haven’t heard from often have gone dormant, not sure how to react when alters do come out of dormancy, etc.

it’s not a fun feeling and it’s genuinely unfair in certain situations to force systems to list every single alter to you with full certainty, as if it will never change. because it will. for so many different reasons, systems will grow, they will shrink, they will fuse, they will develop. you can’t expect the person with the dissociative disorder and lack of core identity to be able to keep up a perfected list of forever, it’s simply impossible. you may have alters who stick with you, but that doesn’t mean changes won’t happen.

and systems who may be reading this — please don’t feel bad. you are not a hassle, you are not a headache, and you are not an inconvenience for simply coping with something like this. it’s out of your control and the only thing you can do is continue to cope to find ways to help yourself retrain from these reactions. please don’t allow yourself to be harmed by others who don’t understand what you are going through. there are people who will accept and love you for who you are, all of you.

past, present, and future.

[paradox-space-system]

I HATTTTTE the expectation that fictives SHOULD have pseudo-memories. Every other fictive I meet is like “Oh memories blah blah blah!!!” And I’m just like. HELLO???? Am I the only one who has ZERO memories of anything I did in source???? It’s so weird. I feel kind of isolated as a fictive because I’m A) from a kinda niche source. B) No source memories. C) I focus on being more of an alter then anything ??? Like aw man I cause a bunch of disassociation. My bad!!! That’s why in this essay on why CDDs are treated like an alter disorder and not a dissociative disord-

[oursystemblog]

not what I was going to write . but fine

[remnantsofthestarscollective321]

Casual reminder that the following things are considered traumatic to small children

- neglect (physical and/or emotional)

- living in an emotionally unstable environment (for example, having parents that fight often)

- any kind of physical, emotional, or sexual abuse (not just from parents)

- consistent bullying

- etc

Remember that what is traumatic to a child is not the same as what is traumatic to you now. So think again before saying your trauma ‘isn’t bad enough’

[edible-emerald]

saw this on pinterest and thought it might be something traumagenic systems who struggle with thinking their trauma isn't enough need to see

[orbitposting]

DID but not as in presence of "evil murderer alter", DID as in buying two drinks instead of one because someone came to front after seeing a blue raspberry slushie and DEMANDED to have it, but the alter who walked all the way to the gas station refused to leave without getting what they wanted to get initially.