#did osdd

[cute-lil-coward]

I had a memory of a little part who was fronting while shrooming with an ex, and she was actively trying to stop from being put into this dark place with wind wipping around her like a hurricane or tornado - she was describing it as such. She was fighting so hard to stay in the front, she started physically running around and freaking out, until the ex told her something akin to how that probably won't do anything since it's inside the mind - at which point the little gave up physically and dropped onto the bed and started sobbing furiously until one of the other parts eventually took the front. To know that the little is put into those conditions within the mind when she's not fronting sometimes is really worrisome to me, but I don't know what to do about it.

being friends w systems is nuts cuz youll have a guy in the friend group that goes away for a bit and comes back like "i got out of the nightmare loop" or "sorry i was gone i got put in the torment nexus" and its not even an exaggeration they really were in the nightmare loop or the torment nexus for a week and are forced to be normal about it

[plurapony]

can we shed some light on the amnesia in DID that literally doesn't matter? the amnesia that isn't about anything important or anything it's just really fucking annoying to forget! examples:

"oh that reminds me of my favorite movie! ...which now, i conveniently cannot remember the name to"

[introducing yourself to someone] "oh shit what are my hobbies? what do i like to do?? fuck i can't remember!!"

"oh my god im literally obsessed with this thing!! its always on my mind... AND I HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHAT IT'S CALLED RN!!!!"

like it's the type of amnesia that doesn't necessarily negatively impact every daily life but you know it's really fucking bothersome to not be able to remember! i literally forgot that i liked movies, or the fact that i liked movies so much i went to film school I FORGOT I WENT TO FILM SCHOOL???

[antiarasaka]

Recently my specialist told me that alters in DID usually stem from specific trauma events. I was wondering if the sysblr community agrees with this or has other perspectives.

Opening the floor to everyone here, but know I'm speaking about my own experiences and am looking for others' experiences in exchange, not looking to debate the factuality of this, because no matter what patterns appear in a disorder, there will always be outliers, I am not looking to deny that.

[hannahlovesbakugo]

DID isnt real and if you claim you have it then im assuming you’re begging for attention. You’re most likely a bored teen or autistic adult who needs to reevaluate their life

[boomshitbitcher]

Friendly reminder that syscringe is open about the fact they dont actually care if you're 'fake' or 'real', they make fun of you regardless of that. They're ableist bullies, half of them dont even think DID is real. The sooner we realize they're like flat earthers the better.

[freezingcoldsystemtakes]

the only real systems are the ones that *a gnome runs past me giggling* what the fuck? did you guys see that? what the fuck was that?

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[wysecollection]

i see it so much in r/systemcringe or whatever where its like “if REAL systems were online they would be talking about their constant PAIN and SUFFERING” like… we’re aware of the pain and suffering. We go through the Pain and Suffering. but i don’t want to post that online? that’s for me and my therapist to know about not me, my therapist, and Internet

Yeah, this is exactly my point. Reminder: No one is entitled to your bad experiences or traumatic ones for you to be "real". You can share or not share whatever you want. If you only choose to talk about the ridiculous and sort of funny things that happen due to your system, cool. Sometimes it makes other/newer/questioning systems feel more comfortable with their experiences if you can show that maybe it's not always horrible despite it being trauma-caused.

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[redflagzsys]

don't forget that edits of alter profiles on the app automatically sync with the bot on discord!!! i'm excited for IOS...

Hello fellow systems.

I have been made aware of a new app for us (It's anti-endo)

The app is called Octocon, and it's only on Samsung/Android right now. (IOS is coming soon)

It has a discord bot as well.

[salazarsrevenge]

Harry Potter userbox for fans of the content but haters of JK Rowling! May make versions for other houses if people want?

Endo "Systems" do not use. You ain't real.

[npd-akechi]

beling plural is so funny cuz wdym Egar Allan Poe from bungo stray dogs in my brain is watching me do my schoolwork

[the-fox-collective]

I feel it should be said how damaging it is to brush off any type of trauma as "not enough."

There's a popular post about how a person who drowned in 6ft of water is just as dead as someome who drowned in 200ft of water. This is true.

But also you can drown in as little as half a cup of water.

And I think this comes from a deep misunderstanding of how DID forms, what counts as "bad enough" trauma to form a system. I myself have had to unwind whether what I've said I've gone through is real, due to how conflated the idea of trauma is in some people's heads.

A child is not as developed as an adult or a teen. What a child views as "too much" for them to cope with or "no support system" to talk to may be completely different to what an adult thinks. The adult may even think that the child is logically incorrect about these things—but that does not change the response the child has.

This is not an excuse to tell people they should go digging for trauma or to tell them unprompted that what they went through is 100% traumatic. I just wanted to make sure anyone who thinks they could have DID / PSTD / OSDD / C-PTSD (or similar) doesn't brush off things that as an adult they think "weren't so bad."

[owo-writing-man]

There's nothing beautiful in this, in how we became this. It was deeply traumatic and isolating. And I will never be able to be a normal person. Even after years and years of therapy. Even if I do achieve final fusion. I will never be normal.

I am fundamentally broken.

There are days I like my system mates. And it's not a lie. I can genuinely love them.

But I do not love this. I do not love how we became this. And it's not beautiful to think you are a system. Because then you went through what causes that. And I can't think of something that ugly.

This kinda shit is exactly why we hate y’all. No you fucking can’t just “become a system” holy fucking shit

[bubblef1zz]

Hello, everyone.

Are your days going well? How are you feeling today compared to yesterday, do you know? Well, nonetheless, here's my message to you all, as CDD systems.

— Feeling unreal or as if the world around you is unreal as part of your CDD symptoms is normal.

— Parts not having names and going by their role or characteristics is okay. Eg: The little one. Some parts simply may not want a name; that's okay.

— Sharing your headcounts online is not a necessity, so don't feel bad for not wanting to share this information.

— Be mindful to not share your triggers online; whether negative or positive. Don't feel forced to share triggers in the spaces you may be involved in.

— Not knowing every little detail about yourself is fine and even normal. Don't feel forced to find those details immediately; take your time and work at your own pace.

— Asking for management advice is okay. Asking for help is okay. Struggling is understandable and normal when you have a disorder. You are not a burden for seeking help and/or advice.

— If you feel anger, sadness, and such to high degrees, I'm here to tell you that that's okay. Having trouble understanding 'the why' is okay, and you're not a 'monster' if you get to that breaking point and lash out.

— Try not to compare your system to the systems online. Do you have lots of introjects? That's okay. Do you have only a few? That's okay. None? That's just as okay. Are there only 2 alters in your system? That's okay. 10? 40? That's okay. Are you polyfragmented? That's okay; it doesn't mean your experiences aren't real. OSDD1? P-DID? The same goes there. Your experiences aren't fake just because you may experience less amnesia. Your experiences aren't fake if you experience more amnesia. Your experiences aren't fake if you have amnesia of having amnesia. Your experiences aren't fake if you have more emotional amnesia.

I hope this makes someone's day better!! I added more tags to this post to try to reach more CDD systems.

[plurapony]

passive influence is a strange thing in dissociative identity disorder, it really is. it's like a phantom feeling - like being possessed.

sometimes something will come out of your mouth and make you think "that definitely wasn't me" or a strange thought of something you'd never think might pop into your head. that's all passive influence! but it doesn't just stop at words and thoughts.

two of our gatekeepers, goddess and nihil have funny ways of how they impact passive influence. when goddess is around there is heavy dissociation to the point where it's almost impossible to move and when nihil is around we are swept into a blanket of dissociation and depression and completely overwhelmed by it. this happens because of their core purposes in the system and what they believe will protect the system.

i think it's important that you recognize that passive influence can pop up at any time in any form. another part's emotions, another part's dissociation barriers, another part's thoughts. and i know it can be strange and scary feeling something you don't recognize or can't explain but all in due time you'll be able to figure everything out.

so when you recognize a strange and unfamiliar feeling or thought? acknowledge it! acknowledge it's there and that you don't know how it came to be, but eventually you'll be able to figure it all out - and most importantly that everything will be alright. 🩷

[untanglingknotsinarope]

it’s giving ✨CDD vibes✨