#did osdd

[interstellarchaosss]

DEFEND YOUR FUTURE.

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[traumagenic-positivity]

i love you aromantic systems!

i love you asexual systems!

i love you aro-ace systems!

i love you systems who prefer qprs!

i love you demisexual systems!

i love you cupioromantic systems!

i love you demiromantic systems!!

i love you systems who are on the aromantic spectrum!

i love you aegosexual systems!

i love you aegoromantic systems!

i love you apothisexual systems!

I love you apothiromantic systems!

i love you aroflux systems!

i love you autoromantic systems!

i love you aceflux systems!

i love you autosexual systems!

i love you desinoromantic systems!

i love you fraysexual systems!

i love you frayromantic systems!

i love you greyromantic systems!

i love you graysexual systems!

i love you lithromantic systems!

i love you lithsexual systems!

i love you quoiromantic systems!

i love you quoisexual systems!

i love you recipromantic systems!

i love you systems!!! <3

[fleshfictive]

all of twitter is in a loud argument over whether or not pwBPD are actually human or deserving of love or not, so then i check tumblr and i get nothing but "i'm an endogenic system and i'm so upset that i feel unwelcome in OSDDID spaces, wah wah wah!"

god you people are fucking insufferable

[rare-average-system]

REMINDER

Trauma isn't only bad things that happened

Trauma is also good things that didn't happen

[plurapony]

there has been nothing more beneficial to me than making the transition from:

"im a cheerful happy bubbly person who's hiding a deep dark secret that I'm horrifically mentally ill"

to:

"im a cheerful happy positive person in spite of my mental illness!! i have bad days and that's okay, being positive to others makes those bad days better"

[thekingdomsystem]

Mother: What do you want for dinner?

The system's ageless god trapped in a mortal body:...Soup...

[osddid-i-do-that]

I’ve seen a lot of people being surprised at this or asking about other variations in “silence” — depending on your (the alter reading this) barriers between yourself and others, you might be able to “hear” actual voices, they might come through as more like thoughts, they might be vague (a sense of someone talking), or just emotions that feel external to you, or a feeling of someone else present, or you might feel very alone a lot of the time.

It’s all very dependent on your amnesia barriers and how willing/able others are to communicate! Some of us can hear each other pretty clearly most of the time, but stress makes it harder! Some of us are very cut off a lot of the time and only sometimes get a sense that we aren’t alone occasionally.

Wildly different experiences, even within the same system ✨

For any system that needs to hear this:

Experiencing periods of silence in your brain is normal. You’re not making it up or faking or actually just a singlet just because you can’t hear other alters 24/7/365.

[plurality-is-mundane]

mundane plurality is the weird kinda-almost-qpr the host and cohost have going on. what are they to each other? something, for sure!

.

[reimeichan]

Honestly being fused doesn't mean I don't interact with my parts anymore or that I no longer am doing parts work or anything. If anything, I'm finding myself tackling parts work more easily by being fused and having that increased internal communication really helps. I still very much engage with myself as parts, both in an introspective "dealing with trauma" sort of way but also in fun silly ways like trying to figure out which alters prefer which songs in my playlist. And I also still do my nightly check-ins with myself and selves to see if there's anything I need to work on or work through, and also to just remind myself how much I love myself and selves.

I feel like a lot of people think that once you reach a certain point in integration and fusion, you stop interacting with your parts and just function as a fused whole with a singular self. And that's a way some people experience themselves. For myself, though, it's been a lot more meaningful to explore my sense of self as being both multiple and as a fused identity. It's not really that I'm one or the other, I'm... both at the same time? But also not really. It feels more like trying to describe my experiences with the words and vocabulary that currently exist isn't really going to capture the full picture. I'm not the same as a singlet doing parts work, but I'm also no longer a fragmented DID system who struggles with dissociation day to day (though I do admit, it does crop up every once in a while during high stress situations). I think I've just kinda reached a point where I'm just comfortable being "me", whatever "me" looks like.

Something something "secret third option" lol

[deltoradecay]

Being a system is... Interesting.

On one hand, I have companions and allies in my own mind, any time I need company.

On the other? I've had a person in cofront all day, laughing at me because I pulled a muscle in my shoulder.

Still. Wouldn't trade this for anything.

[the-moonjay-forest-system]

Grappling with the fact that I will likely never be truely seen by others, they will look at me but never see me, the real me. I wish I could say I didn't care, why should other people's especially strangers inner depictions of me bother me? For the most part I won't even know how someone really thinks of me anyway. But it hurts, there is an entire world inside of me that nobody will ever know of. And the creature they see before them is only the vessel of something so much more..

[quoth-the-raven-wtf]

I've blocked a lot of endos [I'm clustering tulpas in the same "origin category," btw], and I hope that they'll respectfully do the same in return when I post things like this. I will never be the first to interact with them, and more often than not I delete their comments from my posts and block them in order to keep myself from interacting in a pointless argument altogether.

That being said, I still want to put my thoughts out there.

Heads up, this is a long one. The rest is below the cut. Per usual, summarized points are highlighted in red for faster viewing.

I know for a fact that a majority of endos aren't claiming to have a CDD [complex dissociative disorder], which tends to be the main argument endos like to use in order to explain that they aren't invading OSDDID spaces or harming communities built for those who are disordered. That doesn't make their claims of being "plural" any less harmful to the CDD community. They are still claiming to have symptoms of dissociative disorders, which waters down the severity of the actual disorders themselves.

Being a system means having a fragmented identity [which is what alters are]. A fragmented identity is a disordered identity. A disordered identity is a disordered brain. Having parts is not typical, and endos claiming that it is possible to have alters without a disorder creates this misconception that plurality is completely normal to experience.

[Don't get me wrong, I'm also irritated by the perspective that everyone with OSDDID is constantly suffering and cannot experience any joy, or even enjoy being a system—because that view is just as uneducated as the endo one.]

Here's the thing—watering down the disorder isn't actually one that matters much to those outside of people who interact with the system sections of social media, because I guarantee you that most people don't even know what "endogenic" means. The issue with watering down symptoms of disorders that result in alters are how they harm actual systems. I've seen multiple systems on this app and even a few others on social media who claim to be endogenic, but talk about having other symptoms of CDDs and having childhood trauma that they don't consider severe enough to be "traumagenic." Seeing things like that is honestly heartbreaking. There are so many systems out there who are completely convinced that they simply can't have originated from trauma because "they weren't hurt badly enough."

It's bizarre to me that this is what the internet has come to.

Here's the thing; if there was actual evidence of endos and tulpas being fully, scientifically capable of existing, I wouldn't be so strongly against their claims. Hell, I've done research in my spare time to actually look for the supposed proof that endos say there is on the ability to be plural without a disorder, and I've reached countless dead ends. Masterlists of "endo-affirming resources" are either incredibly vague, non-credible, or take me straight to an error message [as in, the page has since been taken down]. Aside from those resources, the strongest argument I've seen is that "there's no proof that endos don't exist," which doesn't make any sense either. You could say that about anything you want to, despite currently existing evidence that already suggests your claim is nonsensical.

I am genuinely open to information that is credible, but so far, it just doesn't seem to exist. Anyone is welcome to share some with me, and I will truly approach them with an open mind; that doesn't mean I'm not going to point out lack of credibility when I see it.

In no way do I feel malice or hatred for systems who identify as endogenic, but I'm afraid that directly interacting with endos through areas of syscourse will, and has clearly already created bitterness. I refrain because of how hostile syscourse has gotten, and I encourage others who share my point of view to also keep the hostility to a minimum. I think everyone needs to be more open-minded—both endos and antis like myself. Unfortunately, that's only achievable in a perfect world.

[traumagenic-positivity]

i love systems so much!!

allo systems? love them!

aro-ace systems? love them!

straight systems? love them!

queer systems? love them!

poly systems? love them!

monogamous systems? love them!

systems who love their headmates? love them!

systems who hate their headmates? still love them!!

nonhuman systems? love them!

bpd systems? love them!

npd systems? love them!

aspd systems? love them!

ocd systems? love them!

hpd systems? love them!

all physically disabled systems? love them!!!!

all [otherwise] mentally disabled systems? love them!!

able bodied? love them

uses an uncommon term? so cool love it

i just love systems <3

[turtlesystem]

adding to this, some parts (like me) don’t really have as much access / have a harder time visualizing than other parts !

- arlo

i strongly suspect that your visual imagination (how well you can visualize an image in your mind) is directly correlated to how much of a headspace you have. This would give a reason for why headspaces vary so much, and why those with aphantasia (from what we’ve heard) tend to lack a headspace.

[ghxst-system]

"why do i react so negatively whenever this happens...?"

trauma holder: *sweating nervously hoping they dont get noticed in front*