#personal vent

[rottenandcutemaggots]

"you're so edgy" "I'm not like the other girls mentality 🥺"

fuck you, I was trying to communicate my feelings, fuck you

[liacademia]

probability and i had such an arc, we went from enemies to lovers fr, i love probability 😩

[rvttenangel]

IM SLOWLY LOSING THIGH FAT THIS IS MOTIVATING ME SO MUCH OMFG

[emerald-jade-tears]

when i don’t have attention this is what happens to me

(i hate it and i’m sick in the head)

(i most definitely am pms-ing)

(idc if i am oversharing)

[roseveilxx]

i wish i was as petite as a doll ⋆˚ 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ ❀

just imagine my (not real) man manhandling me with his strong calloused hands…

[liviawildrose]

𝐚 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐥𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫

tw:- mention of family drama, possibly a bit heavy on words

hi loves, i don’t even know where to begin, but i feel like i need to get this out. this month of january, hell, this past lifetime, has been heavy. there’s no other way to put it. some of you know bits and pieces of my story, but for those who don’t, let me lay it out a little.

my life in general has always been a rollercoaster of pain, heartbreak, and challenges that felt almost impossible to overcome. i’ve faced emotional and physical abuse, been compared, belittled, and manipulated by the very people who were supposed to uplift me. it’s been a journey of toxic relationships, broken trust, and trying to find my place in a world that feels like it’s constantly trying to push me down.

and yesterday? yesterday broke me in a way i didn’t even think was possible anymore. my dad. well, let’s just say he decided to remind us all of his “power” by throwing me, my mom, and my siblings out of our house. and he kept pushing me, my mom, my two siblings (a ten year old and a four year old) all because my mom refused to do what he told her to do (and why she refused? because apparently he cheated. yes my father cheated on my mom but he expects no consequences of his actions ‘what kills me is that he laughs during their argument’ that shows he has no remorse and infact he has the audacity to give example of other people who did it and their wife didn’t make a scene out of it) so i pushed him back the moment he pushed my mom and i screamed at him “you don’t have any shame for what you did and you don’t care either you just want us to be your servant” and guess what my mom slapped me. she slapped me for not letting that man i unfortunately have to call my father disrespect me or us and yeah he pushed us out. we were vulnerable and scared but something in me kept telling me i’ll rise from this too no matter what that i wont let this be the end of my story but i cried like i have cried a lot of times in january in general but yesterday one was brutal af. it felt like the final straw, like the universe was just testing how much i could take before i shattered completely.

but somehow, the storm passed. he called us back (after like five to ten minutes) and now we’re back at home, pretending things are okay. and maybe they are, for now. (my mom told me that he talked and now everything is fine) but the pain of what happened lingers, the reminder of how fragile things are. i journaled yesterday a lot trying to make myself calm down and i reminded myself that i should not let this moment break me but i should use this incident to motivate myself (use it as a fuel) to achieve the greatest possible success and happiness possible. it was really hard to fall asleep last night (man i can’t wait to take revenge on that man fr) but it’s all over now and i do feel motivated to get my things done and achieve all my goals and dreams.

and yet, in the middle of all this chaos, you were here. i woke up today to so many beautiful messages, people tagging me (especially @n1pp) and liking my posts, and reminding me that there’s still good in this world. that there’s love, support, and connection even in the darkest moments. you all are my little corner of peace in a world that feels so loud and cruel sometimes. you’re my safe space, my reason to keep going, and my proof that the universe can still be kind.

so thank you. for being here. for showing up. for reminding me that even when life feels unbearable, there’s still light. you are that light.

i don’t know what’s next for me. i’m still figuring it out, still healing, still trying to piece myself back together after everything life has thrown at me while trying to constantly push myself to build something that is unshakable (to build a wonderful life for myself and for the people i love) but one thing i know for sure? i wouldn’t be where i am without you. y’all make me wanna do better

thank you for seeing me, for supporting me, and for sticking around through all of this. i love you more than words can say.

forever grateful, your livia wildrose.

[burntreceipt]

A miserable anniversary. (And a Jayvik fanfiction)

One year ago, I was raped by one of my friends and it took me months to realize. I still struggle immensely with it and out of embarrassment, I've only told three people i know.

I used to be extremely hyper sexual before that and had been for almost 8 years since i was 11. Now I consider myself asexual considering the thought of having intercourse with anyone terrifies me.

However, late last year, I wrote this Viktor one shot as a way to fully write down and explore my relationship with my mental health as a form of fiction and I want to share this with anyone who might struggle with their mental health. Maybe it wasn't a good idea considering i couldn't sleep the following night because i kept seeing flashbacks of that man, but what's done is done i guess.

At first I was scared people would see it as unrealistic or a childish view of mental problems, but the ones who have commented have all thanked me for writing it and that in turn has helped me feel better about it.

Now, this has turned to me wanting to try to heal a fictional version of me who's more or less a copy of me and so I'm writing a followup fic with Jayce and Viktor where Jayce helps Viktor through his trauma.

I don't exactly know what I'm hoping to get out of this post, but if you've read so far please consider checking them out, especially if you like angsty slowburn (so slow the stove isn't even on as someone commented) with two idiots in love.

Thank you so much for your time.

[soul-doll2005]

Do I even Know You?

Today my brain was acting very weird, and my plans to make a more bigger illustration went to shit. So I made this, and also been a while seen I did a sona drawing (specially a vent drawing, at least public ones) Like making quick drawing today so I don't feel guilty for not doing anything with my art skills

[yoonginismobsessed]

Sae hasn't made an appearance in the manga for exactly 1027 days, 3 years, three months, and idk days.

I've noticed Sae stans appearing everywhere since season 2 was animated, unlike Sae who hasn't had an appearance in almost four years other than in Rin's traumatic flashbacks. I need to see my bbg again, maybe a panel of what he's doing in Spain or something. 💔💔

Me when I realize I haven't seen Sae appear in the manga for three years

My honest reaction when I finally see Sae's appearance on the manga again

[mycatownsmeforever]

Seeing what Musk did on national television during the U.S. Presidential Inauguration radicalized me all over again. This is completely unacceptable. As a country we cannot allow ourselves to be controlled by fascists' and fascist NAZIS at that?! Delete all of your Twitter accounts. Feel free to use my art above to post as your explanation. Leave this man with nothing but the angry mob that will come for him too eventually. Delete your META accounts too. Instagram, Facebook, and WhatsApp. They cannot use us for propaganda if we do not give them access. This is NOT the America that the world deserves. And I resent the men in power that allowed for the worlds richest turned white nationalist into the government system .

[zxloftt]

i keep getting reminders of my ex and my heart aches everytime probs gonna make an animation or drawing about it to make it hurt less

[sparkleprincess-33]

And the question is, did they not know or did they just not care until it got worse.

[rvttenangel]

what’s everyones fav halo top or favorite day ice cream, preferably favorite day cuz it looks good asf😭🙏

-tried favorite day smores flavor its FUCKING GOODDDD

[roseveilxx]

monday mood board ⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡

i had a horrible day i hate school sm guys

all from 📌

[girlsgonepostal]

babe why did you ignore me the entire day?? babe???