#derealization

[nyancrimew]

i think the funniest thing about living such a surreal life while having dissociative disorders is that shit sometimes starts feeling so profoundly unreal that im not exactly sure how to even explain to myself anymore what my life is, like this just feels like a weird cyberpunk tv drama im watching sometimes but like no girlie this is ur life

[thefluxsystem]

You know what the worst part of having a dissociative disorder is, for me personally?

The emotional amnesia.

Your entire life feels like something that you watched on TV, rather than something that you actually lived through.

You know that some of the most horrific things imaginable have happened to you, and you feel nothing about it. Sure, the memories disgust you on principle, but you don’t feel anything.

It makes you question if anything that you remember is real. If that actually happened, shouldn’t it feel significant? Shouldn’t you be sad, angry, hurt, something?

And to top it all off, nobody understands. Not even yourself.

[braaainwaaash]

[liminalfireside]

[xmortem09]

I just wanna rot away and dissolve into nothing.

[whimsydimsyheart]

"ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴀɴɴᴀ ɢᴏ ᴛᴏᴅᴀʏ?"

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𝗣𝗟𝗔𝗬▶ 𝗩𝗛𝗦

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𝘛𝘸:𝘋𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘪𝘻𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯.

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[luc1d-n1ghtm4res]

@sweatermuppet (art credit)

[softytothecore]

[brutalcomplex]

[slipknot-babe]

crazy but in a traumatized way

[ejgto]

[braaainwaaash]

[liminalfireside]

[moriintus]

Memories from my grandparent's yard.