#vent tw

[pwppydracula]

i just wish i wasn’t unlovable, this shit hurts so much idk if i can handle this anymore

[thecommunalfoolboy]

It’s crazy how many people just don’t understand why a lot of aro and or ace people don’t like that Alaster gets shipped. It’s not that hard to understand we don’t have a lot to let ourselves lose. I mean can you name 10 asexual characters? 5? Can you name two aro characters. There’s the guy from Archie who they made have a sex scene in a movie version. There’s a few books. I think a background character in Heartstopper? Do you see the theme here??? You’re all queer people, do you not get it? How it feels to have nothing? Is it so wrong to be upset that there’s finally an outwardly aroace person in popular media and instead of people embracing that they’re fighting on the internet about why it’s ok to ignore it? And I will never in my fucking life have anything against the people who are aro and or ace and portray him in THEIR experiences, even if it is a romance or sex favorable experience, but it is obvious that way too many of you guys are allo and it just leaves a bad taste in my mouth. I don’t even like him as a character that much, he isn’t even made by an aroace artist. The show isn’t even that fucking good, I just want to keep someone like me for once in my life. If there were a million other aroace characters I wouldn’t care, but it just hurts seeing erasure coming from my own community. It just sucks, man, I don’t know. It just sucks

[island-76]

It's so aggrivating seeing your health get worse while you're helpless to stop it

It's so aggrivating to have to adapt to brain fog when there was no fog a month ago

It's so aggrivating to deal with so much fatigue, when 2 years ago, you were so lively

It's so aggrivating to deal with all of this and find yourself slipping into anger more and more

To find yourself holding your tongue so you don't hurt those around you because you're tired and don't have the energy for it anymore

It's so unimaginably aggrivating

[citruscitrushope]

Also terfs trying to use pcos to push their ideas can fuck right off. Women with pcos's and transfems' experiences aren't exactly the same, but they're almost like a venn diagram. "It's truly something only biological women can understand" the woes over body hair? Body type? Voice? The constant feeling that you're not a "real girl"? The dysphoria? The disrespect from medical professionals? The feeling of otherness compared to other women?

You all claim "you can always tell", but go after women with pcos who don't shave. You scrutinize hormone treatments when they're key to helping us not have extremely painful periods or hate our bodies. You push rigid definitions of what it means to be a woman when being intersex throws all of them out of the window.

You're not for women, you're just against those who don't fit into your rigid gender binary and expectations.

[damagedcoda6669]

TW: CHILD ABUSE/NEGLECT

[cluster-b-culture-is]

Cluster b is hating Taylor swift for writing the line "you wouldn't survive the asylum they raised me in" and using electroconvulsive therapy imagery in her music video knowing full well her privileged ass hasn't actually gone through that like YOU have because YOU /WERE/ raised in a psych ward and /HAVE/ under gone electroconvulsive therapy and that's YOUR mental illness rep, not something for a privileged billionaire bitch to make an """""aesthetic"""""" out of.

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[green-alien-turdz]

ventin usin kyle again bcuz wtf else is new

tw; im hella suicidal rn, so this one is kinda grim. it sounds anti-recovery, but i am not. i am just very fucked up rn. warning for blood, sh scars, and implied suicide.

note: i feel i should say to not compare your struggles, scars, etc to what i draw. i dont aim to try n make people feel worse about themselves with these, i just want to vent. and if it helps someone feel less alone, then at least somethin good came from it.

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clearly i aint that serious. if i was id just take my dads gun offa his nightstand n get it over with. it sits right there. every time i put my parents to bed i catch myself just starin at it. but im a pussy. n i wanna see myself fade outta existence. one final fuck you to myself.

[can-of-pringles]

Random vent but I'm tired of people treating asexuality like it's a lesser orientation.. or assuming it's a phase

Even if someone realizes they're not ace there's usually a bit of relief in the feedback? Like why is realizing you're not ace viewed as 'omg thank goodness!' Like being ace is inherently bad.. 🤨

[errrr-vent-blog]

god gives his siilliest schizospecs the woorst days of theiir lives every siingle dayy non stop.

[pwppydracula]

damn it!! i hate being jealous!!!! i hate being so paranoid and anxious and overthinking everything!!!!!!!!!!

[b4st4rd-420]

[infamouslydorky]

Fucks me up jobs expect workers to show up despite wild circumstances. I remember at a former job having to traverse sub zero temperatures just to walk to my job because they refused to close the building. I remember having to work front line in covid as an immune compromised individual with no vaccine produced yet and when concerns were expressed, my superiors responded with "when workers get infected, these parts of the building will be closed". God forbid you lose a family member. You're expected to show up anyway.

Today my boss told me to contact an office to confirm if a doctor has his papers in order. I say: they won't pick up, and he asks why, to which I responded: THEY WERE IN DIRECT LINE OF MILTON, YOU KNOW, THE DEVISTATING HURRICANE PART 2?? WHY WOULD THEY PICK UP???

[heartfluttered]

i love bg3, and i love being in the fandom but also. i have never felt more alone as someone who also happens to be chinese like.

i don’t like cazador. i don’t think the majority of bg3 fans do. but the fact that i’ve never seen the same amount of grace given to cazador that is given to gortash or even raphael, by fans or in the game, just fucking hurts.

consider gortash and cazador: both gortash and cazador have been hurt, and choose to perpetuate this cycle of hurt. gortash is widely crushed on and shipped with durge. in game, karlach (gortash’s victim, no less) expresses sympathy when she realises what was done to gortash. nothing remotely resembling this sympathy is given to cazador, regardless of in game or in fandom.

i’ve always gotten upset seeing people hate on cazador without allowing space for nuance, and haven’t been able to explain why until now—

characters like raphael and gortash can be loved, regardless of / including all the atrocities they commit. they’re pined after, and shipped, and loved. anytime someone likes cazador, on the other hand, fingers are pointed and everyone goes ‘but he’s an abuser!!’

and that’s just it: cazador is just ‘the abuser’. hatred towards the only memorable asian character never goes challenged or questioned, because he was quite literally written to be the most evil, most abusive character of all.

yes, he’s a terrible person, yes, he’s an abuser, yes, asian people can be abusive just like every other person on earth. it’s understandable why one would hate him, because he’s literally written to be, but the fact that he’s the only asian character i can name in bg3 just really fucking hurts.

fans who love raphael (me included) or gortash (me not included) are much more likely to be ‘excused’ or accepted, whereas any fans who even express an ounce of love for cazador immediately get shut down. why do you think this is. think about the implications of the only memorable asian in the game being the most abusive and most evil. (no, asian side characters and npcs with two lines of dialogue don’t count. no, the one asian face option for tav also doesn’t count)

again, i love bg3, and its changed my fucking life, but its just deeply upsetting to me that this character was written specifically to be hateable with no room for grace or remorse or empathy. nobody questions the blind, pure hatred for him. nobody questions why this hatred isn’t expressed quite as strongly for literally any other evil white character in the game.

i’m not asking for people who sympathize with / relate to astarion’s storyline to like cazador at all— that’s not the point of all this. i’m not telling you which characters to like or dislike. but racist beliefs / predispositions / inclinations do not magically become less racist when the character of color in question is written to be abusive, not to mention the fact that he’s the only asian character in bg3 that i can even name or remember.

growing up, i’ve always wanted to see myself in the fantasy stories that i loved. i’ve given up hoping that i will, but i’m really sad and disappointed that the one character who remotely looks like me in this game that i love with my whole heart is just evil. not nuanced, not tragic, not even a fucking person to most fans or even the creators, regardless of his canon backstory and his morally wrong similarities to other characters that are loved like gortash and raphael.

i love this game and this community so much, but i just feel so . i don’t know, stupid? LMAO maybe i’m just reading too much into it, but i just feel terribly alone in feeling this way

[finsrcool]

I was thinking of recovery but my pe teacher straight up told me I was getting fat, and my cheeks were getting round and how I lost weight before and I was gaining it back.Thanks for the m€anspo.

[eldritch-metalhead]

sometimes I hate having no empathy because everyone talks like empathy is needed to be a decent person. it's not, you just need common sense. you don't need empathy to support Palestine, you don't need empathy to realise what's happening in the US rn is fucked up, etc, you need basic common sense and critical thinking skills. quit demonising those without empathy, thanks.

[five-thousand-loaves-of-bread]

honestly if you don’t create environment that allow AAC use in easiest most comfortable way possible for AAC user, n you not put in any fucking real effort in understand communication, effectively leave nonverbal person without functional communication, n they lash out “have behaviors” meltdown get physical n you get hurt in process, because you fucking annoying, that’s fucking on you you fucking deserve it

[this is a vent post. if you expect me be perfect well behaved you will not get that. your fault]