#cptsd culture is

[cptsd-character-showdown]

Hi!! I'm doing a character show down to find the most loved character with C-PTSD!

Submit your favourite C-PTSD character. Coded characters are totally cool and accepted!

[madeofbees]

i’m not even a person, i’m just a bunch of traumas stacked on top of each other in a trench coat made of fandoms.

personality ? me ? no no, that’s just season 4 of community. common mistake though !

[notesfrompanihida]

im a violent dog and i know exactly why i bite

[borderlineangel222]

i never felt loved by my family which is why i always searched for it in the worst places because when you’re about to die of thirst, even a drop of poison tastes like heaven.

[lostmf]

By @desnos

[interruptedsblog]

I'm so afraid of loneliness, all the time I'm looking for people who pay attention to me, all the time I'm flirting with someone who could be a possible partner and if I don't I look for them until I find them. I always end up sexualizing myself, creating a personality and way of being so that men look at me and desire me, my emotional stability is based on that, on how much attention I receive, but it is so sad to realize too late that they only see me as a "hole", as something disposable, abandonable and usable. In the end either way I end up being alone, feeling empty, abandoned and depressed.

[surrah698]

Pffft! 😅

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

“Winners don’t hit snooze” drop dead actually. Fucking die.

Winners don’t go around assuming everyone is just as privileged and healthy and well rested as them

Winners don’t shame others for whatever accommodations they might need to maintain a decent quality of life

Winners don’t act like pretentious ableist assholes in fact I’m pretty sure winners are perceptive open-minded kind and understanding. Idk

[sleeplessv0id]

[vxmited]

you ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎were ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎my ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎everything .

but , to‎ ‎ ‎ ‎you , ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎i‎ ‎ ‎ ‎was‎ ‎ ‎

nothing ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎more‎ ‎ ‎ ‎than‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ a

warm‎ ‎ ‎ ‎body.‎ ‎ ‎ ‎

yet‎ ‎ , ‎ ‎ i‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ still‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ love‎ ‎ ‎ ‎you‎ ‎ ‎ ‎,‎ ‎ ‎ ‎darling‎ ‎ ‎ ‎.

[icarusredwings]

I know we joke a bunch about mental health in the marvel and poolverine community esspecially with Wade but Im gonna share something super personal. Maybe someone will relate and feel less alone.

Tw: mental health episode.

Im native.

As a child I had very long thick lush hair.

Then it was shaved... by someone who didnt want to "deal with it"

It was also burnt off, fried off, chemically relaxed to the point of falling off, cut extremely short, and ripped out often.

I, now, as an adult struggle very very much with my hair. It never can grow very long and it makes me very upset. Like.. melt down upset.

I tried extentions this week hoping it would make me feel better but I couldn't even make it a full 24 hours with them in. They were nice dont get me wrong but they were very uncomfortable, they were too tight, they hurt my scalp when I tried to do any of my normal styles. It might just be me, because my head is very sensitive due to past injury but also mentally it was telling me it hurt even when it shouldn't.

Not physical voices telling me it hurt, rather then my pain receptors weren't working properly. I know this because my brain was claiming I was hurt even before they were fully glued in. I figured it was just the truama of other stylists burning my hair off at my scalp that was making my head scared and go into a panic mode. Maybe that was true. I don't know.

Well, tonight I wanted. No. I NEEDED them out. They hurt too badly and were pulling etc. Something about my mental health wasn't letting me enjoy what ive always wanted.

It was the longest ive had it as an adult recently, past my shoulders, but then I impuslively trimmed it because.. well I dont even know. I dont fucking know. But I just lopped a good 3 inches off to where it sat on my shoulders instead.

Well I just cut them out.

Riped them out.

All of the above.

I was told to wait and I couldn't. I just couldnt wait for the help. So I cut them out. I feel like, in retrospect this was obviously NOT the best thing to do. For OBVIOUS reasons. So now my hair is INCHES long instead of almost the entire foot of Length that I had. Its patchy, its short, Im literally crying right now trying to figure out how im going to fix this.

It dosn't feel right. It dosn't feel or look like how im supposed to look. I look like that kid who just walked out of the salon who is sobbing with a shitty lolipop in his hand and a bowlcut because thats the only thing my caregivers could handle.

As a man I wish we could stop this narriative of not caring what we look like and "oh its okay, boy hair is short"

I just want long pretty hair... without my brain panicing and causing more issues... is that too much to ask for?

My heart is broken. I really hate when im like this. When my brain is so mean to me that it sabotages my goals despite the YEARS of work ive put in oiling it, styling it, the routines, etc etc.

Im devastated.

I am literally crying on my bathroom floor because even without the extentions in my head STILL hurts. Like im getting PHYSICAL pain from how bad I feel about this. I just.. I can't. I can't.

I don't know what to do..

[madeofbees]

does anyone else lie awake crying through the wee hours of mid-night wondering why you aren’t good enough, why nobody rescued you, why nobody seemed to care, at least not enough to do anything, because nobody did, they left you there, and that will never not be true, there will never be a time when somebody cared enough about you—a child—to save you.

why your pain was okay but theirs was unacceptable, and your fault

what you did wrong to not be good enough, or to deserve a softer life, what karma is lurking in your past that you still have to make up for

how to be better

or is it just me ?

[psychabolition]

The Depathologization of Antisocial Personality Disorder (ASPD)

What Im thinking is - why reform psych labels that were made to stigmatize us?

I'd love to think of new labels that arent pathologizing us for how we deviate from neuronormativity (=what societally deemed 'normal' to think/feel/do depending on your assigned gender/age/socioeconomic status/...). To me this is important since the biomedical model tells us that we're at fault for our suffering while simultaneously justifying violence against us.

To me the new defining (depathologized) aspects of our neurodivergency (=deviation from neuronormativity) ASPD - could include:

Inherently at odds with any hierarchy in our society and everyone who enforces those hierarchies upon us youth discrimination - teachers/parents, classism and racism - police and judges, capitalism - your boss/financial "obligations", ...

Deciding for yourself what is morally right and wrong instead of letting societies norms(=what is legal or illegal for example) tell you whats morally right or wrong

Often targets of hierarchy enforcing and/or state sanctioned violence because we are deemed dangerous to the "social order" =psychiatric incarceration, prisons, patriarchal violence, youth discrimination - child abuse, queerphobia - bullying/social ostracization - at the same time having experienced this violence often leads to our way of thinking and acting.

We value our own pleasure and time above anything else and often cant be assed to do anything that we dont like - like work or studying or beaurocratic bullshit the state forces onto us or sitting still for 8h in school, not being able to pay attention to things that arent interesting to us, being insanely bored by capitalist society and its mundane routines, saying and doing what we want when we want it, not being bothered trying to organize our day according to how society wants us to, simply walking out on things we dont like - home, movies,relationships, class,too fancy weed store💀

Not obeying social norms because you dont understand them and/or because you think theyre stupid /having a hard time with social norms generally examples: norm deviating clothing/makeup/self expression, gender nonconformity, using words/phrases that are unusual, saying 'inappropriate' things never doing small talk, being very direct/always honest, often lying for no reason, asking 'inappriopriate' questions, not understanding/relating to the emotional states others have,hating routines/questioning rules/...

Often lack of trust/paranoid/only have a small circle of people who we trust since we've often been betrayed by friends/family/partners who didnt show solidarity in our struggles or norm deviation examples: someone obeying to what the biological nuclear family wants is suddenly more important than them being a loyal friend/sibling to you, amatonormativity -your friends leaving you in the dirt for their romantic interests, our 'friends' calling the cops on us when we have a mental breakdown or they talk to the cops bc they think they have a chance to have a lesser sentence when they tell on you, friends valuing male validation above friendship, when you need money/a place to stay your friends are not there for you, patriarchal violence in relationships, ...

Having a very hard time dealing with hierarchy enforcing/state sanctioned violence/defying social norms every day/not having a place in society /being ostracized low mood, suicidal and homicidal thoughts, explosive anger or constant irritability due to injustices we had to endure, drug addiction, self harm, alienation from others - dissociation, emptiness, having a hard time knowing who you are in a world where its hard to have access for words and frameworks of thinking to describe someone like you and your experiences (languange to describe your neurodivergency and/or queerness - like abrosexual/agender/asexual/demiromantic/polyamorous/...), sometimes replicating the violence that you had to endure - as a child bullying other children, fear of betrayal or abandonment or social ostracization happening again, psychosis, (pseudo)-hallucinations, panic attacks, nightmares, low self esteem, reacting in extreme and impulsive ways when feeling out of control/unsafe/weak

@mischiefmanifold you inspired me to do this lol

[botanical-garden-system]

Hey Y’all, we are making a new intro!

We are the Botanical Gardens System! We like using this platform to basically post whatever we please in the moment. Bodily we are 20 years of age, and we would prefer having minimal interactions with minors in any dm setting. This page is safe from NSFW posts and content, so it is safe for minors to interact with, but we would much rather private dms and conversations be with other adults.

Our spam reblog account would be @botanical-gardens-system

We have a blog where we share system related songs as well: @botanics-beats

That’s where we house all posts we reblog without additional text. Pretty much everything is system-related, but it can sometimes repost other stuff.

It is generally safe to use he/him as a collectively pronoun.

Fun facts about us:

We are working on a bachelor’s in psychology and want a master’s in nursing!

It is possible we will try to become a psychology professor whilst being a PMHNP (psychiatric mental health nurse practitioner).

Since we are so big in psychology, our entire account is more psychological-science oriented to better understand our personal experiences.

We love sushi and fish in general as it is our favorite food.

A lot of us are generally agender, asexual, and aromatic, but we do have some alters who are pansexual and/or are a separate gender. Generally we are transmasc-neutral.

We are currently in a happy relationship right now!

We are traumagenic and have a headcount of at least 10-12 now.

If there are any other adult systems that would like to interact, I would be happy too!

DNI Criteria:

There is none. DNIs are kinda useless and instead I will just block you if I don’t feel like I want to interact with you, and feel free to block me if you think I am violating any of your DNI. I never check DNIs really and I’m sure not many check mine. Just please don’t be a dick.

Please just understand I do not care about syscourse. I think it is a useless argument and it’s very frustrating to know it encompasses a good 50-70% of all content I see on here. I can’t pass a post without seeing some kind of syscourse related tag, even if it never features it in the conversation of the post.

[shcultureis3]

Sh + cptsd culture is genuinley feeling happy after a satisfying sesh bc you went deep enough and drew enough blood. Not even knowing why you think this way. But how can this be so bad when it makes you so pretty and happy? I dont think i could ever stop for anyone, sorryy

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[surrah698]