#generational truama

[lostmf]

By 11 shit was already fucked up

So I would be still 5 I guess

[desirableoneday]

I used to be afraid of death.

But when my mother's words bite into my flesh and I can feel her head shaking- tearing in with intent...

I wonder if she’d miss me.

[its3-15am]

"How much strength does it take to hurt a little girl? How much strength does it take for the girl to get over it? Which one of them do you think is stronger?"

Fiona Apple on her rapist (Spin Magazine 1997)

[wolf-twins-inc]

Haven't posted in awhile, so here's one if my recent shorts, Enjoy

[sk3let0rz]

If there is no god to condemn me, I will create one and he will have my face. If there is no hell waiting for me after death, I will construct one here and call it home. The true terror is not in a coming judgement day. The true terror is that there is no judgement day. You will be loved and happy and your sins will go unpunished. This is as it should be. Punishment is a man made construct so we don’t have to forgive ourselves.

[lostmf]

I was supposed to be an apportion

Why am I alive !!

My life was supposed to end at 16

Idk what im doing now

[void-hippie]

Anyone else cope with trauma by making shitty album covers, hoping to use them someday?

[dangerouslyfurrydragon]

You deserve everything your heart desires.

[enigmatic-97]

STOP!!!

[lostmf]

[desirableoneday]

I genuinely want to know why- I feel like it’d be better if I killed myself.

So that we’d never have to fight- and I’d never give you a reason to be angry with me anymore.

[its3-15am]

"My whole life has been spent trying to escape a house on fire and it seems that every door I go to is still can't find an exit"

"My father is my immediate reflection. Our mental states feed off of each other like parasites and he can't seem to realize his faults."

"How can I learn to live in the existence of myself? I can always survive alone with my sorrows but the agonizing weight of happiness is too much to bear alone"

-I suffocate with these weights on my back. I can no longer breathe and my father is pushing me further and further beneath the water screaming at me to swim. My mother is terrified and my sister turns the other way. I'm tired and my bed has become my grave that I rot in each night trying to escape from the past that haunts me. Trauma that taunts me. And the illness that never seems to stop agonizing me. Prozac. Lexapro. Lithium. Depakote. Zyprexa. Nothing works. Nothing fixes. Three doctors. Two shrinks and a morgue that plagues My head with dead bodies and corpses.

[meadowsystem]

Not intending to shit on the OP at all. I think at times this quote works.

I feel like this quote is incredibly ableist and privileged.

Life is hard. Life is not only hard but people are not nice. Privileged, ablist, sexist, racist, close minded, greedy, ignorant, generational trauma ... including so many others that have led many of us to fail regardless. So much so that many people are unable to do anything to better the situation because of how the world is.

Many things in itself can be very stressful and it can be just the facts itself. Life has handed me many issues to cause stress, like not having enough money when you cannot do anything to fix it. The system wants the rich to stay rich and the poor to stay poor. We are not fighting together for a better life, some of us unfortunately get the short end of the stick.

Life can cause you stress. But sometimes all you can do is nothing ... but once life has shown you that the barrier isn't fixable you work towards not feeding the stresser with more stress since you can't do anything about it anyways.

Honestly it can be easier at times to overcome the added stress, but often it isn't easy. infact it can be some of the most difficult thing to go through.

[sinxerlyri]

To hold your children back, simply because "what will people say" is the tragedy that no one will take accountability of but will forever be the victim..

_ Raconteur's Muse

[monstrumpuella]

[8cfc00]

thinking about the normal fun fact last ep- that the oak swallows garcia household is a shoes on in the house house cuz of oakvale tradition

and it kind of struck me because its just another way in which the oak family hasnt changed as much as the others. they still uphold oak tradition (eg. still vegan), esp. in contrast to the other families, who have changed their vibe quite a bit (even the wilsons: linc isnt catholic)

Just. very interesting considering the themes of the oaks- like the burdens being passed down thru blood (the literal doodler static), the very strong family resemblance between all of em.... ofc theyre the family who maintains the customs of past generations