#tw dysmorphia

[foxless]

i really wish there was more positive representation of short men, like actually short men. like 5’3 and under. 5’0 and under.

i wish we had more representation of us as masculine, as attractive, as desirable; representation that doesnt force us into a submissive, infantilized, or hotheaded role.

it is so hard for me to ever imagine that i will be taken seriously or seen as manly because of my height. it is so fucking frustrating. i know i deserve to be happy with myself, but without representation its hard to even know what that might look like. if its even possible.

[bugsb1te]

i dream of long sharp teeth, i dream of a maw with black gums, dripping with saliva. i lie awake and wish for rough paws, that can carry me as fast as they'll go, i lie awake and wish for a cold, wet, black nose that can detect sickness and disease. i hope for the day this dysphoria leaves me, and i can finally be at peace. i do wonder what it would feel like to be a dog, but why do i need to wonder this if i am a dog? am i not a 'real' dog? im my own dog, im a dog in human flesh, with the mind of an animal. an angry, scared, and hungry animal. i wish for the ability to destroy bones with my teeth alone. i wish to be able to eat raw meat without being repulsed by it. i wish my human instinct would disappear. i wish i could transform into a dog whenever i felt like it. but i cant. im stuck. im stuck with a soul that isn't mine and im stuck with a body that'll never change.

[endless-v0id]

I hate being human

I hate not having paws

No tail

No pointy, fluffy ears

No sharp teeth

Just human hands

Human fingers

Human legs

Human face

I don't ever recognize myself in the mirror

Because when I look in the mirror, a human stares back.

[icarusredwings]

I know we joke a bunch about mental health in the marvel and poolverine community esspecially with Wade but Im gonna share something super personal. Maybe someone will relate and feel less alone.

Tw: mental health episode.

Im native.

As a child I had very long thick lush hair.

Then it was shaved... by someone who didnt want to "deal with it"

It was also burnt off, fried off, chemically relaxed to the point of falling off, cut extremely short, and ripped out often.

I, now, as an adult struggle very very much with my hair. It never can grow very long and it makes me very upset. Like.. melt down upset.

I tried extentions this week hoping it would make me feel better but I couldn't even make it a full 24 hours with them in. They were nice dont get me wrong but they were very uncomfortable, they were too tight, they hurt my scalp when I tried to do any of my normal styles. It might just be me, because my head is very sensitive due to past injury but also mentally it was telling me it hurt even when it shouldn't.

Not physical voices telling me it hurt, rather then my pain receptors weren't working properly. I know this because my brain was claiming I was hurt even before they were fully glued in. I figured it was just the truama of other stylists burning my hair off at my scalp that was making my head scared and go into a panic mode. Maybe that was true. I don't know.

Well, tonight I wanted. No. I NEEDED them out. They hurt too badly and were pulling etc. Something about my mental health wasn't letting me enjoy what ive always wanted.

It was the longest ive had it as an adult recently, past my shoulders, but then I impuslively trimmed it because.. well I dont even know. I dont fucking know. But I just lopped a good 3 inches off to where it sat on my shoulders instead.

Well I just cut them out.

Riped them out.

All of the above.

I was told to wait and I couldn't. I just couldnt wait for the help. So I cut them out. I feel like, in retrospect this was obviously NOT the best thing to do. For OBVIOUS reasons. So now my hair is INCHES long instead of almost the entire foot of Length that I had. Its patchy, its short, Im literally crying right now trying to figure out how im going to fix this.

It dosn't feel right. It dosn't feel or look like how im supposed to look. I look like that kid who just walked out of the salon who is sobbing with a shitty lolipop in his hand and a bowlcut because thats the only thing my caregivers could handle.

As a man I wish we could stop this narriative of not caring what we look like and "oh its okay, boy hair is short"

I just want long pretty hair... without my brain panicing and causing more issues... is that too much to ask for?

My heart is broken. I really hate when im like this. When my brain is so mean to me that it sabotages my goals despite the YEARS of work ive put in oiling it, styling it, the routines, etc etc.

Im devastated.

I am literally crying on my bathroom floor because even without the extentions in my head STILL hurts. Like im getting PHYSICAL pain from how bad I feel about this. I just.. I can't. I can't.

I don't know what to do..

[girlmachinezeph]

Another day of waking up and staying under blankets as long as possible to try and ignore how made of flesh I am, only to fail and feel me puppet my hand and feet with writhing ropes underneath chewy fat and layers of skin. Some days waking up as robotkin can only be described as body horror.

[tumble-tv]

My medications make it extremely hard to lose weight and extremely easy to gain it. It's not like I can just diet and work out to drop 30 lbs. It takes so much longer than you'd ever think. Gaining weight, on the other hand? No problem. I took gabapentin for one month, ONE MONTH, this past summer and gained 30 lbs like that. I can't get rid of it. I hate it.

[tothepointofinsanity]

You know you can’t do that until you look at yourself.

[discord-emote-customs]

hello it is gillipop from the discord realm /silly

could you do the age euphoria/dysphoria emojis but with cats and "species" euphoria/dysphoria?

like so many versions jumpscare (this is gonna be a nightmare to add to my done list in my pinned T^T

heres some species (cat & dog) dysphoria/eurphoria & dysmporphia ^^ will do system emotes and gender dysphoria later and will link this post when i do ^^

[hotteststar]

another poem bcs why not?

THAT'S WHAT THEY CALL IT

dysphoria, they call it,

but i think it's an empty name.

when you read it, you don't feel

all the pain that lives behind it.

you don't feel the pain in your chest,

you can't know how much it hurts.

you know nothing about the confusion

that that name can unleash in our hearts.

tell me, do you ever look in the mirror

and see a wrong version of you?

like you wish you were more androgynous,

but still say it's nothing.

you are what's between your legs,

nothing more, nothing less.

you can't change it and you can't switch.

you were born that way, that's it.

and then you start wondering

what it could be like

to be who you truly are, to be born again,

but in the right body this time.

to feel good when you look at your hands,

not to be scared of changing your clothes,

to be able to look at your groin without

that feeling, that lump in your throat.

i was born wrong.

i was born in a body that i don't feel mine.

i was born through a mistake.

i was born, but i don't feel alive.

i watch other people;

they are something i'll never be.

they are confident, strong.

they are so right; they are nothing like me.

'cause i'm wrong.

i am, i know it now; i can try to change it,

but that's still the truth,

even if i lie to myself and everybody else,

i still live in a body that i

don't recognize as mine.

[ezbecomestiny]

This is what I get when I look in the mirror

[chnhrobin]

how grateful i am for people who think i’m beautiful even when i look my worst and have nothing but hate to give to my face, body, and being. for someone who sees me with eyes wholly unlike mine, that are full of wonder, and not weighed down with the years of abuse given to me by myself and others. your perspective is everything to me. it’s given me the strength to live out every day. it’s profound, unselfish, and sacred love.

thank you.

[nathaaaan]

do you ever just… want to be the opposite gender?

do you ever look at the them and think;

“I wish I could look like that.”

“I wish I could sound like that.”

“I wish I could be like that.”

I hate this feeling.

This feeling of dysphoria. Dysmorphia. Gender dysphoria. Body dysmorphia. It just seems to get worse and worse every day. I genuinely don’t know how to make it go away.

I’ve been told “You are a [gender].” and “Stop trying to dress/act like a [gender].” so many times. So many times. Sometimes I feel like the world is trying to taunt me. That I can’t be that and I know it, because that’s what I was taught.

You can’t change your biology.

These thoughts plague my mind throughout the day, just randomly when I’m looking in the general direction of other people.

I don’t know if anyone who is trans, or is thinking about transitioning, or just… not trans and thought about it once/haven’t thought about it once is reading this (I don’t wanna call you cis gender ngl), but could you like… explain this to me?

How do you get rid of this feeling?

[spectatorglitch]

It’s a good day, sun is shining, birds are chirping, dysphoria is taking a break then I look down and see that my chest completely blocks my feet from view

[barflovski]

Kyle’s perception of himself compared to Stan’s perception of Kyle

[tumble-tv]

Maybe in another universe, I would be a real boy and not vomit in my mouth when I see myself in the mirror.

[this-hopeless-war]

when the dysmorphia hits and suddenly I have 0 clue what I actually look like and why are those not my arms and like my face is not my face or maybe it is???