#dysphoria vent

[salamanding]

quick little art about dysmorphia and how i don’t know what i look like

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

I love that being true to myself also feels like betraying myself haha just kidding I fucking hate it so much

[thelensart]

One of the most genuinely painful things you discover when transitioning, one that's been striking me a lot lately, is that "acceptance" is mostly reserved for you if you can pass and be conventionally beautiful. When you can't, a lot of people don't make the effort, and don't want you in their spaces. You realize that, even in accepting spaces, folks will regard some transitions as "impressive" or "successful", and will be real quiet about you. You'll have to play it male if you want to get hired at a job. Of course, conditional acceptance isn't really acceptance. At least for me, it made me quite cynical; made me avoid a lot of social interaction.

Good part? I'd rather be an uncomfortable "oh", a free ticket freak show on a train, than just a normal non-assuming guy. I've never been happier with my body, and, with time, you learn to love being a weirdo, because, if that's mostly the kind of acceptance that's reserved for trans people, then I don't wanna fit in.

[sillycatt8]

this. it’s not ‘feeling insecure’ it can send me into a panic attack and it will sometimes make me want to harm myself.

[fefairys]

it’s just so difficult for me because i am SUCH a pretty girl. i look SO good as a girl i have such a pretty feminine face and nice boobs and a cute feminine voice and laugh and i feel confident when i present femininely but on the inside i am not a woman. i am not a girl. i feel trapped inside this body that does not represent me. and i feel like changing it to try and represent me would be ruining something beautiful. i want to be beautiful and pretty the way men are. i want to be a feminine man but i will always always always be seen as a woman in this body if i present femininely.

[soullessjack]

who else does this 😂

[organicclown]

why couldnt i be cis? everything sucks and being born wrong isnt helping

[augustraccoon]

I can't be the only person that has actually considered slicing off their breasts with a knife, can I???

[unkownknowledge]

Criminal that I do not has boobs nor someone to cuddle against them

[karl-marxs-lil-pogchamp]

Something I don't understand is how other AFAB people can just be so blasé about periods. Like, doesn't it depress you guys? Knowing that you're doomed to suffer silently, dozens of times a year for almost the rest of your life? Just because you were born a certain way? How can people be normal about that? I practically (not quite, but almost) go through a whole dang depressive episode every month, I'm literally going through one now.

How do y'all do it? /gen

[salamanding]

Art about dysphoria

[sadghostgirl14]

[meloodium]

I hate the way my voice sounds I hate the way my body looks I hate talking to people I hate compliments I hate that people love me I hate that I want love I hate myself

[flowers-but-gay]

dysphoria kicking my ass lmao. wish i had gender

[m3l4nch0ly-h1ll]

Sometimes I wonder if maybe I'm faking being trans. Maybe I misinterpreted something in my past. Maybe I missed something.

But I don't want to be a woman in any aspect. Feminine, masculine, androgynous, whatever. I like female aesthetics, but not on myself. Not for myself. I don't enjoy being a woman in any form.

But what if I'm just experiencing internal misogyny and can't realize it? What if I'm just a masculine/androgynous woman?

My discomfort in being a woman doesn't stem from trauma or believing in misogyny. (ie. Women can be strong, but I don't want to be strong as a woman. Sure, it's cool and a get-back at men, but as much as I tried enjoying being a woman in any form, I couldn't.)

Only time will tell.

[rashoumon-homo]

PSA: If you post bsd x reader content that explicitly describes the reader as female (esp. smut) and you DON’T mark it as:

fem reader / fem!reader

f!reader

female reader

or anything like that

I AM STEALING YOUR FUCKING KNEECAPS

Pls god I’ve put every warning I can think of in the tag and content filters but some people just straight up don’t mention it and suddenly “breast” “princess” “girl” etc and I recoil into myself like a snail who just got its eyes poked.

(This goes for any x reader content tbh, I just mention bsd in particular because that’s where I’ve had the most issue.)

Remember: female is not the default!!