#dysphoria vent

[salamanding]

quick little art about dysmorphia and how i don’t know what i look like

[karl-marxs-lil-pogchamp]

goddamn being biologically female really is like a lifetime prison sentence without a chance for parole isn't it

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

I love that being true to myself also feels like betraying myself haha just kidding I fucking hate it so much

[thelensart]

One of the most genuinely painful things you discover when transitioning, one that's been striking me a lot lately, is that "acceptance" is mostly reserved for you if you can pass and be conventionally beautiful. When you can't, a lot of people don't make the effort, and don't want you in their spaces. You realize that, even in accepting spaces, folks will regard some transitions as "impressive" or "successful", and will be real quiet about you. You'll have to play it male if you want to get hired at a job. Of course, conditional acceptance isn't really acceptance. At least for me, it made me quite cynical; made me avoid a lot of social interaction.

Good part? I'd rather be an uncomfortable "oh", a free ticket freak show on a train, than just a normal non-assuming guy. I've never been happier with my body, and, with time, you learn to love being a weirdo, because, if that's mostly the kind of acceptance that's reserved for trans people, then I don't wanna fit in.

[sillycatt8]

this. it’s not ‘feeling insecure’ it can send me into a panic attack and it will sometimes make me want to harm myself.

[benshapirosbignaturals]

does anyone else feel they were robbed a boyhood? i wanted to play footboll with other boys, stay up super late and secretly talk about the girls we like at sleepovers, ride out bikes around during summer. Eating chips as we watch movies we're not supposed to. but i never got that. all i got was being a lonely fat girl who's too masculine and weird for either group

[fefairys]

it’s just so difficult for me because i am SUCH a pretty girl. i look SO good as a girl i have such a pretty feminine face and nice boobs and a cute feminine voice and laugh and i feel confident when i present femininely but on the inside i am not a woman. i am not a girl. i feel trapped inside this body that does not represent me. and i feel like changing it to try and represent me would be ruining something beautiful. i want to be beautiful and pretty the way men are. i want to be a feminine man but i will always always always be seen as a woman in this body if i present femininely.

[organicclown]

why couldnt i be cis? everything sucks and being born wrong isnt helping

[augustraccoon]

I can't be the only person that has actually considered slicing off their breasts with a knife, can I???

[unkownknowledge]

Criminal that I do not has boobs nor someone to cuddle against them

[salamanding]

Art about dysphoria

[unlovablecreatureofsin]

You know you’re ugly when you tell ppl you think ur unattractive and they say “It’s not about looks” or “you’re beautiful the way you are”

bonus points if they mention your “amazing personality”

[karl-marxs-lil-pogchamp]

Something I don't understand is how other AFAB people can just be so blasé about periods. Like, doesn't it depress you guys? Knowing that you're doomed to suffer silently, dozens of times a year for almost the rest of your life? Just because you were born a certain way? How can people be normal about that? I practically (not quite, but almost) go through a whole dang depressive episode every month, I'm literally going through one now.

How do y'all do it? /gen

[soullessjack]

who else does this 😂

[sadghostgirl14]

[flowers-but-gay]

dysphoria kicking my ass lmao. wish i had gender