#did culture

[mentallystrawberry]

when you’re under a ton of stress then start to notice your memory worsen, your headaches becoming more frequent, and communication going nonexistent…

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

I love that being true to myself also feels like betraying myself haha just kidding I fucking hate it so much

[comorbidpersonalitydisorders]

comorbid personality disorder + c-did culture is "why did symptoms of [disorder] suddenly intensif- oh its you" (symptom holder fragment has entered the front room)

MOOD

[orbitposting]

Hello, I was wondering if u could tell me more about the DID youtube stuff and the stuff with DissociaDID, I don't know a lick of any of that, I've only rlly watched The Entropy System, The Rings System and some of DissociaDID's educational videos fairly recently (still new to the online OSDDID community in general), all I've heard is that DissociaDID is anti-endo?

(I use DissociaDID to refer to the system as a whole. They don't have another updated system name that I am aware of.)

Hi, two people brought up something like this in my inbox, and it's worth clarifying. My point was unclear, and I'll do my best to clarify now. In my eyes, DissociaDID has come under a lot of scrunity for concerns that are valid but overblown, standards that others are not held to, ableism/fakeclaiming, and sometimes claims that are bordering on conspiracy. Unfortunately, I was pretty up-to-date on the situation, so I'll make an outline of things people were upset about.

Outdated

- Using racial terms to describe a darker-skinned alter, Nadia, when the body is white. Of my knowledge, this has not happened since. (I am white, so I can't police if you forgive them or not. This is just context.)

- Engagement with Team Piñata*. They're no longer together. End of.

- Overstating their qualifications. DissociaDID no longer states any qualifications other than being a system that does research, basically. Before, it sounded almost like they were claiming to be a mental health professional.

- They partnered with BetterHelp** at one point. They never gave a statement, but they haven't promoted it since.

Disproven/Clarified

- DissociaDID has used *very* outdated studies to support points in their older videos. This is frowned upon in scientific research, where sources become less accurate very quickly (Rule of thumb is use studies no greater than 20 years old). DissociaDID has previously referenced a study from 1902, at worst.

- Many criticise DissociaDID for coming back to YouTube just when their monetization is about to run out.

- Can handle criticism very poorly at times, which people took an issue with, especially when they were proporting themselves as mental health experts.

- Brought a flood of people to the DID community, negative attention included. Many DID YouTubers stopped posting due to the negative attention the DID community received. DissociaDID did not personally cause this, as far as I can tell.

- Diagnosis at Pottergate Center: Even if that diagnosis wasn't valid, they were also diagnosed through the NHS. (Diagnosis is sometimes referred to in ways other than pencil-and-paper diagnosis, too.)

Not sure, but hasn't come up

- Treatment of various friends in the DID community such as Bobo & Co.

General dislike (Up to you)

- Many say they are "sensationalizing" DID, due to their florid presentation (This may also be paired with fakeclaiming)

- Mara's TikTok has come under fire for posting more suggestive content. Soren stands by her right to do so, and checks it before it is posted.

Borderline conspiracy and fakeclaiming

- One system member interacted with a minor on a livestream in a somewhat suggestive manner. (Their account says minors DNI, but people argue they should have been more mindful.)

- Many people get an odd vibe from their content, since it is so polished, and argue that it doesn't reflect the reality of DID since it's so pristine.

- Some find it very odd that they advertise their Patreon with having BTS footage of them dissociating/switching.

- Some people allege DissociaDID made up her alters after reading a certain book regarding programming. Some roles/alter names/inner world details lined up.

*Team Piñata was exposed for drawing minors in inappropriate situations and possibly doing commissions of this content.

- Since DissociaDID has previously mentioned RAMCOA (or a similar term), people who believe that that phrasing is antisemitic, conspiritorial, and/or completely fake don't believe that she is a valid source of DID information

- DissociaDID has been accused of copying their trauma from other systems. The foundation of this theory rests on them malingering DID.

- (Outdated also) People used to theorize Team Piñata and DissociaDID never broke up. It has been a long time since then, and DissociaDID doesn't even mention them by name anymore.

- DissociaDID has been fighting a court battle since 2020 or so and has linked to their CrowdJustice page for a while. People theorized that they were taking the money for themselves instead. DissociaDID has stated that the funds go directly to lawyers and never enter their hands.

**BetterHelp has been criticized for its lack of quality control, especially surrounding uncertified "therapists" to conduct therapy through their service and the unprofessional behavior of therapists using the service.

So that's what I can recall at the moment. Five of the issues are up to personal opinion. Personally, I think DissociaDID has had problems but has a magnifying glass on their behavior for years. If you don't like them, please just leave them alone.

[maladaptivedaydreamingculture]

Maladaptive Daydream Culture + Plural culture is “Was that someone talking or a daydream?”

[ndcultureis]

ND culture is being diagnosed with 4 different ND disorders and they all clash with each other at different times and a symptom of one disorder triggering your others, making you suffer worse (for me, autism, DID, ADHD and BPD)

.

[echoes-in-the-multiverse]

Learning about our Dissociative Identities: Through Oliver's eyes.

Personal Post.

Written by Olive to convey the thoughts and stories of Oliver. However, this is Oliver's personal experience about how he felt being told about other dissociative identities/being a system.

Trigger warnings: Metaphors that relate to water/dr*wning and larva. Mentions of deeper fears. The term Ab*ser is used.

Our Journey has been a long one. Even though I do not remember it all, I do remember when I finally was able to take in the knowledge that had been previously said to the system, by doctors, therapists, and counsellors. Still, I had forgotten as a way to protect my part of ourselves. The knowledge that we were dissociative identities. 

It sounded unimaginable for the first few moments and felt as if you were somehow drowning in the sand, but it slowly began to drip feed into the fear I had brewing inside me for as long as I could remember. The fear that I would one day be replaced and no one would notice because I was missing so much of my life. Being told other parts could take executive control of my body made this fear true, but then developed into the idea of what if I never came back. What would stop them from doing that? I could not tell if my conscious moments would suddenly be taken from me by any small or large trigger and how could I tell if now was even reality or if some part of my brain was painting the illusion that I knew who I was?

Then came a wave of guilt, the feeling that I had hurt others because I “allowed” my past trauma to continue and permanently hurt me. That I was causing others to suffer because I had to live in such a tight routine to get through the day without distress and to prevent more trauma or in some cases convince myself I would be more safe. I panicked because I feared that revealing what happened to us might somehow lead to more harm. I didn't know what the doctors knew or how they reached their conclusions, so I was afraid it could be used against me. To call me dramatic, a liar, or to inform the abusers and start the cycle all over again. Even though there was no reason for them to tell the abusers, the mere act of talking about it made me fear that they could somehow find out. 

In the aftermath washed up to shore the deep internal feeling of disgust. It felt as if inside of me lived thousands of maggots crawling just under my skin. Or the feeling that trauma and pain was forever stained on my body and I would never be cleansed. I felt broken, distraught at the idea that parts of me were missing and meant I was lacking parts to my individual because others had them, like others had memories of what I thought was me. 

But it was also a relief. It told me that my suffering wasn't normal, that this is not going to be the way I live my whole life because it's not meant to be this way, suffering every day is not normal. There is a solution because there is a problem. And now that I knew I could get better, I knew briefly what was wrong and that there are people specialised to help, I had a chance again to be able to live and cooperate with the other parts. To feel that in this game of life I was finally a playable character, even if not as player 1 as I assumed I would be, but player 1 had a chance to exist through us together as a whole.

Our blog is to help others learn about Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) but also share the ways we have dealt with the weight of this disorder in hopes it can help more people.

Trigger warnings: Metaphors that relate to water/dr*wning and larva. Mentions of deeper fears. The term Ab*ser is used.

Written by Olive to convey the thoughts and stories of Oliver. However, this is Oliver's personal experience about how he felt being told about other dissociative identities/being a system.

Personal Post.

[lifexxxdeath]

DID culture is growing up being labeled a pathological liar and "always remembering things wrong". That's why, for us personally, being in love is so hard.

Anytime we don't remember a situation and it's being relayed, it's always a fear that we're being gaslit about the situation.

When our feelings or experiences aren't believed, it throws us into a spiral of denial and reminds us of a lot of trauma based around that.

It really does suck.

[charliefromthesaturnsytem]

Hope everyone has a good day :)

[just-paradox-things]

"Oh wow, we had a night that was blurry and switchy. Maybe the system dead period is over!" Nope. Right back to just me and a vague puff of smoke that has Dave's vibes.

[mentallystrawberry]

Shout out to the other chronically mentally ill systems who’s disorders and traumas have severely impacted your quality of life and functioning

shout out to polyfragmented or complex and highly complex did systems

shout out to the systems who are RAMCOA survivors, childhood sexual abuse survivors, or childhood torture survivors

shout out to systems diagnosed with other comorbid mental disorders

shout out specifically to systems with BPD🫂

shout out to systems who have lost relationships with people because of your mental health

shout out to the systems struggling with substance abuse issues or addiction

shout out to the systems who’ve been in and out of mental hospitals

shout out to fellow black systems and other poc systems with many intersecting marginalized identities

shout out to systems who can’t attend in real life school or are graduating late due to their mental health

shout out to the systems who can’t get a job or a drivers license

shout out to the systems who lost their childhood and teenage years due to constant mental health struggles

shout out to systems who have to take multiple medications for their disorders

shout out to the lonely systems who can hardly ever leave their homes and build friendships

shout out to the systems that struggle with the scars their sh addictions leave

shout out to systems who can’t take care of themselves without needing support

try to keep in mind that you are not the average persons, so we shouldn’t expect ourselves to be able to function just like the average person would. know you are all loved and are trying your best to navigate a society that wasn’t designed with poc and disabled or neurodivergent people in mind. i wish you systems the bestest recovery possible and i’m sending much love and support.

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

Tysm for any engagement, I’m really curious about different experiences so feel free to explain why a certain one feels right for you!

[devilbimboy]

did culture is having a bad dissociative episode where you feel like nothing is real and you can’t live in the moment, so you end up staring at your friend’s eagle statue during their graduation party cuz what else can you do? You feel the world get all fuzzy and not being able to have fun normally is getting to you. Though, you can’t feel anything because you’re so detached from the world right now.

[murruspins]

What does pro edogenic means????

An endogenic system is a system that was formed without trauma/wasn’t formed by trauma.

Someone who is "pro endogenic" is someone who supports these people

PS: we am not endogenic, we are traumagenic ! Traumagenic = A system formed by trauma

[orbitposting]

DID denial is funny because it gets fueled by "Oh, I couldn't have done that, I don't understand why I'd do that. I don't connect to that experience at all." But having evidence that you did do it AKA The DID Experience™️

[catuspgallus]

System culture this system culture that

System culture is not being able to find the goddamn TV remote