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NPD jealousy is so insane to me. Why am I blocking people for liking the same thing as me and getting unreasonably mad when they get more attention on that thing than me.

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Nevermind I got attention :D

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My supply is getting so low. No one is paying attention to me, I feel like I'm dying.

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Because we have to talk in code about this on tiktok, I'm here to help spread some helpful tips to all my American anti-fascists out here who may need it. If you see police car that looks like this, (predominant blue stripe),

This is an ICE car. They are out and about right now hunting down immigrants, legal and illegal.

If you see them- or really, any police car- lurking, scream at the top of your lungs.

"La Migra"

Help save a family.

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Give me your attention before I kill myself.

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Fuck. You say not to demonize narcs, while having npd, but the moment I show even the slightest hint of narcissism I'm the bad person. Fuck. I can't take this.

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Reply to me reply to me reply to me reply to me reply to me reply to me reply to me reply to me reply to me reply to me reply to me reply to me reply to me reply to me reply to me reply to me reply to me reply to me reply to me reply to me. Fucking reply to me.

What is fucking wrong with you, why won't you fucking reply?? Am I not good enough for you?? Do you even love me?? If you love me you'll reply. Maybe you don't love me. Maybe you want me to kill myself. Maybe I should kill you. Maybe I should hunt you down and fucking kill you. You're mine, are you not? So why the fuck aren't you answering me. I'm going to fucking plunge a knife into your heart. You're mine. You can't ever leave me.

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what are any lesser known signs of bpd? /genq cause i’m nervous i might have it

I'm not entirely sure what is considered lesser known because I experience my symptoms very heavily.

But some symptoms include, but are not limited to: (Below the cut)

- Black and white thinking. Ex. You thinking every little thing is either the worst or the best, no in between.

- Heavy obsession and attachment. Ex. Favourite person(s), you become attached to them and their presence in your life and how they interact with you determines your mood, and the things alike.

- An (almost) constant empty feeling. Ex. Never feeling satisfied with life, your accomplishments, your hobbies.

- Intense anger/rage. Ex. Overreacting, blowing up, getting violent.

- Fear of abandonment. Ex. Personal experience here, begging and pleading for someone to not break up with you when there's even the slightest hint that they might.

- Dissociation. Ex. Not feeling like you're in control of your body, as if you're watching your life from another perspective.

- Extreme Paranoia. Ex. Getting very scared about what your partner's true motive is when it comes to dating you.

That's just a few, but remember to do your own research, I'm not a doctor, and cannot diagnose you. I however am pro self dx. You can reach out in our dms if you need any support in these times.

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Being a DID system with BPD is so hell. What do you mean one alter absolutely hates our partner while another loves them more than anything and would stalk them if they ever left us.

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The moment you get jealous it's my fault for making you jealous, but then when I get jealous, I'm being sensitive, I'm overreacting, “it isn't that bad”. Fuck me.

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I'm going to be so honest, I forgot this account exists (I just posted but I still forgot). I never expected people to actually follow this but yeah.

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I think it's obvious I haven't been taking my meds.

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Your voice, once a sweet melody.

Turning bitter, with no remedy.

With a sweet smile, you tell me every day.

I love you, darling, I'll never stray.

Yet when I need your help, you're too cold.

When I felt brave enough, I was too bold.

Yet despite all of your wrongs, I do not leave.

Instead I bottle it up, and try to believe.

That maybe one day, you'll love me.

That one day, you'll let me be free.

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*No reply*

Oh so you want me to kill myself?

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“I love you.”

No you don't.

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“You can call me anytime I'm asleep if you need me, I'll wake up.”

And then as soon as I fucking call it turns into;

“Don't call me. It's too loud.”

What the fuck do you want from me? I'm doing what you told me to do, I needed you so I called and now you're telling me not to call. What the fuck am I supposed to do, just k1ll myself???? Fuck this. I hate my life and I hate you. And then you're going to go and apologize for this shit like you do every god damn time. Maybe you'd like it if I offed myself, wouldn't you? Because obviously you fucking hate me. Just like every other person, you fucking hate me. Maybe I should just leave you right now.

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Bpd culture is getting upset that your fp doesn’t answer you then hating yourself because they have their own life but you didn’t choose this why are you like this this shouldn’t be happening this isn’t normal why can’t you be Normal