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Um…Spoiler much. 🤨

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Psycho Patrol R is released tomorrow…I have been looking forward to this game very much.

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do you post your original works under here too, and is there a tag for it?

My original works are tagged as “ttpoicharacters” but I also have a tumblr account where I just post all my OC stuff there ( @library-mother ). At the moment, I will try to update my website for my art project more, because truth be told trying to even get into looking at my things is like reading Hamlet with all the alphabets scrambled. Not that I guarantee it will be more legible even with more chapters put up, of course.

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Fun fact: I made another comic. It’s on adaser.carrd.co

I love the design for Pestal…more power to him for trying to confess, honestly.

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(Sorry for the vent-y rant in advance)

I have experimented the same type of anger about my abilities (or lack thereof), that you were/are going through. My path has been... tumultuous to put it nicely...

I've had a lot of negative associations with drawing since I was a kid.

There is no bigger enemy than those close to you. They confuse closeness with boundless cruelty and destruction of (your) confidence. I kept drawing nevertheless, even when the voice telling me that I was stupid for drawing in my head thundered every once in a while. But after that day, it was set, I never showed my drawings again.

Years after this incident, I was healing. Or at least, that was until I was humiliated in class, in front of everyone. This one did manage to send my hobby into remission.

It took me years to hold a pencil again without having to hold back tears.

Now, while I'm still insecure and yes, I still hate drawing, I had given myself the chance to explore other creative outlets.

I took on wtiting as a more "disgestible" mean to express myself, and sure has helped me to come for drawing more comfortably.

(Not to mention that you certainly have inspired me and helped me in improving my vocabulary and redaction skills. Thank you.)

I don't consider myself an artist by any extent. I'm not. There isn't a better word word in english to describe what I do, but it certainly isn't art. And I've had to learn to come to terms with that.

Anyways, I wish you a speedy recovery!

No worries, and thank you for your time…I always find it very disheartening that people are so casual in their cruelty towards others’ hobbies as though lambasting them and being harsh is a consistent marker for more desirable results later on. You are whoever you want to be, at the end of the day, and I am glad that I was able to help, even if I did not know what I was doing. Thank you for the letter. (　ﾟдﾟ)

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This will be painless.

Probably.

Base by spaniforce on Twitter.

An illustration in celebration of ttpoi's Faux Lucid getting its own website.

Faux Lucid and BreadAVOTA are now sister projects under Daydream Attorney, a circle by @rolypolyphonic and @tothepointofinsanity dedicated to manifesting schizotypy cognitohazards into the living universe for your perusal.

Individual parts. Left by ttpoi and right be rpp.

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Collab piece with @rolypolyphonic. Base by spaniforce on Twitter.

In celebration of Daydream Attorney, a circle where projects drafted by schizospectres influence the Universe, BreadAVOTA is now a beloved sister project of this administration, along with my rainwater collection “Faux Lucid”. Which now has a website that Exists.

Separate pieces. Left by rpp and the right by ttpoi.

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I was gone for a while and I return to see that Tumblr’s new user interface looks atrocious and barely responsive when I Click Buttons.

I’ve been working on my personal projects and managing academics on the side. Daydreaming is mandatory, and I hate my own online presence so I’ve become reclusive as usual and only speaking to a few people here and there. Thank you for your patience.

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have you ever heard of/read a magical girl retires? i highly recommend it :)

I ordered a physical copy of it because I couldn’t find it online…I’ll get back to you once I do finish reading it. The cover art for the book is really pretty ^^ thank you for the recommendation m(_ _)m!

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Hello, I made a little webcomic. It is recently posted on my tumblr.

Hi Ripper, I have read the webcomic you uploaded…🤔 I hope you can continue working on this one because I think the main character designs are pretty cool, though of course it’s ultimately up to you. I actually read some of your previous works before as well, so I hope to see more.

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your art and blog are so fascinating to me, not just the looks of it itself, but the philosophy behind it. you see your art in a similar light to how i see mine and that makes your art so relatable to me, even if i'm not into madoka magica. please remember to take care of yourself and drink a lot!

I am glad that there are others who can relate to the philosophy I have for art in general. Truly, thank you for the kind regards ^^

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Sick Girl.

I became ill so I don’t really remember what I was doing/drawing.

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I keep telling myself I need to draw but I damn near killed myself over the fact that I returned to my newly washed laundry being blown to the ground.

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I am grateful to hear that people take inspiration from my work, less so because it has something to do with me, but due to the fact that I like to hear about people and their process with art. The culture surrounding art communities and art spaces has not always been healthy, and although the rising sentiment that hangs easy on people’s mouth is to support artists, no one really bothers to encourage or support beginner artists without being condescending and writing it off as bad or ugly. It always boils down to attaching this absurd value on art, which I always hated. I like art regardless of whatever “level of skill” the person drawing it is.

I am not quitting art, even if I said I wanted to. Level one hundred mental illness of seething while doing something I realistically do enjoy. Gutting myself of something important to my person is useless and ultimately makes the world even more annoying and boring for me to interact with. Some individuals thought I would quit because I compare myself to others, even though I specified I don’t really put anyone in my sight in terms of “envy” - I simply do not have any capacity to feel envious about others’ Art as I’m more fixated on how much my art is more or less accurate to my own “world”.

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I am not quitting art, even if I said I wanted to. Level one hundred mental illness of seething while doing something I realistically do enjoy. Gutting myself of something important to my person is useless and ultimately makes the world even more annoying and boring for me to interact with. Some individuals thought I would quit because I compare myself to others, even though I specified I don’t really put anyone in my sight in terms of “envy” - I simply do not have any capacity to feel envious about others’ Art as I’m more fixated on how much my art is more or less accurate to my own “world”.

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So I saw your recent post about feeling like your style is too uninteresting/bland. I just want you to know that your art has had a huge impact on me and the evolution of my own style. I remember seeing your art for the first time and being so captivated by it. While with other, more uniform artists, I would look at their drawings and just sort of go "huh, that's cool," and then move on. But with your work? I was honestly amazed. For a while, I would just sit there, perplexed yet driven to search each pixel for the meaning held within. It was one of the first times that I truly realized how much I love surrealist and abstract artwork.

I guess that's all I have to say, really. I'd hate to see you put down the pencil. Your work was one of my main inspirations for becoming a surrealist horror artist. I wouldn't've been put of this path of discovering my voice as an artist without you. Your style is special. More than you know.

Thank you for the kind words…I am glad to hear I was able to serve as an inspiration for you…if more people could look into abstract and surreal art, it would be good. I don’t want people to stop drawing because of me or any reason, and I can’t exactly up and abandon art since it’s too important to myself. In the end, I draw only for my person, but to know that a lot of people found both comfort and admiration in it is also surreal to me on its own. /pos

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Your art is so beautiful and thoughtful. I would genuinely be crushed if I could never see it again

Thank you…No worries, I don’t think I’ll stop posting anytime soon…I just happen to take longer breaks in between to think about things.