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[Being a transgender individual in this country is agonising at times, usually when shopping for clothes. Attendants would insist on showing you clothes appropriate for your assigned sex and you have to push the excuse out of your mouth that the article of clothing you want is instead “for a friend”. Then they swallow the thought and become less insistent when it registers the lie that it’s for a boyfriend/girlfriend. It’s only easier for me because of how unassuming this body is, but this is not the case for some friends of mine.]

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Accidentally got myself a job in writing articles.

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Gifts from a good friend I won’t see in a while.

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The only thing better than having a wife in this universe is yam flavoured ice cream. No other flavours even come close — it’s disappointing.

Yam flavoured ice cream is the absolute limit of human creativity.

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“Never trust your feelings past 9pm” is solid advice. No more emo posting for the day just because I’m talkative especially when I’m unwell. I know exactly what’s upsetting me, so I’m going to take care of it. Wow. Such functional. Much mental health.

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I follow a Minecraft artist on the prestigious Twitter dot com and throughout the whole day I on-and-off saw him profusely apologising to Strangers on The Internet who rudely insisted that he should call his doodles “completed (master)pieces” instead of the former. Literal frustrated insults hurled at a guy who is just showing his art.

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Guy who is religiously paranoid and has five hundred different types of neuroses forced to sit through his own family bible quote at him out of nowhere and then proceeds to tell him he’s going to drown in hell.

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Guy who is audibly on the verge of having a meltdown down: maybe if I ramble about my favourite video game others won’t detect how much of a temperamental loser I really am.

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Someone gifted me permanent VIP in Roblox Dress to Impress and to simply say I’m flustered would be a major understatement.

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Another year of drawing Sayakas but never year, I say, next year I’ll have to seriously work on my personal projects no matter how ugly my art style devolves into.

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[I will be working on my project for a long while, but maybe I’ll draw some Sayakas later on. Thank you for your patience with this person. I am grateful for all the support. Inbox will remain open in case anyone wants to tell me anything.]

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To avoid lazying around for the summer holiday [and instead of being a productive worker for society], I will try to work on a personal project. It will be a Hopefully Short comic “series” about a painter who plans to take his own life once his final art work is completed.

I don’t want to do anything glamorous so it will likely be drawn in a mundane style. There will also be weird writings; assuming I even make it.

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@endworldbroadcast He’s on the CEO grindset.

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New Sayaka stuff tomorrow but I find it interesting that the way I colour roses remain virtually unchanged throughout the past few years but the thing about the past few years was that I never even bothered to do backgrounds nor even likes flowers until I met my wife (real by the way) and I was enamoured with the notion of a shared living space so much that I incorporated a lot of L*ve elements into my own works.

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I wanted to say I thought about dying again, and the feeling was quite intense, but I suppose there’s nothing I can do about it since my favourite music artist is dropping a new album next week. It’s good to have short term goals to look forward to. I do not understand why being with my family makes me intensely unhappy.

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[You don’t even need to be good at art to draw blorbos or things you like because I spent the past hour painting on a physical piece of paper and it looks abstract in a way that leans towards being ugly and unskilled in technique, but that doesn’t really matter because it was fun.]