#system vent blog

[vent-antiendo]

Welcome!

This is a safe space for all anti endos to vent.

We made this blog because we've been getting harassed by endos because we vented on our blog. Vent blogs are just safer if you don't want to get threats and such.

--> You can vent about anything here, sys related or not. We'll tag accordingly.

(We do ask that you put a tw on the top of your ask if needed.)

!! We are cluster b, and do not experience empathy, sympathy, guilt or remorse.

We can be blunt because of it, but we mean no harm. And if we do, it'll be obvious, and only because you harm us first.

If you treat us with respect, we will treat you with respect.* If we perceive any attack, we'll bite back, though.

--> We are pro educated self diagnosis.

--> Please note that we do not support radqueers on this blog.

--> We won't put a lot of tags under posts tagged with #vent, because this is a place for you to let out your feelings, not focused on trying to get as much interaction as possible. It also keeps this blog under the radar of certain reddit groups for longer.

--> If anything is unclear, send us an ask and we'll get back to you as soon as possible!

DNI: pro/endos, pro/radqueers (AHARQ are fine though), proshippers, racists, queerphobes, ableists, Cluster B abuse believers, anti educated self-dx, and just the basic DNI list really.

*Because of our personality, we try to mask when you send in an ask, to come across as nice and caring as possible. While we don't feel genuine sympathy, we want to try to support you.

[sknygothboi]

I’m so depressed my existence feels like that of a ghost. I don’t exist but watching life from afar.

[lemony-ink]

"demedicalizing" complex dissociative disorders caused by severe and repeated trauma is wild

[haunted-house-sys]

Cutely blocking pro endos and other nontraumgens on SIGHT

We are anti endo and other non traumgens + those who support them...

We dont actively discuss syscourse on our blog, and will continue not to. Why?

BECAUSE IT'S PROTECTING OUR MENTAL HEALTH.

If y'all are coming at us to "uh ACTUALLY ☝️🤓" us we will block y'all on the topic of endos, tulpas, all that other bull.

We will look in from afar, and talk about it with our partner system, but that's the extent of it.

Listen...

We dont care if you are "built different" or "systems just happen without trauma"

Fucking BULLSHIT.

Who are YOU to tell that to those of us who had to face YEARS of utter HELL when we were only JUST KIDS?! "Uhm actually were a system too without the trauma" "we wanted this!"

NO TF YOU DONT. Being a system if FUCKING HELL. Get the fuck off our blog and get the fuck off our posts...

....

Hi.. this was Illya with a BPD episode stemmed from the utter searing hot anger that boiled through my veins after seeing an endo "um actually" me... fuck y'all...

[the-bar-sinister]

The queer platonic question brought up something that I've been struggling to talk about, which is like, that there's a word to describe something about myself that I've always kind of known, but played off as a joke, or an thought I must be unconsciously exaggerating, or that there was some connection I was just missing.

Aplatonic.

Even before I found out there was a word for it– that it was something other people experienced– I was getting the strong sense that there was something "wrong" with the way that I interacted with people that I got close to.

A few years ago I made the deliberate choice to stop letting myself get very close and intimate with people I met online, because inevitably, again and again, I would get a crush on them, and fall in love with them. And I would fail to understand what– in hindsight– were completely normal boundaries of intimacy between friendship and romance. 

I don't know how to interact casually with someone I'm close to without flirting with them. I don't know how to care about someone without wanting to kiss them, and brush their hair and take them dancing, and solve their problems, etc etc.

And it was seriously complicating my life– which at this point is comfortably married and settled– so I just sort of stopped.

I've gotten better at managing it for the last while, just by being aware of it.

Learning that 'aplatonic' is a thing you can be has helped me understand and manage myself, just by having a word for it.

For one thing, it's made "platonic shipping" and "friend shipping" and "familial shipping" and platonic F/Os in fandom make a whole lot more sense to me.

It makes my enemies to lovers fixation make a whole lot more sense too.

I genuinely didn't– and still don't, emotionally– understand how you can want two characters to have an intense relationship that *isn't* romantic.

But I understand that there's this whole experience of attraction that I'm missing out on and that that's what other people are experiencing and expressing.

I don't really have an end to this post. It's something that I'm still struggling to communicate, and figure out what it means beyond the obvious way I've been living with it my whole life.

Thanks for having patience with me.

[bpdcodone]

I’m so fucking horny bruh it’s ridiculous and nothing satisfies it 🫠

[pigeonpoof]

·:*¨༺ ♱✮♱ ༻¨*:·

I want to be in control of you. I want to monitor your every move- your every breath. Do not try to run away from me, I’ll find you every time. I need you in a way that you should need me. You don’t have to be afraid of me, I don’t bite too hard on those I love. -🥩

[antiendovents]

I SAW A FUCKING ENDO MAKE A POST AND THEY SAID "YOU DONT HAVE TO HAVE A DISOCIATIVE DISORDER TO BE A SYSTEM :3" like they love spreading blatent misinformation what are u fucking talking about im ACTUALLY going to kill them

wha.. thats just stupid. You do need a dissociative disorder to have alters, since alters are created through dissociation and trauma...

[vent-antiendo]

Not really a vent but like...

How are you as an "endo" gonna be against radqueers?!?!?! I genuinely believe that most endos are either trolling or genuinely a system who believes their trauma isn't "bad enough" or just doesn't remember their trauma, but THE WILLOWGENICS???

I've seen literal "build a headmate" (????) blogs with radqueers in their dni. How the hell is MAKING A LITERAL ALTER NOT CONSIDERED TRANSID??? MY SIBLING IN CHRIST

Literally exactly that.

[stuckinapril]

I’m finally biting the bullet and contacting a therapist today after being ambivalent ab it for so long… this hellsite has its many disadvantages but one thing I can say is it has truly helped me be less scared of pursuing therapy. Silver lining etc etc

[ghost-of-a-system]

put this together in like 40mins with no script so sorry if theres mistakes.

-s

[sysventing]

We are fully allowed to curate our experience here, and that includes this specific side blog. We are fully allowed to block those who make us uncomfortable or trigger us. And we are FULLY allowed to disallow interaction from a group of people who actively harm minors, poc, animals, and disabled folx.

The idea that we’re not allowed to keep ourselves safe on this blog is wild. Sorry if some of you feel “excluded” but I’m totally fine excluding folx who actively harm others and hide behind the “queer” label.

Yes this is a vent.

Also follow @ex-rq-infirmary

Mod Bat 🦇

[persmo]

Does anybody knows a vent blog for CDDs but that doesn't center and focus on all the syscourse things?

Yeah we don't like endos interacting and we have our opinions and syscourse and all of that but, damn, all the ven blogs for pwCDD I know surround about syscourse and because of a bad experience we had with one I don't trust to vent on those anymore

So anybody knows a venting blog for pwCDD that aren't syscourse centered? I thank you in advance

[zombie-boygrrl]

It's so easy to beg and scream, and claw, and yawp for the smallest bit of effort to be returned in a relationship.

Until the line is crossed, the limit is reached, and I can't fucking defend you anymore.

What you say to me.

What you do to me.

If I let you off easy this time, I am submitting to continuous abuse.

And I am no longer the dog you treated me as.

[idonthaveanyonetotalkaboutthis]

when your rpg character hits so hard, that's it't not just a character anymore

[bpdcodone]

I feel like the worst person alive but simultaneously the most beautiful handsome man to walk the earth 🤪

Also I need my FP