#borderline life

[wowlookwhosspirallingagain]

i don’t want to live like this. i only exist at this point. all i do is distract my mind so i don’t kill myself

[sleeplessv0id]

"mental health matters!" until your screaming and crying in the early hours of the morning over losing something as miniscule as your phone charger. but the reason your crying isn't actually about the charger, or your favorite pen you can't find.

little things add up.

[abusedpixie]

𝐈 𝐰𝐢𝐬𝐡 𝐢𝐭 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐩

𝐏𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐢𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐩

𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐞𝐭.

[reisenbleiben]

Und dann überkommt es dich wieder plötzlich. Die dunklen Gedanken sind wieder da. Die Kontrolle wird weniger.

[succubunniii]

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[borderlinesadgirl]

I want to run away it would make everyone's life easier

[blindfolded-b]

[pileofthembonez]

I wish I had words to express the feelings I feel without threatening suicide. I wish I could fully explain exactly what I feel. I wish I could say something other than life is meaningless and I want to kill myself.

[cuperno]

Das Problem mit Gefühlen ist das ich sie nicht kontrollieren kann.

[wowlookwhosspirallingagain]

omg maybe life is worth living [i had a decent day] —> i cannot be saved [the slightest inconvenience occurs] —> i am a fucking god and everyone loves me [someone laughed at my joke] —> i am going to kill myself [i feel a little bit unwanted because of someone’s reaction]

and this shit just goes on and on and NEVER stops

[sleeplessv0id]

will this horrible feeling ever pass?

[abusedpixie]

[reisenbleiben]

Und vielleicht…ja vielleicht verdiene ich auch einfach diesen ganzen Schmerz.

[borderlinesadgirl]

I feel so empty and alone

[succubunniii]

[starspd]

the BPD experience of yearning for someone to tell you its going to be okay, but then when they do you dont believe them (and sometimes can even trigger you more)