#ramcoa culture

[hc-did-culture-is]

questioning hc-did culture is going, "no, i can't possibly be a survivor. sure, the few / really bad / memories i can remember all fit the bill. sure, there's far too many to claim that it's nothing. but maybe i'm making it up. after all, it's not like we can recall any / external / programming being triggered. yeah, okay, there's internal stuff, but--"

tldr: trying to use any excuse to say we made it up, we're fake, etc.

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[mentallystrawberry]

Shout out to the other chronically mentally ill systems who’s disorders and traumas have severely impacted your quality of life and functioning

shout out to polyfragmented or complex and highly complex did systems

shout out to the systems who are RAMCOA survivors, childhood sexual abuse survivors, or childhood torture survivors

shout out to systems diagnosed with other comorbid mental disorders

shout out specifically to systems with BPD🫂

shout out to systems who have lost relationships with people because of your mental health

shout out to the systems struggling with substance abuse issues or addiction

shout out to the systems who’ve been in and out of mental hospitals

shout out to fellow black systems and other poc systems with many intersecting marginalized identities

shout out to systems who can’t attend in real life school or are graduating late due to their mental health

shout out to the systems who can’t get a job or a drivers license

shout out to the systems who lost their childhood and teenage years due to constant mental health struggles

shout out to systems who have to take multiple medications for their disorders

shout out to the lonely systems who can hardly ever leave their homes and build friendships

shout out to the systems that struggle with the scars their sh addictions leave

shout out to systems who can’t take care of themselves without needing support

try to keep in mind that you are not the average persons, so we shouldn’t expect ourselves to be able to function just like the average person would. know you are all loved and are trying your best to navigate a society that wasn’t designed with poc and disabled or neurodivergent people in mind. i wish you systems the bestest recovery possible and i’m sending much love and support.

[polyfragcultureis]

i hope all polyfrag system who are RAMCOA survivors and all polyfrag systems who aren't RAMCOA survivors and polyfrag systems who aren't sure wether or not they're RAMCOA survivors have a good day and know they're all equally as valid

[narcissisticpdcultureis]

npd programmer culture is wanting to die because your code isn't working and feeling the biggest fraud to ever touch a keyboard and...until it works. Then you feel like you're the 2nd alan turing, and like you've made the biggest technology related contribution since the internet.

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[syscultureis]

plural culture is… dear lord stop putting syscourse in ramcoa tags i dont care we dont care this is not relevant to us

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[plural-culture-is]

plural culture is having an alter whose source memories are extremely similar to ramcoa & tbmc and their trauma created an entire sidesystem, but bc we didn't go through ramcoa bodily, they feel like they're being disrespectful for simply existing. /nav

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[hpdcultureis]

hpd+tbmc-did culture is yes my dissociative disorder was programmed but the personality disorder came from that trauma too

I was made to be a spectacle, and if I'm not, I'm nothing. That's how I was taught to think.

I never see people talk about that though. That's odd to me

(is 🌺☀️ open?)

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[sleeplessv0id]

Today was one of my r@pist cousins' birthdays. I wasn't around for it, but now I sit here, about to take my meds--those meant to help soothe what he helped break--with a cupcake in my hand. The rainbow sprinkles blend with my pills now in my palm.

[problematic-alters-unsilenced]

cw cultural appropriation? descriptions of trauma (including CSEM, stalking, psychosis/mental health)

Not sure if it counts for this blog but three of our main protectors are siblings all of which are a creature from local native mythos, we're bodily white (well, we're technically metis (mixed white+indigenous) but we're just at the cutoff so just white ig) and we always get flack when we talk about any of those alters' source.

the reason they all split was because of a traumatic event where our mother was psychotic and we went through "shared psychosis" (never diagnosed, but we were psychotic while she was, had similar delusions, etc) about the creature(s) stalking us and our mother, about one posessing us (which was very likely just one of our alter's attempting to talk to us, she attempted to tell our mother to take us somewhere safer and get help) and about basically being chased out of the area. The event was traumatic in many other ways (specifically our mother selling nudes of us (at the time 14) for gas money) and anyways it all culminated in them all three splitting.

the issue arises when we tell people their origin without any context, they say we're culturally appropriating, but none of the alters want to "change their source" specifically because the trauma endured litwrally made them trauma holders in a specific way that only makes sense to our brain if they stay the same. we try to use language that's respectful (hence us not naming the thing in question, and frequently just saying they're shapeshifters rather than the whole truth) and its so fucking annoying that its one of our top reasons for wishing we weren't a system

that sucks.. we are white ourself so we cant talk for POC people but i feel like.. we really need to remember alters cant control their source, and they cant control why they were made.

[problematic-alter-culture-is]

Cw ramcoa

I know someone just sent an ask, but problematic alter culture is apparently I'm not welcome in most system spaces anymore. Im here to figure out what our religious trauma is and see if what we went through can be labeled Organized Abuse, but everyone I ask ignores me. It seems people might think I'm lying about our experiences. They refuse to help me or even just to listen, even if that's their "branding" online.

I can't even retain gathered information on RAMCOA. Everything goes in one ear and out the other, which is not helped by my despised source, low empathy, and inability to properly use modern technology. I need people to answer my fucking questions for once. Do any of you even understand the terms you're spouting, or do you want to gatekeep the labels for your experiences because to you what I went through "wasn't enough" to.warrent the consideration? You're all cowards. (☔: it feels like if it's not occult to trauma specifically then it's seen as less than in the community.)

I don't care if I'm mean or if I'm grasping at straws here. I'm here to fulfill my purpose, protecting the system from digging up traumatic memories and piecing together the fragments of our history myself. I don't care who i hurt in the process. I'm here to serve this system and this body alone. [Written by Habit.]

(☔: Slowly realizing the concerning amount of cannibal, serial killer, and abuser introjects in this system... Whoopsies /lh)

-🍖🌾

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[musicalmonstrosity]

TW;bodily injury, detailed abuse, cringe culture, ableism, Domestic abuse, child abuse, CPS mentions, the system cringe subreddits

Fakeclaimers are so funny ngl bc they’ll be like ���if that happened where’s the scars and proof why aren’t you being abused!” And then I’ll just be like oh word? Which scar you wanna see, this injury is the freshest (I still can’t touch it even while it’s scabbing the bone def got fucked up again) (thanks dad), or we can cover the hundreds of scars all over my damn body. We can cover my malformed legs from being broken so many damn times and the CPTSD fucking up my joints worse. I could audio record the horrific sounds my body makes due to abuse I suffered still effecting me into adulthood. I could show them the pictures of me in secondary locations to be abused. I could send them my CPS workers info and the social workers notes the day I came to school with a stab wound and bruised ribs.(and that shit happened 6 years ago, guess what my ribs are still fucked up!)They don’t actually want proof because when you show it it’s “seeking attention” or it’s “overdramatized” they have to move the goal post because they will dickride for abusers so hard. You could show them your damn diagnosis papers and they’ll sit there and say it’s fake or doctor shopping. Fakeclaimers and their echo chambers don’t care about “stopping fakers to protect disabled people” they want to sit on a high horse when ironically they don’t even have the conditions to speak on it or have such obvious internalized ableism. At this point their groups are becoming blooming hate groups that are becoming dangerous. I’ve actually been victim due to their rhetoric, guess what ,the majority of them are teenagers, ignorant and think they know it all. Back in high school a student who loved those fakeclaiming groups decided that I was faking my disability that required me to use a cane and the elevator (literal doctors note is required for either of these on school grounds and I got banned from using the stairs anyways because I kept getting injured on them). So what does he do? Threaten to break my cane, and eventually he actually did, feeling all righteous until I wasn’t getting up. He had to learn that day you don’t know people and your assumptions can get people killed, if I had hit my head when I fell from him kicking my cane inwards I could’ve died. All this because of what these people spread. I’m sick of it. And please try to fake claim (sarcasm) me so I can pull out my diagnosis papers and therapy notes. And for fucks sake you can see my meds, it’s not like I hide em on this blog.

And the funniest part about all of this? No one owes random people proof or great detail of their abuse or disorders. If you’re not their doctor or psychiatrist why care? It’s simple, they don’t care for proof, they care to target people and protect abusers.

[hc-did-culture-is]

questioning HC-DID culture is asking "am I stretching the definition of programming to fit my trauma, or am I just looking for excuses to say I haven't been programmed?"

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[bpdcodone]

Heyyyy guess who’s back to writing on this blog of hell. Anyways just wanted to say after a strenuous 2 year long recovery journey with DBT/MBT I’m here to officially say I only meet 7 out 9 BPD symptoms now🎉🎉☦️

But the downside is that my NPD has been going haywire since my BPD has gone down symptomology wise but my NPD remains stable or somewhat worse nowadays I hope to find another personality disorder specialist once I complete DID therapy and healing from CPA/CSA

[polyfragcultureis]

polyfrag culture is maintaining a scientific dissertation voice when talking about anything relating RAMCOA so you don't break down <- still breaks down but in the form of rapid switching and panic attacks instead

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[the-song-system]

even if you truly believe ramcoa is some wacko conspiracy theory, what do you guys gain from running these bait accounts? why fuck with people like that? i don’t get it. just to be assholes to random teenagers on the internet? is that really so fun to you?

For me. It was proving over-validation, and how rapidly and blindly people seek to get validation + validate others. And that's exactly what I got. Even in this small amount of time it heavily proved my point - T

[syscultureis]

Plural culture is panicking about the possibility of RAMCOA because you suspect you have a programmed alter due to the absolute inability to research our DID. Anytime we try, we get hit with a brick wall of dissociation and panic that doesn't abate until we stop trying to read what we were.

But having zero memory or even serious suspicion about RAMCOA.

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