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Being a Stan the Water Man/Dadiplier fictive. I can't help my source killed like...20 people before he got married and went to therapy 'cause they drank the devil's juice, coffee, the dirty water drinkers, and that I get urges to flail around when I don't have water or haven't had it in a bit 'cause my source gets seizures and punches people when he doesn't.

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Problematic alter culture is "my brain didn't know how to accept being a victim of incest and being forced into same-sex acts for porn... so now we have two sisters who are exclusively and obsessively into each other"

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Problematic alter culture is having ONE breakdown where you snap at someone and they immediately condescend and berate your whole system and vague post before you get the chance to call down and now you don't WANT to apologize because fuck you don't talk down to me like some kind of toddler because you got your precious feelings hurt.

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Problematic alter culture is constantly wanting to ruin our relationships with everyone because you don’t like anyone who’s with us (for example, breaking up with our partners.)

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Problematic Alter culture is “LoL! Off we don’t respect that idiot as a person, we want their blood under our nails and their heart stopped!” And having everyone else in the headspace be like “Okay, reasonable but insane response”

But like, I want blood and I want it NOW 😔

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Problematic alter culture is having to be held back from spewing out the most horrific shit to people who aggravate you just to see their face drop in horror. Maybe then you'd finally fucking shut up and leave me alone

It worked last time, they left me alone. Why can't I do it again?

Can I claim 🍣?

See, that's why I'm not allowed to talk during confrontation. I have the same issue, 🍣.

(you may!)

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tw age gap(?)

Problematic alter culture is a middle and a little who might have a romantic relationship. The body is of an adult age so it’s fine right? We don’t have paraphilia so it doesn’t count

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TRIGGER WARNING FOR CUTTING & SELF HARM

problematic introject culture is being a splitroject of the host + a vent sona we have, and being very source attached. and also, cutting the name of our fp into our arm with a heart, upsetting the host.

idk, the host thinks we're ugly now that we've relapsed but i think we're beautiful.. i get to carve those i love into my skin.. where it'll scar permanently.. mm thats so awesome 🩷

i try not to romanticize it, its just hard when i view it as something so like. deep and personal and romantic. ykwim ??

you can delete this if its too much.

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Tw sh and relaspe

problematic alter culture is IDC if it's bad for the body it's good for ME ,, they're gonna be SO MAD at me but idc lol, could've done much worse but I don't because I care Abt them. Can't they see I do this because I care about us. I do this because if I didn't id do worse. They just dont understand. They're being stupid. Idk it's a simple concept. Host is gonna hate me. We werre over a week clean. I don't care abymore. I deserve to feel good too

@cyder-cider

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Problematic alter culture is

Finding it fucking hilarious my abuser keeps trying to DARVO me and crashing out when it's not working. - ⛓️🚬🐟

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problematic alter cultural is everyone in the system hates me bc i'm constantly talking to p3d0s on the internet bc i really want the father figure and attention :)

-⛓️🐬

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problematic alter culture is i want to vape so bad PLEASE let me vape i am this close to stealing a vape from work cause i'm not old enough to buy one i need nicotine in my fucking lungs and it has to taste like blueberries or i will die

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problematic alter culture is being an introject of a schizophrenic hallucination that assaults the system. and because of that everyone in-sys being deeply uncomfortable around you even though that literally isnt you, its a hallucination

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problematic alter culture is not WANTING to have to change your name or icon or how you draw yourself just because your source is a terrible person. like i'm not LITERALLY HIM even if i go by the same name and draw and represent myself in a way that resembles his video game avatar. it's literally just who ***I*** am. that's not a drawing of him, that's a drawing of ME. that's MY name. that's MY icon.

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problematic alter culture is having to hide most of my interests and even source memories from the rest of the system because they already think im a creepy fucking freak and id rather not make them hate me more yk

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Problematic alter culture is going behind everyone's back and becoming the worst version of yourself for your own entertainment because healing is boring. Then going back to normal and pretending like nothing ever happened.

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Cw some unhealthy habits

Problematic alter culture is internalizing everything they said about me. And now they're mad bc they were 'just splitting and I should stop listening to them'. And they blame me for making them feel like they need to turn everything into a me vs them competition of sorts.

So now I'm a distant amalgamation of internalization and addiction to try and cope. Im either nonstop smoking, hurting myself or drinking so many energy drinks

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