#healing process

[harmoonix]

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Astrology Observations by harmoonix

🦢 - Mars in Leo/Cancer/Gemini/Virgo can easily feel under pressure when they're stressed, they can feel like the world is ending!!

🦢 - Mars in Libra/Mars in the 7H are so complicated. Finding the peace and the harmony within your romantic relationships can be stressful

🦢 - Gemini Saturn/Virgo Saturn/3H Saturn/6H Saturn are possible anxious places for Saturn! They're so heart-warming, though!! At some point every anxiety attack will end

🦢 - If you have malefics in your 11H like Saturn, Pluto, or Mars, if you have friends that talk bad/shit about their other friends, be sure they talk the same to them about you!! Is so predictable!

🦢 - Cher has a Gemini Venus that makes her look young even though she is 78. DO YOU BELIEVE IN LIFE AFTER LOVE ???

🦢 - Your 2H can talk about your metabolism!! Since it is heavily associated with food! For example, a fire sign in the 2H can talk about a fast metabolism

🦢 - Having Sagittarius in your 2H or 2H ruler in the 9H, it can make you proud of your traditional/cultural food!!

🦢 - Leo Placements have a dark side like all of the other zodiac signs, because they're always in the spotlight. It is quite hard to know how they feel or if they fake their feelings. Not everyone knows how they feel behind close doors

🦢 - Sagittarius/Scorpio and Aries Mars can have a bad temper at times, some even anger issues, and is because Mars gets crazy in those placements

🦢 - If you have your south node in the 9H/Sagittarius, the school or some educational institution can get stuck in your memories/past forerver

🦢 - Jupiter aspecting Moon makes someone to radiate kindness! That person you wanna protect from bad people

🦢 Pluto - Mercury aspects can make someone have a deep voice indeed, which is also that typo of person to their voice hoarse most times

🦢 - Venus in Cancer/4° 16° 28°/4H Venus will make someone love you so passionately! They will build a castle inside your heart

🦢 - I feel like Capricorn Placements are always the ones to stress/overthink about the future 🙁, there is always something 'What if that will happen'

🦢 - Venus/Moon in your 9H can make your relationships/marriages blessed! Is a very beneficial house for those planets

🦢 - Mercury in air signs have a specific way of communicating! It can be a fast reply to your messages, instant calling, using a lot of gestures while talking!

🦢 - If you have Sagittarius Mercury/Mercury in the 9H, you probably have a very good type of humor! Makes everyone to laugh

🦢 - Pisces Mercury and the 12H mercury are also people with good humor! I honestly appreciate their energy

🦢 - Can someone tell me why like Cancer and Capricorn Saturn BOTH give a very nurturing energy?? Is like I connect with mother nature

🦢 - Libra Placements are honestly precious! They appreciate the beauty of everything! They can find beauty even in bad things

🦢 - I have no major Saturn - Venus aspects, but I have quincunx instead, which can be manifested as such sad energy because you basically don't feel anything at times

🦢 - Lilith and Sun aspects are the symbol of a black diamond! Always shining after all they have been through

🦢 - If you have major 6H placements especially Pluto in the 6H, your health both mentally and physically is VITAL. Always prioritize that!!

Replying to your ex: No

Prioritizing your mental health: Yes

🦢 - If one of your parents have their sun in the same sign as your rising you can look a lot alike! Is honestly one one if the best combos to share with your parents

🦢 - Venus conjunct south node but also Libra south node gives me the vibe of a widow in a past life, someone who could've have suffered in love

🦢 - If your 3H is connected with the 11H you can be best friends with your siblings, if your 3H is connected with the 9H you tend to be best friends with your cousins

🦢 - Saturn/Neptune/Mars and Pluto in the 12H need proper sleeping if they're usually tired is a sign to just relax and take a nap

🦢 - Venus in the same house as your Mars can make you addicted to topics like art, music, sex, history, and even culture

🦢 - Mars in harsh aspects with Venus tend to flirt more than the good aspects, because Mars here is looking for competition

🦢 - Virgo Venus and Venus at 6° 18° can be picky with their partners, they can also have multiple types of people as their crush

🦢 - If you have got your 4H connected to the 7H your family can help you with getting into a relationship

🦢 - Jupiter in harsh aspects to Pluto tend to force their beliefs/religion/habits into others, something even without realizing

🦢 - Uranus in your 4H or Aquarius in the 4H can talk about your family can have quite unique habits, is like your family is different from the rest of the world because something makes them to just stand out

🦢 - People who have Sun in their 4H or IC at 5° 17° or 29° can really be known because of their family, is giving popular family

🦢 - Earth Signs over the 8H can be very private about their intimate lives and their sexual life

🦢 - Mercury aspecting Moon can make the native so empathic emotionally, you can understand everyone's feelings usually they're soft at heart

🦢 - Mercury in the 12H can be attracted into things that seem 'undiscovered, or unknown', they're always curious about things they dont have much info about

🤍🤍🤍🤍 harmoonix

[whumpster-dumpster]

Injuries that actually have any sort of lasting noticeable presence over the course of multiple episodes, my beloved 💕

[enii]

I hope you win all the battles you don't talk about💕

[loveyourlovelysoul]

Healing (being healed) doesn't mean not being triggered anymore, deleting trauma from your life, no more falling into mind traps. It doesn't mean you'll be perfect once you're done (there's no such thing as "perfection"). You may still fall into old mental pattern occasionally, you may still have triggers here and there.

In fact, healing means recognizing and accepting your emotional reflexes and needs, so that you don't have to let them take over cause you know you are the one in control. It means knowing you have other options to choose from when triggers hit you, that won't have you ending up in a burnout, overthinking or feeling overwhelmed by everything. It means you know you can choose your thoughts and reactions freely, without having to depend on your traumatized mind and what it wants you to think/feel (even if to keep you safe).

(for more)

[belovedapollo]

suddenly I’m 7 again with the way I write about the things in this journal. As if I’m trying to sooth my inner child and his heart. I can be both, 30 and 7 at the same time. Being kind to yourself doesn’t go away when you grow up. That’s something I need to remind myself often too. ✍🏼

reblog is ok, don’t repost/use

[mirroredroads]

on reconnecting with one's self. Hanif Abdurraqib, They Can't Kill Us Until They Kill Us / Isao Takahata's Only Yesterday (1991) / Anais Nin, Mirages: The Unexpurgated Diary of Anais Nin, 1939-1947 / @sha963 / Ocean Vuong, On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous / Untitled (2022), Sung Hwa Kim, soft pastels and acrylic on paper / Better in the Morning, Birdtalker / Untitled (2022), Sung Hwa Kim, soft pastels and acrylic on paper / Jenn Givhan, from “The Decision”

[b0bthebuilder35]

[rebellenotes]

A Reflection on Habits, Pain, and the Right to Heal

I’ve always found it fascinating how our childhood shapes us as adults. It’s so puzzling to me how incidents we think we’ve acknowledged and dealt with can still haunt us subconsciously.

One example is my compulsive need to poke my head out of the shower every few minutes to make sure no one has broken into the apartment. Sometimes I even have to lock the bathroom door, even though the apartment front door is locked and I live alone. Who’s coming into the bathroom while I’m showering?

Yet I know it became a habit after my seven year older brother continuously snuck into the bathroom while I was showering when we both lived with our parents to scare me. I never used to lock the bathroom door. Then he started sneaking in to scare me by punching the shower curtain out of nowhere. I thought I could stop him by locking the bathroom door. He started picking the lock to sneak in and do the same thing. So I started my habit of peeking out of the shower. That started when I was in my early teenage years. As I’m writing this, I’m 22, and I still do it.

It’s ridiculous, isn’t it? I know logically that I’m safe. I know my brother isn’t about to pick the lock of an apartment he doesn’t even live in (and that is 3 hours away), just to punch my shower curtain for old times’ sake. But habits like this aren’t logical—they’re survival instincts your brain refuses to let go of. Even when the “threat” is long gone, your body remembers.

I think about this a lot: the way our minds and bodies hold on to these echoes of the past, even after we’ve told ourselves, “That was years ago. I’m fine now.” But am I fine? Sure, my brother’s antics seem harmless when I tell the story now—he’d probably laugh and call me dramatic—but at the time, it was terrifying. It was that kind of sharp, primal fear that makes your heart race and your fight-or-flight instincts kick in. And for a teenage girl, trapped behind a flimsy curtain, it felt like an invasion. Straight out of Psycho.

I wonder how many other little quirks I have that are rooted in experiences like that—things I don’t even think about anymore but that still affect how I navigate the world. Maybe the way I instinctively glance over my shoulder when I walk home at night after being harassed by a man who had an interest in violent hobbies, or how I startle when someone raises their hand towards me for a high five, because that hand looks awfully similar to the one that once hit me in my face out of nowhere.

These habits become so ingrained that they start to feel like a part of who you are, but they’re really just shadows of who you used to be. Shadows of a version of yourself who needed to stay alert, to be prepared for anything.

But how do you move past it? How do you convince your brain that it’s safe to relax now? I’m not sure I have the answer yet. Maybe it’s just a matter of time. Or maybe it’s about learning to have a conversation with those shadows, acknowledging them instead of trying to push them away. Like saying, “Hey, I see you. I know you’re here because you were trying to protect me. But we’re okay now. You don’t have to work so hard anymore.”

And maybe, one day, I’ll stand in the shower and feel like I can close my eyes without worrying. Until then, I guess I’ll keep peeking out. Old habits die hard, after all.

Perhaps habits can teach us to be more understanding. But being understanding doesn’t equate to excusing or forgiving someone. It can merely act as an explanation, and we can all have compassion for even the most horrible people. Or rather, as I’d like to think of it, we have compassion for their tragic experiences. If we understand why people are the way they are, how their experiences shape their lives, then aren’t we getting closer to understanding humanity, which is, debatably, one of the biggest questions out there.

It’s a strange paradox, isn’t it? The idea that understanding someone doesn’t mean condoning their actions. You can hold compassion in one hand and accountability in the other. I think about this a lot, especially when reflecting on my own habits and the experiences that shaped them. If I can trace my quirks and fears back to specific events, can’t others do the same? Doesn’t everyone, in some way, carry the weight of their own shadows?

But here’s where it gets tricky: where do we draw the line? At what point does understanding someone’s past stop justifying their present actions? It’s one thing to say, “I get why you’re like this,” but another entirely to say, “And it’s okay for you to keep being this way.” The balance is delicate, and I think it starts with the acknowledgment that everyone’s humanity is messy and imperfect—including our own.

I’ve tried to apply this lens to myself, too. Instead of berating myself for being overly cautious, I’ve started to look at these habits with curiosity. What are they trying to tell me? Maybe my tendency to peek out of the shower isn’t just a leftover fear—it’s a reminder that my mind and body are capable of keeping me safe. Maybe the shadows of my past don’t just haunt me; they teach me. They remind me of resilience, of boundaries I’ve learned to set, of the ways I’ve grown.

That understanding, though, doesn’t mean I want to live like this forever. I don’t want to carry these shadows into every shower, every dark street, every raised hand. I want to learn how to set them down, gently, like putting away an old coat I no longer need to wear. Maybe that’s what growth really is: not banishing our pasts, but learning how to coexist with them without letting them define us.

But that’s easier said than done, and I think I have somewhat of an unpopular opinion on this matter, because I believe we, as conscious humans, should exercise our right of feeling sorry for ourselves. And while maybe it is a “hot take,” I don’t think it’s that hard to understand. By simply experiencing and focusing on the hurt we’ve endured, we get an outlet for our emotions, which in turn can help us heal in the long term.

Saying something like that unfounded, is of course… diabolical. But it’s not unfounded. Studies have proven over and over again that letting out your feelings, whether through talking, writing, or even crying, is an essential part of processing trauma and moving forward. Bottling things up doesn’t make the shadows go away—it just pushes them deeper into the corners of your mind, where they quietly take root and grow. Acknowledging your pain, even sitting with it for a while, is not weakness. It’s human.

And let’s be real: our society doesn’t make it easy. We’re constantly told to “move on” and “stay positive,” as if emotions are hurdles to leap over instead of waves to ride. But ignoring what’s underneath doesn’t make it disappear. It’s like covering a crack in the wall with a fresh coat of paint—eventually, it’ll resurface, bigger and more complicated than before.

Feeling sorry for yourself gets a bad rap because people conflate it with self-pity. But there’s a key difference. Self-pity is wallowing without purpose, a kind of stuckness that doesn’t move you forward. Feeling sorry for yourself, on the other hand, is an acknowledgment: “I went through something hard, and it’s okay to feel hurt about that.” It’s a step toward self-compassion. It’s saying to yourself what you might say to a friend: “That really sucks. No wonder you feel this way.”

But you know what’s even more of a hot take? Sometimes, I think self-pitying is necessary too. It sounds counterproductive, doesn’t it? Like I’m advocating for a wallowing pity party. But hear me out—there’s a difference between indulging in self-pity as a means of staying stuck and using it as a stepping stone toward understanding and healing. Sometimes, you have to let yourself feel the full weight of everything before you can put it down. You can’t clean up a mess you won’t even look at.

And the reality is that by looking in disdain at self-pity, we’re denying people their right to hurt. And it is a right. Because it’s a core part of us as humans. Someone who has tripped and broken their leg, screaming in pain, is going to pity themselves, because the pain isn’t merely a physical sensation. Pain is so raw and innate that it becomes us, and sometimes when the pain gets so extreme, you pity yourself without shame because what else can you do?

But when the pain isn’t physical—when it’s emotional or psychological—society expects something different. We’re told to bottle it up, to keep it together, to be “strong” and “resilient,” as if those traits are defined by our ability to suppress our own suffering. Worse, when the source of that pain is something like assault, harassment, or trauma, shame piles onto the already unbearable weight.

For victims of sexual assault, this shame can feel like a second attack. It sneaks in quietly, whispering lies like, “You should have done something differently,” or, “This was your fault.” Society, in all its victim-blaming glory, reinforces this. Questions like, “What were you wearing?” or, “Why didn’t you fight back?” shift the blame onto the survivor, creating a feedback loop of guilt and shame that can take years—sometimes a lifetime—to untangle.

And when you’re already battling that shame, self-pity feels dangerous. It feels like giving in. You tell yourself you don’t deserve to feel sorry for yourself because, somehow, you’ve internalised the idea that what happened was your fault. But it wasn’t. It never was. And yet, that shame sits there, festering, making you believe that even feeling hurt is a kind of indulgence you’re not entitled to.

But here’s the thing: self-pity, in those moments, is not indulgence—it’s survival. It’s a small, quiet rebellion against the shame that’s trying to silence you. It’s a way of saying, “I didn’t deserve this. I was hurt, and that matters.” It’s reclaiming your right to grieve for what was taken from you, to acknowledge the weight of what you’re carrying, and to validate your own pain in a world that might try to minimize it.

I think about how this cycle of shame keeps people trapped. How it convinces them that their trauma is their own fault and that they should be strong enough to “get over it” without ever letting themselves feel the full depth of their pain. But healing doesn’t work like that. You can’t bypass the hard parts. You can’t skip over the anger, the sadness, the self-pity, and expect to come out whole on the other side. Those emotions aren’t roadblocks—they’re stepping stones.

It’s infuriating to me how deeply shame is ingrained in these experiences. It’s not enough to go through something horrific—you’re then expected to carry the weight of society’s judgments on top of it. And while I wish I could wave a magic wand and erase that shame for every survivor out there, the truth is that the work of healing is messy and personal. It’s about learning, slowly and painfully, that the shame doesn’t belong to you. It never did.

So, yes, sometimes you’ll feel sorry for yourself. Sometimes you’ll cry for the person you used to be, the innocence you lost, the trust that was shattered. And that’s okay. That’s necessary. Because every tear you shed, every moment of self-pity you allow yourself, is a step toward reclaiming your narrative. It’s a way of saying, “This happened to me, but it doesn’t define me.”

Shame wants to silence you. It wants to make you believe that your pain is a burden and that your healing isn’t worth the time or effort. But feeling sorry for yourself? That’s defiance. That’s taking back your story, one small step at a time. And if anyone tries to tell you otherwise, remind them that healing is not a straight line—and neither is being human.

[katkalis-the-fanartist]

Who wants to see the progress of my finger healing after the Cat Bite ™️ that some of you may have been here for??

If you DO wanna see, its all under the cut!

BE CAREFUL I SHOW ALL THE BLOOD AND WOUNDS INCLUDING SURGICAL WOUNDS!!

Terrible day

The difference due to swelling 💀 the pain got worse and worse the bigger it swole...I couldnt bend it like at all

Heres some sorta unrelated IV inserted for any sickos/pos that like seeing needles

BACK TO THE FINGER: Post-surgery!

Now, as you can see, theres gauze in the wound. They had to rip it out. This was the worst pain I remember ever having felt. I screamed SO LOUD that everyone that came in after that with needles and such secretly feared I would scream and tried their best to make sure I didnt-

But then, the reveal!

Then healing:

And this is my finger now!

OH and there was also the second surgery and how the TOP of my finger looks now:

This surgery wasnt as entertaining

[harmoonix]

Tips to heal your Saturn/Chiron placement!!

Since Saturn and Chiron both can trigger a natives life with anxiety and a sense of security, here are some things to help you with getting better!🦋

How to heal:

Cause: overthinking - treatment: writing

Writing something when you're overthinking can help a lot! It can simply be a note from your phone or just write in a notebook how was/is your day so far when you feel overthinking

Cause: Anxiety - treatment: Mediation

When you feel like you're anxious, you can try to close your eyes and think at positive things, if you have your phone by your side try to listen to healing music because it usually works, also staying in the sun can help a lot when you're anxious

Cause: Tired - treatment: sleeping

Is really obvious for your body to feel like sleeping when you're tired, but sleeping actually helps your body so much! Especially when you're feeling sad, take a nap because when you'll wake up, you won't feel the same pain

Cause: Sadness - treatment: exercise

When you're feeling sad or low in life because we all have dark days, try to do some things that can keep your mind away from the sad feeling, play a game, play a sport, organize your room, cleaning can help too but remember that when you hold too much sadness inside of you it will burst out sometimes like you just can't hold it anymore and that's perfectly fine because for some people, crying is healing

Cause: Stress - treatment: go for a walk

Going for a walk can help when you're stressed, especially in the morning when the air is so refreshing because it can help to clean your mind, try to leave the house or go in a park/lay on the grass/look at the sky it can help!

Cause: Angry - treatment; listen to music

Maybe at the moment you won't feel like listening to music, especially after a fight or some kind of conflict, but listening to music it can help with chilling yourself after those, and always remember that the specific fight or conflict already ended so you don't have to overthink about it, is away now

Cause: Lazyness - treatment: reduce screen time

The light from our phones/pc/laptop/iPad is not healthy if you constantly spend your time on these. It is good to take a break and clear your mind after a while. Your phones light has also impacted your mood

Cause: Burnout - Treatment: Reading

Reading can help in situations of burnout. If you don't have a book by yourself when you are in such a situation, there are so many online books out there, or even audio ones try to read articles or to just text with people/friends when you feel like it.

Saturn + Chiron and the themes you need to heal/get better in your life!

Saturn/Chiron in the 1H - yourself, your body, your image

Saturn/Chiron in the 2H - your worth, finances

Saturn/Chiron in the 3H - your communication, talk more about your feelings

Saturn/Chiron in the 4H - your family, relatives, your own home

Saturn/Chiron in the 5H - your inner child, do things that make you happy

Saturn/Chiron in the 6H - your mental health, nurturing, organization

Saturn/Chiron in the 7H - your partner, your relationship or marriage, your worth to a relationship/boundaries

Saturn/Chiron in the 8H - your traumas, your past, your insecurities

Saturn/Chiron in the 9H - your faith, your beliefs, your culture, your homeland, your education

Saturn/Chiron in the 10H - your carrer, your public image, your job

Saturn/Chiron in the 11H - your friendships, your community, your dreams

Saturn/Chiron in the 12H - your subconscious, your sleep, your spiritual self,

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Remember that is perfectly fine to feel sad or angry or moody because these are our emotions and feelings at the specific moment, there is nothing with them but it can do damage on yourself when you're in these energies for too long! Remember that loving yourself matters. You matter, you are loved. Being nice with others matters as much as being nice with yourself as well! Hope this helped you guys 🦋

Harmoonix🦋🦋🦋

[ruminate88]

10/23/24 I don’t trust the world at all

I feel like you spend time just letting that person (or in my case, people) who hurt you physically go and start your journey without them physically in your life but then you have the wounds left behind to deal with and the wounds are more painful. This isn’t dramatic and you’re not crazy!!!

they say if you cared a lot about someone or were extremely empathetic, it’s a lot harder. I mean, I’m not a robot and I’m not cold. I was deeply depressed and suffering already when one of my exes told me “stop being so fragile”. They’re completely heartless!!!!! I don’t even know which ex it was because it was from a secret account. That is what they do…. They continue to find ways to hurt you.

that’s why I don’t do any social media anymore outside of this account and my music accounts. Even then, I almost respond to NO ONE out of making sure I keep myself safe. I can’t tell you when to trust the world again. I don’t see how you trust the world the same. You most likely always have to live being aware of your surroundings. (It’s exhausting though)

You can pick yourself up and carry on even when you feel the weight of the emotional wounds. You will start to feel them over time after being so numb so long. You feel start to understand yourself better and you CAN NOT beat yourself up. I have and it’s only making the process harder and longer. You gotta love and forgive yourself as you also forgive those who hurt you. Don’t stop trying to convince yourself of love and peace. Hope is alive! No, it’s never gonna be like it was before the abuse. Your life is changed unfortunately ❤️‍🩹

[enii]

Healing💕

[loveyourlovelysoul]

Maybe you had to grow up learning, even from small things and acts of carelessness, that others were more important than you, that it was never your turn to be prioritized or provided for unconditionally: it felt like you always had to prove you were worthy of such attention, and that you were too needy. I want to remind you once again that that's not true: you were only asking for what you deserved, and was due to you, but for reasons that weren't (and aren't) under your control (very likely your caregivers unhealed and uncovered traumas), you couldn't receive.

If now you really want to be loved and chosen, to be put first, but at the same time you're scared to let people in and end up in the same old situation, it's okay. It's normal to be willing to experience a certain type of love we missed and at the same time be scared of not being worthy or it not being real or for us. Remind yourself this fear is only cause by this terrible, heart shattering habit you were put under your whole life (or most of it), and it's were your unconscious mind wants to keep you cause it feels safe and known (despite it being so painful). You're deserving of love, of being chosen, of receiving all you missed. It's time to let this happen for you, let this in your life. To give yourself a chance. Maybe you won't succeed at the first try, maybe a bunch of people will still be leaving you, but please, at least choose yourself. Do everything you can to be in love with yourself and aware of your worth and lovability. Someone willing to give you the moon and all the stars, will arrive. Be faithful. It wasn't you, and it's still not you the problem.

[feminiel]

When you become aware of your vulnerabilities, they lose their power over you. Your awareness of them is enough to start the healing process of self-acceptance.

@feminiel

[eigenwoorden]

Can I just pack my bags and leave for a couple days, weeks or even months?

[suzieb-fit]

I've gone further down the "hippy dippy" rabbit hole. I've signed up for a 60 minute healing session via zoom in a couple of weeks. I was listening to a podcast on my walk this morning that spoke to me. A guy called Rob Wergin. I signed up when I got home. If you believe in something strongly enough, it can reward you!

I'm giving myself time and grace to try to recognise what my body, mind and soul is crying out for.

Today, that was plenty of time outside, good food and a kettlebell workout. A progression from the bands. But yes, I'm still taking it steady. I am not pushing myself.

I feel great. Mucus, dodgy eye and whatever else can't prevent my gratitude for the good that I feel.