#mixed personality disorder

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[Text: This system has mixed personality disorder.]

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[bpdcodone]

I don’t see why I have to follow rules I think are stupid or hinder me

[magicallybitchin]

So i have bpd and mixed personality disorder. I got bored and took tests.

Like i KNOW these arent probably very accurate but its still like wtf. Why did it do me like that?

[belovedapollo]

feeing a bit paranoid (again) 👁️ reblog is ok, don’t repost/use

[canyonroads]

“Paladin” - Avery Ro

Mixed media collage - Words by me- On angels & the schizoid

[manicpixiedreamguy]

I wish people would stop taking bipolar II less seriously than bipolar I

I saw a comment on an Instagram meme about mania making people productive that said "that's hypomania. Actual mania isn't a silly little thing" and it seriously pissed me off because hypomania isn't a silly little thing either and people need to realise saying such things is insensitive, disrespectful and harmful. And this might be a hot take but I don't think bipolar I is worse than bipolar II just like I don't think bipolar II is worse than bipolar I and the comparison makes no sense because they're both fucking hell in their own specific way (which can and does vary from person to person).

It's not the first time I see stuff like that and I do think the "memeification" and "tiktokification" of serious mental health issues led people to believe in the false notion that bipolar II is some sort of "fake bipolar" or easy to live and deal with but it's not and I think we're better than that; just because the Internet says that hypomania is cutting your own bangs in the middle of the night or dying your hair pink while being completely functional and productive in your everyday life doesn't make it true. I wish I could give you some examples of what hypomania is actually like to me but surprise surprise I don't fucking remember, all I got is some flashes of rage and sleepless nights and incoherent racing thoughts and disordered speech and substance abuse and shadow people at the corner of my eyes and being detached from reality while still somewhat being aware of it in a way that doesn't really make sense.

What does this race for who has it worse accomplish? People with bipolar II downplaying their own hypomania and ending up in a psych ward?

Stop engaging in nonsensical wars and stupid ways of thinking.

[girlyguy]

Agreed. Though with my personality disorder I don't see it as something that I celebrate as a strength as many people with adhd or autism do. For me it's almost all debuffs I get from it, very rarely does it help me shine and really be myself. Mostly what I get from it is that I avoid things that are obviously unnecessary risks. Not a lot of bravado making me do stupid shit. Instead avoidance making me do stupid shit/not do stuff I wanna do.

Yeah people don't get to decide how much empathy they are born with and how much that is nourished or punished by the people that raise them.

maybe im too woke but when neurodivergent discussions or support is not extended to personality disorders from borderline to narcissism or anti social or put too much emphasis on "being empathetic" and dismissing ppl that don't have them as if there's something inherently wrong about them I cannot interact in good faith like at all

[mamuzzy]

My BPD fear is that people don't have as much fun talking to me as I have with them, so when I see posts about online friendships and their tags, I automatically assume it's not about me and never will be about me.

[alpimerealmsystem]

Shit Changes

Shit does change, so let's talk about things I didn't support but ended up being/identifying/having.

A therian. I came across therianthropy because of a yt channel hating on it, it sounded stupid, I agreed. I got bored and looked into it after about a week, turned out, holy shit I have those experiences. My past life is an animal, and I still believe my spirit is partially one, there's a word for that?

Any sorta "obscure" kintype. For me that was voidkin, like what bullshit is voidkin? Who identifies as a void? Who identifies as a creature that doesn't exist? Those were my thoughts, but nope, voidkin.

Any sorta thing involving plurality. My only thoughts were, it's just imaginary friends, it's something that they choose, blah blah blah. Nope, you have DID, you've explained DID in perfect detail to your friends when you were 10. You're a plural system, bitch.

Endogenic systems. I seriously thought they were bullshit, not real, BUT NOPE. My original origins are completely spirtual.

Really any personality disorders. This is because of how I grew up but I never thought it was real... oh God was I wrong.

The concept of religion. This is more trauma related, but I always fucking hated it. But now, I do worship my gods, I am perfectly happy with my own beliefs.

Furries, ohhhh I hated furries because of 6th grade. In sixth grade I jokingly made cat sounds and everyone called me a furry and that's sorta why I hated them but I'm technically a furry so-

XENOGENDERS- oh my God I always was like "neo pronouns are such bullshit" and shit like that, no, no fuck you child me.

GAYYY, again similar to the one above, "dating the same gender goes against what we're made for" fuck that. I'd gladly "defy the rules of nature" if it means I could be with a woman

Making this post so y'all can know, shit changes. Your beliefs can change. Your thoughts can change. It's fine, seriously. Shit happens, you won't stay the same. Hell, even your needs won't be the same, so just live your life. Be happy with who and what you are. I'm not forcing my beliefs on anyone, but this is how I've changed over the years.

[eeriemilyworlds]

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[bpdcodone]

Just realized whilst high rn that if someone really hates me it’s the ultimate form of supply I mean enough to them that they can’t stop hating me, I occupy there mind

[batfamfucker]

There are four main types of Batfam fans in regard to how people interpret Bruce Wayne as a dad (/Joking. This is mostly satire and should not be taken seriously):

Fans that think Bruce is emotionally constipated and isn't the best at being a parent but still tries (Differs per person). Don't necessarily think he's absuive but thinks he can be toxic or have unhealthy expectations for the Robins. Can smell the Oldest Daughter Syndrome coming from Dick and have Family Line (By Conan Gray) as their top song on their Dick inspired playlist and Daddy Issues (By The Neighbourhood) for Jason.

Fans that choose to believe Bruce goes to therapy in their own canon. Love B:WFA. Thinks the comic can be cheesy at times and so find a balance between B:WFA Bruce and Please Go To Therapy BruceTM as their middle ground. He struggles. They advocate that Bruce is not a bad parent, he just has bad writers that seem to forget Bruce wouldn't hurt kids, especially not his own. Love the humane moments and scenes he has in BTAS and the early JL cartoons. He may not be perfect but he's not literally abusive. Whores for Bruce being able to admit when he is wrong and for Jason and Bruce reconciling. I recommend Grow As We Go by Ben Platt for this one.

A mix between the first two. Was fine-ish when Dick was younger. Didn't help him in the healthiest way but eh. Still emotionally constipated but that happened more so after Dick left and Jason died. Started getting better when Tim came back but was still closed off. Should probably go to therapy with the kids so they can drag his ass about all the things he's done that have actually affected them negatively. Understands his mistakes and is also able to admit when he's wrong, eventually. It's not easy but he starts to do better and learns to be more emotionally available. Still has to get chewed out by Alfred sometimes but definitely better than he used to be and it shows. Reconciliation is slow and gradual but progress is made for everyone involved.

The one's I personally avoid for my own sanity and wellbeing:

Think Bruce is a complete bastard and abuser. Want him to choke. Hate any and all interpretations of him. Some of which will refuse to understand how anyone could have a different interpretation. Will point out comics where, in all fairness, he is a dick but forget that characterisation can significantly differ from one series to the next, as comic characters are constantly passed around to different writers and have been for decades. Not to mention movies, shows, etc.

[burningsolarsystem]

This was originally gonna be a vent post, but one of my headmates actually gave me some good advice I felt like sharing. So I guess it's gonna be a mix of both.

Tw: talks of SH and relapsing. Implied toxic family member

I was pretty close to relapsing (still kinda am, but definitely less) and it was over something kinda stupid. I was washing dishes and there was a pan? Tray? Idk what you would call it. But it was stainless steel or some other kind of shiny metal. And I. Used. A fucking. Scratchpad. A fucking scratchpad. And now it has scratch marks on it.

That's not what has me ready to relapse. It's the pure anxiety running through me cuz my dad is going to be pissed. I'm praying he doesn't notice or something. But I'm panicking. And in my panicking, my brain decided I should punish myself for my stupidity. My headmate pointed out that it wouldn't achieve anything, to which I argued that it would make me feel better. I thought about how it would take away the anxiety, how it would numb the fear and panic. But then they pointed out something.

I was hesitating. I was panicking and debating over whether I should do it. I was arguing about why I should, but I was still debating it. If it would actually make me feel better, why was I so torn over the decision? Why would I hesitate?

And it just stopped me in my tracks because they were right. If it would make me feel better, why would I question whether or not I should? If it was the right choice, why would I hesitate? It put things in perspective for me. Besides, I know it wouldn't make me feel better. Maybe temporarily, but that anxiety and guilt that came with it would come back.

But the way they explained it is what really drilled it into my head.

Idk. Just wanted to share. Both to vent over the situation and also in case my headmate's advice might help someone.

Have an existence.

[hyggehooligan]

Seeking: BPD (borderline personality disorder) information and resources; for individuals and loved ones

I was diagnosed this year at age 39 and my wife and I are still trying to figure things out and learn as much as we can.

I'd be very appreciative for suggestions of books or other media or things to check out to help us navigate this diagnosis; for me as a person as well as both of us together as a team. I feel very lucky to have a good relationship with my psych and my therapist so I'll be asking them as well.

Thank you so much!

Pic of my beasts for your enjoyment 🤓

[pluralhottakes]

the recent pro-endo move/trend to try and "prove" endogenic plurality via the DSM has actually only worsened the problem of

(A) psychologizing plurality and (B) brushing off spiritual plurality unless using it as a "gotcha" towards anti-endos

like. why are you trying to use the DSM. you're only validating the idea that the DSM is what defines what is "possible" in the psyche, and even if you point at the mention of plurality in spirituality and culture, are you actually saying that because you care about spiritual plurality and plurals whose existence is derived from spirituality and metaphysics, or are you saying it's one of the only explicit places where non-traumagenic plurality is mentioned in the context of being non-disordered?

i get that it can be validating for some people, but even if the DSM didn't support non-traumagenic, non-disordered plurality (which, btw, it didn't for a long time), why should that matter? why should the words of a book written by people who are not like us, who likely have not talked to us to understand our experiences in-depth, be taken as the truth?

the DSM does not and should not define what is and is not possible. especially when it comes to spiritual and metaphysical plurality, which is inherently going to be so fucking personal in how it intersects with psychology (if it even does!) in ways that cannot be measured beyond "this is how these people experience their reality".

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