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Oh wow, thank you so much! I would like to request zenitsu with a s/o who has body image issues, If thatâs ok. I remembered that theyâre all buff, not just inosuke (which would be really funny if he was the only ripped one) but it just made me hyper-aware of my own body, even though Iâve been told my weight is fine. Once again thank you very very much and have a very happy holidays! -đ
Heyo friend! My deepest apologies, I've been meaning to write this for the longest time but wanted to wait until I was in a good mental health space to do it. I can relate to this issue as well; especially the hyper fixation part. It's not an easy journey to work through, and I wish I could say something that makes everything easier- but all I can really say is you're not alone feeling this way, and that no matter how your body looks, it's valid the way it is. <3
(And 100% agree- we need more squishy slayers! I get their training leads to them having more buff bodies but I want squish! I want pudgy bellies and thick thighs dang it!) I hope I did your prompt justice friend <3
((Not gonna tag list peeps this one due to the content warnings below))
CW: Body image issues, self worth issues, mentions of eating disorders, insecurity, food, angst, hurt/comfort
It shouldnât bother you so much.
Inosuke was always shirtless- saying something about clothes dulling his senses. There werenât any rules against him going without, and if it really did affect his combat skills, it was better this way.
Still, it didnât make you feel any better, pressing your arms tighter against your stomach as you watched him stretch. His build was so muscular and toned- his body giving him the extra âoomphâ he needed to perform the moves he does. It was what you deemed to be the ideal body type for the Demon Corps.
And youâŚwell. Weren't that.
Your body was fine, according to Lady Kocho. Everything worked as it should, and you were able to keep up with the boys during training and whatnot. Things were on a smooth track, as she put it.
Still, you couldnât help but feel...less, seeing not just Inosuke, but both Tanjiro and Zenitsu so ripped. They were developing hard muscles as visual evidence of their efforts. When they took their shirts off, you could tell just by looking at them they were Corp members.
You pressed more firmly against the soft parts of your torso, something cold and unpleasant setting in your gut as you came to the realization that even if you worked your absolute hardest, it's never likely you'll never look like them.
â(Y/N)? Are you okay?â Tanjiroâs voice made you gasp and look up, finding his concerned eyes. âYou look like youâre gonna throw up- is your stomach hurting?â
âMaybe they ate too much.â Inosuke piped up. It was such a meaningless comment, but it still felt like a dagger in your heart.
âInosuke, hush.â Tanjiro scowled, but the damage was already done.
âThatâs probably it! I just overate.â You put on what you hoped to be a smile as you straightened up, arms still guarding your stomach. âIâm gonna go see if Miss Kocho has medicine- bye!â You twisted so hard dust puffed around your feet, racing into the manor as Tanjiro called after you. Thankfully no one was following- it felt like permission to let the tears fall.
On your way in, you didnât see Zenitsu watching you.
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âMaybe I should cut back..â You murmured softly, slumped away in a spare room as you wiped your tear stained cheeks. You likely looked a mess- eyes puffy and face hot. It was a miracle no one came by to hear you sobbing alone. âWill that help me look like them?â
As if fate hated you, your stomach growled. You pushed your hand against it with a bitter thought. âDonât even start. I need to do this.â
âDo what, exactly?â You yelped when you heard a voice, looking up to find Zenitsu. In his hands he had an assortment of things- a box of tissues, two ice cubes in a cup, andâŚ
Oh no. âIâm not..â You began, only for your stomach to growl at the sight of the onigiri. Zenitsu raised a brow.
âYou are.â He chided, coming over and sitting down. After offering the tissues to clean up with, he handed you the cup of ice. âThese are good for swollen eyes. I know- I cry all the time.â He smiled, puffing some when you let out a weak giggle.
âI guess youâd know all the tricks to things like this.â You took the ice, wincing some at the chill. âThanks, Zen.â
âHm.â The blonde nodded, watching you circle your eyes with the chilly cubes. âHowâs your stomach?â
âHuh?â You dropped a cube, watching it bounce away. âMy what?â
He stared at you. You felt your face get hot. âShootâŚyou knew that was a lie, huh?â
âI am your partner, (Y/N).â He reminded gently, frowning when you dipped your head. âDo you wanna talk about it? Youâve been looking so down recently- I want to help if I can.â
âI donât think you could.â You sank further, hating how your stomach began to really hurt. Zenitsu, noticing this, offered you the rice balls.
âI donât want them.â You shook your head.
âYour stomach hurts cause you havenât eaten since this morning.â
âI can skip meals.â
âThatâs not safe.â
âSo what? If it means I can finally look like a proper slayer, Iâll do it!â You snapped, voice raising. Then you fell silent as you realized what you just said. Zenitsu blinked at you a few times.
â...What?â He stared, watching you tear up. â(Y/N)...â
âS-Sorry. That didnât- I didnât want to say that..â You sniffed, hating how close to tears you were today. âJust forget about it. Iâm being stupid.â
Zenitsu stared at you before putting down the rice balls, scooting closer and reaching out. â(Y/N)..â You leaned away, and he let his hand fall back to his lap. âAre you starving yourself?â
âNoâŚI just thought about it.â You confessed, unable to look at him. âI overeat, so I thought if I stopped eating lunch, maybe all this extra fat would go away.â You looked down at your stomach, tearing up again. âThen Iâll look like you guys. Iâll have muscles. I'll finally look like a real slayer..."
Zenitsu was quiet for a bit, seemingly stunned silent. Then he turned so he was facing you properly. â(Y/N), can I have your hand?â
You peeked at him, watching as he tugged up his shirt. âWhy..â
âPlease?â He asked again, eyes serious. You decided to give in and let him take your hand. He brought it to his torso, pushing it against his stomach. âCan you feel it?â
âI..â You didnât really know what you were feeling. It felt like a body- warm beneath your touch. The whole thing was a bit embarrassing- your face heated up again at the thought of somebody walking in on you. âZen, I donât know what Iâm supposed to feel.â
âSure you do. Itâs my squish.â He nodded proudly, watching you blink in confusion. âEven when I gained all these muscles youâve mentioned, Iâm still soft. You have muscles too. They might not as visible, but they're there."
He was in fact soft. You pressed in, something oddly satisfying about the gesture. Zenitsu jerked and doubled over with a giggle, making you smile. âS-Sehee? Iâm squishy. We all are.â
âBut Inosuke..â
âInosukeâs squishy too. He might not look it, but he is.â He released your hand, opting to hold it gently within his own. âJust because youâre not crazy ripped with no squish doesnât make you any less of a Slayer. You donât need your muscles to show to prove your worth. You've already done that just by being you. You're courageous, smart, kind.."
You felt your eyes water again, this time for a new reason. âZen..â
"Really attractive." He winked, making you snort through your tears. âYou're perfect the way you are. Forget about skipping meals, okay? Itâs dangerous. What if you pass out mid-breathing technique with a demon? I don't-I can't lose you.â Zenitsu pulled the onigiri out, bringing it to your lips. âYou eat fine- don't change for the sake of visuals."
Your stomach growled again, and you finally took a bite. The rice was seasoned and fluffy, and the filling was your favorite. You almost cried again at the taste. âThank you..â
âEat first. Thank me later.â Zenitsu smiled as you carried on eating, reaching out and grabbing a thermos. You didnât see him with it earlier- he must have had it stashed away. âI brought tea too. No, I didnât brew it- I wasnât gonna make you feel worse.â
You nearly choked on your food as you laughed, smiling behind your fist as Zenitsu poured a cup for you. âHohohow coohohnsiderate!"
âYeah, I'm like that sometimes.â He grinned, relaxing as you sipped your tea. âI love you too much to let you die my attempts at making tea."
âNew breathing technique unlocked- poison tea. Quick, let's go tell Lady Kocho.â You giggled, watching him start to smile. Before long, the two of you were laughing freely, falling into each other as you laughed yourselves breathless.
You are truly grateful to have someone like him in your life.
Thanks for reading!
#demon slayer#tanjiro kamado#zenitsu agatsuma#reader insert#inosuke hashibira#x reader#zenitsu x reader#tw: body insecurity#tw: eating disorders mentioned#tw: eating issues#tw: self worth issues#angst#hurt/comfort#food#I felt this one in my core so it was nice to write it out you know?
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weight loss tip: just stop caring about food
ik itâs hard AF because all we do is think about food BUT if you trick your brain into believing you donât care about it, itâs a lot easier to restrict since ur apetite goes away
how i do it:
- donât plan my meals too much
- donât think about what iâll eat in the future
- all this is accomplished through gas lighting myself
- i pretty much just repeat to myself âi donât really careâ anytime i go to eat
- ânot caring about somethingâ means you donât really want it, you donât care if itâs there, you even prefer if itâs not because itâs just an annoying task
- the non planning thing makes choosing what iâll eat overwhelming, so i just give up đ
- i distract myself, i go do something else
- this works if you donât care about health, macros and shit like that! youâll probably not be getting a lot of nutrition, this is something a lot of junkorexics do
- this also works better if you have good knowledge about how many calories everything has, since ur not pre-planning
idk if any of this made sense but yea
#tw ed ana#tw ana rant#tw ana bløg#@na motivation#disordered eating mention#i just want to be thin#4n@diary#4nerex1a#4nor3xia#low cal meal
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pls donât flirt with me i want to be nonchalant so bad but i unfortunately crave connection so intensely that i will give you my entire soul and forgive you over and over until iâve lost myself completely and feel like iâm drowning
#bpd safe#bpd thoughts#bpd vent#bpd#mentally exhausted#actually bpd#sadgirl#depressing shit#mental health#mental illness#mentally fucked#mentally unstable#disordered eating mention#actually mentally ill#sad thoughts#self h@rm#suic1de#bpd stuff#substance addiction#substance abuse#shitpost#addiction#bpd feels#borderline personality disorder#tw depressing thoughts#girls who do hard drugs#ed culture#eating disoder trigger warning#sadnees#actually borderline
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if nicocado avocado can do it, so can i
#tw ana bløg#tw ed ana#trans ed#@tw edd#ed but not ed sheeran#light as a feather#4nor3xia#4norexla#tw ana rant#ana progress#4n0rexic#4n4buddy#4n4blr#tw restriction#eating disoder trigger warning#disordered eating mention#disordered eating cw#ed friends#tw eating issues#i just want to be thin#just using tags#justwater4me#3d not sheeran#notpro4n4#@n@ diary#anorexla#ana friend#@na vent#tw 3d vent#tw ed bllog
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busy girls are skinny girls. GET MOVING!!!
#i just want to be thin#low cal diet#pro for me not for thee#light as a feather#âď¸rving#thinspø#tw ed but not sheeran#@na motivation#th1nsp1ration#tw ana bløg#tw thinspi#tw restriction#disordered eating mention#low cal restriction#low cal meal#ana tip#ana miaa#i need to lose this weight#i hate my body#pro4ana#anadiet#ana buddie#an0rec1a#ed relapse#tw th*nsp0#meanspø#meanspir0
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I feel like people should understand that not every person with an ed is always underweight or even at a normal weight. People with ed's are all shapes and sizes and still suffering
#@na vent#@nor3Ă14#bulimima#thinspø#ed relapse#âď¸ve#bul1m1c#bul1mic#bul1m14#tw ed sheeran#st4rv1ng#âď¸vation goals#âď¸rving#âď¸ ing motivation#st4rv3#st4rve me#4norexla#4n4blr#4nor3xia#4n0rexic#4n4rexia#ed br#tw edtwt#tw ed but not sheeran#tw eating issues#@tw edd#eating disoder trigger warning#disordered eating mention#tw 3d vent#3d di3t
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The only spooky thing haunting me this Halloween is my weight
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Me pulling the weirdest positions near food so I can see the nutrition labels without looking suspicious
#3d memes#ana is my life#disordered eating mention#eating disoder trigger warning#ed relapse#pro for me not for thee#tw ed but not sheeran#i will reach my ugw#light as a feather#tw ed sheeran#toxic weight loss
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Did you guys hear about the girl that died from overeating??!!! I heard there was some Chinese muckbanger who died on live stream after doing a 10 hour muckbang.. they said her stomach ripped open.. I'm NEVER eating after thisss!
Ultimate horror story this year
Stay safe lovesss and DON'T BINGE !!
#disordered eating mention#eating disoder trigger warning#light as a feather#light as a đŞś#âď¸ ing motivation#âď¸ve#âď¸rving#thinneristhewinner#tw 3d vent#tw ana bløg#tw ana rant#tw ed ana#tw skipping meals#tw eating issues#tw 3d diet#tw 3d in the tags#tw b1nge#tw disordered thoughts#ed but not ed sheeran#ed blogg#3d diary
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camera roll 1nsp0 dump !! ~ â
#4norexla#tw ana bløg#disordered eating mention#light as a feather#tw ed ana#tw ana rant#i just want to be thin#th!n$p0#thiinsp0#3d but not sheeren#thinspø#thinneristhewinner#thinsperation#th1n$pø#th1n th1ghs#th1nspi#th1gh g@p#th1nnsp0#th1ghspø#th1nspø#i wanna be sk1nn1#skinandbones#eating disoder trigger warning#i want to lose weight#weight loss#wl#tw eating issues#i want to be pretty#thinspiraton#anørexia
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if you wanna be a star you must burn
#disordered eating mention#ed but not ed sheeran#âď¸ve#disordered eating cw#eating disoder trigger warning#healthy eating#i wanna be sk1nn1#tw ed ana#tw ana rant#anoreksik#anor3c1a#tw ana bløg#4n@diary#4n4rexia#4norexla#4nor3xia#lana del rey
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The guilt I feel after a binge is not really about weight...
It is more of a "I failed myself" guilt.
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#bpd safe#bpd thoughts#bpd vent#bpd#mentally exhausted#actually bpd#sadgirl#depressing shit#mental health#mental illness#mentally fucked#mentally unstable#actually mentally ill#disordered eating mention#self h@rm#suic1de#bpd stuff#substance addiction#sad thoughts#substance abuse#anxienty#addiction#actually borderline#shitpost#trauma#eating disoder trigger warning#ed culture#bpd feels#tw depressing thoughts#tw drugs
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what annoys me about eating disorder spaces is that everyone seems to be able to sleep and do drugs all day instead of eating? I go to college I can't just smoke that shit every time I want to eat a donut.
not to be a hater because if that works for people that's great, it's not like I'm against sharing tips, but it's just so different from my reality that i feel the need to post about it
#3d not sheeran#34t1ng d1s0rd3r#âď¸vation goals#3ating d1sorder#disordered eating mention#tw eating issues#ed but not ed sheeran#st4rv3#starv1ng#tw ana bløg#light as a đŞś#đŻď¸ as a đŞś#tw ana rant#4norexla#4n4blr#4nor3xia
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all i want is thin legs đđ
#4norexla#disordered eating mention#eating disoder trigger warning#i want to lose weight#no eating#weight goals#weight loss#âď¸rving#âď¸ ing motivation#tw weight#need to lose more weight#lose weight tips
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