#avpd + autism

[avpdcultureis]

avpd + autism culture is not allowing yourself to unmask and simply be because your inner critic is watching, and it says that unmasking and relaxing, that being your authentic self even when behind closed doors is embarrassing and wrong and your making a fool of yourself.

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[ppd-culture-is]

Stop saying differently abled when you mean disabled.

Stop saying gifted burnt out kid when you mean disabled.

Stop saying the c-slur when you mean disabled.

Stop saying 'super power' when you mean disabled.

Stop saying senile when you mean disabled.

Stop saying special needs when you mean needs for someone who is disabled.

Start saying disabled when you mean disabled.

Disability isn't, nor will it ever be, a dirty word. The only reason you think it's dirty is because you walked on it with muddy shoes.

[roachie-paradise]

line-up of all disorder creatures i know of!!!!! !!!

i love the silly silly creatures sm

credits ;;

schizospec creature (the irl) by @thenullepisode

stpd creature (the brb) by @thenearsightedmicroraptor

npd creature (the imo) by @/imnotherelmao

avpd creature (the brb) by ME!!!

bpd creature (the kms) by @mentallyillanimal

hpd creature (the wyd) by @mentallyillanimal

aspd creature (the idc) by @mentallyillanimal

autism creature (the tbh) by @/princestarangel

adhd creature (the btw) by also the same person as above? correct me if im wrong <:3

and tagging @telephone-blights who watched me draw these sillies

[gradivpd]

Me after hanging out with friends:

Omg I had such I great time with you all however after analyzing our conversation I’ve come to the conclusion that you all didn’t want me there and hate me... Same time next month?

[aavpdyapping]

maintaining relationships, any type, feels like treading water. it's something that I'm capable of, but the second that I stop Actively And Conciously Making Myself Do It, I start to sink, and everything floats away. I have to drag myself back to the surface to get it all back, and if I get tired again then I lose it all again. Another metaphor could be the guy whos always rolling that boulder up that mountain. idk. Its just so easy to suddenly lose everything and watch relationships fall apart and not know how to fix them and keep them fixed

[shabbyshoebox]

Texting in theory: communication with friends! So fun! Memes! Talk talk talk! ❤️✨

Texting in practice: Oh god I don't have the energy to reply right now, I'm currently in Task Mode not Talk Mode so there is currently no battery allocated for socializing atm. Oh it's been too long, do they think I hate them? If I reply will I have to stay engaged in conversation for a few seconds? Half an hour? How long will this conversation be? When is it okay to step away and do something else? Will they think I hate them if I go too long without responding again? I don't hate them, I love them, I need to figure out how to do this. What tone did they intend this in? How do I ask what tone they meant without coming across as rude? How can I respond in a way that cannot possibly be construed as passive aggressive/rude/dismissive? I want to stay engaged with the task I'm doing, I don't want to go back and forth and back and forth and back and forth. I really really enjoy it when I'm in the right "Mode" but each notification feels like an obligation. Why does this feel like a chore? I like talking to my friends, why doesn't it feel like talking to my friends? Why do I feel trapped? Why do I avoid people I love? Oftentimes I'm not even "doing" anything when I don't respond, I'm just in "non social" mode. Even if I know I'll enjoy talking once I get started every unopened message feels like a burden. I shouldn't see texts from people I love this way, I should be happy, they want to talk to me and they love me. Why can't I just be normal about this, why can't I stop avoiding every damn thing?

[yrfavehasdpd]

martin blackwood from the magnus archives has dpd!

art by boggmann | flag | submissions open!

[avpdcultureis]

AVPD + Autistic culture is ignoring someone's messages after running out of social battery and then hating your fucking self for doing it and ghosting them forever after because of the overwhelming fear

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[avoidant-dreams]

the ADHD/autistic and avpd combo of not even bothering to share things about your interests that you've spent months and years obsessing over. your memory is so bad that someone else will have more knowledge than you who isn't even half as into the thing as you, hell they may even have a surface level amount of knowledge or have seen the thing once and be able to recall more facts and information than you can in speech. so as to avoid the crippling RSD of knowing next to nothing about your interests or constantly getting things wrong about it, you just learn to shut up and keep them private. (with that being said, a lot of the time this isn't actually an issue as avpd makes me not want to share anything anyways lmao)

[avpdculture]

avpd + autism culture is

being desperate to live alone and not talk to anybody and finally not annoying people anymore, being as independent and anonymous as possible, throwing up at the thought of living with anybody or even near anybody I know, but at the same time being too autistic to probably ever live alone, let alone have a stable job.

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[turtlesystem]

🐢✩°｡ ⋆ Introduction

Hello, we are the Turtle System! (@theturtlesystem on Simply Plural.) Collectively, we are 17 years old, a queer guy, and use he/him. We speak Korean, English, and French (with varying proficiencies)! In general, our littles understand Korean best while with our older alters, some are monolingual while others are trilingual.

We are a diagnosed DID system based in the United States (please save us). We are also autistic and highly appreciate tone indicators.

Disorders

The asterisk * means that a professional has confirmed the presence of these.

• DID*

• Autism*

• Generalized anxiety disorder*

• Major depressive disorder*

• C-PTSD* (not officially a diagnosis in the DSM-5, but several therapists have referred to us using this model)

• Possible personality disorder and OCD

As this is an anonymous mental health centered blog, we are comfortable with this information being in the open.

Anyone is welcome to interact with our posts in a respectful manner. It’s pretty easy to see what kind of blog this is with a few scrolls. Considering how we’re in a relatively quiet corner of the Internet (and using tags specifically for that), it’s unlikely that anything too crazy will happen. I would be thoroughly surprised if a Trump supporter walked into my askbox, for instance.

Our askbox and DMs are open. You are more than welcome to introduce yourself in response to this post, too! We like making mutuals and friends. Some alters are more talkative than others.

Fanfiction sideblog: @turtlesystemwrites

Interests

Note: These interests may not apply to all alters! This is just a generalization of the system.

Politics, advocacy, social justice — that’s something we bring up often!

History — ties into the former interest. We also like collecting facts about various civilizations and their cultures.

Marvel — we especially love the Avengers and Daredevil! We also enjoy the X-Men, although we are less informed about them. This interest centers around the personalities, backstories, and interactions of characters.

Tolkien — The Hobbit, LOTR, The Silmarillion, etc! Everything Middle Earth/Arda-related makes us super happy. This interest is equal in focus on characters and setting.

Playing video games — Stardew Valley, Legend of Zelda, Animal Crossing, Minecraft, Tomodachi Life, Marvel Rivals, etc. We’re a lot more interested in the gameplay aspect than the story though.

Star Wars — this interest is more setting-focused. Anything with large-scale worldbuilding is so satisfying.

Linguistics — we like studying languages and creating ones of our own!

Science — perfect for collecting eclectic facts that explain situations and phenomena of various types.

Art — 2-D illustration is so fun! Our host intends to pursue a career in it. Different alters have different art styles. We may or may not have an art-exclusive account.

Writing — narrative writing, worldbuilding, essays/dissertations; several alters find this fun.

👥✩°｡ ⋆ Alters

Our system has groups, subsystems, and sidesystems. Here’s the difference between the two (for us):

A group is a term used to, as the name says, “group” alters who have the same type of role together. These alters still have dissociative barriers between them and are entirely distinct from one another.

A subsystem is a set of alters that are more closely linked (variants of each other, etc.) and therefore have lower dissociative barriers. The alters in a subsystem are capable of fusing or separating.

A sidesystem is a set of alters separated from the rest of the system with larger dissociative barriers. They feel the most like entirely separate people, almost as if they do not belong in the collective (nor originate from there).

Note: Not every alter appears on this platform.

🧪 Gamma Subsystem

We are a subset of alters who form what resembles a “core” identity. We consist of the host and his variants (parts that he is sometimes able to split into and separate from).

🐸; YJ (Root)

Species: human, otherkin

Orientation: boy, he/bun

Age: teenager, sometimes regresses to toddler age

Role(s): symptom holder, host, presenting part, documents information

Interests: literally everything the subsystem is interested in, combined

Hobbies: art, worldbuilding, video games, puzzles

🧬; Bruce-199999 (Variant)

Species: human, otherkin, mutated by radiation

Orientation: boy, he/bun

Age: varies, is either a young adult or an older (middle aged) adult; sometimes regresses to infant age

Role(s): Dr. Banner (Marvel) kintype, information holder, symptom holder

Interests: biology, organic chemistry, particle physics, mathematics, anarchism, social justice

Hobbies: researching, writing dissertations (that he never quite gets around to finishing), drawing, video games

🍃; Maple (Variant)

Species: Nandor and Sindar elf

Orientation: boy, he/leaf

Age: 1,020 years old, teenager by human standards, does not regress

Role(s): Legolas (LOTR) kintype, evolved from a Ping (Mulan 1998) kintype, amnesia holder, social host, conflict resolver

Interests: ecology, video games

Hobbies: reading, doodling, writing (storytelling, worldbuilding)

🌌; Luke (Variant)

Species: spacekin, starkin

Orientation: boy, he/star

Age: undefined, although he can regress to ~8 years old

Role(s): partial Luke Skywalker introject from childhood, executes plans and decisions, helps with day-to-day function, emotion neutralizer

Interests: astronomy, anything art-related, comics, science fiction, human culture

Hobbies: art (drawing, painting, sculpting), video games

👁️‍🗨️ Medians Group

We are alters closely related to YJ but not members of the Gamma Subsystem. We border between being variants of him and fully separate alters.

🍓; Elio

Species: human

Orientation: boy, he/him

Age: young adult, does not regress

Role(s): partial introject,

Interests: anime

Hobbies: scrolling through Pinterest

🐳; William

Species: human, rabbitkin

Orientation: boy, he/bun

Age: infant, constantly regressed

Role(s): little, innocence holder

Interests: science stuff, coloring, and cartoons 

Hobbies: napping, LEGOs, playing with toys :)

🥊 Fighter Group

We are protectors who hold trauma. We work together to minimize any future damage.

🚨; Arlo

Species: human, otherkin

Orientation: genderfluid, they/he/she/xe

Age: teenager, does not regress

Role(s): protector, anger holder, trauma holder, nightmare haver

Interests: global events, politics, alt fashion

Hobbies: doodling, writing (ranting), arguing with the air, urban exploring

👹; Matthew

Species: human

Orientation: man, he/him

Age: ~21 years old

Role(s): protector, trauma holder

Interests: moral quandaries

Hobbies: debating (and winning), sending people brainrot and disappearing, jumping around (?)

👽; Mace

Species: gray alien from Mars

Orientation: boy, he/xe

Age: 13-18

Role(s): anger holder, trauma holder, age slider

Interests: scene/emo culture, cars, Invader Zim

Hobbies: playing Roblox, Geometry Dash, and Minecraft, making bad jokes, doodling

🤲 Helpers Group

We are alters who nurture the system.

🐻; Spencer

Species: human

Orientation: man, he/him

Age: ~30 years old

Role(s): protector -> caretaker

Interests: activism, homesteading (the dream)

Hobbies: thinking about living in a peaceful rural area  

🦀; June

Species: human

Orientation: lavender boy, they/he

Age: ~13 years old

Role(s): protector, maturity holder

Interests: poetry, bike-riding, walking, ichthyology (fish!)

Hobbies: looking at the moon, feeling plants

🌖 Seraphs Group

We are a set of alters that identify as celestial beings.

🪽; Stephàn

Species: biblically accurate angel, wings and all

Orientation: masculine (does not use human gender labels), he/it

Age: old. enough said.

Role(s): caretaker but in the weird uncle sense, gatekeeper of memories

Interests: K-Pop, rap music (?!) 

Hobbies: karaoke, calligraphy

♾️; Vera

Species: embodiment of the cosmos

Orientation: no labels apply, they/it

Age: immortal, eternal

Role(s): protector, symptom neutralizer

Interests: methods of escaping the flesh prison that is the human form 

Hobbies: laying in bed

🎃; “These Guys” Sidesystem

We’re just hanging around?

💠; Tony

Species: human

Orientation: man, he/him

Age: some kind of adult

Role(s): caretaker, mood booster

Interests: I don’t stop to think about that enough

Hobbies: building cool shit

❔Miscellaneous

We don’t belong to any group, subsystem, or sidesystem, although we do work in conjunction with other alters.

🏙️; Clark

Species: superpowered human

Orientation: man, he/him

Age: young adult

Role(s): protector

Interests: action movies, video game mechanics

Hobbies: video games (Marvel Rivals)

🐶; Logan

Species: canine

Orientation: boy, he/him

Age: ~10 years old, perpetually regressed

Role(s): little, innocence holder

Interests: eating grass

Hobbies: climbing places, running around, and trespassing

🍮; Argyle

Species: human

Orientation: unlabeled, they/he

Age: ~30 years old, does not regress

Role(s): symptom neutralizer, symptom holder, former academic host, historical introject

Interests: western history

Hobbies: writing

[mogai-headcanons]

icon id: 16 icons in 8 pairs. in each pair, both icons have the listed flags in order in the background and the left icon has an image of the listed character with a white outline and a black shadow. end id.

banner id: a 1500x150 teal banner with the words ‘please read my dni before interacting’ in large white text in the center. end id.

[Note: these headcanons were sent in before the release of Refraction Girl, so the diagnoses listed in these edits may be different from the diagnoses implied or made canon in that update!]

Disposable Girl from The Post-Traumatic Manifesto is an autistic pupgender autigender aroflux gaybian turigirl therian who canonically has ADHD, BPD, C-PTSD, and AVPD, canonically uses she/her and it/its pronouns, and also uses paw/paws pronouns!

Irreverent Girl is a demisexual lesbian paragirl who canonically has SZPD, OCD, DP/DR, and hypercalculia and canonically uses she/her, co/cos, and one/ones pronouns!

Splitter Girl is a polyamorous bisexual cis girl who canonicaly has ADHD, IBS, NPD, ASPD, and social anxiety and canonically uses she/her pronouns only!

Fainéant Girl is a multiply disabled autistic nonbinary unlabeled sapphic who canonically has ME/CFS, STPD, fibromyalgia, depression, endometriosis, and gastroparesis and canonically uses she/her and they/them pronouns!

Caliber Girl is a canonically autistic transhet canon trans woman who canonically has OCPD and P-DID, is recovering from canon anorexia, and canonically uses she/her pronouns only!

Chocolate-Box Girl is a canonically autistic loveless aro caedosexual person with canon BPD and OCD who canonically uses she/her, he/him, and it/its pronouns!

Taxidermy Girl is an intersex canonically two-spirit person with BPD, DPD, and hypersexuality who canonically uses she/her, he/him, and they/them pronouns and also uses luna/lunas pronouns!

Chemical Girl is a canonically autistic hard-of-hearing femme genderfaunet polyamorous bi lesbian mesque who is canonically cluster B, has NPD, BPD, and anxiety, and canonically uses she/her pronouns!

dni link

[roguetheflowerchild]

Moving out at 18 because you have no choice for your mental health is a lot

[godking-bomby]

I feel, like most children, I had a never-ending curiosity and a ravenous need to understand the world around me, but this was often punished as disobedience or disrespect in my family. They were often annoyed with me, maybe because they didn’t have the answers to my questions, or they didn’t want to go through the effort of explaining things in a way a child could understand.

As a result, I don’t know how to harness my curiosity/have much of a desire to harness my curiosity, and have a fear so deep of almost everything, including myself, that it is often completely paralyzing.

[avpdcultureis]

avpd + autism culture is being completely unable to make friends or have any kind of social life and dying from loneliness because of it

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[avoidant-dreams]

i wish I could feel like I fit in somewhere

when I hang out with people I just can't relate to anything that they say, the things that worry them are so far from what worries me, the disconnect is so huge, it's not even playing trauma bingo I just can't relate to their life at all and it's like that with so many people, like to feel so fundamentally different from others whilst craving to fit in somewhere is exhausting