#texting anxiety

[shabbyshoebox]

Texting in theory: communication with friends! So fun! Memes! Talk talk talk! ❤️✨

Texting in practice: Oh god I don't have the energy to reply right now, I'm currently in Task Mode not Talk Mode so there is currently no battery allocated for socializing atm. Oh it's been too long, do they think I hate them? If I reply will I have to stay engaged in conversation for a few seconds? Half an hour? How long will this conversation be? When is it okay to step away and do something else? Will they think I hate them if I go too long without responding again? I don't hate them, I love them, I need to figure out how to do this. What tone did they intend this in? How do I ask what tone they meant without coming across as rude? How can I respond in a way that cannot possibly be construed as passive aggressive/rude/dismissive? I want to stay engaged with the task I'm doing, I don't want to go back and forth and back and forth and back and forth. I really really enjoy it when I'm in the right "Mode" but each notification feels like an obligation. Why does this feel like a chore? I like talking to my friends, why doesn't it feel like talking to my friends? Why do I feel trapped? Why do I avoid people I love? Oftentimes I'm not even "doing" anything when I don't respond, I'm just in "non social" mode. Even if I know I'll enjoy talking once I get started every unopened message feels like a burden. I shouldn't see texts from people I love this way, I should be happy, they want to talk to me and they love me. Why can't I just be normal about this, why can't I stop avoiding every damn thing?

[anxietyfrappuccino]

why is texting so hard but not but so freaking difficult but not but awful but not but so incredibly fuxking nerveing

[littlepurplenerds]

immediately putting my phone on dnd after texting him and feeling extreme anxiety is not the slay i think it is

[eauxna]

the epic highs and lows of not texting anyone back

[nova-rpv]

a redraw of the first drawing i posted here to celebrate the fact that ive been in tumblr for more than a whole year posting my shit and havent deleted my blog in panic yippee \:D/ (mushy rant in tags)

[weirdplutoprince]

bunny comic

[bruciemilf]

no I'm not biased abt Bruce. Where'd you get that idea

[angie-words]

Gotta say, folks, this last week has been a bit of an emotional rollercoaster. But in spite of (or maybe because of) the horrors, we stay kind and - most importantly - silly. Please enjoy these memes and, if they've made you smile, let me know 💜

last meme dump next meme dump

[k-i-l-l-e-r-b-e-e-6-9]

[tide268]

I know it isn't fair to be angry at people for things they didn't do.

But I think I have ocd, (I'm awaiting a clinical diagnosis), and its really hard not to be when my friends who aren't huge texters ghost me for a few days. Because then I'll spend all that time gradually going through every situation that could happen or have happened and have dozens of arguments over and over again with that one person who does and says hurtful things that actually make me upset, entirely in my head. It often causes me physical pain and discomfort due to my anxiety and no matter what i do to distract myself it only ever works for an hour or less, so ill be unfairly pissed and someone. And I do angry things, i block people, i have contact names i use for people when im mad at them and their very mean, and i decide not to be friends with them. For a few hours and then i realize that all that happened in my head, i unblock them, and apologize ten times and then they still ghost me so then i do that on loop for three days and it sucks and i feel bad and i hate myself.

[un-pearable]

ngl one of the most useful things i’ve internalized from doing art online is never tell people what to criticize. don’t preemptively apologize for things or point out where you think you fumbled, it’s just priming people to notice minor issues that might not actually matter and hit you where you’re sensitive and throw you off your game. don’t tell people your weak points. if it’s a genuine problem they’ll point it out

[volkihar]

eddie diaz + text posts

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

Will these thoughts ever stop?

[dumblr]

2% girl 98% anxiety.

[thequotesvybe]

I just want peace.

[nibbelraz]

I read a fic recently where mu qingfang was like "sometimes if we get VERY lucky, shang-shidi knows some miracle cure" and ive thinking about that in terms of 'god sqh'. Like you mention how x disciple is gonna die of the hyperdeath dying flower and your martial brother speaks in tongues to himself for a moment before stuttering and stammering his way into a 'this might work but good luck' possible cure. Reality takes a sharp turn for half a second and then when you try it, it works. He dismisses it and himself but it keeps happening. Not always, but sometimes. Often enough to be a pattern. Is he some kind of seer? Diviner? Or just divine? He's very protective of his personal rooms so you're not going to be able to get evidence either way. He keeps a garden of poisons and cures that he supplies you with personally, anyway. You're not gonna pry. Then later when everyone is screaming crying throwing up because he betrayed the sect you interrupt his demon king? Boss? Something. To be like hold up. Shang-shidi can I have an address for any emergency letters I might have to send you. Oh and also have you got a supplier for your meds in the demon realm? Hm? Oh yes very powerful demon Lord your flustered servant takes anti anxiety medicine. Yes it's a mix of herbs that forces him to be in less of a state- yes he gets worse than this. Shang-shidi don't whine I've seen you off your meds I KNOW you get stomach aches from anxiety so bad you can't work. Yes the 'category 5 tummy event' is not a secret. We know about them shang-shidi.

The category 5 tummy event he's so me 😭

The idea of Mu Qingfang just knowing that yeah Shang-Shidi most often then not probably has the cure to this Very deadly disease and doesn't bat an eye he's just like well as long as they live I GUESS.

Also the person with the balls to go staring up at this incredibly cold and dangerous demon with a straight face to tell Qinghua to take his meds

Mobei would definitely listen and take notes