#texting anxiety

[shabbyshoebox]

Texting in theory: communication with friends! So fun! Memes! Talk talk talk! ❤️✨

Texting in practice: Oh god I don't have the energy to reply right now, I'm currently in Task Mode not Talk Mode so there is currently no battery allocated for socializing atm. Oh it's been too long, do they think I hate them? If I reply will I have to stay engaged in conversation for a few seconds? Half an hour? How long will this conversation be? When is it okay to step away and do something else? Will they think I hate them if I go too long without responding again? I don't hate them, I love them, I need to figure out how to do this. What tone did they intend this in? How do I ask what tone they meant without coming across as rude? How can I respond in a way that cannot possibly be construed as passive aggressive/rude/dismissive? I want to stay engaged with the task I'm doing, I don't want to go back and forth and back and forth and back and forth. I really really enjoy it when I'm in the right "Mode" but each notification feels like an obligation. Why does this feel like a chore? I like talking to my friends, why doesn't it feel like talking to my friends? Why do I feel trapped? Why do I avoid people I love? Oftentimes I'm not even "doing" anything when I don't respond, I'm just in "non social" mode. Even if I know I'll enjoy talking once I get started every unopened message feels like a burden. I shouldn't see texts from people I love this way, I should be happy, they want to talk to me and they love me. Why can't I just be normal about this, why can't I stop avoiding every damn thing?

[anxietyfrappuccino]

why is texting so hard but not but so freaking difficult but not but awful but not but so incredibly fuxking nerveing

[eauxna]

the epic highs and lows of not texting anyone back

[tide268]

I know it isn't fair to be angry at people for things they didn't do.

But I think I have ocd, (I'm awaiting a clinical diagnosis), and its really hard not to be when my friends who aren't huge texters ghost me for a few days. Because then I'll spend all that time gradually going through every situation that could happen or have happened and have dozens of arguments over and over again with that one person who does and says hurtful things that actually make me upset, entirely in my head. It often causes me physical pain and discomfort due to my anxiety and no matter what i do to distract myself it only ever works for an hour or less, so ill be unfairly pissed and someone. And I do angry things, i block people, i have contact names i use for people when im mad at them and their very mean, and i decide not to be friends with them. For a few hours and then i realize that all that happened in my head, i unblock them, and apologize ten times and then they still ghost me so then i do that on loop for three days and it sucks and i feel bad and i hate myself.

[nova-rpv]

a redraw of the first drawing i posted here to celebrate the fact that ive been in tumblr for more than a whole year posting my shit and havent deleted my blog in panic yippee \:D/ (mushy rant in tags)

[weirdplutoprince]

bunny comic

[k-i-l-l-e-r-b-e-e-6-9]

[bruciemilf]

no I'm not biased abt Bruce. Where'd you get that idea

[angie-words]

Gotta say, folks, this last week has been a bit of an emotional rollercoaster. But in spite of (or maybe because of) the horrors, we stay kind and - most importantly - silly. Please enjoy these memes and, if they've made you smile, let me know 💜

last meme dump next meme dump

[un-pearable]

ngl one of the most useful things i’ve internalized from doing art online is never tell people what to criticize. don’t preemptively apologize for things or point out where you think you fumbled, it’s just priming people to notice minor issues that might not actually matter and hit you where you’re sensitive and throw you off your game. don’t tell people your weak points. if it’s a genuine problem they’ll point it out

[dumblr]

2% girl 98% anxiety.

[thequotesvybe]

I just want peace.

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

Will these thoughts ever stop?

[katabay]

”—ah. seems like mother goose has been playing around in your egg salad. if you won’t dance to that tune, I got others.”

honestly, the would you kindly scene is whatever to me*, code yellow is the more interesting violation/betrayal of the body because of how beautifully it escalates the Fontaine reveal/betrayal and shows how ugly some of those ‘locks and keys’ that Tenenbaum mentions are. not only have you been a tool in another man’s hand this entire time, it goes deeper. your body is not your own.

*there used to be a meandering thought here about the would you kindly scene, but it was really just talking around the fact that I spent way too many years seeing people discuss it in the most insufferable and reductive ways possible when it’s a combination of three or four other things that make that moment compelling lmao

collage credits: heart one/heart two

⭐ places I’m at! bsky / pixiv / pillowfort /cohost / cara.app / tip jar!

[sanders-sides-uncorrect-quotes]

Remus is standing next to Virgil and he's like "wow Anxy that's an amazing idea!" and starts bashing Roman's skull in with his morningstar

[k-i-l-l-e-r-b-e-e-6-9]