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Texting in theory: communication with friends! So fun! Memes! Talk talk talk! ❤️✨
Texting in practice: Oh god I don't have the energy to reply right now, I'm currently in Task Mode not Talk Mode so there is currently no battery allocated for socializing atm. Oh it's been too long, do they think I hate them? If I reply will I have to stay engaged in conversation for a few seconds? Half an hour? How long will this conversation be? When is it okay to step away and do something else? Will they think I hate them if I go too long without responding again? I don't hate them, I love them, I need to figure out how to do this. What tone did they intend this in? How do I ask what tone they meant without coming across as rude? How can I respond in a way that cannot possibly be construed as passive aggressive/rude/dismissive? I want to stay engaged with the task I'm doing, I don't want to go back and forth and back and forth and back and forth. I really really enjoy it when I'm in the right "Mode" but each notification feels like an obligation. Why does this feel like a chore? I like talking to my friends, why doesn't it feel like talking to my friends? Why do I feel trapped? Why do I avoid people I love? Oftentimes I'm not even "doing" anything when I don't respond, I'm just in "non social" mode. Even if I know I'll enjoy talking once I get started every unopened message feels like a burden. I shouldn't see texts from people I love this way, I should be happy, they want to talk to me and they love me. Why can't I just be normal about this, why can't I stop avoiding every damn thing?
#i'm too autistic for this#I hate that i do this!!! people love me and want to talk to me!!! i wish I wanted to text!!!#i don't!!!#and phone calls also suck??? i feel trapped for some reason???#how do i get over this this has been a problem since i got a phone on hs forever ago lmao#actually autistic#autistic#autism#autism help#text anxiety#texting anxiety#social anxiety#i hate that i ignore things#actually avoidant#i think i may have avpd??? idk tho#i have avoidant traits#but idk if it's enough to actually get dx'd#avoidance#avoidant attachment#avoidance issues#avpd#possibly avpd#questioning avpd#even if I'm not fully avpd i think that there's enough overlap that avpd tools may help????#idfk#i hate being perceived but i want it more than anything#fear of being known
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In my Zeus bag today so I'm just gonna put it out there that exactly none of the great Ancient Greek warrior-heroes stayed loyal and faithful and completely monogamous and yet none of them have their greatness questioned nor do we question why they had the cultural prominence that they did and still do.
Jason, the brilliant leader of the Argo, got cold feet when it came to Medea - already put off by some of her magic and then exiled from his birthland because of her political ploys, he took Creusa to bed and fully intended on marrying her despite not properly dissolving things with Medea.
Theseus was a fierce warrior and an incredibly talented king but he had a horrible temper and was almost fatally weak to women. This is the man who got imprisoned in the Underworld for trying to get a friend laid, the man who started the whole Attic War because he couldn't keep his legs closed.
And we cannot at all forget Heracles for whom a not inconsiderable amount of his joy in life was loving people then losing the people around him that he loved. Wives, children, serving boys, mentors, Heracles had a list of lovers - male and female - long enough to rival some gods and even after completing his labours and coming down to the end of his life, he did not have one wife but three.
And y'know what, just because he's a cultural darling, I'll put Achilles up here too because that man was a Theseus type where he was fantastic at the thing he was born to do (that is, fight whereas Theseus' was to rule) but that was not enough to eclipse his horrid temper and his weakness to young pretty things. This is the man that killed two of Apollo's sons because they wouldn't let him hit - Tenes because he refused to let Achilles have his sister and Troilus who refused Achilles so vehemently that he ran into Apollo's temple to avoid him and still couldn't escape.
All four of these men are still celebrated as great heroes and men. All four of these men are given the dignity of nuance, of having their flaws treated as just that, flaws which enrich their character and can be used to discuss the wider cultural point of what truly makes a hero heroic. All four of these men still have their legacies respected.
Why can that same mindset not be applied to Zeus? Zeus, who was a warrior-king raised in seclusion apart from his family. Zeus who must have learned to embrace the violence of thunder for every time he cried as a babe, the Corybantes would bang their shields to hide the sound. Zeus learned to be great because being good would not see the universe's affairs in its order.
The wonderful thing about sympathy is that we never run out of it. There's no rule stopping us from being sympathetic to multiple plights at once, there's no law that necessitate things always exist on the good-evil binary. Yes, Zeus sentenced Prometheus to sufferation in Tartarus for what (to us) seems like a cruel reason. Prometheus only wanted to help humans! But when you think about Prometheus' actions from a king's perspective, the narrative is completely different: Prometheus stole divine knowledge and gifted it to humans after Zeus explicitly told him not to. And this was after Prometheus cheated all the gods out of a huge portion of wealth by having humans keep the best part of a sacrifice's meat while the gods must delight themselves with bones, fat and skin. Yes, Zeus gave Persephone away to Hades without consulting Demeter but what king consults a woman who is not his wife about the arrangement of his daughter's marriage to another king? Yes, Zeus breaks the marriage vows he set with Hera despite his love of her but what is the Master of Fate if not its staunchest slave?
The nuance is there. Even in his most bizarre actions, the nuance and logic and reason is there. The Ancient Greeks weren't a daft people, they worshipped Zeus as their primary god for a reason and they did not associate him with half the vices modern audiences take issue with. Zeus was a father, a visitor, a protector, a fair judge of character, a guide for the lost, the arbiter of revenge for those that had been wronged, a pillar of strength for those who needed it and a shield to protect those who made their home among the biting snakes. His children were reflections of him, extensions of his will who acted both as his mercy and as his retribution, his brothers and sisters deferred to him because he was wise as well as powerful. Zeus didn't become king by accident and it is a damn shame he does not get more respect.
#ginger rambles#ginger chats about greek myths#greek mythology#It's Zeus Apologist day actually#For the record Jason is my personal favourite of these guys#The argonauts are extremely underrated for literally no reason#And Jason's wit and sheer ability to adapt along with his piousness are traits that are so far away from what usually gets highlighted#with the typical Greek warrior-hero that I've just never stopped being captivated by him#Conversely I still do not understand what people see in Achilles#I respect him and his legacy I respect the importance of his tale and his cultural importance I promise I do#However I personally can't stand the guy LMAO#How do you get warned twice TWICE both by your mother and by Athena herself that going after Apollo's children is a bad idea#And still have the audacity to be mad and surprised when Apollo is gunning for Specifically You during the war you're bringing to His City#That You Specifically and Exclusively had a choice in avoiding#ACHILLES COULD'VE JUST SAID NO#I know that's not the point however so many other members of the Greek camp were simply casualties of Fate in every conceivable way man#Achilles looked at every terrible choice he could possibly make said “Well I'm gonna die anyway 🤷🏽” and proceeded to make the choice#so hard that he angered god#That's y'all's man right there#I left out Perseus because truthfully I don't actually know much about him#I haven't studied him even a fraction as much as I've studied some of the other big culture heroes and none of this is cited so i don't wan#to talk about stuff I don't know 100%#Anyway justice for Zeus fr#Gimme something give me literally anything other than the nonsense we usually get for him#This goes for Hera too btw#Both the king and queen of the skies are done TERRIBLY by wider greek myth audiences and it's genuinely disheartening to see#If y'all could make excuses for Achilles to forgive his flaws y'all can do it for them#They have a lot more to sympathise with I'll tell you that#(that is a completely biased statement; you are completely free and encouraged to enjoy whichever figures spark joy)#zeus
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How do you imagine hybrids work in love and legends? We've seen elf/humans.
So there are 6 different species and aside from the mermaids, they're all compatable to have children.
I headcanon life expectancy, colouration, and the shape of facial or body features to be gradient traits, so they pretty much randomly combine between the two parents like any other child
Magical traits are probably more binary. So a fairy hybrid child could inherit the eyes, wings, and/or sparkles, or none, with no middle ground. A demon hybrid will usually inherit a faded form of the markings, but they won't always be able to transform or earn horns. Dwarf hybrids might inherit the ability to echolocate vs just having larger ears.
If two species with strong magic have a child, they're more likely to inherit magical traits (e.g. elves and fairies with strong magic vs humans and dwarves with low magic)
Considering the domains are all friendly with each other, I imagine it's fairly common to have mixed ancestry and there's no real taboo aside from the grief of lifespan differences
#love and legends#worldbuilding#fantasy#art#i hc altea to have some fairy heritage due to her brighter colouration and magical compatability#but yeah lifespan is probably the main reason for avoiding demons/elves and such#the short-lived parent might grow too old before their child grows up sort of thing#but yeah mermaids are way further removed from the rest#i love my inhuman mermaids too much#with spinal/anatomies similar to whales and dolphins so their tails go up and down rather than side to side#they can breathe on land and in water#it's fun mixing and matching traits#theoretically a dwarf/demon hybrid could both see in the dark and echolocate so nothing could ever hide from them#but they could have sensory overload in bright or loud spaces#similarly a demon/elf child would have amazing hearing but complicated/unknown dietary requirements
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*hands you a pair of sunglasses*
Woah, I knew you were a sweet potato, but I didn't realize you're a hot potato too 😎
(enjoy a funny flirt, your blog is amazing and I love your Star Wars art!! May the Force be with you Jedi Master Potes!!)
#but aw thank u!!!#thanks for the ask!#its one of my greatest skills avoiding eye contact w men at nightclubs do i have to avoid eye contact w anons now LMAO#self potes-trait
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Something something inheritances
Jason, half dead with the league, still flipping the way Dick taught him
Tim throwing punches the way he learned watching Jason on shaky phone footage he obsessively watched as a kid
Damian smiling Dick’s robin smile, having learned it at Dicks side
#jason todd#dick grayson#tim drake#damian wayne#I have lots of thoughts#they’re brothers and they all hold the same legacy#even if none of them grew up together they still picked things up#Tim would sit in his dads home office at a big box computer and spend hours searching for Batman and Robin footage#Jason learned part of his fighting style from dick and no matter how brain dead or angry he was he’d still have that muscle memory#honestly Jason still visibly showing traits of Dick and Bruce while he was most angry with them gets me#also Jason avoiding everyone but still running into Tim and seeing Robin traits from both Dick and himself#anyways there’s a Robin ‘you’re dying in my arms but I don’t want you to know that’ smile they use on civilians that they all share#my post
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ive never liked powerless saiki aus because the entire conclusion of the series is him accepting his powers as being a part of him that he cant change so like.. in aus where the power remover works, half of his development is erased..
if he had been "powerless" for longer, we wouldve gotten to see him realize this himself and im genuinely sad that we didnt.. we got to see him realize that being powerless wasnt the change he wished it would be and that its something he cant change, but its literally over a two day long period and we miss out on sooo much potential development..
and then in aus where hes born powerless, people think he would have the exact personality and development that he THOUGHT he would if he got rid of/didnt have his powers, like NO ? "without powers he would be another satou-" NO he would be a shy, borderline flamboyant, weird, awkward, genius LOSER.
he would have a more normal relationship with his brother (still probably competitive but in a way more average sibling way and kusuke wouldnt have had the motivation to become so murderous) and he would probably be even more friendless but with less trauma.. he may or may not have ever befriended akechi at all, and the classroom incident wouldnt have happened.. even some of his current friends might not be around if not for coincidences due to his powers or direct involvement from his powers.. (nendo and kaido would for sure still be there though, but this only ensures the idea that he would be the biggest fcking loser ever)
he would still be saiki, but. his powers are a key part of him. he would be totally different without them, but NOT in the way he thinks he would..
#also realistically he would be just as much of a stubborn asshole tsundere without his powers cmon#like yea his anxiety might present itself more as shyness than it does in canon him#but hes still an awkward stubborn asshole tsundere like thats just who the guy is#hes extra shy and maybe extra cute without his abilities to make people not find him cute#and is also like extremely ditzy and clumsy like he is in canon but its more visible to people because he doesnt have the powers to hide it#idk the point is his little quirks he thinks he wouldnt have would still be there but he wouldnt have the same faux justifications for them#need canon saiki to see an alternate universe him where he was born powerless#and hes like 'wow im going to see my ideal average me!'#and then au him is some super quirky ditzy clumsy kid with severe anxiety and also dysphoria#and he doesnt have powers to avoid being bullied like we see him do multiple times#this guy doesnt realize he will always be a loser no matter what#he loses key parts of himself and doesnt even realize that a lot of the parts left behind are still parts of himself that he hates#i know a lot of people think he would be much less jaded powerless which i get but#a lot of aspects of his personality that have less to do with his powers are a lot of the parts that he doesnt like and gets made fun of fo#so he would probably only be slightly less jaded and his awkwardness would just weigh it out a little more#though its hard to pinpoint exactly which aspects of him are only due to his powers#a lot of them are but i personally think those specific key personality traits would remain#anyway i would love to see what his relationship with his family would be like if he was born powerless#and i want to know who his friends would be#saiki k#tdlosk#the disastrous life of saiki k.#saiki kusuo#meows post
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How Hermes talks about Luke to others: (the most adoring, protective, forgiving father you've ever met, full of praise and admiration, refuses to give up on him no matter what crimes he commits, defends him to the heroes and begs them to show him mercy, utterly crushed by regret for his own failures)
How Hermes talks to Luke:
#it's so funny (and sad. but let's use the funny lens this time)#he gets angry with annabeth - an incredibly traumatized child - for not running away with luke to help him escape kronos#after luke had kidnapped and tortured her for days and tried to kill her best friends multiple times#meanwhile at NO point does he ever visit luke himself to try to get him out of the cult#his continuous neglect throughout luke's life was a primary reason he could be pulled into the cult in the first place#the only time they spoke luke said 'please do one simple task if you love me at all' and hermes DIDN'T DO IT#and then the moment luke left he was like 'oh my poor son. i love him so much. i wish i could stop him going down a terrible path'#the thing luke asked him to do was tell him about his future in order to avoid the terrible path!#like hermes. come on.#what are you doing?#how do you have all the good dad traits internally and then spectacularly fail at the actions every time?#luke castellan#hermes pjo#pjo#percy jackon and the olympians
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Scene Awsten Hair (And some bonus clothes)
While I made hair for Awsten before, I was never satisfied with the shape of the scene hair, and for a long time I felt this base mesh from Backyard Stuff, which I kept thinking was from Cool Kitchen Stuff, for awhile, would be perfect. But the bangs went the wrong way, so I decided to mirror the mesh in Blender, as that is like the only hair related thing I can modify, but then the UV mapping on the back was off, if you wanted to know why I screenshotted a lot of low angles, so I fixed that. And I'm really picky about which direction bangs fall. :)
Due to it being a mesh edit, it should not require any packs, tho due to the UV mapping editing, this hair is just standalone. Not to fret! In case you REALLY want this hair mirrored with the default textures and UV mapping, I made that too.
Pictured above is how Awsten normally treats me in this game. Due to how I made all this hair for him, I am able to have outfits for him and up to 4 different hairs with all different colors. The tricolor I use all the time, red & black for a few specific outfits, blue for just one, and now scene for two. This only matters to me really, but in case you're like me and like your Sims to change hair style and color a lot.
Scene Awsten Hair
Mirrored Backyard Stuff Hair
As a bonus, as I'm never gonna get to share these otherwise, I made some shirt and shoe recolors for him, the shoes and long stripes shirt are extra swatches onto vanilla stuff, the striped t-shirt is standalone. I spent like an hour on the damn shoes, I am sharing them. Oh and fingernails too. Those come with a second swatch for Jack, so two swatches. All should be base game. The shoes and tshirt come with extra swatches, the long sleeved shirt just has the one.
Striped T-shirt
Sneakers
Long Sleeved Striped Shirt
Duel Color Fingernails
#sims 4 cc#sims 4#the sims 4#ts4 cc#the sims cc#ts4#sims 4 cas#ts4 cas#cas#awsten knight#waterparks#hair#top#accessories#shoes#fingernails#Sorry about the red glow#werewolf fury you know#I'm trying to use Awsten to do the current Reaper Challenge as idk it felt like something he'd do and plus he already has some crops growin#And his skills are decent enough#Except his fishing sucks but who needs to fish when you can hunt#Anyway he is horrifically unruly and doesn't listen to me and is only saved by being too funny to stay mad at#Cringe from For Rent is the perfect trait for him#For Rent has amazing traits but I couldn't give two fucks about anything else#So I paid $40 to have Awsten dab and annoy other Sims with memes. Worth it? Probably#I even recolored that tie-dye shirt but since it's someone else's CC I'm not sharing it#I try to avoid using other CC for bases if I intend to share something just out of common curtesey#And because in 20 years one of the two halves will be nuked from the internet and impossible to find and that will make me sad#Because I browse Sims 2 CC all the time and constantly run into dead links and missing dependencies for the best looking emo hair this side#of 2004 and it kills me every time. I make a lot of random things and don't want to share if I didn't make it all or it's not half vanilla.
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I don’t know what I’m doing but FUCK IT *chucks oc x canon fanfic into the distance*
Warmth Amidst the Rain
- A hand to hold, a shoulder to cry on in these dark moments of mine. I didn’t know I needed you more than ever.
Pairing: Lilya x Verdigris
Word Count: 795 (apparently)
A/N: This is my first fanfic, so it’s not the best. Read this as self insert if you want. I’m also bad at dialogue writing (and decided to write most of this at 2am), so bear with me if you can, okay? Anyways, I think this counts as light angst, since the actual angst supposedly happened in the scene before the stuff that takes place here. Sort of a more vulnerable side of their dynamic, y’know?
Rain. It just doesn’t quite sound right when it’s gradually starting to ascend from the damp ground in droplets. It was growing eerily quieter with each passing minute, with small, plopping sounds echoing wherever she went.
That was what worried Lilya, as she rushed down the rippling sidewalk. She had to find Verdigris soon, the sand of time is growing uncomfortably shallow now.
After a few moments of searching, the muttering of a familiar voice in the distance snapped her out of her thoughts, just in time for her to notice a figure by the edge of the forest nearby.
“Mantén esto a salvo por mí... por favor, Berillus…”
Lilya instantly dashed in the figure’s direction, a slight breath of relief escaping her as she skidded to a halt behind the woman she was looking for. But concern clouded her mind the second she got a closer look at her. She sensed that something was wrong. Very wrong.
Verdigris’ hair and clothes were drenched with rain water, clinging tightly to her skin as she looked down at something in her hands. Flinching momentarily with uneven breaths, it was as if she was a blighted flower in the wind. It was clear that she was indeed, out here this entire time.
Lilya wanted so badly to kick herself in that moment for not noticing her disappearance sooner, but it wasn’t the time for that. Instead, she carefully placed a hand on the brunette’s shoulder. She felt freezing cold to the touch at that point.
“Verdigris…” There was a beat of silence between the two, the sound of rain filling the air around them. She didn’t know what else to say. Lilya’s never really comforted anyone that often, but she wanted to comfort her. Effectively.
“Victor…” Verdigris finally spoke up, but her words came out hoarsely. “He’s gone…they’re all gone now…leaving only pieces of them behind…inanimate pieces…” She didn’t look up from her hands, but Lilya could feel a sense of loneliness and melancholy without even seeing her face. “I’m sorry…he was a good man…” she replied gently. No, no, but that wasn’t good enough of a response, was it?
Suddenly, she remembered the rain-soaked sleeve against her fingertips. A bit hurriedly, Lilya took off her jacket and wrapped it around the arcanist in front of her, giving her shoulders a light squeeze before reluctantly letting go.
Verdigris immediately turned to look back at her, her usual “concerned expression” tainted with something more…sorrowful that she’s trying to bite back. “Lilya, don’t be like this. I’m going to get your clothes wet. You really don’t need to-“
“Shhhh…” the pilot shut down her worries for a moment. She took off her gloves and stuffed them in her pocket, before carefully shifting the hair from Verdigris’ face and wiping away her tears. “I’ll be fine, Verdie. You need this more than me. Wouldn’t want you to catch a cold, alright?”
Her hands were warm on Verdigris’ face like a beam of sunlight cutting through the dark clouds. She instinctively held onto them with her own hands in hopes of holding that warmth even closer to her. “Am I not cold against your skin? Aren’t you uncomfortable holding me like this?” Verdigris asked softly. “No,” Lilya replied like it was a very obvious thing. “I’m comfortable as long as you’re alright. I…we can’t lose you, okay? It can’t be you…”
Something about those words had struck Verdigris harder than expected, and tears started to well up in her eyes again. She let go of Lilya’s hands and pulled her into a tight embrace, receiving a small surprised gasp in return.
“Вы слишком добры ко мне... как мне заслужить..... все это?”
It was too hard to hold it in anymore, it’s unclear how long it’s been there all these years. But Verdigris couldn’t help but break down in tears against the pilot’s chest in that moment. She’s said those words before, but she’s never been on the receiving end of it, and that felt very different.
Her trembling body felt so delicate in Lilya’s arms, scarily delicate. In that moment, it felt as if one wrong move could shatter the brunette completely. So she held her gently, wanting to hold her tighter, but deciding against it. She lightly caressed her the back of her head comfortingly. “Не волнуйся, я здесь... я всегда буд�� рядом, когда тебе это понадобится... все будет хорошо, дорогая…” she cooed.
Amidst her blurred vision, Verdigris felt herself being lifted, a firm but warm grip on the side of her knee and shoulder. Was she a child again? Being held and carried home by her father…like old times? It was hard to tell in that moment, but all she heard was “Hold onto me. We’ll be safe soon, солнышко”.
#Lilygris nonsense✌️yuh#dividers are by cafekitune#maybe went a little wild with the dividers cuz they’re pretty#I don’t read enough fanfiction to write this sort of thing#and did I read more to take inspo?#no#we’re winging it as usual#I definitely didn’t project my lack of comforting skills but still having the desire to comfort the people I love trait onto Lilya a little#it was also definitely not a tactic to avoid having to write much dialogue either#oc x canon#verdigris r1999#I’m not tagging her cuz I’m scared#Lilygris nonsense
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playing neopets again. finally used my last pet slot to make a faerie ixi, which was one of my dream pets as a kid 💜 she ended up with a big flower theme
look at my deer
#neopets#faerie#anthro#deer#fanart#nostalgia#art#artists on tumblr#doodles#i struggle with anthro be nice 2 me </3#that is mostly just wearables i already had or things that were affordable#most of the really good wearables you have to pay money for and i do not vibe with that. i do not like the way they handle neocash lmao#but i occasionally get free nc from events or games so i have a few items. the hat is NC i believe#i don't have a lot of Ideas about my pets but i like having a handful of little traits for them#still trying to figure her out#anyway i'm in the market for a Neopets Pin Collector Bag and i'm offering up to 2m pure for one if anyone wants to sell me theirs#normally i avoid expensive wearables but pin collecting and ita bags are LITERALLY My Thing(tm). i Need it
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watching house is a trip but hearing the writers early opinions is so funny "he's not autistic he's just an eccentric jerk" "house isn't in love with wilson they're both straight" not only did you write an autistic bisexual you also gave him adhd and complex ptsd.
#💖.txt#yes the man who avoids eye contact for everything except manipulation and cannot sit still despite massive amounts of chronic pain has#zero autism and adhd. also ik the show /kind of/ suggests he has trauma but man do they handle house's childhood trauma terribly#like maybe its just me but i think getting thrown into an ice bath for disobedience is plenty reason to skip ur dads funeral!#i get other characters not taking house at his word bc. his word means jack shit! but i feel like they easily couldve had wilson express#more sympathy about the situation. like he knows house dislikes his dad for A Reason#he just doesnt know what the reason is#but its so funny how many times writers make an autistic character and then WITHIN CANON reference that they have traits associated#with autism and then go no??? theyre just supposed to be weird :)#anyways no one does baiting like house md. and no one ever will they perfected the art
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sympathy for the outcasts <3
#Ive been a social outcast for almost two years and I wish everyone dealing with it joy in life ✌️😔#dont punish yourself for the way other people act towards you#you can work on yourself. but dont try to hide your entire personality.#otherwise one day all the sorrow will come back like a wave of depression.#Ive had this#yes I had friends during that dark era buuuuut they treated me as if I'm worth nothing#social outcast era#neurodivergent#mental health#and all my other friends: they left me#I lost all. literally. ALL my friends in that one year 2021#I had like 6 or 7 close friends before covid but after the lockdown ALL friendships ended#and I developed a high ego and thought I need no one#I was happy to have no friends 🫥#zero friends.#around that time I developed some autistic traits in my personality :/#as an example-#I didnt know how to talk to my dog/animals/pets. it felt so uncomfortable I tried to avoid it#I avoided speaking in general#but that high ego inside me kinda prevented me from drifting into depression#at least#random mind#guys. dont think it was THAT bad. I still had family which supported me#thank god Im not like this anymore#I found many close friends now and I have people who appreciate me irl#and healthy friendships taught me how to be social again#hopefully that whole covid lockdown dark phase blah blah blah think will never return#life is beautiful#never say never#❣️
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not even gonna tag this properly bc i don't wanna get Involved but i do have some Thoughts i need to get out into the void so here we go
(aaa quick edit: CW for mention/discussion of Boothill leaks)
#today's gone Badly and i'm upset but instead of venting abt it i'm gonna channel that energy into doing a bit of tag rambling abt Boothill#well. less abt Him and more abt uh. self-analyzing my anxiety surrounding contributing to fandoms. he's just today's catalyst#like. i know it's mostly a me thing. i'm hypersensitive to criticism and very conflict avoidant + socially anxious + perfectionistic etc.#so I'm the one that keeps myself from posting more stuff out of fear of being criticized or called-out for what i've made#bc inevitably Someone's gonna see it and think its OOC or a problematic take or they'll misread my intent. etc etc what have you#but like. that's inevitable. there's no way to communicate every single thing with all of the nuance required to avoid misunderstandings#and other times it's not a misunderstanding it's just a difference of opinions and that's Fine!! there's no accounting for personal taste#there's no accounting for several things actually. taste‚ bias‚ lore-knowledge‚ differing levels of chronic-online-ness‚ etc#so this isn't me complaining abt the state of fandom culture (although i do think. sometimes. ppl take shit a bit too seriously)#but anyways all of this is mostly just anxiety-fueled. it's not like i very often actually even receive negative feedback or anything#if anything ppl tend to tell me that i'm overthinking it and killing my own fun and worried that my stuff is more OOC than it is#which like. yeah. Yeah u right :) but that's just the way that i am! always losing the idgaf war i suppose#anyways what's Boothill got to do w this ur wondering. well. i've been thinking abt the quickly emerging concept that he's illiterate.#and it just. has me feeling a lot of ways. and watching ppl disagree over it has me feeling some Bad ways. bc it's def a loaded topic!#if you'll pardon the pun there. and i don't rlly have anything new to add other than that i'm conflicted abt it.#like yeah i saw the leaks days ago. of him mentioning 'not hitting the books' much as a child when we ask him why he sends voice messages#or voice Transcriptions ig. ykwim. and like. *braces for impact* ...i liked it? like. it doesn't feel right to call it endearing#i'm not trying to infantilize him. ok that's not the right word either but ugh. you know? what i mean?? who am i kidding even i don't know#it's not quite right to say that it feels like Representation either. but it's something close i guess#as a southern person myself who didn't receive a 'complete' education due to factors that weren't to do with my intelligence#the concept of seeing him as a capable force to be reckoned with and respected who also happens to have not received much formal education#i like that. i do. but there's so many issues w it at the same time. like. as i said‚ being southern myself has me Wary of the way Hoyo is-#writing him. as well as of the way that the fandom is taking the bits of his lore and running away w them. and i'm Very aware of how ppl-#will see a southern character and be All Too Eager to agree that they're lacking intelligence based on our Redneck™ stereotype#sigh. and before we even go too far with this. it's not even confirmed that hes completely illiterate. which is a valid criticism i've seen#there's Multiple reasons that could make him prefer voice to text. but regardless. i'm just worried that ppl will misconstrue my intentions#like. example: that edit i made the other day of him saying 'no thanks i can't read'. wasn't me playing into the stereotype of-#'haha dumb country boy can't read!' it was. in my eyes. something he'd say as a joke to make light of a potential insecurity#like. i think there's far more depth to Boothill's character if ppl could look past the surface. and i dont wanna contribute to the problem#but sometimes ppl Will have stereotypical traits and i wish the same could apply to characters as long as it's done Thoughtfully.
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Okay, it was challenging to take decent pictures in the dark yard, so here are the triplets and their stats in the daylight!
🌸 Amelia Rhymes
Aspiration: Pleasure / Popularity
Hobby: Games
Orientation: Lesbian
Traits: Absent-minded, friendly, night owl, technophobe, artistic
🌼 Daphne Rhymes
Aspiration: Pleasure / Knowledge
Hobby: Nature
Orientation: Bi
Traits: Light sleeper, slob, family-oriented, artistic, perfectionist
🏵️ Elise Rhymes
Aspiration: Family / Pleasure
Hobby: Film
Orientation: Straight
Traits: Clumsy, loves the heat, animal lover, socially awkward, easily impressed
#ts2#ts2 gameplay#the sims 2#the sims 2 gameplay#sims 2#sims 2 gameplay#foxfire forest#playing foxfire forest#sim bio#amelia rhymes#daphne rhymes#elise rhymes#i ended up allowing myself to choose secondary aspirations#at this point i have a strong sense of who they are#but new traits are randomized#so i can have surprises hah#these ones were pretty fitting tho#look how i'm talking about technical stuff to avoid just#aaaaaaaaaaa#how the hell are they adults already??!!
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don't cry. pour a small-seeming serving of any pasta noodle you'd like in a deep microwave-safe bowl, just barely cover the noodles with water, microwave for roughly 2 minutes 30 seconds, stir, microwave for 2 more minutes, carefully drain the pasta water from the pasta, liberally mix shredded non-mozzarella cheese into the hot noodles, and pour small amounts of milk in (maaaybe a school milk carton's worth or two at most) to taste and to make it creamier, okay?
#rosie babbles#nightblogging#recipe#macaroni#nothing against mozzarella ofc. it's just that the traits that make it perfect for mozza sticks and string cheese make for abysmal sauce#and you Will want to be careful with your water levels.#either that or be ready to use a sizable amt of paper towel to mop up the microwave platter.#also the timing can be fiddled with. experimentation is fun :)#you can also be like me and add garlic salt to the cheese sauce but i'm well aware i'm probably a bit of a freak like that xD#the fun thing abt this is that it's quicker than making actual boxes of macaroni#but allows for much more fiddling than Follow The EasyMac Instructions#literally the only bad-tasting version of this i've made so far was the one where i forgot to drain the water first.#also re: the water#depending on the bowl and your arm/wrist/grip strength you can carefully tilt the bowl over the sink#and use a spoon to hold the noodles back as you drain it#noodles that have been tested: egg. macaroni. small shells. bowtie (better eaten w/fork not spoon).#cheeses that have been tested: 'mexican-blend' shredded. additional pcs from sliced cheddar and colby jack#cheeses to avoid: mozzarella#i'd test this with lactose-free dairy#but i live in a house where cow milk is king and dairy substitutes are always easy targets for complaining#i can't think of any reason swapping out dairy for non-dairy or regular noodles for gluten-free noodles would cause issues tho
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just a teeny update (more of a tweak, actually) after i've Thought about it a little
my portrayal of ratio is aromantic, which could be adjusted to demiromantic through discussion with anyone who wants to develop a ship with him.
and on the subject of ships, please note that i will be very selective about approaching the ratio/ave.ntur.ine ship in general. i do not follow the fanon takes for this ship, i hate that they've been branded the hsr kav.eth.am, and it's a ship that would require a lot of discussion before i'll even consider it.
#;forever yelling into the abyss (ooc)#( my ratio never had romance as a high priority but the more i thought about it. the more him being aro/demi made sense )#( i avoid a lot of hsr fanon as best i can but i hate how they've taken these two characters and run the wrong way with them )#( av.enturine is not k.aveh. ratio is not al.haitham )#( they have similar traits perhaps but they are Not The Same )#;just as my calculations predicted (about; dr ratio)
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