#psychosis system

[syschotic]

My name is Alice. She/bun please.

I'm not in the same subsystem as the others, though I tend to visit often they understand me a lot and I like that.

Let's cut right to the chase, I've experienced psychosis and it was horrifying and brilliant and sickening all messed up into a disorientating blur. I reaaallly really like Alice in Wonderland and I'm quite like her.

It's funny because during psychosis I was really so scared and now that I'm out of it it's all I can think about, mind altering substances, experiences that make me doubt my own existence I want it all. I love making rhymes and wordplay and speaking in a language that doesn't exist. I love circus and clowns, bright lights and what's past the ordinary. I love being crazy and I love being free.

oh alice, how did you ever escape wonderland my reality spirals and time is in reverse what's happened to my mind, have I lost it once more?shall tomorrow again be yesterday's today?

for now i float down the salty sea of my tears ceasily only to dine with the mad hatter at 6 long forgotten, is the realm of my sanity for that's how it goes once you reach wonderland

the language in my mind is one I can't transcribe my hand to my mouth, awaiting the spiralling to cease. what disquietude will come from my unsound mind

my timepiece displays a twinkling hour I'm searching for a white rabbit, have you seen him?accompy hastily, for the hysteria is upon us

mea anima voluntas vos lacrima seorsum

I love writing poetry too! There's no rules in poetry and I can be as nonsensical as I like, above is one I wrote in active psychosis.

I'll come here whenever I want to share my thoughts, my poetry or just be a little silly. My sign off will be #🎪

[thecorvidforest]

boy it would be nice to be able to google something related to personality disorders, psychosis, intellectual disabilities, autism, DID/OSDD, etcetera without finding majority articles that are like “how to deal with a person with X” “how to cope with your child with X” “how to spot someone faking X” “can people with X be cured?���

[terror-punk]

Be Openly Scary

Society is scared of a lot of things it shouldn't be. A lot of those things can't be helped, a lot of those things don't hurt anyone, and a lot of those things are not what people even think they truly are.

So you know what?

Talk about your hallucinations, your delusions, your psychotic symptoms. Share things about your gender identity whether it be nonconforming, trans, xenogender or anything else. Scream about your nonhumanity and animal urges. Be open and unwavering about your systems existence, presenting as more-than-one wherever you want. Use and introduce your pronouns, even if people find them weird or offputting. Rock back and forth, pace, twitch and stim in any way you please. Wear things that reflect your identity in public. Get tattoos and body mods to your heart's content. Tell people about your personality disorders.

Don't make yourself small because others can't handle you. Be open where safe. Be you. Be scary.

[danneroni]

NOT TOO CRAZY 🧠🌈

Stickers are live!

[kaboom--bitch]

Anyway love to my fellow psychotic alterhumans. Your psychosis doesn't define your ability to have a personal identity or trust in your own beliefs around what you identify as. If your psychosis is separate from your alterhumanity? Cool as fuck. If it's the reason you're alterhuman? Also fucking cool. If you can't tell or don't care? Stronger than any US marine. Don't let people use your psychosis as a tool to claim you can't define your own lived experience.

[non-dys-sys]

Shout out to my fellow plurals with psychosis y’all are doing great

[lokilysolbitch]

y'all know when someone keeps talking about their "quirky" childhood and adult habits but it's just like. textbook examples of a complex dissociative disorder. but you can't just be like "maybe you're a system" bc that could freak them out way too much all at once.

or you'll offhandedly mention a Uniquely System Specific Experience and they go "wait i relate to that lol. it must be from my depression/anxiety/etc" like. uhmmmm. not quite, not quite. time loss and seeing people in your head that grow and change independently of you is not uh,,,,,,,,,i don't think that's anxiety uh,,,,,,,,

[mystery-aberration]

Do not censor yourself/selves for others, and do not play into their expectations of who you should be. Do not exclude others simply so you are not excluded, yourself. Do not downplay your disorder, sexuality, gender or identity to make it easier for others to digest. Do not lie simply in order to fit in, unless it is for your own safety. Do not let others hatred of you rule over your own life, and do not let it influence you into hating others within similar communities or even your own.

Know that whatever or whoever you are is still important, even if you have to hide for now to stay safe. Your experiences, your identity, and you yourself are important and deserving of spaces safe to express yourself/selves.

I am so very tired of seeing people hate on those with stigma surrounding their identities. Otherkin, queers, psychotics, systems, trans and gender diverse people, and anyone society does not understand. You do not help your own group by harming another. You are only helping those against us all.

[onemashedbraincell]

SERIOUS TALK . CENSORSHIP

the amount of censorship and ignorance regarding anything that isn't remotely 'normal' or seems 'realistic' to the average eye is absolutely disgusting and genuinely ableist. see someone who's visibly disabled? oh, no, you can never go up to them! come on! avoid them! they're too different from you. you would never be able to understand them. they would never be able to understand you. have a friend who has a stigmatized mental health condition? oh! they must be faking! nobody *actually* has that! it's too rare! we should stop being friends with them! they must be a monster! have someone tell you that you have an invisible disability? that doesn't exist! if i cant see it, then you don't have it! i know your body better than you do! prove you have your disability, then! and the funny thing is, these types of things are completely censored- viewed as 'wrong' or 'not something to be talked about'. when really, it's just an excuse to not talk about, spread awareness, or allow those who are troubled by these conditions to speak up. TALK ABOUT YOUR ILLNESS. TALK ABOUT YOUR DISABILITY. TALK ABOUT YOUR 'ABNORMALCY'. show the world that **you aren't weird or crazy or monstrous for not fitting the norm.**

[schizopositivity]

It sucks so much that as someone with a severe and persistent mental illness it's MY responsibility to jump through hoops and be proactive in contacting people at limited times of the day just to get MY MEDS THAT I'VE BEEN TAKING CONSISTENTLY FOR YEARS

[sysboxes]

[Text: This system's psychosis gets triggered easily.]

Like/Reblog if you save or use!

[delphientropy]

why is tiktok obsessed with the word delusional

i keep coming across "looking at the unsent project and putting in my name and being delusional thinking people are writing to me" genuinely shut the fuck up.

delusions are a fucking mentally ill symptom that can genuinely harm you. stop taking away its legitimacy and shut the fuck up im so pissed

WE have delusions, ones that actually make us upset or freak us out. and it pisses me off SO bad. i just block instantly. i keep forgetting how normalized this is and it seriously makes me so mad

[psychotic-system-culture-is]

Psychotic System Culture is...

Proudly making/wearing things that signify you're psychotic in an attempt to destigmatize psychosis/psychotic disorders

Because psychotic people (whether plural or singlet) deserve to exist in peace, to be treated with respect and not fear/hatred/condescension

Bottlecap pin with psywiggle painted on

[interstellarsystem]

Hey! I'm psychotic, and a writer, and recently I stopped taking my pills and my characters have been talking to me. It's the best feeling in the world. They're with me through everything. I know them inside and out and they know me just as well. Then there's a bossy voice that tells me to take care of myself that I've just been calling Caretaker. I can sometimes let them come forward and see through me. I feel different when that happens, like I'm in the background, but I never really go away. Am I plural? (I do have trauma, but idk if that's where they came from). Is calling myself plural okay? Or am I just a person with psychosis?

Genuinely, if you in any way, for any reason, experience something you'd call being more than one person/entity/identity in a body? You can call yourself plural.

We know of people who call themselves plural based on their hallucinations. We know of people who call themselves plural based on seeing themselves as a spiritual medium. It's not all just DID/OSDD or something you were born with or created plurality. There's no one true plural experience--plurality is simply the sate of being more than one. It doesn't matter where they came from.

You might get some people arguing that "you can't know if these are real headmates or hallucinations!!" but ignore them. We're psychotic and technically because of that, we'd never be able to tell if most identity-things we experience are just a result of psychosis. But that doesn't and shouldn't matter--we experience them anyway. If you experience being plural, and later it turns out to be psychosis or something else.. You still had that experience. You still lived that way. It's a thing you felt and lived and it's a thing that was you, for at least some amount of time. And we think that's enough.

That being said, if you want to call yourself a person with psychosis, that's fine too. You can do whatever you want, it's your identity.

[sophieinwonderland]

Here's Ableist AspenFrostEN Trying To Pack as Much Misinformation and Ableism As She Can Into One Minute:

This sentence is, perhaps, the one and only true thing in this entire video.

Oh, please do enlighten me, Aspen!

I mean, sure, created systems are a thing. Tulpas are the main example of this and the ones that have been studied the most. But there are created systems that aren't tulpas, such as in daemonism.

Also, plenty of traumagenic DID systems have intentionally created alters too, so it's weird to make "people who believe that you can force yourself to have alters" an endogenic system thing.

ALSO, basically no tulpagenic system I know actually uses the word "alter" to describe their headmates.

While most endogenic systems are plural without a disorder, it's bizarre to use this as your definition instead of just "an endogenic systems is plural without trauma" as it's actually defined.

Founded entirely on Tumblr???

Aspen, dear...

Are you... capable of reading? Here's the paragraphs you're looking at. Notice how it says natural system predated the word endogenic?

Yes, the word endogenic was first used on Tumblr... as a replacement of "natural system" or "natural multiple" that dated back to the 90s, before you were even born!

Here's one site mentioning natural multiples in their glossary in 2003:

And here's the origin in a page dated for 1998:

You clearly know NOTHING about the plural history that you're rambling on about.

And how am I only 20 second into this???

What do you consider a medical consensus again?

The World Health Organization's ICD-11, the diagnostic handbook used around the world, explicitly states that you can experience multiple "distinct personality states," the characterizing feature of DID according to it, without having a mental disorder:

That's the World Health Organization's official handbook!!!

I'm not sure what more of a consensus you need.

But I'll add that Tulpamancy is acknowledged as a real psychological phenomenon by Dr. Samuel Veissiere, psychiatry professor at McGill University.

And Dr Eric Yarbough, Distinguished Fellow of the American Psychiatric Association has stated that you can be plural without trauma or a disorder in a book reviewed and published by the American Psychiatric Association.

And these claims are undisputed. There is no peer reviewed paper by any psychiatrist that has claimed you need trauma or a mental disorder to be plural.

Now, onto the next round of misinformation!

I recognize that page! That's DID-research! A glorified blog that convinced an entire generation that OSDD-1a and OSDD-1b were actual medical terms for disorders they could be diagnosed with!

(Spoiler: The aren't!)

Is that so?

It would probably be really inconvenient for this narrative if the creators of the theory of structural dissociation ALSO have said it may be possible people to form self-conscious dissociative parts of the personality without trauma, huh?

I mean, something like that would just completely destroy everything you're trying to sell and make you look even more like a hack who has no idea what she's talking about, wouldn't it?

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This paper is by two of the authors of the Haunted Self, which I probably shouldn't need to tell you since you're so knowledgeable about plurality, is the book that created the theory of structural dissociation of the personality.

Even the creators of the theory you're citing are saying plurality could have other causes.

Wouldn't that require you to actually know what endogenic systems actually believe? Or, you know, literally anything about plural history? Or anything at all? 🤔

Now we're back to ableist Aspen having no idea what Schizophrenia is and using it as an insult. 🙄

Aspen is not hiding her intent. Her goal is to spread hate, to come into our communities and bully us.

Aspen is a liar, a bully and an abuser.

But I hope I've also demonstrated pretty thoroughly that on top of that, she also incredibly ignorant.

She's ignorant of psychiatry. She's ignorant of plural history.

Every word out of her mouth on this topic is a lie she made up, and hopes her followers will be gullible enough to swallow, because while she may act confident in her misinformation, the fact is that she doesn't know anything about what she's talking about.

[tscs-plural-advocacy-blog]

Positivity post cause of recent things. Psychosis is still marginalized and treated like a joke or an insult. We have delusional episodes and it sucks how little there is in the way of resources for it in general let alone aimed specifically at systems. There's an unfortunate number of people who believe these experiences are mutually exclusive, they're not. It's probably actually quite common at least among systems with trauma.

Shout-out to systems with psychosis

Shout-out to systems who've been told they're psychotic and not plural

Shout-out to endogenic/created systems with psychosis

Shout-out to endogenic/created systems that have been told they're psychotic and not plural

Shout-out to people who thought they were systems but are actually psychotic