#ftm bpd

[vampiricculture]

I have an evil royal advisor in my brain and he tells me to smoke cigarettes

[annoyinglilbro]

I really do turn into such a dog when I get a crush bc like

Pacing, waiting for attention from them, jumping up at notifications sounds and whining when it’s not them, patiently waiting for them to come back, treating everyone who isn’t them like the mailman—

And then they finally message me back and I’m like “HEY ARF RUFF HELLO HI MISSED YOU ALL DAY WHAT DO U NEED FROM ME TELL ME WHAY RO DO GIMME COMMANDS HI CAN I SHOVE MY FACE BETWEEN UR LEGS I MISSED UOU”

But obviously I can’t do that so I’m just like “oh hey :)”

[burned0utstar]

It hurts.

It hurts so much.

I need someone, anyone, to love me.

Being unlovable hurts.

It's the pain of knowing that noone can ever love me the way I love them.

To love the way I do is to burn and scratch open my skin just to try and show you a part of me.

It's to always wait for something.

[sacrilegioussinner]

Can’t find a partner because I need them to match my freak. Not just kink wise, but obsession level. I don’t do casual situation ships and talking stages, we’re either friends or I want to crawl into your rib cage. If you do not match that energy we can’t be together

[waambles]

Reactive Dog ⚠️🐾 (He/It)

[gor3sigil]

I spent the majority of my life being scared to DEATH about getting older. When I was 10, I listened to a song about growing out of the innocence of childhood and cried for hours. When I was 13, I could have panic attacks and crying fits because I was terrified of not being passionate about music as much if I grew older. I cried when I reached my 20s. And I'm scared shitless about turning 30.

The adults in my life were MISERABLE. I was told almost every day that growing up meant giving up, making sacrifices, having to bury inside everything you ever were as a child and teenager to fit in the mould or you were going to be the scum of society, useless, not worthy of anything.

The adults in my life were traumatized and never did anything to address their traumas. And they openly didn't want to. They were persuading themselves that they were fine or that it wasn't important to heal from the past. But their traumas transpired in everything they did, every decision they made, and the way they treated me.

And look, I'm not old by any means. I'm almost 27. But I spend every day that makes me closer to 30 like a waiting room before my inner death. Like one day I'll wake up and become a zombie and everything I ever loved and was passionnate about will be erased from my mind and heard, only to be replaced by the excruciating burden of responsabilities, chores, work, filling papers and wondering how I ended up living this way.

That's why I left my family. Because I was so sure that they would shove me into the same patterns they were in that I just dropped everything and went away. And the reaction I got in return was "Well, do you think WE'RE happy ? No, but life goes on anyways." I felt my inner child scream in agony. I packed, took a train, never returned.

And thank god I did.

It warms my heart so much when I see peolle here in their 30s still engaging in famdoms, nerdy hobbies, passions like writing, drawing, make music. Know that you're the reason I keep going and am a little less scared of being myself and growing into who I want to become.

[sojirai]

psa for afab jirais

If you go Extra Crazy sometimes, it may be PMDD. PMDD is a more severe form of PMS. It's not just feeling shitty. It has literally put me in the hospital multiple times and triggers psychotic flares and violent acts in me. It's also treatable.

Even if you don't necessarily have it, it can exacerbate existing issues you have, so knowing it's coming and that you're not Overreacting can help.

[cryxbabyzx]

me when pills 🤤😉

[crush-pop002]

i’m not a sicko freak because of trauma it’s literally just because i’m a horrible person. i have two loving parents, i went to a good school, i was never bullied, everyone around me is educated and respectful, i am upper middle class, there is nothing i have to complain about. i am truly just a horrible person that is fucked in the head because i was born this way.

[notmy-problem]

AWARENESS POST ON @heaven-is-a-bedroom / @sourfunstrips

PLEASE SPREAD

[chaosmushroomsushi]

I, fucking hate it

I hate everything

I hate how badly I want to be wanted

I hate how badly I want to be fucking craved

cause it's never going to happen

I'm going to be stuck always craving something I'll never fucking have

why can't I just turn off all my fucking feelings because my life would honestly just be a million times better if I just shut them off

being numb is better than the cycles of getting my own damn hopes up just to have them be fucking crushed

I'm tired of being overly attached

[burned0utstar]

I'm cold. It's so cold.

Why can't I be with him? Why can't I feel safe and warm? Why can't I kiss him? Why can't I fall asleep next to him?

My heart longs for him, my soul misses his touch.

[sacrilegioussinner]

I hate being autistic and having bpd because what do you mean I just cancelled plans with my friends because they said they wanted to play Roblox before we did crafts

[zombie-boygrrl]

I would do anything for you, I will always have time for you.

[Except at 02;00 AM. I am jacking off.]

[mothseatinghumanflesh]

[lil-trashy000]