#borderline fp

[mysterious-sludge]

BPD is like:

"OH MY GOD I HAVE SUCH INTENSE FEELINGS I HAVE NEVER FELT SO MANY THINGS IN MY LIFE WOWOWOW!!"

*one day/inconvenience later*

"Nvm I had a lapse in judgment. I have actually never felt anything in my life and I may never feel at all."

[todostoast]

asking for reassurance is so embarrassing 😭

[todosbread]

so embarrassing to have my mood swing based off of someone else’s interactions with me

[saccharinehell]

Let's be honest and not healthy for a second. Obsession is such a nice feeling.

[burned0utstar]

It hurts.

It hurts so much.

I need someone, anyone, to love me.

Being unlovable hurts.

It's the pain of knowing that noone can ever love me the way I love them.

To love the way I do is to burn and scratch open my skin just to try and show you a part of me.

It's to always wait for something.

[borderline-cannibal]

"im feeling clingy" yeah i wouldn't want it any other way, you? talking to me when you feel clingy? delightful.

[carmellademille]

Having a fp sucks. The fact I need constant reassurance from them and will feel physically sick if I go a certain amount of time without talking to them is just awful. What’s worse is that I’m so self aware of it and I will literally know I’m about to crashout in regard to them but it STILL HAPPENS. Then I do some dbt and I’m fine but like DAMN let me breathe 😭

[shebeezee]

when you know they weren’t good for you but you got attached and now you’re suffering

[honeypleasejustkillme]

trUsT mE,, itS suCh a gOoD idEa 👹🤡

[todosbread]

not personal but i honestly wish my fp’s friends would just disappear

[saccharinehell]

Why do I always end up as a complete wreck. Unable to get up for weeks.

[burned0utstar]

I need you to care.

Please care? Please please please care?

I thought you would? I thought you did?

Why don't you?

Please just care?

I know this is normal for me, that I normalise it, that this happend before, that it will happen again, that I got used to it and try to make everyone around me also used to it.

But, but right now, I just need you to care. This isn't normal. This isn't healthy. It's not just a funny thing I do. It's not just a silly little quirk of mine.

Please? Please care again?

I need you to care.

[morays-lament]

"I don't even care about rejection. I'm not sensitive to it, I actually handle it quite well"

[slwtforb4rbiturates]

I lied, were not having sex instead u will be stuck with me 30 hours and you'll reassure me that ur not gonna leave me

[shebeezee]

I was so obsessed with you that I ignored your red flags to try and make things work. I warned you about my personality disorder and struggles and you took that as an excuse to make it seem like I was the only problem.

[honeypleasejustkillme]

i don’t think anyone could love me. there's so many things wrong with me,, im too broken. it hurts so much, i just want to be loved by someone..i want that safety