#Calorie Screams

[soapdispensersalesman]

[lastoneout]

Needless to say, looking up recipes to help with my autoimmune issues is going FANTASTIC and totally NOT making me want to commit arson

[corpusdiem-seizethedead]

Husk: I need to burn calories

Angel: Y’know, kissing burns calories…

Husk: So does mercilessly beating the living shit out of people I hate.

[wetslug]

cycle of i buy produce -> i eat produce -> i go back to store -> everytime i go back price is now 5% higher

[puddingseikkx]

we just finished Day 9 it was really bad today i did not get over my limit thankfully but i am really sick rn, after i ate i just didnt feel well and the pain only got worse from there then i took some medicine and my body rejected it and i threw that up within 5 minutes and after about 20 minutes i went to use the restroom and threw up probably everything i ate that day and rn ive just been trying to keep everything down and its so fxcking hot rn which isnt helping me i think i caught the same stomach bug as my nephew cause he threw up all over me a while ago and my brother caught it from him too just a few days ago and now i got it but i realized my heart rate isnt always super normal this has only been documented twice cause i cant check my hr i dont have a fancy watch but my heart rate has dropped EXTREMELY low at my physical exam last month they documented my resting hr at 47BPM and rn something doesnt feel right i finally had to guts to stomach some water so i took some medicine to help that and if it doesnt ima decide if i wanna go to the ER in the morning (its like 1am rn) and i do i wanna prepare my own food cause they probably gonaa make me eat and so ik im not going over on calories ima pack my own light foods i usually prioritize protein intake but im not doing that the next few days because i just wanna focus on being well hopefully i dont need to go to the hospital and itll pass in a few days. was just giving an update

[a1m05t-en0ugh]

my GOD. i just need a break from my life. i literally cannot do this anymore. pls just give me a break. but, like, forever. pls, there is nothing else’s i want

[eatsless]

i'm literally getting 20k+ steps a day and not losing weight!! i'm going to riot i stg

[localgardenweed]

I love reading nutrition labels cause wow im eating 1g of dietary fiber in these scooby snacks!!!! 8g of total sugars??? Sign me UP!!! 21g of carbs? PERFECT

[synonym-bonadea]

tw binge eating; purging; counting calories

Wednesday, 25th Sept.

a horrible day. I could hold myself back on eating until the afternoon. I wanted to get a little treat from the bakery but in the store there is the same treat but 4 instead of 1 for the same price. I knew it'd be risky if I bought it in the store because I might binge eat the treats. but i did buy them and also stuff for dinner. I already felt bad because i shouldn't eat at all and ⭐️ve but most days I cannot find the strength to do so.

so I got back home and wanted to eat ONE of the four-pack treat i bought. it would've been fine if I only ate the one. I wouldn't have had to throw it up. I could've stopped after the one. but I didn't. I ate all four and i obviously couldn't allow myself to keep that mass of calories inside of me. i went to the bathroom and did was i always do. but I couldn't get it out. just one very tiny bit but that wasn't even half of one of the four i ate. I got aggressive and inpatient so I got more brutal trying to throw up. I cried in pain from my abdomen contracting but not getting the food up. After a while I gave up.

but because it was a binging day it didn't stop there. i then started cooking dinner and it was a lot. it was disgusting and i felt disgusted with myself yet I couldn't hold myself back. I ate something without too many calories for dinner but it was still a big portion of food. I went to the bathroom after finishing most of it and started purging. I always have a problem with estimating how much I already threw up and how much is still left in me. but after 20 minutes time spend in the bathroom I felt confident most of the food was out.

But then the eating kept going. I ate bowl after bowl with milk and cereal. three quite well-filled bowls. I am so disgusting. So again I went to the bathroom and purged. I was getting more and more brutal each time because i was so frustrated to not get everything out and also because I hated that I ate so much. my arms hurt from the bruises I have on my underarms from leaning on my toilet. my throat hurts from my nails scratching from the inside. my knuckles hurt because they're bloody from scraping against my teeth. my stomach hurts from the contractions and throwing up.

Pain.. I hate it but rely on it at the same time.

I planned on going to bed so I wouldn't keep on eating. but I failed. I baked myself three spring roles and ate them with sauce. I felt so fucking disgusted with myself. so many calories I consumed in one day. calories I usually eat within two or three days. calories I should consume within four or five days.

my body felt so weak from purging. I was shaking, had no strength to keep my body straight while standing and sitting. I didn't want to throw up a fourth time but i knew I had to. I at least had to try to make things right. but in the end it was a horrible day of binge eating and purging, that in the end couldn't make up for the calories i still consumed this day. today was a really bad day.

[soapdispensersalesman]

The man, Michael Smith, 52, was accused in a federal indictment unsealed on Wednesday of stealing royalty payments from digital streaming platforms for seven years. Mr. Smith, a flesh-and-blood musician, produced A.I.-generated music and played it billions of times using bots he had programmed, according to the indictment.

[delicateimage]

Hey girlies update time… I’ve been sent to a clinic for my weight and it’s been really stressful and my life is kinda falling apart lol there’s defiantly good aspects to it but ughhh I’m like :( bc my diets had to change so much and I feel so unproductive now and I’m really scared about gaining weight but they’d said I’d like die or whatever if I didn’t which um. I genuinely feel so disgusting heavy and sick and disgusting and DISGUSTIGN eww and my disordered eating brain is coming back in full force after silently controlling me for like nearly years at this point and it’s all so much. the hardest thing about this is that I don’t want to gain weight at all and particularly I don’t really even care to live anymore. I’m scared everyday I’ll fall deeper and deeper back into disordered eating I’ll get lonelier and lonelier I’ll get fatter and fatter I’ll lose everything I’ve ever built for myself… ugh this is a mess but ong.

[tumlrgirlgeazy]

Should I commit

[arkon-z]

what if i don't want uncertainty, huh? what then?

[i-am-having-an-emotion]

me: knowingly does something to trigger disordered eating thoughts

my eating disorder: *kicks down the door*

me: i dont know what i expected

[mrsnancywheeler]

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[makkie-is-screaming]

gonna kms my mom came in my room to talk about some low cal dessert thing her friend who’s lost a ton of weight makes n calories n shit n there’s just guttural screeching in my head. I can’t stand people talking about weight loss and calories around me.