#tw mind alteration

[galaxygermdraws]

DREW FANART FOR MY FAVORITE FIC OF ALL TIME (and spoiled it for those of you who wanna check it out)

If you DON'T know what fic this is, this is "Dynasty Decapitated" by blueticked. Their tumblr account is deactivated, and idk if they ever made a new account, so I can't properly tag them. But the fic is linked if you want to read it. You may have to zoom in for better quality also because this canvas is huge

(Reblogs with tags/comments are appreciated. PLEASE go read this fic it's so good. Also! I will put a non spoilered version of this under the cut so you can see what I drew. Thankyu)

[diamond-doubles]

i am almost myself again

my menories are skipping aeay

fadung

i dont want to firget

i wonder if volo remembbers?

[mr-payjay]

lalala drawingssss also separated payjay (last two pics) is from an au i just didn't have any other payjay to post (can you believe it!!!)

[al-luviec]

vito

[isthisatragedy]

art

[requiemsystem]

ORGANIZATIONAL PROGRAMMING — WHAT IT IS AND IS NOT

Trigger warning for discussion of programming. Organizational programming is a type of programming that encompasses any form of categorization. This can be done by numbers, colors, gemstones, cards, or anything else your group sees as relevant. For programmed systems who have organizational programming, it is used as the foundation for all other programming. Each category will be used to decide a specific type of programming. For example, the color black may indicate violence or aggression programming, commonly referred to in the survivor community as "delta". You can have multiple organization programs, but the more you have the more confusing it would get, so it's likely that most groups would only stick to a few. The ability for a child to remember multiple different organizational programming systems depends entirely on the child and the ability of the group to make it stick. Due to the nature of organizational programming being the foundation for all other programs, it must be implemented near the start of the abuse and reinforced throughout. It cannot be successfully implemented after all other programs, as this would be extremely poorly done and messy. Due to how group specific organizational programming can be, there is no universal meaning to any type of organizational programming. For example, people commonly say that the color red is associated with sexual programming, or "beta" as it's commonly called in survivor communities, but this is entirely subjective and depends on what the group associates that color with. You also cannot have only organizational programming. The organization has to be for a purpose, and it would be pointless to implement it if they did not intend to use it. Not all survivors of programming have organizational programming, it is not a required thing to have. Some groups see no use for it and never implement it. Others see it as highly important. It depends entirely on your group. Number programming is not the only type of organizational programming. I see organizational programming reduced down to only number programming quite frequently, but it's far from the only type. Anything relevant to your group with distinct categories can be used as organizational programming. - Veritas

[theoneeyedgoldenwolf]

Story idea # 20

Sorry if this is WAY too swiftly written. I'm bit sick at the moment but don't want my Christmas Calendar thingy to have a hiatus or such. Also, I was planning a story for Winter Solstice (Saturday) but it might end up coming day or few late as it's not yet fully written. =/

Anyway, off to the actual idea of mine:

In one of my stories I had several crazy mad scientists trying to turn people into monsters. Mainly going for the cruelest beasts known aka Dead Hand, Stalfos and ReDead.

Now, since Time's my fave he gets the lovely rights to being in this shit once again. Sorry, Time. ^^;;

Anyway, Time's caught by the bad guys as they're holding his boys by swordpoint. Yeah, somehow they got overpowered and all. And Time goes through lot of shit with the injections and whatnot No actual transformation but his mind does alter. He'll crave for meat and is ready to tear pretty much anything into pieces. YET, when the Chain finally finds him, he still does everything in his power to protect them. There's no chance he'll hurt them even one bit but he is crueler and fiercer than ever before against the bad guys.

This is actually mainly for my Ranch Family AU stuff but, if someone can figure out how to fix Time, it can also go for the normal LU.

The story of mine I mentioned:

[anti-endo-help]

tw for ramcoa? (specifically mind control?) mention and abuse

we were wondering if you could help us out here and I hope I’m just being paranoid and wrong

We’re a system and we just remembered recently something we went through and we aren’t sure if it’s just the usual gaslighting and manipulation or if it falls under mind control

just to sum it up, when were 5-6, there was someone who had convinced us that we were related and that their biological family was actually our biological family, and that our current family actually adopted us.

they continued to use this against us and reinforced it a lot. They would force us into bullying our only friend, taking the blame for everything they’ve done leading us to get in trouble, make us do other things we didn’t want, etc typically by using things such as “do [blank] to prove you really care about your real family” or “we’re real family, meaning you’d do anything for me” etc (not word for word obviously, but relatively what was said)

this is where the dissociation started for us and we became dependent on that person (and I’m sure where our co-dependency comes from) to be used as a tool for them. They even often got their friends involved in this, leading to a group manipulating us into this delusion to be used. We were forced into believing we were this person’s sibling and that we had a “fake life” (leading to the start of our struggle of sense of self and not being able to grasp who we were)

we’ve read on mind control, but it’s still confusing to us and we just aren’t sure if this counts or not 

hi. please see a professional about this.

this is very serious, and very concerning. I am not a professional and can't really tell you what this is or how to deal with it, so please seek some kind of person who is able to assist better than I can.

as a ramcoa system, I am sorry for what you went through.

[ID: STOP! this blog is a strictly anti-endo space! pro-endos and endo neutrals, shoo! shoo shoo!]

[midnight-in-town]

what do you think of the theory that Vincent is a death god now?

Hey Anon! Well, I used to be pretty against it, but nowadays I think it all depends on what we currently know about Shinigamis, which is to say not much.

What I mean is that, in ch105, Yana revealed that Shinigamis are former humans who killed themselves...

...however, we do not know if that's the only way for a human to become a Shinigami.

Remember, Yana could hold onto some additional truth that we have yet to figure out, especially considering that since ch105, Sensei strongly hinted several times that the Shinigamis' higher ups are super sketchy. [x][x][x]

In other words, there is possibly a real gap between what Shinigamis themselves believe to be the truth whereas the actual truth is hidden by the higher-ups.

Additionally, that's just my opinion but, seeing as UT (and the possible other deserters he works with) is very anti higher-ups, I wonder if editing the records (to make dead people into BD) is not an idea he got from finding out some truths about Shinigamis, which led to his desertion. [x]

For example, maybe all Shinigamis had their records altered in order to become Shinigamis ? And if that's the case, then maybe some altered memories (read: lies) were put to their records, making them all believe that they're overworked slaves "because of suicide" when none of it is true? Just like the redemption reward is also probably a lie.

All that to say that I believe UT's BD project is a hint to a big and terrible truth that we have yet to fully grasp (take it as a rebellion towards the Shinigamis' higher-ups, on top of UT missing the dead Phantomhives) so, for now, I think it's important to be very careful about the "truth" we were told about the Shinigami Organization.

Back to Vincent: for now, I believe that he was definitely murdered.

Meaning that if suicide is really the only way for a man to become a Shinigami, then he did not become a Shinigami. However, if becoming a Shinigami is not just about suicide, but about several other factors, then it's not impossible that Vincent became a Shinigami after he died. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

In my opinion, Yana-sensei made sure not to rule out the possibility in canon, as in, she left a few hints that could be red herrings, just like they could be used to interpret that Vincent is not really "dead". Those hints are

1) ch107.5, because, even though he's supposedly dead, he wears gloves and a suit that could resemble that of a Shinigami's.

Additionally, even if the rosette power thing was just for comical effect, it's interesting that he showed up at all even though UT said he cannot be brought back as a bizarre doll.

2) the state of his body, that UT mentions in ch105.

After all, if it's burnt so badly, that means his cinematic record can't be read and thus altered to turn him into a BD, so how certain are we that they buried Vincent's body?

3) the fact that he constantly breaks the 4th wall despite "being dead" (ch107.5, short story "with Father", etc), which so far has no explanation in canon.

All of these could be nothing important, because Yana's simply playing around with us, just like they could be significant on some aspects.

The point is : the more the story goes, the less we have a reason to believe that what Sascha explained in ch105 is entirely true. Not with UT and possibly other deserters actively working against the higher-ups, without a real explanation from their side so far.

TL;DR the possibility of Vincent having become a Shinigami can't be entirely ruled out and won't be, until we have found out the entire truth about the Shinigami Organization.

Is the key to their fate really suicide ? Or are there other actions in life that will turn someone into a Shinigami post mortem? Until a deserter, UT or somebody else, tells their version of the truth, I will not trust the information we've had in canon so far about Shinigamis.

(Personally I'd rather he's truly and definitely dead, but if him becoming a Shinigami furthers the very important plot thread of the Shinigamis' higher ups being absolute assholes who need to be taken down, then I'll be okay with it.)

Sorry if it's a bit confusing, but there's no way to be sure of anything on that topic. Have a good day Anon!

[digital-undead]

whose paws are these anyway ...?

[diamond-doubles]

M!A Emmets full memories have returned with 0 gaps

Lasts as long as mod desires

[rubs hands together. this will be fun]

so in DID live some place warn befure geying ton hisui

[so i DID live someplace warm before getting to hisui]

[vulgrados-best]

pretend we are confessional, we will not judge

// MIND THE TWs IN TAGS FOR THE LOVE OF GOD

Well man.

I fucked my teacher. What more do you want from me.

[some-teeth-in-a-trench-coat]

me reading relatable NPD posts coming across one about only showing kindness to not seem like a bad person: wait but kindness and compassion and selflessness come so naturally to me what do you mean you struggle with it? do I not have NPD after all?

my ?-8 year old self with anger issues whose entire idea of friendship is to convince people to give him attention and let him use their cool things with no desire to return the favor: uh

my 9-11 year old self still with anger issues but now having 0 friends and one attempted murder of another kid for the crime of not leaving the room because he said to: um

my 12-16 year old self actively homicidal sadistic and only not acting on those thoughts because he wants to be liked but many times trying out being cruel on separate accounts feeling no remorse for it: you sure?

my 17-20 year old self discovering that he can actually choose to be a good person indefinitely (the homicidal and sadistic thoughts don't have to be a ticking time bomb and are actually pretty easy to suppress) and carefully training himself to choose to be kind and hate the thought of hurting people and reprogramming his values to take pride in selflessness so that unnamed but observed NPD would reward such behavior: I think you forgot something

my (current) mid twenties self: hmm no I think I'm just really special and an exception to those symptoms or whatever sorry I think my NPD just makes me really cool instead <3

[sm-002]

more doodles of my slasher mc, alter!! 🎆

[mischiefmanifold]

woke up yesterday morning to a bunch of writing and highlighting an alter had done the night before

the alter signs off as "the commander"; it made a list of programs in our journal and highlighted a bunch of stuff in one of our books talking about ritual abuse

the most unnerving part of it all was that the alter used a sticky note with a message on it to get our attention; the note was "listen to us" in all caps

[nettles-vent]

Attempt to explain my internal world

The personalities: me, Billy. Dog, Lavendar, William Oliver Michael, Nate, Raven.

Means of communication: The Scoreboard. (Mental picture of a large whiteboard, presumably infinitely expanding with new additions) Notes are written down by various people when fronting when information must be shared in order to function.

Example: “talked to X at 2:30, agreed to help move house on Nov 30th. Pick up meds.”

Level of detail varies. Sometimes information is conveyed via pictures, sometimes tastes due to lexical–gustatory synesthesia. Only Raven doesn’t convey information.

I, Billy, can only speak to my experience with The Shades . Others may have the same or separate ones, I don’t know. The best way I can explain them is weathers that pass over my cognition. For the most part I voluntarily call them. The clearest ones are Silver and Porcelain. (Not personalities, as they don’t have individuality, amnesic barriers or difference from me. They are weathers I experience, like how a lake might experience frost.)

Silver is a weather, or shade, of extreme pragmatism and logic. Porcelain is a shade of deeply depersonalizing derealization. I don’t experience any others as strong or notable, though there are small ones that come and go.

There is way more but this is just what is easiest to put down in writing.