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symptom neutralizer
another term we use for our system that hasn't been coined yet to our knowledge!
a symptom neutralizer is, in essence, the opposite of a symptom holder. this can look like the following: -a system member who, in contrast with a system who are entirely or largely affected by a particular condition, does not seem to have any symptoms of it. -a system member who does display symptoms of a condition that affects the rest of the system, but their symptoms are much milder/more manageable for them than for the rest of the system. -a system member who experiences a symptom to some extent but is notably better at managing it than other system members are who have the same symptom. -a system member who is in some way "immune" to the symptom in question (e.g. an aromantic system member who does not experience hyperromantic symptoms) -a system member who is not bothered by symptoms that bother the other members of the system (e.g. intrusive thoughts that distress most of the members of the system do not upset a symptom neutralizer for them.) however, anything that lessens the impact, extent, or distressing nature of a symptom, or any system member who experiences notably less or none of a symptom that much of the rest of the system experience, can fit under symptom neutralizer.
the colors for the flag are adjusted from inverting the symptom holder flag.
simplified version:
this post has no DNI other than not to start discourse on it.
#.txt#[vyvian]#[shockwave]#crediting co with this because co was our first symptom neutralizer#so we basically invented the term for faer#symptom neutralizer#systerms#system coining#system role coining#our pride flags
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*through tears* I BELONG HERE. ON THIS EARTH AMONG OTHERS. I BELONG JUST AS MUCH AS THE NEXT PERSON. I DESERVE TO BE ALIVE. I AM JUST AS GOOD AND BAD AS EVERYONE ELSE. I DESERVE TO BE LOVED. I DESERVE TO BE FREE.
#mental health#healing#recovery#self love#love#body neutrality#body image#depression#suicide tw#trauma recovery#trauma symptoms#traumatic childhood#trauma#cptsd recovery#cptsdhealing#complex ptsd#actually mentally ill
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in your most recent tyson post, you said something about leo being distinctly autistic-coded and I was wondering if you could elaborate on that? it sounds really interesting (sorry if you've already posted something on this, I couldn't find anything though)
Of course! I do have a specific tag for talking about Leo's autistic-coding/traits - [here], and [one for Nico as well].
The main aspects with Leo being autistic-coded actually have a lot to do with Nico being autistic-coded, because it's the comparisons between the two that most clearly indicate Leo is autistic-coded rather than it just being his ADHD or etc.
So with Nico being autistic-coded, it's very clear in the Titan's Curse that he's intended to be autistic. First, the first series has a repeating pattern of secondary characters being very distinctly neurodivergent-coded in different ways (Annabeth's adhd/dyslexia, Tyson's down syndrome-coding, Nico's autism-coding). With Nico's introduction, he's pretty stereotypically autistic and we're given a lot of descriptors about him that are notably not attributed to him being ADHD, like it would be for other demigod characters. He doesn't register social cues such as people getting annoyed at him, he's asking/making inappropriate or impolite questions/comments, he gets particularly upset about change (such as Bianca joining the Hunt) and generally gets emotional, and one of his most notable traits he's introduced with is the fact that he has a special interest (MythoMagic) - and we're shown that this special interest particularly colors how Nico navigates the world. While ADHD has hyperfixations, we don't really get much acknowledgement of hyperfixations with demigods usually - Annabeth gets a little, but most others don't and it's not nearly as focused-in on as Nico's is.
Then as the series continues we see these traits stick with him and him start to show or voice more traits that similarly indicate he's autistic: He regularly mentions how he doesn't understand living people and prefers the company of the dead (social issues). He has more notable stims than other demigods (twisting his ring, fiddling with bones, etc). He's indicated to have strong sensory preferences (usually wearing mostly black/aversion to bright colors, usually wearing layers/his coat, multiple times he's described as wearing loose/baggy clothing or clothes too big for him). He has specific comfort items (his ring, likely his jacket(s) as well). We later get even more information about his special interests (Mythomagic/mythology/history and an older interest in pirates - the latter he specifically notes likely heavily influenced his feelings towards Percy). He struggles with emotions and facial expressions and tone. He struggles particularly with ostracism and feeling like he doesn't fit in and has something distinctly different about him from the people around him (who notably, all have ADHD, which indicates it isn't the ADHD that's making him feel that way), and other characters regularly describe him as being off-putting because of his strange behaviors - again, different from specific ADHD traits they recognize. And that last point is kind of notable because we have Hazel and Bianca for comparison - we know people are off-put by both Nico and Hazel because of being children of Hades/Pluto and their powers/aura, but other characters get past that general feeling of discomfort way faster with Hazel. And even after characters get past the death stuff with Nico, there's a second thing that they aren't moving past that isn't a factor with Hazel (Nico's autism).
So that brings us to Leo - Leo is paralleled to Nico a lot. And there's some very specific traits about him that we know are autistic-coding because of how they're used with Nico: He similarly struggles with social cues/etc, and in a very similar parallel to Nico describes how he prefers the company of machines to people because machines make more sense to him. He has similar types of clothing/sensory preferences (again some stuff with layers but also - pockets! He likes having pockets and things to put stuff in! He's even introduced as having a jacket with lots of pockets), and he has a distinct special interest (machinery) that we specifically know heavily influences how he views and navigates the world (constantly comparing things to machinery, describing things with machinery metaphors/terminology, etc etc). He even describes his entire general worldview to Hazel and it's a machine metaphor. He also similarly struggles with ostracization like Nico does, the only difference being that Leo specifically puts on a persona to compensate for areas he knows he's lacking in and very explicitly describes it as a means to make people like him, because without it he normally struggles to fit in (He's masking!). We also see notes of characters describing that similar discomfort with Leo's behaviors that they do with Nico, except without the aura of death this time. And when we're in Leo's POVs we see a very stark difference between his masking and his actual personality/behaviors such as his internal dialogues or how he behaves when he's alone. Also, like Nico, he stims more than other demigods, though for Leo it's more attributed to his ADHD. Leo also, more often than most, similarly struggles with tone and reading the room, such as making misplaced jokes/comments or etc.
But yeah! It's really interesting. Also it's just a fun thing that ADHD/dyslexia and autism have comorbidity, so it makes sense that we see demigods who are also autistic. It's also really fun to look at how other characters are coded in the series, what coding looks like in the riordanverse specifically (usually it's tied into the mythological stuff - like Chiron being in a wheelchair but he's actually a centaur, Grover being introduced as having a muscular disease but he's actually a satyr, demigods having adhd/dyslexia, Tyson being coded as having down syndrome but he's a cyclops, etc etc - it's a lot of specific metaphor stuff that I've talked about a bit before), and to look at how characters are compared to one another.
#pjo#riordanverse#leo valdez#nico di angelo#autistic nico#autistic leo#autism#analysis#Anonymous#ask#long post //#woof sorry that got long#im very passionate about this topic#re: characters being paralleled#Ms. ''Constantly Neutral - No Emotions'' Reyna looking at Nico stimming in the exact same way she does (twisting ring)#and internally going ''We have a lot in common. I don't know how I feel about that.'' is one of my favorites.#like. reyna. ma'am. you might be autistic. good luck with that.#with the pattern of coding in the first series i do suspect Rachel has some coding as well but i haven't been able to pinpoint what it is#I think it may be the whole seer thing and the fact that she could see the future#even before becoming the oracle/despite being a mortal rather than a demigod (who just get rare prophetic dreams normally)#and in BoTL her entire thing is that she's able to see things that no one else can and that's how they navigate the maze#particularly also with how the labyrinth is treated/how it affects people within it (see: Chris)#and how the only other seer in the first series - May - is characterized and her coding compared to Rachel's#also something something the seer traits become more prominent once Rachel meets Percy#something something metaphor about only being able to recognize neurodivergency traits once you're familiar with them#so Rachel meets Percy = introduction to the community > Rachel recognizes her own traits/symptoms > gets a support system (oracle)
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Lately, when I talk about someone I strongly disagree with, I think about my friends.
When I interact with someone who regularly rants about people, and tends to take things in the worst ways (without any attempts at self-reflection or grace), I feel more on-edge. I'm nervous to voice opinions. I'm always over-thinking everything I send them, worried about how they'll receive it.
On the other hand, I feel much safer during conversations where someone is speaking neutrally about those they feel at conflict with. When they feel upset about a situation, but without talking aggressively about the other person. Because I know that if we're ever in a disagreement, or have some sort of conflict or misunderstanding, they won't hurt me or suddenly hate me*.
I used to speak much more aggressively about people. My personality disorders, combined with online toxic environments, were big factors in that. I was stressed and angry constantly, and I felt justified, and I felt afraid and ashamed to respond with anything but anger. But to make a long story short, I had several big painful interpersonal experiences where I realized how my attitude was impacting my friends.
I remember the nervousness in my friends' eyes. I remember the people I've met who are much older and never grew out of that reactive communication style, and I don't want to be that person. I want my loved ones to feel safe around me.
So nowadays, I do my best to speak compassionately (or at least neutrally). Because I want to signal to my friends that I'm not going to be cruel to them, or to automatically believe the worst of them, during a conflict or misunderstanding. I try to vent about situations and my fears instead of people.
I wish I'd realized this before.
*(I discuss splitting in the tags)
#actuallynpd#actuallybpd#actuallyautistic#relationship advice#communication skills#I added the autism tag because we missed the social cues that would have alerted us of this early on#and that sure is a big thing we talk about in therapy.#Accidentally hurting people is so painful. We learned this back in 2020 and have been#practicing it ever since. We've wanted to share this with others because honestly a post like this would have prevented a lot of pain and#conflict.#And as promised; about the splitting-#This isn't a post meant to shame anyone for struggling with intense anger or distrust or splitting or any other symptom#My partner and I both have PDs. I've learned to self-regulate intense anger before venting. I've learned how to use more neutral words even#when I don't feel them. And when he splits on me he tells me he's having a BPD moment and that he needs some time alone#That's okay and healthy <3 Mental illness is tough. PTSD is tough. I often jump to the worst conclusions because I'm scared of being hurt.#I've just learned to handle it differently.#I wanted to clarify that because I don't want anyone to think they're inherently bad for having trauma reactions. My goal was to make the#type of post I needed back then when I lacked that social awareness. I had to work through a lot of guilt and shame and that was really#really hard. But it was so worth it. I'm so so glad she told me.
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we r an adult! a member based on the term "pellic", nonhuman (any species!), and is apart of a cluster who helps with the systems hypersexuality & general sexuality, the cluster worships a goddess of sex (who is also the leader of the cluster). tysm!
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✦ Name(s): Zokian, Mel, Oleander ✦ Pronouns: they/them, it/its, xe/xem/xyr/xyrs/xemself ✦ Species: succubus ✦ Age: ageless adult ✦ Role(s): symptom neutralizer, spiritual headmate, love holder (optional), trauma holder (optional), kink headmate ✦ Symptoms neutralized: hypersexuality ✦ Labels: pellic, omni, queerplatonic, oriented aroace, agender, xenogender ✦ Xenos: kink, candles, love ✦ Interests/likes: cuisine, video games, fantasy literature ✦ Dislikes: annoying sounds ✦ Music taste: darksynth, dream pop, industrial metal ✦ Aesthetic(s): devilcore, dreamcore, art deco ✦ Objectum attraction(s): buildings, figurines ✦ Kins: goats, dragons, roses ✦ Emoji proxy: 🕯️⛓️ ✦ Details:
Zokian is a pellic succubus who feeds off of non-sexual kink rather than sex (which are the types of acts that a person who identifies as "pellic" prefers over sex). It is part of a cluster in the system that help to manage hypersexuality. In Zokian's case, they do so by being asexual and thus not experiencing hypersexuality. However, it sees kink as holding the same role for it as sex has for most allosexuals, so it worships the sex goddess of the cluster but with kink instead of sex in its practices. In addition to worship, Zokian also likes doing protective rituals, love spells, and divination. If the system have any partners, Zokian is a holder for their love for them, although they experience that love queerplatonically. If the system have any trauma that affects their engagement with sex or kink, or with which they use kink to cope, Zokian holds that trauma and copes with it using non-sexual kink.
[These can be edited and changed as needed, and headmates will almost definitely not turn out EXACTLY as described.]
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#templatepost#alter packs#headmate packs#alter templates#headmate templates#build an alter#build a headmate#create an alter#create a headmate#bah pack#baa pack#minors dni#source: request#adult themes: yes#species: non human#age: ageless#age: adult#roles: symptom neutralizer#roles: spiritual headmate#roles: love holder#roles: emotion holder#roles: holder#roles: trauma holder#roles: kink headmate#themes: kink#themes: sex
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it's so goddamn tiring to see "leftists" use words that are connected to more stigmatised mental illnesses to talk about 'evil' people or 'evil' behaviour
#you say you care about people with mental illnesses & disabilities but as soon they have ''inconvenient'' symptoms the compassion is gone#i've said it before and i'll say it again#no that person being evil does not mean they are schizophrenic or psychotic or delusional or psychopathic#or whatever words based on mental illnesses you (a person who does not have those illnesses) have just decided is ok to use#psychological disorders are morally neutral#ffs#neurodivergent#mental illness#personality disorders#ableism
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Giving nicknames, testing boundaries (Patreon)
#Doodles#SCII#Helix#Max Vyer#Dexter Favin#How /did/ Max come to like him so much in just two years? I have my theories :3#More Teen Max!! Nothing has changed I just continue to love him lol#Two years is a pretty quick turnaround for such a stubborn kid - though I guess for a child two years can be a long time haha#Went from just hating Dex's guts of trying to drive him away and make him quit and hating being kept on a short leash#Does make me wonder how much of him kissing him was an impulse - I mean obviously lol but how much was genuine attraction!#Certainly seemed like a lot :0 Even upon being rejected he couldn't give it up! Still took him another several years to act again tho haha#I mean - in the text lol who knows what they got up to in the time skips hehe ♪#AnyWay lol - them getting used to each other of slowly working into tolerating each other#Max said something in one of his wake-ups that as I read it implied Dexter was something of a polyglot?? Which - love that ♪#If not conversationally-fluent then at tourist-fluent y'know I think that's great <3#Which got me thinking about other languages and insults and curses haha#I like the idea of Dex only really strong-arming Max about Actual deviant behaviour - something that puts himself or others at risk#Harmless little things like any teen would do - like name-calling! Haha - just get a kind of neutral ''Huh''#As well as interest <3 Not an outright dismissal not a lecture but at least the appearance of investment!#Considering Max's home life I can't imagine he had all that many people genuinely (or fake) interested in his shenanigans#All about suppressing the symptoms more than rooting out the cause it's amazing what just showing a little interest can do#I also just think it's cute of Max getting away with something silly and harmless but totally biting and mean! <in his mind haha#Silly lad <3
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Being at work is a lot of trying desperately to beat back my rejection sensitive dysphoria with a stick
#I'm just mentally shouting at myself#''THAT WAS A NEUTRAL INTERACTION''#''IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT THEY THINK YOU'RE STILL GETTING WORK DONE TO SATISFACTION''#''THEY AREN'T ANALYZING YOUR CONVERSATIONS THIS DEEPLY''#look. there's more than one way for executive dysfunction to manifest in ADHD#I don't experience it as getting ''stuck'' even tho that's alllllll I ever see online when people talk about it#my biggest executive dysfunction is and always has been emotional dysregulation#which combined with my history of being bullied and mistreated by people#means my rejective sensitive dysphoria is through. the. roof.#it's. it's very difficult to navigate some days.#today isn't TOO bad but I am certainly stuck on an interaction and trying to mentally justify why I'm not in trouble.#anyways I think we should talk more about the other forms of executive dysfunction#bc everyone is different and has different manifestations of symptoms!#speecher speaks
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having a lot of thoughts about eating disorders + how some of us end up developing chronic illnesses directly because of the physical effects of our eating disorders and how Cruel doctors can be about that and just trying to untangle so much shame and blame from that experience rn
#personal#vent#eating disorder tw#disability#idk. i don't quite have the words for this right now but#had another meeting with my doctor where they said yeah its your fault that you are now physically disabled for life#(literally i was chronically ill and physically disabled before i even developed an eating disorder because of CAH and comorbidities but#(they love to ignore that !)#which is like. i do not tie any morality to health and it should just be#a completely neutral statement. that my eating disorder caused other physical complications#they said i'm going to have orthostatic problems the rest of my life.#'since your gastroparesis was caused by your eating disorder that means there is no point in treating it'#which is so funny bc literally every time i see her my dietitan wants me to get a feeding tube! lmfao!!!!#i am actually doing pretty well in recovery in terms of meeting my energy needs through food. but i stopped being able to orally supplement#so my dietitan wants a tube for ARFID nutrient reasons. supplemental nutrition etc etc. and she thinks it will help gastroparesis symptoms#they also think i have osteoporosis and want to test me for that#when i had to use forearm crutches/ wheelchair because of physical ed complications doctors were SO fucking rude even though they were#the ones PRESCRIBING IT!!! like!!! you all are the ones telling me i HAVE to do this!#idk i also have a friend with permanent brain damage. from seizures in the refeeding process#and her doctors are so fucking rude to her all the time.#it makes me so mad
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Sometimes a person will make you feel bad or uncomfortable without doing anything morally wrong and you will feel bad and you will also not be doing anything morally wrong by feeling that way. Do you understand. There are bad situations that do not involve fault or wrongdoing.
#voidrambles#this is not about any specific situation but I was thinking and felt like it had to be said#it's mostly about people publically expressing symptoms of mental illness#like if someone in a public space expresses being suicidal they're not wrong or manipulative for doing that they're just expressing#AND if it makes people feel uncomfortable to the point where they block or don't want to engage those people are also not wrong#you get that right#a behaviour is not evil just because it gets a negative reaction and feeling bad in response to something morally neutral is also not evil
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Still thinking about how my best friend figured out I was autistic thirteen entire years before I did tbh
#text post#I am showing Symptoms lately (neutral)#lately it’s just been everything is too bright and loud tm and even though I want to watch a movie before bed#I would actually die if I hear people talking right now
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system role blinkies, part 1/?
[this post has no DNI other than not to involve it in discourse or mockery]
#.txt#[venn]#blinkies#flashing /#our blinkies#system flags#systerms#symptom holder#symptom enjoyer#symptom neutralizer#addiction holder#anger holder#love holder#system blinkies#blinkie#our content
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I feel so fucking shammy when I talk to my psychiatrist because he's always asking me how I'm doing (because he's a psychiatrist) and I'm always like "Not well. I can't gauge how my meds are working because I'm going through a lot right now, I'll have to see how things go when everything calms down." but it NEVER calms down and it's just one fucking thing after another and this poor man has to deal with my uncertainty.
#he's a really good dude i like him a lot because he listens to me#when i told him about my dee aye dee symptoms he gave me the diagnosis right off the bat#i'm so used to people not believing me about how bad things are for me#except for you guys of course but i digress#i know i'm being irrational and he's a professional but i just feel like i'm a handful to deal with augh#idk if this is a vent or not i'm just saying how i feel#i microdosed on some shroomage yesterday and i'm nursing a redbull right now so i'm feeling some weird sense of neutrality#as opposed to crushing despair#that'll wear off in a few hours but better enjoy it while it lasts
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why are leftists on this website unironically complaining about Feminist Killjoys gently reminding everyone that a movie on a corporate IP is trying to sell you something. The movie being good or fun does not mean that it's primary purpose is not to create or increase cultural awareness and good will with consumers so that they can sell something to you
#these people always try and Pretend to have feminist values at heart by saying shit like “do you have the same complaints about boy's toys?”#and its like. yeah man. i think hyperaggressive marketing to children is bad actually. like always.#plus i think it's kind of terrible the way so many boy's or 'gender neutral' toylines really lean into the narrative of Evil Criminal Stop#-The Bad Guy ! this guy is robbing the bank ! We have to Help The Police stop him !#or are just literally selling the thrill of Guns and War#like man no one is telling you that you can't watch the movie. i'm going to watch the movie. i'm probably going to like it a lot#that doesn't change the fact that it's very existence is a symptom of something i think is genuinely very wrong with society
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hello hi howdy what do u do when feel ur like brain deteriorating asking for a friend
#if it weren’t for autocorrect the only word I woulda spellled right including tags is howdy#its bad#but yeah can barely hold a pencil can barely talk#having a hard time reading#do I have any reason not to blow my brains out like. is this going to pass?#perhaps I need to like look deep into myself at my internalized ableism but holy shit I feel so gone#my brain doesn’t usually feel like this after being gone a day#sentences don’t make sense#my brain feels like goo. mush. applesauce#I can’t draw I can’t hear I can’t see#the fuck is wrong with me. bars#I recognize this incoherence. and it scares me not like literally I just wasn’t my brain to be mine#I don’t want my thoughts to be scrambled and for people to not understand me#I don’t understand me#I definitely need to unpack my internalized ableism#is it bad to not want to have symptoms that will ruin my life??#they’re entirely neutral I just don’t want this I already struggle with my brain#fuck
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hello! could we get a headmate pack for a member who helps the body eat/remeber to eat? specifically due to depression n ADHD and perhaps works with Iggy from this pack https://www.tumblr.com/headmate-ideas/770612009388720128 , nonhuman. tysm!
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✦ Name(s): Ryliel, Rylie, Yervi ✦ Pronouns: they/them, it/its, ix/ixs/ixself ✦ Species: eldritch angel ✦ Age: ageless adult ✦ Role(s): symptom neutralizer, chef, consumanaut, caretaker, spiritual headmate (optional), socializer ✦ Symptoms neutralized: depression and ADHD ✦ Labels: aroace, luxine, baph, juxtaneu, othellic ✦ Xenos: magic, light, food ✦ Interests/likes: cooking, moodboards, folklore ✦ Dislikes: being inside for too long ✦ Music taste: classical music, folk pop, indie pop ✦ Aesthetic(s): angelcore, tenshi kaiwai, cozycore ✦ Kins: sheep, dolphins, clouds ✦ Emoji proxy: 🥘🐑 ✦ Details:
Ryliel is an eldritch sheep angel with tentacles, wings, and multiple faces. It looks similar to Iggy, a demon in the same system. Where Iggy is a demon of knowledge, specifically of food, Ryliel is an angel of motivation and energy, particularly the motivation to take care of oneself. While the system have depression and ADHD that make it difficult for them to eat, Ryliel finds that ix does not experience these disorders. It is interested in food and likes learning about it from Iggy, and since the system struggle with motivating themselves to eat, ix applies that knowledge to help motivate them to eat by trying new and fun things for them. If the system have any spiritual practices, especially involving angels or deities, Ryliel follows them (although does not necessarily have to follow the same practices as Iggy). They are very friendly and always make a point of checking in with the system's friends. While preparing and consuming food is Ryliel's main caretaking task, it also takes care of the system in any other ways they need.
[These can be edited and changed as needed, and headmates will almost definitely not turn out EXACTLY as described.]
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