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upon reflection, something is wrong with me. i don't know if it's everything that someone would *say* is wrong with me, but *something* is, to some extent, actually wrong with me.

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like. do i think that going outside and socializing is good? yes. is it good enough that it warrants me being super loud and vocal about it all the time? hell no.

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ohhhhh okay. i think a lot of the people who constantly and loudly talk about how important it is to go outside and socialize either do not interact with the general public very often (or at all) when they go outside or else do not in fact go outside themselves. this hypothesis makes a lot of things make more sense.

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the more i think about this, the more i realize that a person who wouldn't at least somewhat sympathize with my perspective is probably either a bigot (or cool with bigotry, which is the thing there is so much of offline that's so bad) *or* doesn't spend much time offline themselves (because if they did spend a lot of time offline they'd be more familiar with the things from offline that makes me skeptical of claims of its superiority).

i am so fucking tired of people treating in person interactions like the greatest thing in the world and that it's absolutely necessary in order to be happy and that if you don't have a strong in-person social circle then you're isolated and a loser and unhealthy

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like yeah i'll never have a community of people like me. and i'll never have the life with my family that i want. and i'll never live in a world that isn't full of bigots who hate me. and i'll never be able to live an offline life where i'm not constantly misgendered. and i'll never be able to function online without fearing harassment. but i make the best of what i've got and i play the hand i'm dealt. and if the life i'm living right now isn't a happy one, then nobody on the planet is living a happy life.

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i feel like i'm the only person in the world who fully internalized the messaging of "you get what you get and you don't throw a fit"

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anytime i hear the messaging that a strong in person social life is necessary to be healthy, i'm just gonna mentally go "you probably think sex is necessary for relationships to be healthy too"

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i am so fucking tired of people treating in person interactions like the greatest thing in the world and that it's absolutely necessary in order to be happy and that if you don't have a strong in-person social circle then you're isolated and a loser and unhealthy

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today my therapist is going to pathologize the fact that i dislike bigotry and the rest of my system says i have to let her do that.

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Elephant's Trunk in Cepheus ©

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source

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controversial opinion but unfortunately you are your actions and what you say. if you are mean to people, it doesn’t matter if you sometimes have secret kind thoughts. fortunately you are your actions and what you say. if you are kind in your actions and your words, it doesn’t matter if you sometimes have mean thoughts. the power is in working against inner negative thoughts and being a better person despite it. you have the ability to cultivate the person you want to be.

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"your friends are an echo chamber" heyyyyy hey. hey. lock your phone right now and put it down. and walk until you get to the shore and then enter the body of water you encounter and stay in it till youre clean and whole with the world again

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HOBBES vs. TIGGER cage match TO THE DEATH say goodbye to your childhood because ONE! WILL!! DIE!!!!

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