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I hope every writer who sees this writes LOADS the next few months. Like freetime opens up, no writers block, the ability to focus, etc etc you're able to write loads & make lots of progress <3

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imagine getting diy hormones from spamton

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"Aro/Ace person gets given a love potion" story but instead of them being immune or whatever, it DOES work, and they realize IMMEDIATELY that they've been fed a love potion because this feeling is so wrong and foreign but everyone keeps laughing off the idea of it being a love potion because "they were probably just a late bloomer" or "no, you just finally found the right person!" and it's just a horror story about how no one believes them even though they know, they KNOW this isn't right and they can't stand it.

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those fucked animals in the ocean don’t give a damn about me or you

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i drew myself once again!;+6

it's me,,Salem!!!

(HE/HIM) 🐇🏳️‍⚧️

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Dehumanizing bigots is bad, not because I want to be nice to them, but because they are human beings and they serve as a reminder that anyone is capable of evil ideation and action. Violent bigots are not fundamentally different beings from you. They are human beings, who have developed a reactionary and destructive belief system due to their circumstances combined with their biases. In a different timeline, that could've been you. Anyone can be radicalized. Nobody is immune to propaganda, not even the person reading this.

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Two wolves being wolves.

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Ohh I know what members of my own system and fictional characters have in common. They're basically incapable of meaningfully betraying or surprising you.

This isn't true of all systems, but the way my system's emotions and thoughts work, we're capable of reading each other's minds, basically, and we're only so capable of keeping things from each other. So certain ways that external people can hurt you are unlikely to impossible in my system.

And with fictional characters, you have pretty much all meaningful control over them. Because at the end of the day, you're the one who decides what's true to you about the character, and even if it's a situation where the character's source is ongoing and the writers have them do something really upsetting or disappointing, it wasn't a real thing in reality and it wasn't directed at you personally.

So that might be why romantic feelings for them don't register as a form of anxiety.

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Pretty much the only exception to seeing romance as a form of anxiety (in our system) is in-system relationships and our feelings for fictional characters. I'm unsure what makes them different other than the obvious that they're not relationships with external people. We CAN have romantic self-ships and romantic relationships with each other without having anxiety about it, but I think it's also that "things you do in fiction or in systems" is a completely separate category to me than "things you do with external people who exist in the world".

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I decided not to be semi-negative on the post I just reblogged (insofar as talking about something not being good for oneself is negativity), that says "you deserve a love that doesn't confuse your nervous system", but I think that, if that post is true, it means my system shouldn't participate in romance. We experience it almost universally as a form of anxiety, and if love doesn't feel like anxiety, it doesn't feel like romance. This is true even for alloromantic members who consider themselves romance favorable.

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You deserve a love that doesn't confuse your nervous system.

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sex is not supposed to be about what you can tolerate!!!!! sex is supposed to be about what you genuinely want and enjoy!!!!! and if you’re traumatized and/or not straight, believe me, I know it’s not that simple to figure out what it is that you actually want and enjoy.

you’re not a bad person if you do something that you don’t particularly enjoy because, for example, it makes your partner happy, but always remember: you have no obligation to engage in sexual activities that you don’t fully like and enjoy. 

and you don’t ever, ever need to justify that - if your partner has an issue with “It makes me kind of uncomfortable” or “I don’t really like it”, then that person does not deserve a moment of your time, in or outside of the bedroom. you don’t have to prove yourself to anyone; you don’t have to meet anyone’s standards of acceptable vs. unacceptable activity (or lack thereof); you don’t have to force yourself to be comfortable with something because of any perceived political connotations of performing or refusing that act.

saying yes because you feel guilty about saying no is not consent. saying yes because you’re scared of what will happen if you say no is not consent. saying yes because you figure you might as well just endure it is not consent. sex ed on here and elsewhere doesn’t give a single shit about traumatized people and I wish someone had told me all of this a lot sooner.