#manic-depression

[hotmonkeelove]

I should probably mention this here. Part of my pain and the cause of my aenemia and nightmarish menses as of late is multiple uterine fibroids. So I'm getting a hysterectomy in October. *biting nails* I do want to have it done, but it is stressing me out. Also, we're going to move again in December probably, as this complex has gone to shit. Literally. We were flooded with raw sewage again in June. Third time in as many years. That, the thefts, my dog's seizures, my gf's work crises earlier in the year, my taking on too many projects, my depakote dose getting messed with, etc. and yeah, I've been having a lot of mood swings again.

I really just want to get the first chapter of my second SebaMey fic done, but serious fatigue and writer's block... Also fibro fog. I have fibromyalgia, too. Maybe I'll feel better soon?

[lexapro-princess]

[c-0-yote-teeth]

[la1npilledg1rl]

[vixensofdeath]

I destroy myself to make me feel better but in the end I always feel worse.

[mariposas8494]

Haha yasss

[hamoodmood]

[k9emote]

More mental health / Identity / Terms

(made for my discord server being released soon)

Singlet

System

Therian

Nonhuman

Regressor

Disabled

ADHD

Autistic

Tics / Tourettes

Bipolar

[hotmonkeelove]

made in picrew

Last one for today, I promise! The two halves of myself; the wounded girl of my depression, and the (self-reinvented) prettier, highly ambitious, much more likable and happy woman of my hypomanias. I have seen myself like this for ages now. The broken self holds me fast, despite my attempts to rid myself of her.

There is one liberty I have taken, and that is is my colour-changing hazel eyes. They used to be brown more often when I was little, typically appearing green when I cried. (It's rather unsettling to hear, "You have such pretty green eyes," when one is a traumatised child in tears.) They went permanently green in middle school, with the onset of my manic-depression (announcing that I was now broken). I only made them brown here to hark back to the happier, more innocent spots of my early youth.

All that is to say, I need to finish my poetry manuscript.

[lexapro-princess]

[unbridledmemories]

The Sun Rises

At three in the afternoon, on a lazy December Sunday, I stare at the cream-painted ceiling and lay my back on the hard tiled floor. I was oblivious to the time that would take for me to move from what was familiar into the rather unknown, yet somehow, familiar place. As a personal living with manic depression, I consider movement from one place to another–now that I don’t even know where my home…

[babygirlblogger]

i feel as if i have a good relationship with no one; not God, not my parents, my siblings, my cousins, my friends, food, education, nothing.

everytime, something goes wrong, i am filled with the thoughts that i am being punished for my sins; for being mean, for being angry and cold.

i feel like a teenage girl captured in the walls of my house with my soul imprisoned from guilt, karma, and regret.

[jenniethewitch]

[la1npilledg1rl]

“have you ever just cried because you’re you”

[heymacy]

IAN GALLAGHER + his journey with bipolar disorder

╰┈➤ “At times, being bipolar can be an all-consuming challenge, requiring a lot of stamina and even more courage, so if you’re living with this illness and functioning at all, it’s something to be proud of, not ashamed of." - Carrie Fisher

[girlyteengirl16]

what’s the vibe for tonight guys manic or depressive episode