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unimportantweirdo · 2 years ago

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i have a couple things to say so i shall say them in the tags

legit just me getting my thoughts out so feel free to ignore

#first off #idk if the label 'panromantic' fits as much any more #basically im attracted to anyone that is not a man irl and unattainable men #in my head im pan in theory and ig lesbian in practice?#like its safe to be attracted to mgg or fictional men or even the guys i see on tiktok bc i will never see them irl #but not safe to be attracted to my male friend who has been open about being attracted to me #maybe its the trauma? only men have fucked me over romantically/sexually?#idk thats something i need to think about #second thing #i think im often in a very low level dissociative state #like im making tiktoks and on a logical level ik its me #but also theres a definite disconnect #like if i scrolled onto one of my tiktoks on my fyp i wouldnt immediately recognise myself #weirdly its like #sometimes i look really pretty or cool or handsome and that has such a strong disconnect to how i think i look #that i will just... depersonalise from that photo or video or whatever #like ik what *they* look like #but *they* are not *me*#idk maybe i need more therapy

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freewayshark · 10 months ago

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It really does make me wonder what else has been shot down by Fox. Because buddie is obviously the thing that we’re more able to clearly connect dots on even before Oliver started saying anything about any of it, but you know it’s not the only thing, we just don’t have the threads to pull on for anything else

#I have this theory that is less a theory and more a feeling #because it has no basis outside my own impossible to pin down vibes #but it makes me wonder about Maddie and Chim #both as their own characters and a couple #idk maybe it’s the way that Maddie was often So isolated as a character outside of Chim and Buck and only occasionally Athena #maybe it’s the way Chim keeps getting put through the wringer without very much acknowledgement #not that I think every incident any of them has needs a trauma arc #but it gets brushed off. a lot #maybe it’s even the way we had that couples therapy line in the 6.01 synopsis that just never happened #I don’t know! like I said it’s vibes but I would love to know if there was meddling there as well #and also with anyone else too of course

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myokk · 9 months ago

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Sebastian had a few days leave from duty so he visited Eloise😇😇

#im literally OBSESSED with Eloise😩#and this AU😇🙏#they are maybe late 20s/early 30s here I wanted to experiment a bit #anyways I was reading A Little Life at the beach today #and ngl I was tearing up literally ALL the time!!! 😤😤😤#it’s just so beautifully written & I find myself relating so heavily and I get gut punches every few pages where I need to stop reading #and just process it #idk maybe I am sentimental today LOL #It’s just…it’s making me think about the fact that I’ve never really Belonged in any one place and neither have the characters #my mom is the product of Bulgarian/swedish immigrants to the US and my dad is a Spanish pueblo man 😂#and their experiences/culture/languages etc etc have shaped my life soooooooo much🙏#but like at the same time. too reserved to truly fit in with the Spanish but too open/blunt for the midwest #idk it is weird to explain #anyways I just keep moving forward & make my own way🙏🙏🙏#thank you for coming to my free Therapy Session in the hashtags (bc nobody reads these😂😂😂😂)#also if you did & you also read a little life please🙏 or if you want to talk about books in general🙏🙏#hogwarts legacy #hogwarts legacy fanart #hphl #sebastian sallow #hogwarts legacy mc #hogwarts legacy oc #eloise #oh also this is a recreation of a Porco Rosso scene😇😇🙏🙏#but I changed the colors a LOT & also a bit more when I sketched it up

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deoidesign · 2 months ago

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I need to know if I'm delusional and projecting onto random characters or if Adam and/or Steve are neurodivergent

You can project whatever you want on them, and I don't know that it's "canon" so to speak but I write them with neurodivergent intent in mind just based on my own life experiences!

so I'm projecting on them too, but it's up for debate whether that's coming across in the text.

Adam is autistic and Steve has ADHD. To Me.

#I think adam autism is wayyyyy more in the text than steve ADHD #adam who has. been to therapy.#and whose mom. is a psych #thats not in canon but it's how I'm writing him #he feels like someone whose mom was psychoanalyzing him in a gentle way his whole life you know what I mean.#like. ok maybe I'm being ridiculous but its in there I swear #steve on the other hand extremely untreated ADHD and also no way of knowing he has it and also doesnt need to focus much so you cant tell #but. as much as it could be in there for his situation I think its in there #anyways this is just word of god I guess. well maybe adam autism is like fair at this point to read and consider relatively canon #dodsent madder #I'm wary of what I say is actually canon #especially when it comes to neirodivergency!#which is sooo extremely personal and SOOOO varied #but like them being trans. thats canon #and when people are like hmmm idk I dont think its in there #I'm like LEARN TO THINK CRITICALLY...#'your family wouldnt recognize you as a man and you said you were glad for it'#'the man who chose and who told me I was allowed not to'#'are you my boyfriend?' 'I prefer partner.'#like be serious. thats canon #sorry it pisses me OFFF!!!!!!#not like super duper its like fine HAHAHAHAAHAHAAHA #anyways okay. yeah adam is autistic and steve has ADHD #uh.......#also personally choose not to use the word delusional and to save it for medical discussions but your words are your choice #asks #autisticfridge #just like to make my choices clear as often as I can #ok bye love you. project whatever the hell you want on my ocs #I made them and put them out there and I get to do 100% of what I want with them

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reawaken · 15 days ago

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in bed and a solo oc blog's calling to me like the green goblin mask

#outof.#tbd /#trying to resist the urge w every fiber of my being #cus that means i'd have to get into loretm... and there's sm how am i supposed to condense any of it in a digestible manner #i never shut the fuck up #can i just beam the information into y'all's minds. please god #this is mostly about ambrosius... mr grimdark fantasy... my first ever oc i've had for like. 19 years now coming june #they're so tragic and should've became a villain. had every right to do so but remained kind despite everything #u can imagine how much shit he has /alone/. my dedication needs to be studied #or one of my wols that i have on here. amhe my tired lil guy... fraying at the edges while ardbert and esteem r :awkward: emojing in #her head. please seek therapy #idk... sm options... we'll see... maybe once i write more here and on viktor. the latter of which i never got to do what #i'd planned cus i zzz'ed all wknd. xd #i just want to advertise an oc<3 or all of them<3 anxiety always holds me back

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lucky-clover-gazette · 3 months ago

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did not expect kissing and realizing i’m lowkey dating a guy to send me down an existential spiral of reminding me that i have only one life to live and then i am going to die without living any other different lives

#but i’ve been wasting time not exploring at all!!#doesn’t have to be a forever person it’s just an experience #but still #it’s really weird and idk!!!!#and if i date this guy fr i would have to like go on birth control probably and holy shit i do NOT want more medication #and what if i meet someone else?#i don’t exactly want to commit y’know???#but i’m halfway through my twenties and i don’t know how much time i actually have and if i think about it too long i hyperventilate #which WOULDN’T HAPPEN if i was just continuing on with being safe and alone!!#and what about women?? i love women!#but when i really love something or someone i go crazy about it #i lose myself #so maybe realistic and neutral is better?#am i neutral?#i don’t fucking know and my friends for the most part aren’t quite grasping what i’m trying to say #like yes i overthink and yes it might not be that deep to anyone else including the guy #but it NEEDS to be that deep. to me.#because that’s how my brain fucking works.#i don’t take shit lightly and i never have #that’s why i’m better off alone #or with people who are also deeply unchill #but this guy is so chill! and it does make me feel comfortable!#but it’s also like bro is this conversion therapy am i conversion therapying myself?#my entire identity for more than a decade has been based off being single and independent #and the lapses in that are times in my life that i see myself as unambiguously pathetic and embarassing #with men and women #i feel like a fucking unsocialized semiferal cat that wants affection but also doesn’t know how to accept it #and do i even want it? or is it want i know i should want or what would be good for me so im just slowly forcing myself into it?#it’s so much easier. so much simpler. to not have to freak out about this stuff.#sorry for venting i know it’s annoying it’s just fuck man…

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pierregaslays · 9 months ago

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#i literally feel VIOLENTLY ill at the fact the hospital handled my mum’s passing so badly that her funeral is exactly ONE MONTH after it #i’ll forever be furious and angry and hurt and traumatised by the way they handled it #like A MONTH #it should not be happening this long after #and it’s her birthday on sunday so maybe i’m just feeling ten times worse because of that #but it’s not fair #it’s never gonna be fair #why the FUCK did she get taken from me like this #and then having to be the only one who knew about her funeral plans bc she only told me #and then everybody including my dad tells me how strong i am #IM NOT STRONG!!?!!?!??!?#i’m a girl who needs her mama. i’m just a girl who is so lost and confused and needs her mama #i literally want 2 die #tw death #i turned my tv off and immediately started crying bc i felt like the worst person in the world #did i not love her enough #should i have been better to get #*her #idk i just want her to know i adored her #and i need to hear her voice and get a hug #one of the last things she said to me was ‘i love you more’ well i love you most so how about that #tw grief #i am never getting over losing her #please . feel free to let me rant i just feel like i can’t talk to my dad or family bc like idk .#i always talked to my mum about my emotions and well! that can’t happen anymore lmfao 😭#i just need a place to vent the HELL out of my feelings bc i am not going back to therapy

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my-thoughts-and-junk · 5 months ago

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my 1 (one) stardew opinion is shane should not have won the bachelor poll

#stardew valley #like i love shane but his storyline is not improved by him being a marriage canidate #if anything his bland post-marriage dialogue and 14 heart event dampen the message #and clint would have been a GREAT bachelor #linus not so much because he would have suffered from the same post-marriage dialogue dampening as shane #and he's too much of a free spirit to be tied down to your farm #like maybe he'd have a similar romance path as krobus? like you don't get MARRIED married but you have a commitment ceremony!!!#and the wizard... need to be in a love square with the witch and caroline...#his hidden dialogue. the situation with abigail. his adulterous past. his condescending behavior towards the player.#i also don't think he'd marry the player though. would probably make you soul bonded or something #maybe it increases your health or smth? and if you get divorced your health gets cut in half for like a week while you slowly recover #idk i really like the idea of him cursing you if you divorce him. 'not a very mature way to express anger' my ass #clint... i need to marry him...#there's a mod which makes his storyline WAYYY too similar to shane for my liking #with him going to therapy and stuff #but it DID make him realize being around emily makes him uncomfortable which i really like #i think a good route for him to go down would be him recognizing that what he feels for emily is not love or even desire #it's anxiety. emily is nice to him which makes him uncomfortable because no one is nice to him #which he confuses for attraction and he confuses her kindness for reciprocation #i think if emily ever asked him out he would turn her down #like emily would come up to you and be like 'hey i realize clint has a crush on me and i think it's really sweet so i'm gonna ask him out'#and then she does and he just goes 'O-O erm... no thank you...'#which confuses emily but she accepts being turned down and later on #clint talks to you about it like 'i thought that was what i wanted but her asking me out made me really uncomfortable and i don't know why'#and in a romance route he gets with you specifically because you make him feel calm :)#originally i wanted to say this was my most controversial stardew opinion but a LOT of people hate shane. so #also emily shouldn't have won the poll either!!!#sandy would have been a MUCH better option to flesh out her character and the desert more #marnie would have been interesting considering her relationship with mayor lewis #and i hate penny so i would fuck her mom out of spite lmaoooo

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mikalilys · 1 month ago

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I do this thing when it’s Christmas/new year where I write a postcard to my future self and open it the next Christmas/new year.

I opened my one for this year last night, cried, then fell asleep.

But fucking hell omg so much changes in a year and seeing past me ask if schools still shit, knowing now that I’ve left and started homeschooling just ugh. I hardly noticed it but things really did get better when I left, I did get happier, but it happened so slowly that I didn’t notice it. Like sure I still feel like shit a lot of the time, and maybe I’m still sick, and maybe that’s gotten worse.

but I’m not walking around like a zombie anymore, I’m not crying every morning, before going to school 2/3 days a week, I’m not staying up longer wishing I didn’t have to fall asleep because if I did I’d have to wake up in the morning.

I’ve never been one for reflecting on my past self and wishing I could help her, but god how things have changed and I just wish I could tell her it’s going to be okay.

I wish I could tell her that I don’t just have dreams of living, I truly want to.

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the-lark-ascending69 · 2 months ago

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Had this moment of extreme anger and aggression out of nowhere and ended up hurting myself and then i wrote about it, went out to get some coffee, chatted w the coffee lady for 5 minutes, watched an episode of amphibia and now i feel weirdly refreshed and hopeful about life and the future??

#self harm cw #idk if i consider it sh because i really just slapped my thigh a bunch of times until it bruised a little #like there's no blood nothing serious happened i just wanted to break something #then i found a bunch of scrap paper and i tore it to shreds before i did anything stupid with the scissors on my desk #looking forward to this tattoo appointment so bad. i'm hoping to 1) get something so pretty it will make me happy and calm me down #whenever i look at it 2) to get something to pretty in my left forearm that it will stop me from doing anything to it to not risk ruining it #and 3) hopefully feeling all that pain will like... discharge everything in one go so i won't want to hurt myself again for some time #thinking about all the things that made me feel bad was the only thing that got me through my wisdom tooth removal surgert #like yes... yes... pain and suffering... i deserve... hurt hurt hurt #anyway two gone! only two more to go #in one hand: it's a genuinely helpful way to handle pain and pain is inescapable a lot of the time so having a mental resource to protect me #is pretty cool actually #on the other hand: oh my girlfriend is gonna cry so much when she finds out. i know it's not good or normal or healthy #i really need to talk about it with my therapist. idk why i get so angry. nothing happened #i'm just glad i was alone and there was no one i could take my anger out on. because that someone is usually my girlfriend #and i love her so much i never want to hurt her #i felt so proud of myself when she told me one day she thought i wasn't an angry person at all #that i rarely ever got mad #like... yes... yes... i have succeeded... at making myself appear harmless... this is everything angsty teenage me ever wanted...#personal #when does this therapy thing kick in guys #maybe i just need to tattoo my whole body so i won't do anything to it #for now: toothless tattoo on my arm will protecc it from my crazy brain. hopefully.

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the-casbah-way · 2 months ago

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i found loads of pictures of my uncle i am going 2 cry

#he looked so sweet…..he looks SO much like my dad #i found the last picture of him that my granddad took a month or so before he died it’s so sad #trying to decide if i should tell my mum that i know about him or if i should just keep it to myself #idk if somethings wrong with me maybe it’s because i was already grieving before i found out #but it’s really getting 2 me i can’t concentrate on my uni shit i just keep thinking about it #i think i rlly need to talk about it with someone but i have no idea who or how or what i’d say. but it’s weird because it’s a secret yk #like i’m not even supposed to know he existed #idk. i have a gender clinic appointment next week and i’m going to ask if they can recommend any therapists #me being very very brave and trying therapy again after being forced into it my whole life and ending up a bit traumatised #idk. i feel bad that i’m alive and i’m wasting my life when my uncle got killed when he was just a kid #it makes me feel like i should be more grateful and do more with myself.#and i am going to try but i’d rather he was here instead. same with my granddad #every time i experience something beautiful or good i wish my granddad could experience it because he deserved it more than me #and the best i can do is experience it for him and be grateful. but i would chance places instantly if i could #him and his kid deserve to be here they were so special. i know i don’t know his kid but i’ve heard they were similar #so i know he must have been special too #i found a fb comment today from a family friend i’ve never met and she was saying that she only met my granddad once #but she called him gentle and it made me cry. because he was very scottish and sweary and traditional and masculine #so everyone just assumed he was tough and scary but if you knew him he was really quiet and kind #and i’m glad someone who only met him once could see that #i’m going to be half asleep for the rest of my life i think. i’ve been dreaming since my granddad died and i don’t feel like i ever woke up #nothing has felt real since i was nine years old. everything just stopped and never started again #i’ve just been waiting. i’m waiting for him to change his mind and come back. idk. i don’t know what to do with myself #and i continuously feel fucking insane and stupid for being this way. it’s like fresh grief all the fucking time #but it was fifteen years ago. why does it still feel this way #i can’t even tell people because they won’t understand why i’m still so bothered by it #he was my parent for nine years. i lived with him he was my sole caretaker #i was nonverbal and him and my brother were the only people on the planet who knew what my voice sounded like #he’d think it was silly if i failed my exam because i was crying about him instead #he’d tell me to whisht and stick in. so i will

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snekdood · 2 months ago

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giving men a space in feminism doesnt mean letting them step on your toes. if you feel like your toes are being stepped on, you need to say something and tell that person to stop instead of try to get them fucking exiled essentially.

#i really do truly think peoples inability to socialize and do conflict resolution is a huge part of the problem here. they jump straight to #ostracizing someone from the community bc they're essentially too scared to actually have a conversation and tell that person to stop?#they're gonna say its trauma or w/e but if its a guy you dont know whos not traumatizing you you cant really... claim that.#no. be honest. you dont know how to communicate effectively. so its easier to just have people leave than try to fix anything #the same type of person to reject going to therapy with someone to try to fix things and just kinda jumps to saying 'fuck it'#but the whole point of therapy isnt to make you guys stay together anyways- its to resolve conflicts. you might decide you're better off #w/o eachother but need to at least know the other person whole perspective first before jumping to conclusions #therapy with others also! teaches you how to resolve conflicts and communicate more effectively. so even if things dont work out #now you have tools in your belt later on if you need to work on a different relationship.#im not saying go to therapy w some random dude who might be stepping on your toes in some way but you Do need to learn #how to communicate better so you can at least tell him how you're being negatively effected w/o... trying to advocate for his ejection #and it'd be even more helpful if you have an unbiased emotionally mature friend who understands communication well nearby to help #you guys resolve your conflict... doesnt have to be a therapist specifically lol #tho a therapist or counselor or w/e is usually the best option bc they're the least likely to be biased.#unless you can find an over qualified stranger... which... how would u even know theyre over qualified then... idk sdjhfshj #if it is like a community thing maybe (hopefully. ideally) the organizer can be the unbiased party? idk.

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ilkkawhat · 3 months ago

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just reflecting today on the 7th poured drink tonight and recalling how when i was venting to my co-workers about yesterday and the panic attack i had and all that, she mentioned how I needed more help when I was drowning and i swear to you the immediate thing that came to mind when she said that was alan wake

#i haven't really made many drowning gifs have i #also i feel bad cause like. god #this is so stupid and convoluted and part of the guilt i'm carrying right now #our customer service department ended up being the straw that broke my back and made me have that panic attack/meltdown yesterday #and i try #i TRY SO HARD to have some empathy towards them cause i mean #they're the ones getting basically abused by our customers #and it hurts so much to me that i can't be more help #and specifically the situation yesterday was me having to jump in and finish something that idk took me all of ten minutes to do #after i asked for some forklift assistance that took maybe like half an hour #but i had asked my employees to get that done *last week* and they couldn't do it #and the poor customer service rep had to escalate it to the director of sales which she flaunted in myf ace #and i felt terrible when i snapped and said 'ok i'll drop everything i'm doing to help you'#when i did legit have a million other things i needed to do #i'm honest to god tempted to rate myself as unsuccessful this year just cause like #i've been having to do my own employee's jobs which is also my fault for maybe not being firm like i need to be #but anyway her saying how i was drowning of course made me think of alan which honestly made me feel a little better #cause i mean it's like nick right #if alan could get out of the dark place even though it took him 13 years maybe i can too #and also inspiring in the way that like. alan needed help and i probably need help too #i've gone to therapy twice once in person and once online and like nick it's just...#not my thing #but something both therapists seemed to concur upon was that my support system isn't the best and i also need to work on myself #and love myself and lmao that's soooooo much easier said than done #but anyway i'm sorry i should get a real diary or somethin but #something about the formatting of tagging like this is weirdly comforting

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bibleofficial · 3 months ago

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did yall know fixing ur gait is fucking painful & it makes u look like an alien inhabiting a human suit trying to walk ‘normally’ for the first time

#stream #like wow tendons i haven’t stretched in FOREVER being FORCED into USE … parts of my CALF THATVE GONE UNDERUSED #insane …#maybe i SHOULDVE spent the money i didn’t have on investing in physical therapy after my fracture was deemed healed #also it helps a LOT with my hip pain ALSKALSLAKSLAKSLAKSLAKSLA #how did i come to the conclusion that i should work on fixing my gait ? 2 things: i remember when i reopened the fracture a few months ago &#was wearing my hinged brace & i alrdy walk a bit funny so i was limping & tbus kid started miming me & i wanted to punch him in the throat #like boy i’m stronger than u are can & will ever be kill yourself !!!! anyway that was just a flashback or whatever idk & then i also have #been getting chinese foot binding content on youtube the past few days so i just looked into it so like ok the flower pot shoes #i was like wait ok why … what kinda walk like i get they would’ve walked differently but like i was like ok what has happened #like what happened to the musculoskeletal structures of the feet - how’s it impacting their legs ? so ur walking on ur heels mostly from #what i read (wikipedia page) but since i love callus content like podiatry like the corn removals omgggggg but u can tell where ur callous #formation is & i know why it forms the way it does so it’s all the outside of my foot; literally i walk on the side of my heel MOSTLY & then #when i u know lift the heel instead of pushin pressure onto the big toe & ball of my foot it’s going to the outside & onto the corner of the #pinky toe … entirely …. BUT I DIDNT KNOW / CONNECT THE DOTS to muscle & how it’ll impact u LONGTERM if ur not using or whatever certain so #i’m walking super fucked up im pigeon footed essentially but it hurts all my outer hip from overuse / misuse & focusing on walking normal #helps soooooo much for that hip but for my big toe & inside foot/arch & low inner calf: big mad biggggg mad bc UNDERUSE #i haven’t been using those muscles ‘normally’ for more than a year.5 !!! crazy !!!!!!!#but also i was like wait i do tons of illegal shit we need to fix this walk so it’s a nonidentifiying feature bc i DO walk funny & it IS #noticeable but i can use this muscle memory to my advantage it’s like being able to write w my left hand now. use it to ur advantage. fool #everyone for fun - it’s a NATURAL DISGUISE

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shrineofdolls · 5 months ago

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why was that therapist telling me to go get laid by multiple people when I told her about my rape like wtf is That About ??? this is my current live posted shower thought. I am Very annoyed right now. there is water droplets on my phone and I am quite angry at this lady who no longer is relevant to my life anymore. I am steamed in this steamy shower over her negligence and everybody needs to fucking know.

#melloof #she told me to get over it because it happened when I was under 18 #and that maybe I should accept that I was just a child with an underdeveloped brain 🤪#so I told myself that my brain was developed enough over and over because she told me my brain wouldn't be developed enough until I was 30!#my brain is too underdeveloped to understand rape or multiple molestations I guess #still have three more years until I'm developed enough woooo !!!#she also told me being nonbinary was too new for her to understand and that I should go see somebody else if I needed help with that #a year into therapy. she was fine with it before though! idk what happened. she just... flipped !!!

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deadrlngers · 2 years ago

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i was tagged by @shadowglens and @risingsh0t to make some ocs in this picrew. thank you so much besties, i loved this picrew so much!! <3

vesper moxley (cp2077) • victoria gray (cp2077) joelle knight (fo4) • nina bower (fo4) selene (oblivion) • hiraeth (skyrim)

tagging: @uldwynsovs @arklay @devilbrakers @nuclearstorms @morvaris @girlbosselrond @indorilnerevarine @moiragf @cultistbase @faarkas @steelport @nokstella @reaperkiller @malefiicarum @brujah @calenhads @lightwardens @aelyosos and whoever else wants to do this or that i missed bc i'm terribly forgetful sorry!!

#tag games #warning i accidentally infodumped in the tags i'm sorry ignore me 😔 ckjsdhdskj #made this based on relationships idk why jdksd. victoria is vesper's bestie 4 life & first gf. joelle & nina my fave wlw married couple #and then for the last one. listen. i've resurected a very old oc and i'm still not so sure but i miss skyrim so bad. they idea is that #they are related as in hiraeth is a descent of selene bc i think dragonborn=martin septim's child> family line going forward until we #have our little hiraeth. i never thought of selene & martin having a kid in canon (only stupid ideas of an au) but u know. what if. she #still ends up in the shivering isles tho and becomes sheogorath. hiraeth's bloodline having like an emperor & a daedric prince. OK KING!!#much to think about tbh. not sure if they/she(probably he too. thinking of their gender as therapy for myself) will stick as nord or maybe #wood elf too like selene. or maybe even dunmer?? it makes no sense fjkdfhk IDK. literally i HAVE so much to think for them #also their name came to me bc i read the welsh word Hiraeth that basically means 'a mixture of longing yearning nostalgia homesickness'#+ 'an expression of an empty desire and grief over a past life or place' and with drangonborns i like to push the idea of 'maybe they were #actual dragons in a past life and now human' u know?? so i thought it was sooo fitting. i also like the idea of the more dragon souls #they absorb the more their features turn..dragonesque?? draconic jkfdhfkdsj idk i love them very much (:#(i have no idea how dragon in past life + martin's bloodline can fit but i'm literally only vibing rn)#i want to replay skyrim SO bad but i need someone to hold my hand so tightly as they help me set up mods for this game bc i never played #skyrim with mods (collective gasp) and i have no idea of what to pick ecc especially bc everything..breaks with a snap of fingers so yea ri #SORRY for talking so much i get excited about new things (my oc in this case) so easily..#oc: vesper #oc: victoria #oc: joelle #oc: nina #oc: selene #oc: hiraeth #ALSO FUCK OFF JOELLE IS SOOOOOOOOO CUTE HERE!!!!!!!!!!!

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