#ed recovery food

[girlwhoisinfactthepr0blem]

to celebrate my journey to recovery here are some of the delicious foods that I ate over the last few months. because of my ed I wasn't able to enjoy them at the time, but I want to look back at these photos and remember how good it tasted and how glad I was to be spending time eating with a person I love, instead of seeing it and remembering all the shame I felt about food and my body.

[ed-recovery-affirmations]

Another piece of diet culture to unlearn: that eating an "unhealthy" food negates the benefits of other nutritious things you've eaten. Put bacon and ranch on your salad? Congratulations, you still got a lot of fiber, that's great for your gut biome, and the veggies still contain nutrients. Finished up your dinner with a dessert? You still ate the dinner. You don't have to eat "pure" to take in nutrition from your meals.

[catmask]

in nicies news though one of my closest friends saw an old picture of me compare to one of me now and complimented me on how ive gained weight and look much healthier now and im

[thepeacefulgarden]

[calciferstims]

senshi stimboard

if you’re seeing this, then senshi wants you to take care of yourself and go eat some food <3

sources: 🧡🧡🤎 | 🥘🍲🥘 | 🤎🧡🧡

[sunnibits]

hey I know this is rlly different than my usual art but I did these ed recovery themed posters for my visual language class and lowkey I think I kind of popped off with them,, I was wondering if I put these up in my shop would anyone be interested in prints?? gen question

[buglover77]

Thinking about so many people this holiday season. People in ED recovery. People who haven’t started their ED recovery yet. People with sensory issues around food. People with unwanted dietary restrictions and intolerances and allergies. “Picky eaters.” You are valid, you are loved, you are capable, you are strong. I hope you are able to find joy and delight this year in your meals. Wishing you all the best. ❤️

[cherryred-xoxo]

Hot girls have a healthy relationship with food!!!

[cigarrorosapreto]

☣️⚠️: AVISO: COISAS NOJENTAS, E VOCE PODE SER UMA DELAS !

Viu, eu acho que você é uma delas, nojenta e nojenta.

( autocrítica )

[lousydrawingsforgoodpeople]

[inkskinned]

im gonna start a fight; and, at the same time, i need you to take this in the most good-faith way possible, but:

videos that involve body-checking and intentionally (and uncritically) show a mealplan of an unhealthy number of calories are just a revamped version of pro-ana food diaries.

and yeah, i know there's arguments. i address some of them under the cut. but at the end of the day, we're just coming back to romanticizing mental illness; we've just found a better platform for it.

this is already something we've done. we knew it was wrong and tried to stop it. and tbh. it just wasn't enough.

there are people who argue "well, what if you have an eating disorder, you can't help it if you don't eat!" except that as someone with an ED; we are not infants. we know what we're doing. part of having an ED is that you are like, maybe too self-aware. even if we can't help our own food choices, we don't need to fucking romanticize the disorder - something we've been warning you about since 2013. there are hours of setup, filming, and editing that go into these videos. they do not happen to fall into place randomly. there is a reason they are pieced together to be beautiful, bright, inspiring.

there's this woman who pretty much only posts daily plans under a normal amount of calories, and everyone defends her saying but it's better than nothing! and i'm like. except she opens those with images of her showing off her body and provides no context in the video or caption that suggests that she believes what she's doing is unhealthy. she has hundreds of thousands of followers on a platform designed for young kids and teens. i refuse to believe that by accident her content just happens to be cheery advice on "healthy" versions of starving.

for any other symptom of mental illness, we would be incredibly enraged by this kind of placid acceptance of a "tips and tricks" fast-start guide. imagine if people posted pink & pretty videos saying "best places to cut yourself" as if it was a fucking storytime. we, as a society, are so fucking fatphobic that we would rather accept blatantly harmful displays of self harm than admit that we are obsessed with a hyper-thin body type.

i am not suggesting someone never talks about their disorder. i talk about mine. actually, it's a plot point in my book.

here's the difference: i recognize it's a fucking mental illness. i am very careful to never mention a specific weight, eating pattern, or calorie plan. i always make sure to position it as something that ruined my fucking life. i do not put cheery music in the background and hearts and sparkles over my worst moments. i do not film it in bright light. i do not start each passage with an image of a thin body followed by "here's how to look like her."

eating disorders should not be framed as aspirational. and the problem is that society worships the "after" image, so long as you don't get too sick. there is a reason so many people who quit being "influencers" will later admit - i wasn't eating well that whole time; an obsession with food was completely destroying my life.

we let any uncredited, uncertified person write the most backwards, fucked up shit about how to get the body you desire! because the underlying, secret belief is: well, at least they're thin! and the real thing that fucking gets me each time - they make fucking money off of it. their irresponsibility and societal harm literally pays off for them.

"why do you care so much." "don't like it don't look." "so what if people experiment with new ways of thinking of food?"

thank you for asking. we're about to get extremely personal. it's because when i was 18 i discovered "thinspiration"/"thinspo." and it absolutely influenced, shaped, and codified my pre-existing eating disorder. i went from having some troubling habits and traits to being incredibly unwell within what felt like a matter of days. there were actual pages designed to train me on how to have an ED correctly. it was all so suddenly easy. i was sick; and the nature of the illness meant - i wanted to be sicker.

it takes an average of 7 years for a person to fully recover. i know this personally - even now, 10 years from the worst of it, i still fucking struggle. i am so much happier now and i eat what i want and i literally don't think about food at all (19 year old me would shudder) and yet - i still fucking know the calories of plain toast with butter.

an eating disorder is one of the deadliest types of mental illness. over 1 in 4 people with an ED will attempt suicide.

and i'm sorry. i just do not see the exchange rate of "high rate of engagement" versus "the value of a human life."

[pozartaa]

11.12.24 UTRZYMANIE WAG.I dzień 649. Limit +/- 2100 kc.al.

Wybrane posiłki:

Nie liczę kalori1 od: 154 dni

Tajemnica złego humoru i nadmiernego apetytu poniekąd rozwiązana - okres idzie. Zupełnie zapomniałam o tym cudownym aspekcie bycia kobietą. Nie żebym coś miała przeciwko byciu kobietą.

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Postanowiłam w końcu coś ugotować. Dziś ostatni gotowy kotlet z Biedry na obiad. Nie powiem - dobry był, ale te gotowce po prostu mają być dobre i tydzień miałam z głowy jeśli chodzi o babranie się w kuchni. Dziś również zjadłam obiad na kolację, a z kolacji zrobiłam podwieczorek.

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Zważyłam też jabłko... W sumie zapomniałam czy jabłko jest bardzo kaloryczne czy nie. Chyba nie jest. Nawet bardzo duże 🙈.

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Zapomnieliśmy o otwieraniu kalendarza adwentowego 😧 oto fanty z 3 dni

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S. zrobił dziennik remontowy naszego klubu z fotkami. Jestem pod wrażeniem. Wszystko to tak opisał przystępnie i ciekawie, że aż mnie zaskoczył bo chyba napisał więcej słów niż wypowiedział przez ostatni rok 😆.

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Poza tym odnowiłam kontakt z taką jedną koleżanką. No i pogadaliśmy sobie - obserwowałyśmy się na FB od jakiegoś czasu ale tak - ot tak.

A w ogóle to była koleżanka, która jako pierwsza pokazała mi świat gier fabularnych i RPG. Byłyśmy wtedy jeszcze w podstawówce.

No więc wydała książkę - fantasy. I nie wiem czemu ale odczuwam tak wielka radość z tego powodu jakbym co najmniej ja ją napisała. (Ula Gudel "Jaszczurka" i część druga "Poczwarka")

(Zrzut ekranu z jakiegoś olx-a. Nie mam książek fizycznie )

- będę słuchać bo jest jako audiobook - o proszę! W styczniu wychodzi trzecia część - bo każde przyzwoite fantasy musi mieć przynajmniej 3 części 😆.

Także wszyscy piszący do szuflady. Każdy znajdzie swojego odbiorcę - dzielcie się ze światem! Ula napisała książkę po 20 latach pisania do szuflady i ją wydała. Tak ma być 💖.

Dobrej nocy wam życzę!

[ed-recovery-affirmations]

I just made myself a cup of a new tea, one from a set that a friend sent me. I was super curious to try it with and without milk in it, so after I take a sip without, I'm going to add milk to my tea.

That may seem like such an inane little story to post on a blog, unless you have an eating disorder. I'm sure many of you know what a big deal milk in tea can be, and what an important act of self-love it is.

It was poured into many of our ears, approaching teenhood in the mid-2000's, not to "drink our calories." For those of us whose restriction was weight-based, many of us practiced filling ourselves with water, with our coffee black and unsweetened whether that was how we liked it or not, and with tea that never contained milk.

Like many people who've struggled with binge eating and with restriction, I struggle with creating anxiety-inducing rules about when is okay to eat, especially if I'm between meals and worrying if I should allow myself a snack, or if it's okay to quench my thirst with anything other than water. This is especially true between meals. For some reason my brain has accepted the "extra" caloric intake as part of a meal, but still balks at the idea of introducing these things independently into non-meal parts of the day. I would like to note that my chronic illness and my body's reaction to food has also influenced this weird relationship between me and my favorite treats, such as a piece of candy, or a beverage that might happen to contain a greater-than-zero calorie count.

But tonight, before bed, I want to try this tea. And it sounds like one that'd be super tasty with milk, as it has cocoa powder and vanilla in the blend. So I let my tea cool in the room with me as I type this, telling myself that I can get up and go back for milk after I taste it.

Now I have gone to the kitchen.

Now I have poured in a splash of milk and tasted. It's soy milk, as regular milk sometimes hurts my stomach and I don't want my sleep to be disrupted. Due to my chronic illness, this is still something I have to think about, and I'll be honest, I hate it. Things like this make it so hard to tell myself I can let go of my food fears, because my brain knows that some of my food fears will turn out to have validity, and so what if they all do?

Now I have poured in another splash. Tasted.

Now I have poured in a third, much larger splash. Tasted.

Oh, this is it. This tea tastes like a warm dessert. But now it's too cool, so I need to microwave it back to its best heat. I used to not want to microwave my food. As a teen I heard a hippie say that microwaves destroy the nutrients in your food because the radiation breaks down their molecular structure. This is absolutely false. In fact, it's been disproven that microwaves break down nutrients any more than other methods of heating food, but for a long time I believed it. And even after I learned the truth, I still found it hard to convince myself it was okay to use microwaves for a very long time.

I have just finished my tea in my room. I took the time to identify that I wanted it. I took the time to truly taste it in several different ways, consider how I felt I wanted it and bring it to those specifications. It wasn't planned for any specific time or day, but I agreed to give myself this the way I wanted it anyway. I've been drinking my coffee with milk every morning, too. I actually like black coffee, but I like it better with milk. And I give myself things throughout the day that I enjoy, to enhance my experience of my existence. Life is hard, and it's okay to allow yourself, to the fullest extent you can, the small joys that bring you through the day.

I wanted to share this with you. I hope you don't feel the crushing weight of morality when staring at a bottle of regular soda and the sugar-free, when you wake up with your morning coffee, when your self-care regimen includes a cup of tea. I hope you practice actively giving yourself the love you need this week. And I hope you give it to yourself exactly the way you need it.

[desultory-suggestions]

One of the joys of life is combining random ingredients in your kitchen until you end up with your new favorite meal

[thepeacefulgarden]

[iwannabeperfect55]

mi cuerpo es un templo y es un pecado romperlo con comida.