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Daily check in - Day 77!!!

Workouts:

10 mins posture training by emi wong!!

40 mins beastmode dumbell arms by caroline girvan !!!!!! (SO PROUD BCS THIS WAS SOOO HARD.)

Steps: 13 793

Eating:

no more eating log, i'm already tracking the food in the app and doing it twice on both feels really difficult for me

Water intake: almost 2 liters

Sleep: 7h and like 15 min?

Studying:

2 hours of math tutoring:3

read 70 pages (even outside school!!!)

I GOT A 91 ON MY ENG NATIONAL EXAM SO I PASSED TO THE SECOND PHASE !!!!

Screen time: high-ish?

Self care:

had a pain au chocolat for breakfast, that stuff was FIRE

hyaluronic acid face mask:3

had a store-bought protein shake outside my eating hours and without any fiber before???? i've really come a long way bcs thats insane for me

Emotion log:

I've been a bit better, I king of want to take a break off tumblr for a while but i'll see how i'm doing (if it gets really bad i will)

I'm SO PROUD for completing that crazy entire workout, istg I've never got a bigger pump, caroline really knows what she's doing!!!!

Thoughts for tomorrow:

yogurt parfait for breakfast. no negociations

I really wanna finish my physics project so I can start working on the chemistry one instead

make pancakes really soon i love pancakes sm theyre my fav thing ever and i miss my pancakes smsmsm i love them!!!

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Daily check in – Day 76!!

Workouts:

Went on a run!!! (1.5km, 2km walk and then 1.5 more running)

played the tiniest bit of handball in p.e, like 10 mins, but then my teacher benched all of us for misbehaviour?????

Steps: 21 274

Eating:

breakfast - yogurt bowl with chia seeds, a kiwi, blueberries, almonds and muesli + lots of sea buckthorn (I think it's called like that idk it's full of vit C!!)

lunch - big big salad bowl with cottage cheese, 6 meatballs, 2 boiled eggs + toast with almond spread and banana slices

dinner - walnuts, choc protein bar with whipped cream, a muffin with even more almond paste😋

Water intake: 2 liters

Sleep: 8.5 hous!!!!

Studying:

did my math homework

read like 10 pages max😭

played my guitar today!! 0w0

Screen time: really high

Self care:

Well i talked a lot about my feelings, I think that should count

Finally did a proper skincare routine after days

Emotion log:

ED TW, DONT READ IF YOURE IN RECOVERY PLS🙏

I think I had a burnout the last few days, it might have changed my mindset so much I don't think I'm a recovery blog anymore🎀

Okay so I decided to kind of pause my recovery and do a proper weight loss this time, I think I'm not aware whether it is an ed decision or not atm but I'm way too set on eating cleaner now (and being healthy has always been a big trigger for me so I might just be going a bad way but idrc anymore I just wanna have pretty privilege when I change schools!!) So yeah I WILL try not to fall under old patterns again and still allow dessert and etc stuff like that but idk how long will that last

First day of tracking after months, felt easy and I had whatever I wanted (okay I had over but it's fine it's just the first day) :3

Thoughts for tomorrow:

Do well in math tutoring!! I missed my teacher sm I can't wait to see her

I want a pain au chocolat i want a pain au chocolat i want a pain au chocolat (I'm gonna have it I promise)

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Daily check in – Day 75

(ed/sh/negative self talk trigger warning bcs its a bad day)

Workouts:

10 mins dumbell arm workout by fitbymik (hardly pushed through)

Steps: 20 172

Eating:

breakfast (wanted to skip but still ate because my body still needs food even if i've been overeating) - almost an entire coffee with lots of whipped cream, an apple, some yogurt, 2 choc muffins

yeah and then skipped, cant even listen to my own advice istg

dinner - cabbage salad, a cucumber, 3 meatballs with hot ketchup, a chicken thigh + a slice of toast with lots of almond paste and the last slice of that coffee cake:((

Water intake: 2 liters

Sleep: like 4.5 hours max

Studying:

read 55 pages during school (really dense book istg, 1 page takes like 2 normal ones)

doesn't count BUT today I finally took that national French exam (and I think I did pretty well) and also had another surprise test that I aced:3

worked a bit on my physics project

Screen time: pretty high, I think I'll be installing my screen time app again soon

Self care:

i miss my mum by cavetown and my friend hardly got me through this day

Emotion log:

still feeling really bad and disgusting, just with a side of A BIT more productivity

no appetite and also relapsed for the first time in a month, i dont wanna do all of this anymore, the blog feels so draining and school and life are so exhausting and i just cant

Thoughts for tomorrow:

I need a better day and a lot of will to not do anything stupid that I'll regret later

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Daily check in – Day 74!!

Workouts:

20 minutess dumbell arm workout by growingannanas (hardly pushed through today)

Steps: 18 735

Eating:

breakfast - ginger tea, a kiwi, a tangerine, a pain au chocolat with almond paste, some chocolate coffee cake

lunch - lots of a spicy salad with cottage cheese, 2 meatballs, a chicken breast, some protein yogurt with granola and raspberries, 2 choc chip cookies, some tiramisu and some more coffee cake !!!

dinner (overate but I'm so happy ab it) - more cabbage salad with cottage cheese, 5 meatballs, some almonds, a warm protein bar and like 4 choc muffins

Water intake: 2 liters

Sleep: 8h 20 mins (it's like a national event if I get OVER 8h)

Studying:

finished essay 3/3 !!!!

did most of my math homework

finished my blog entry for french

read 45 pages

Screen time: high

Self care:

trying to eat my fear foods constantly (and so far I can say that my life without chocolate and pastries must have been a very depressing one)

full on everything shower

baked chocolate chip muffins !!!!! 🌸

Emotion log:

(Kind of a trigger warning btw) I weighed myself in the morning and apparently I have put on a few kgs since recovery, I'm not feeling that good about that but I didn't have any mental breakdowns this time and I still ate whatever I wanted all day. Still struggling to accept that I will put on more weight if I keep eating everything I want and that is okay and it is normal.

Felt so depressed this night i stayed up until 1 am venting to a friend until i felt good enough to finally do my skincare and go to sleep

Thoughts for tomorrow:

I might have an oral exam (it's also unnanounced yk) but I'm not that worried because I'm really good in the poetry chapter of english (as a math person myself, which is surprising for me too😭)

(More tw) I want to start a healthy weight loss process sometime in the future (feb/march) but idk how that will affect my recovery and if I could ever go back to restricting and undereating after finding my happiness again in food

Also I decided to drop those tags because the person was right, my blog has shifted a bit towards perfectionism lately since I'm getting worse again so I don't want to mistag my posts and do even more harm to yall sweeties !!

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this week's goal: take it slower, have self care days everyday, enjoy food freedom, read daily, deconnect with my phone, bake pastries to gift to my friends!!!

[angel-dustspo]

Please stop using ed recovery tags on posts where you talk about step counts, workouts and detailed food logs

I'm so sorry, have I been triggering??? I promise I didnt even realise and I didn't mean to be at allllllllll :(( I didn't think that the way I view my recovery and all the positive (mostly) recovery talk is something bad for the community, and I have gotten multiple replies about how my posts helped people begin their own healing journey. It's true that I exercise a lot because I'm in recovery RIGHT NOW and I'm not fully healed and I'm still working on fixing everything but still, I thought I was helping and not doing any harm since I AM IN RECOVERY and it is MY journal that I blog here about MY healing process. If you could PLEASE tell me in private or here what am I doing wrong or bring a bit more arguments or info, I will gladly drop the tag since it means that my blog is triggering for the people struggling just as much as I am, and who knows, I might even move to the ana side of tumblr if my recovery isn't good enough for this community

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Daily check in – Day 73!!

with photos byyyy..... me !!!

Workouts:

Well I was all day on my feet and walked lots in the mountains (easy hike tho because of the snow)

Steps: 22 042

Eating:

breakfast - a grilled cheese sandwich, a bit of yogurt with chia seeds, some pumpkin seeds, ⅓ protein bar

lunch (in a snowy cabin in the mountains!!!!) - a hot chocolate, bulz (romanian dish made of polenta with melted cheese and a fried egg), an entire pack of sesame crackers, half of a chocolate crepe (my sister's)

snack/dessert - a nutella donut, 2 papanasi (romanian dessert made of donuts with jam and sour cream:3)

dinner - an apple, a tiny sandwich

Water intake: almost 2 liters

Sleep: 7.5 hours

Studying:

read 120 pages on the train (and finished my book!!!)

essay 2/3 done on the return train😋

wrote both my essays when I got home

Screen time: no phone dayy

Self care:

Tbh seeing the snow and enjoying all of that tasty food and breaking my silly routine felt SO THERAPEUTICAL <33

cozy face mask and lit candles while studying

Emotion log:

I'm so happy and proud and at peace and the saturday trip was SO relaxing and enjoyable!! I saw lots of snow, made snow angels, ate desserts and breathed the cold mountain air all day!!!!

Thoughts for tomorrow:

I have one more essay to do and I should also do my math homework

I really wanna make coffee with chocolate syrup and I want to bake chocolate muffins SO BAD (I promised my friends I'll bring them all muffins so I better get to baking :3)

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⋆ Small achievable goals to change your entire life in 2025 🌸⋆.ೃ࿔.⊹𝄞⨾𓍢ִ໋

ׂ╰┈➤ Start cooking more of your meals at home. Incorporate more healthy ingredients in your meals and/or disguise them in delicious recipes!

ׂ╰┈➤ Start working out regularly, at the gym, in the park or just in your bedroom. Any form of activity counts!!

ׂ╰┈➤ Start drinking more water!!!

ׂ╰┈➤ Establish an easy morning and evening routine that you can do everyday

ׂ╰┈➤ Never skip skincare or basic hygiene like showering or brushing your teeth

ׂ╰┈➤ Fix your sleep schedule and sleep 7-9 hours a night

ׂ╰┈➤ Choose to spend less time on your phone and more time outside/with family and friends.

ׂ╰┈➤ Uninstall harmful social media apps

ׂ╰┈➤ Start being productive everyday – read, journal or practice your hobbies more often!

ׂ╰┈➤ Take yourself on solo dates! Everybody underestimates this so much, but I promise it makes such a difference in your mood. Go to the spa or salon, take sunset walks, read at the corner cafe while enjoying a warm pastry!!

ׂ╰┈➤ Start romanticising your life! Candle lit dinners with your family, spa and rest days, buying flowers or that cute dress or doing face masks while reading at night could make such a great difference!!

ׂ╰┈➤ Start complimenting people more often and saying kind things to strangers!

ׂ╰┈➤ Clear out your wardrobe! Find your desired style and get some cute key pieces that go well with anything. Donate old clothes that you aren't wearing anymore!

ׂ╰┈➤ Of course, looks ARE NOT everything in life, but you should try to look as put together as possible in every situation. Use clothes and hairstyles that fit you well, wear perfume, jewelery and accessories, try to have well maintained nails and skin

ׂ╰┈➤ Become well organised by always preparing for a situation ahead of time

ׂ╰┈➤ Always experiment with cooking or baking, with your make up/hairstyle, and try out new places or hobbies too!

ׂ╰┈➤ Stop worrying about other people and their opinions. Cut out all the negativity in your life, they might be ruining your progress!

ׂ╰┈➤ Try to become more confident each day, being confident makes the biggest difference in your life of them all!

ׂ╰┈➤ Stop being so hard on yourself! Life is not a race so please remember to enjoy every moment and take it easy and slowly. Results will not be visible immediately but change is on the way and you know it too. Good luck!! <33

[angel-dustspo]

Hope this doesn't sound weird but i'm so proud if you!! <3 thank you for this blog, it's really inspiring me to get better

Nooo you're too kinddd, thank you for being here and sending such a sweet message!!! (if u still are hahah this is such an old ask i'm sorry) All of the people on the pro recovery side of tumblr have been so kind and inspiring to me, this app is the only reason I started a recovery journey and I'm so happy that I can help other people through this silly blog that I do!!! Good luck on whatever journey you have going on, please remember to take good care of yourself and know that you're enough and I'm really proud of you!!! <333

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Hello, I just happened to see one of your posts on my fyp, and I just want to say good luck with your recovery and healing 💝 I started ed recovery myself about six years ago now and it was the best decision I've ever made! Life gets so much more beautiful when you really focus on yourself. It's so very difficult and emotionally challenging but so so so worth it!!! Good luck to you!!!🎀💕💕

Hiiii, thank you so much for your kind words!!! I haven't been in recovery for very long yet and I'm still struggling with accepting all of the new concepts that come along with it or stopping feeling guilty after overeating or smth like that, it gets really hard some days but this still is the happiest and most free I've ever been in my life!! Thank you for sharing your experience with me, you just motivated me so much more to keep going and do this right!!!

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Daily check in ‐ Day 72<3

Workouts:

10 minutes morning yoga challange (Day 1) by yoga with bird

strolled through the park with my friend + walked a lot too

12 mins tabata HIIT by growingannanas

Steps: 21 317

Eating:

breakfast - an apple, cottage cheese with chia seeds, some almonds, protein vanilla yogurt with granola, 3 choc chip cookies

lunch (went out with my friend) - 4 slices of pizza with hot sauce, 3 slices of apple pie:3

dinner - almonds, slice of apple pie, ½ protein choc mousse, 4 squares of some caramel chocolate

Water intake: almost 2 liters

Sleep: like 8.5 hours

Studying:

did 1/3 of my difficult essays for english

Screen time: high today

Self care:

Practiced food freedom with one of my biggest fear foods!!!!!

Spent time with my friend, visited an exhibition, got pizza and dessert, laughed and talked so much:333

Emotion log:

I'm so glad today was a free day, I did so many things that I'm proud of and I truly relaxed and enjoyed life more!!!

I felt really good and proud all day but now I'm feeling really guilty and miserable, what's wrong with me

I lowkey realised that I do binge eat (a lot i'd say), especially sweets but any food too, and like that's okay and it is be normal to eat this many sweets and this much junk food yk??? I saw online that the body basically needs whatever it has been deprived of in recovery and that's why I've been eating like this, I still am concerned and it's not healthy at all but probably that's the point so I'm trying to feel normal about it (for background I had 0rtho so my whole deal before was eating clean and now I'm not that girl at all anymore and I'm really concerned about it and about my health, and also how can I be a wellness girl and a wellness blogger if I eat like that??????? Istg recovery feels hard even when it isn't, I'm not sure if I'm doing the right thing and I can't balance "health" and "happiness" like this)

Thoughts for tomorrow:

I'M GOING TO THE MOUNTAINS BY TRAIN, PROBABLY I'LL GET THE MOST DELICIOUS FOOD EVER AND HOPEFULLY THERE'S SOME SNOW LEFT!!!!!!!❄️

Extras:

There was a kind of writing board with markers in the exhibition, and the prompt was "Before I die, I want to...". I wrote "to get into medical school in the future:3" and my friend wrote "to get into the military academy !!!". Idk this whole thing made me feel so hopeful and excited about the future!!!!

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Daily check in – Day 71!!

Workouts:

Did some kind of obstacol course in p.e for the military and it was so hard hahah I barely passed on time

20 mins dumbell arm workouts by groeingannanas

15 mins weightless pilates arms by blogilates

15 mins neck and shoulder stretch by eleni fit

Steps: 21 837

Eating (felt like I should eat cleaner today):

breakfast - yogurt bowl with chia seeds, protein choc granola, pomegranate, blueberries and peanut butter

lunch - a cucumber, pasta with 2 meatballs, 2 boiled eggs, a lot of plain croutons and an insane amount of really the tastiest almonds ever!!

dinner - some more almonds, cabbage salad, toast with a slice of cow cheese, some cottage cheese + vanilla protein yogurt with some granola, 2 choc chip cookies

Water intake: 2 liters

Sleep: almost 7 hours

Studying:

read 70 pages

did some of my really crazy long english homework

Screen time: really low

Self care:

watched a lot of recovery youtube:3

planned a cozy hangout with my friend for tomorrow🧸

Emotion log:

I'm feeling pretty good tbh, it's gotten somewhat quieter in my head

I really don't care about calories and haven't for some while and I hope to stop caring about sugar or salt levels too soon

Thoughts for tomorrow:

Tomorrow is a free day in my country so I don't have school and the weekend is gonna be 3 days long!!! Really need a bit of rest (that I won't take because I'm DROWNING in school work atm)

Stillllllll I'm going to an exhibition about like muscles and the body (as a medicine student) with my friend and then we're gonna eat out!!!

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Daily check in – Day 70!!

Workouts:

just walked a lot for today

Steps: 19 238

Eating:

breakfast - yogurt bowl with chia seeds, an apple, blueberries, chocolate protein granola + 2 mini pancakes with chocolate spread, half a coffee

lunch - cabbage salad, 2 chicken thighs with hot ketchup, like 3 choc chip cookies

dinner - some salad, chicken soup + had whatever I had in my house for dessert, kind of a controlled binge but not really, I don't regret it at all tho I truly needed that

Water intake: almost 2 liters

Sleep: 7.5 hours

Studying:

spent 3 hours on forest

TOOK THE NATIONAL ENGLISH EXAM!!! (and did really well btw, I'm pretty proud)

2 hours of math tutoring

read like 30 pages

played a bit of guitar

Screen time: pretty high

Self care:

treated myself to all the dessert in the world:3 (my entire kitchen basiclaly)

I'm really caught slacking in this area, I need to go back into better habits

Emotion log:

I've been feeling so disconnected lately, both with my daily life and my blog, I'm not sure what's going on really

Thoughts for tomorrow:

I wanna workout armsss

Can't wait to have a bit more chocolate yk???

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Daily check in - Day 69<3

Workouts:

played 2 really hard volleyball matches at the competition!!! (won 1/2 :33)

played some more volleyball in p.e >.<

Steps: 18 723

Eating:

breakfast - cucumber, a grilled cheese sandwich, a nutella muffin, some oreo chocolate, half a cup of coffee

skipped lunch idk i felt like it

dinner - a lot of salad with cabbage and carrot, 4 meatballs, a crazy number of mini pancakes with a lot of toppings and half a banana :3

Water intake: 2 liters

Sleep: 7.5 hours

Studying:

spent 2.5 hours on forest

finished my math tutoring homework

played my guitar like 1 hour (learned All the angels by Mcr, my fav!!!)

Screen time: high, I chatted a lot and scrolled too:(

Self care:

had all the tasty food and carbs and dessert that I missed:333

made really fluffy pancakes!!🥞🧸

Emotion log:

I HAD PICTURE DAY AND I ACTUALLY LIKE THE RESULT??? I'M REALLY HAPPY EVERYTHING WAS SO WORTH IT!! (I've never liked a picture of myself ever btw so it's such a big event???)

I'm so proud of myself because I got named captain for the volleyball team and I served PERFECTLY like 15 times in a row and gained all the points for winning that match just by myself

Also I'm really sad because I ordered some chocolate and caramel (and more stuff also) no c@l syrup and (NOT EVEN SURPRISINGLY) I hate it SM and idk what to do with it rn :((

Thoughts for tomorrow:

TOMORROW is the day where I take the english national exams, I'm not that anxious about it anymore though

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Daily check in – Day 68!!

Workouts:

15 minutes express pilates by move with nicole

Steps: 13 220

Eating (REALLY no carb day):

breakfast – cucumner, half an avocado, 2 boiled eggs and a hot green tea with ginger

lunch – cucumber, just a bit of salad bcs I forgot I can't, 2 more boiled eggs, some yogurt with chia seeds and manyyyy hazelnuts

dinner (same exact meal) – cucumber, 2 boiled eggs, a bit of avocado, yogurt with chia and pumpkin seeds, some peanut butter

Water intake: 2.5 liters

Sleep: 6.5 hours

Studying:

spent 3 hours on forest

had 2 hours of english tutoring

read 30 pages

Screen time: really low

Self care:

everything shower!!!!🧸

Did ALL I was able to do so I can look my best tomorrow for picture day

What I've eaten felt like the OPPOSITE of self care but it's worth it and I'm going to look my best and everything will be back to my normal carbs and chocolate heaven!!!

Emotion log:

Well I'm REALLY upset that they postponed the french exam to wednesday :(((

I've been really hungry and somewhat cold throughout the whole day (no surprise if I've been eating like that), so glad it's over tomorrow legit can't wait

Thoughts for tomorrow:

I'D DO ANYTHING TO HAVE MY PICTURE LOOK GOOD, I CAN'T WAIT!!

AS SOON AS I GET HOME I'M GOING TO DEMOLISH ALL THE FOOD IN MY HOUSE. i can't do low carb no salt anymore this is INSANE.

Mealplan for tomorrow bcs I can't wait!!!: sandwich, meat with mashed potatoes, warm protein bar, chocolate biscuits, a lot of fruit, MULTIPLE MUFFINS bcs I'm going to bake and idk, whatever else I need to eat

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Daily check in – Day 67!!

Workouts:

30 minutes Day 2 of Iron series by caroline girvan🧸

Steps: 20 034

Eating (no carb day):

breakfast - yogurt bowl with chia seeds, pecan nuts, an orange and some coconut flakes + ginger tea

lunch - a cucumber, some chicken soup, cottage cheese with hazelnuts, some pistachios

dinner - a cucumber, a chicken breast with ketchup, a lot of coconut and some vanilla protein yogurt for dessert!!

Water intake: 2 liters

Sleep: almost 8 hours

Studying:

spent 6 hours on forestttt!!

revised some french for the national competition tomorrow !!

read 85 pages (and finished my book:3)

finished my math homework

finished my eng tutoring homework

did my english hw for school too

Screen time: really low

Self care:

Linda Sun all day long <33

used some hyaluronic acid + ate clean for my skin

turmeric face mask + hot ginger tea + soft music + lit candles

Emotion log:

Well my meals sound so much better on paper and I'm glad about it but I have been missing my carbs, chocolate and dessert after every single meal a lot too

Thoughts for tomorrow:

The french national competition is tomorrow and I'm lowkey representing my school so I'm pretty anxious!!!!!

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thank you so much @pinkkmacaronzz for your tag!!!🌸

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