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Daily check in - Day 92!!

Workouts:

played like 10 mins of handball in p.e

took the longest walk of my LIFE

Steps: 31 374

Water intake: 2 liters

Sleep: 8 hours!!

Studying:

studied for my geography test that's tomorrow!!

read like 10 pages during school

Screen time: highhh (played roblox with a friend tho!!)

Self care:

just ate however much I felt like I needed today (also just discovered that I'm such a big volume eater and it's a real thing apparently)

fear foods i ate today: baked potatoes (lots actually), bread, feta cheese

relaxed in the evening, no schoolwork done

Emotion log:

brought chocolate banana bread to my friends at school and they all loved it so much and that made me so happy !!!

Lowkey I'm certain that my life revolves around food, exercise and school only and I'm not even sure if my obsession with any of them is in any way healthy

Anyways today i had lotsss of energy and didn't even notice when I got so many steps in I swear and the thing is that I went over the limit by 100 c@ls at max but idk i felt more energized than even in days when I got 1000+ over😭

Thoughts for tomorrow:

Hopefully my english teacher graded the paper and I moved on to the next stage????

Should be doing all my schoolwork and start packing too, can't wait sjsksjsk!!!!!

Also i'm gonna make tiramisu overnight oats and I can't wait to taste them !!!

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Daily check in - Day 91!!

Workouts:

20 mins lower body by growingannanas

15 mins leg workout by emi wong

Steps: 17 273

Water intake: almost 2 liters

Sleep: 7h 30 mins

Studying:

Took the english national exam and I'm preetyyy sure that I'm passing onto the 3rd stage !!!!

2 hours of math tutoring<33

read like 30 pages

Screen time: pretty low

Self care:

didn't skip lunch even if I knew I was going to be over the limit at the end of the day

Recovery youtube

Emotion log:

Tw taking about food and disordered eating ??

Trying to not actively restrict anything, even if this leads me to so much overeating, I know that it's going to change with time and all the random binges will stop if I allow myself to have stuff (hopefully) so I'm trying not to mind the food logging app that much

Didn't give up on the weight loss just yet but at the same time I really don't want to not enjoy life and regret eating one more slice of cake, rn I'm really over the limit by a lot this past week and it's okay and I'll be fine even if I ate a bit more because I feel good about it

Thoughts for tomorrow:

Omg I have chemistry tomorrowwwww I missed chem so much it's honestly insane, cannot wait !!!

I was craving a pb&j today so I'll probs make one for breakfast tomorrow

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Daily check in - Day 90!!!

Workouts:

20 mins dumbell upper body workout by growingannanas

10 mins dumbell arm workout by growingannanas

10 minutes posture fix by emi wong

Steps: 21 729

Water intake: 2.5 liters

Sleep: 7h 50 mins

Studying:

Legit took the hardest test of my life, MATH OLYMPICS. think I'm getting a 15/28 so I'm hopefully passing to the next stage, not like I've ever been prepared for such a test or that I knew how to solve that stuff ( I solved a single problem out of four and the rest mainly guessed yk😭😭)

did some more math hw at home

read 20 pages only

Screen time: high:(

Self care:

baked the moistest, richest and tastiest chocolate banana bread of my life + had as much as I wanted because I don't want to be afraid of sweets again 🧸☕️

fear foods I ate today: vanilla coffee, chocolate biscuits, lots of banana bread

Emotion log:

Well I'm sososo proud of myself for working the entire 3 hours on the math olympics and for solving that ENTIRE exercise, I didn't expect to actually do anything but I did somehow !!!

Even prouder of how the banana bread turned out, ESPECIALLY since it's the first time I ever baked one and it's so tasty I had to eat four slices😭😭

Yeah guys as yall could already figure out, my deficit is NOT deficiting at all and at this point I can't even regret or blame myself, I luckily already got used to eating normally and I really can't help myself to another serving of chocolate anything (maybe when I'll get back from my vacation I will start eating clean fr because my skin is pretty bad and it's going to be photoshoot time again, who knows tho??)

Yeah and one more MY TRIP TO SPAIN IS SOON AND I'M NOT GOING TO HAVE ANY FOOD RULES AT ALL AND I WILL EAT SO MANY CHOCOLATE PASTRIES WITHOUT ANY GUILT, CANNOT PHYSICALLY WAIT.

Thoughts for tomorrow:

Do well on the english exam that has been haunting me by getting postponed basically the last 2 weeks

maybe have a crispy sandwich ??

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Daily check in - Day 89!!!

Workouts:

40 minutes cardio by growwithjo 🌸

Steps: 15 948

Water intake: 2 liters

Sleep: 7h 50 mins

Studying:

2 hours of english tutoring!!

read 50 pages (finished a LIFE CHANGING book) + 30 of another

math extra practice test for the real exam tomorrow

Screen time: loww!!!

Self care:

starbucks vanilla macchiato and lotsss of chocolate today, really kept my mood up so they worked

fear foods I ate today: potatoes, salted peanuts, crepes, bread, nutella, chocolate !!! 🌸

spammed loud angry music that I love so that I don't feel really bad and spiral into feeling worse

Emotion log:

Felt really bad and tired in the morning but it got better gradually

I DID SO INSANELY GOOD IN TUTORINGGGG and we had a really meaningful deep chat and lots of cute small talk and compliments too !!!!

I'm surprised I could fit so much chocolate in a deficit tbh, why did I even avoid it so much😞😞

Thoughts for tomorrow:

DO REALLY WELL ON MY MATH EXAM, I DO NOT WELCOME ANYTHING OTHER THAN PERFECT SCORES.

make one more coffee bcs it's so tasty and have a yogurt bowl for breakfast:3

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[angel-dustspo]

“𝒚𝒐𝒖’𝒓𝒆 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒋𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒐𝒖𝒔 𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒂. 𝒃𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒊 𝒈𝒐𝒕 𝒃𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓. 𝒃𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒊 𝒈𝒐𝒕 𝒓𝒆𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒆𝒅. 𝒃𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒊 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒂 𝒄𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒄𝒆.”

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Daily check in ‐ Day 88!!

this one is for yesterday, didn't have the time and also skipped saturday

Workouts:

30 mins pilates cardio by eleni fit🌸

Steps: 24 539

Water intake: 2 liters

Sleep: 7h 10 mins

Studying:

did my whole math homework!!

did my entire english tutoring hw

wrote 2 essays on paper

finished 3/4 projects, physics still standing strong

Screen time: pretty high?? bit of social media and lots of video games:3

Self care:

put honey in my tea after so many years of being scared of it!!

noticed that im just so hungry and tired today so i just ignored the limit and ate until i felt full

ate CHOCOLATE crepes even if I was so scared of them and the sugar/carbs and of binging (which I did but I'm coping pretty well except for my exercise which is really out of control today??😭)

Emotion log:

Tw disordered e@ting thoughts ?

I did binge and I'm not so proud of that but it's probably because the limit is too low and my body needs it, just because I ate over the limit the last days doesn't mean I don't deserve to eat again tomorrow or I should eat rice cakes with cucumber all day long, I'm NOT going back there again.

All day (and the last few too) I'm constantly thinking about food and esp what I'm going to eat on vacation (when I won't restrict and I'll have sm more sweets and real food and everything I want) and idk I'm craving those mini pastries I'm gonna have for breakfast SO BAD its insane😭😭😭

totally cancelled my deficit these last days, i have 1k c@ls above my deficit just from today.😭😭😭

Thoughts for tomorrow:

Finish up all the projects bcs I didn't today, maybe play more guitar and watch some youtube to lift my mood up

Wanted to fast all day but at the same time I just want to really try to eat normally and don't binge so I'm not sure what to do

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Daily check in – Day 86!!

Workouts - rest day:

10 mins yoga routine by yoga with bird

Steps: 18 453 (didn't even mean to, i just went shopping in the evening😭😭)

Water intake: almost 2 liters

Sleep: 7h 30 mins

Studying:

did 2 extra practice tests first thing in the morning !!! (after my yoga though)

read 120 pages:3

even played my guitar for a bit bit bit !!!

Screen time: really low

Self care:

allowed real dessert this time, real sweets made with real sugar and without any real guilt !!!

didn't really check my phone or interact that much, just read lots and relaxed a bit

Emotion log:

omg I ate literally everything I wanted today (ik it seems that I'm doing that daily but sometimes I just reaalllyyy feel it, like today, when eating fear foods) and I'm so proud and so happy for battling with my fear foods even while restricting, I was scared that I would get back to unhealthy eating patterns but so far everything is really well

Thoughts for tomorrow:

Lots of projects to finish up, it's going to be the last week of school before a mini winter break so we have lots of deadlines : math and geography exams, french, social studies, physics and chemistry projects to submit + homework for school + even more homework for tutoring

i have fruit cake in my fridge i cant wait !!!! ( is it obv that im the biggest foodie alive:3 )

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Daily check in - Day 85!!

Workouts:

played handball in p.e for like 10 mins

Did like 30 mins of growingannanas' 40 min summer shred hiit🍪

Steps: 18 937

Water intake: 2.3 liters

Sleep: 7h 50 mins

Studying:

read 75 pages (finished one more book) + 20 more pages of another

finished up my french project

Screen time: highh

Self care:

cozy breakfast - french chocolate pastry, strawberries, hot chocolate and soft music in the background !!

using some hyaluronic acid atm, i love it so muchhhh

recovery youtube is back in trend, missed it a lot even if i'm restricting

watched the silent hill gameplay again while doing my workout

Emotion log:

planned tourist attractions to see and restaurant ideas for my barcelona vacation next week !!!

felt GREAT, had a really productive and happy day and really just spoiled myself all day long, I really needed that tbh

(ED TW???) not that sure if my c@l limit even does anything tbh, I've been eating almost the same without getting that hungry, I just cut out idk small stuff but overall it's just the same and I'm not even sure I'm counting everything right, i even have trust issues with what the app says

Thoughts for tomorrow:

okay maybe tomorrow I'm taking the national english exam ???? really hope so bcs it's been postponed for a long time now

bought some cheese sticks to air fry tomorrow morning, literally CANNOT wait to have them for breakfast.

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Daily check in - Day 84<3

Workouts:

10 mins yoga routine by yoga with bird

40 mins beastmode dumbell arm workout by caroline girvan !!🧸

Steps: 14 729

Water intake: 2.5 liters

Sleep: 8 hours

Studying:

had 2 hours of math tutoring<33

revised like 3 times for the english exam (WHICH THEY POSTPONED UNTIL FRIDAY. so mad about that)

read 55 pages (finished another book!!) + 50 more from another book:3

Screen time: very low!!

Self care:

woke up early, did my morning yoga and my skincare and ate a balanced tasty meal :3

everything shower mid week bcs i needed more self care🧸

Emotion log:

REALLY GREAT DAY, I think this is my good week istg i've felt incredible, i did sm schoolwork and studying and reading and my screen time is so much lower!!!!

truly ate EVERYTHING (and i mean it.) I wanted and something really weird happened bcs i logged everything 100% but by the end i had sm c@ls left that i needed to fill so i just had whatever desserts i was craving the last week

Thoughts for tomorrow:

Treat myself to a pastry and hot chocolate for breakfast:3

My bio teacher is subbing my chem one tomorrow and I NEED to impress her sm i love chemistry and i love my bio teacher a lot

Finish that book I started yesterday, i have like 75 pages left

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Daily check in - Day 83!!!

Workouts:

played cricket in p.e but if yk how the game works I basically only stood in place for the entire hour

30 mins cardio pilates by eleni fit (GUYS I SWEAR THIS IS THE BEST WORKOUT I'VE EVER DONE IN MY LIFE.)

Steps: 17 526

Water intake: 2.5 liters

Sleep: 8h 10 mins

Studying:

did lots of math homework (3 tests)

studied for the national english exam that is TOMORROW. reaaally not ready

read 30 pages

Screen time: pretty low!

Self care:

actually allowed whatever foods I wanted today, this felt really freeing!!🌸

watching self care on youtube, doing my skincare and bodycare, changing my bed sheets, going to sleep at 10pm

Emotion log:

went over the limit with food (with almost no guilt), really proud of myself bcs it was freaking delicious!!!!

Tbh I think my limit is wayyy too low but I'm not going to change it just yet, I promise I am still fueling properlyyy

MIGHT BE SEEING PTV MY PARENTS KIND OF AGREED ????? !!!!!!!!!!!!

Thoughts for tomorrow:

I HOPE I DO REALLY WELL ON THE ENGLISH EXAM I CAN'T WAIT!!!

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Daily check in - Day 82!!

GUYS THERE'S A SLIGHT 1% CHANCE TO GO SEE PTV IN ANOTHER COUNTRY????? SJKSJJSJSKJS I REALLY WANT TO please please PLEASE pray for me i need it sm

Workouts:

20 minutes dumbell leg workout by madfit !!!

Steps: 17 838

Water intake: 2 liters

Sleep: 6h 30 mins:(

Studying:

2 hours of english tutoring

solved some extra problems for math

read like 135 pages, really proud!!!

Screen time: somehow it's a bit lower than usual !!

Self care:

Put down my phone in the evening and went to sleep earlier:3

Emotion log:

Really productive day, I've been pretty happy lately!!

Thoughts for tomorrow:

I miss pancakes, it's been like 4 days without them I miss them a lot...

do lots of math homework and eat whatever I want to!!

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Daily check in - Day 81!!

Workouts:

10 mins yoga routine by yoga with bird

20 mins dumbell arm workout by caroline girvan (new obsession??)

walked lots today

Steps: 22 319

Water intake: 2 liters

Sleep: 8h 20 mins (kinda my default sleep duration since I started tracking it)

Studying:

read 80 pages first thing in the morning

did 2 extra english practice exams!! (so unusual for me to be doing extra workk)

FINALLY finished my chem project, I just have to write it on paper now

Screen time: reaaallly high but I caught up with an old friend!!!

Self care:

new tea combo: wild berries with ginger and cinnamon, does wonders!!🌸

ate pretty clean today, lots of quality soul foods (which made me very happy!!) and then enjoyed a bigg profiterol for dessert too (which made me even happier, i'm allowed to have sweets and i don't have to fear them anymore !!!!!)

Emotion log:

Tbh reallyyyy getting in the mood for my vacation, only 2 more weeks and I'll be there I can't wait!!!!!

I MIGHT BE GOING TO SEE PTV. PLEASE PRAY FOR ME I NEED TICKETS I NEED TICKEYS I NEED TICKETS !!!!!!!!

Thoughts for tomorrow:

Eat lots of protein and meat bcs it's sososooo tasty

Do really well in tutoring, can't wait!!

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Focusing on myself February🧸🍪

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Daily check in - Day 80!!

Workouts:

10 mins yoga routine by yoga with bird

20 mins HIIT cardio by fitbymik !!

Steps: 18 113

Water intake: almost 2 liters

Sleep: 8h 20 mins

Studying:

Okay so where do i even begin i did SO MANY things today:

did allll of my math homework

did my english homework

both started and finished projects for french, social studies and history

worked quite a bit on my chem and physics projects (they're gonna be done soon anyways bcs the deadline is in 2 weeks from now)

Screen time: 0 on social media but i played video games like 3h (win win)

Self care:

baked apple pie with my mum:33

worked reallyy hard in the morning, but then took the time to actually relax in the evening

yoga has really been helping me with how i'm feeling

Emotion log:

My eating has been really weird lately, skipped breakfast and then hardly got any appetite for the other meals (that I did have tho bcs I still need them ig)

I've been pretty irritable and life isn't really lifing atm yk???

My headphones need a break I've been using them since 7am with no breaks

Thoughts for tomorrow:

there's some stuff in the house that my parents want me to eat and I really don't want or need them, i gotta think what to do about everything

finish even more homework and actually do extra stuff tomorrow

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reading your logs is honestly so healing, its had been motivatjng me to get out of my unhealthy habits <33

THANK YOU SO MUCH SWEETIE!!!!!!!! This genuinely almost made me cry, it's one of the sweetest messages I've ever got and you have NO IDEA how much you helped me through this<333 I'm SO grateful to have you guys because really you're my inspiration and my motivation to keep going even when I don't feel like it and the world is falling apart, and it's thanks to you that i'm in a much better place now. Sweetie I believe in you and I know you can do whatever you put your mind up to, pls remember to rest too and take good care of yourself and remind yourself that you are enough and loved!!! Good luck!!!!!!! <333

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Focusing on myself February🧸🍪