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Daily check in – Day 15

Workouts:

FAV WORKOUTS DAY: 20 minutes dumbell toned arms - growingannanas

10 minutes dumbell toned arms by madfit

10 minutes dumbell toned arms by caroline girvan

Steps: 12 874

Eating:

breakfast: yogurt bowl with chia seeds, apple, tangerine & cinnamon, some smoothie, a nutella muffin

lunch: chicken and rice with cabbage salad, like 4-5 fries, 2 and a half muffins with nutella and ½ protein bar

snack: some nuts and almonds, ½ apple, vanilla protein pudding

Water intake: 2 liters

Sleep: 8 hours

Studying:

did 2h of math tutoring

studied for my chem test (i love chemistry so insanely much)

revised for my geography test

solved some extra math problems

Screen time: low

Self care:

Lowkey tired but will do it soon, pretty upset that I skipped everything yesterday :((

Emotion of the day:

Happiness, I love food insanely much and I'm so happy recovery has become so much easier and tastier🙏🙏 also got a perfect score in an unnanounced math test today😋😋

Thoughts for tomorrow:

I hope I do really well on both of my tests tomorrow

I hope I have lots of energy and feel and look extremely good

I should be more active on the account and start working on some new posts!!

[angel-dustspo]

Hi lovely! I just wanted to say i am still struggling with an ed and i have an ed account but thanks to your i am making a second one where I'll post about recovery stuff in hopes that engaging in that path will eventually lead me to a recovery mindset (uno card on my ed there). I am not ready for a complete recovery but i want to stop over eating and as thus i need to limit restricting (bc giving up restriction at the moment is too sudden I don't want to jump into trying to fix everything). Anyways, point is i wish you good luck on your journey, i will be checking your account here and there as support and to keep myself motivated too 🥰❤️ let's do this! 💪

Hi angel, thank you so much for your kind words and message!! I'm really happy that I was able to inspire you in a good way because that is exactly my goal in life, to try and help people as much as possible and give them that first little push yk? I'm extremely glad that you're embarking on the path of recovery and the strategy you have is exactly what I have done for myself too. Instead of surrounding myself with triggering media and pictures, I searched for stories of healed people and lerned from what they had to say, from their past and their mistakes, and you bet it has paid off!! I'm so proud of you for wanting to change your mindset and doing stuff that help you progress towards recovery and I wish you the best of luck in this wonderful journey. Please take good care of yourself and relearn how to enjoy your life <33

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Daily check in – Day 14

Really in the mood for Christmas today!!! ⭐️

Workouts:

2.5 km night walk

played basketball for 10 minutes

Steps: 15 196

Eating:

breakfast: 2 boiled eggs, a cucumber a kiwi, almonds + 2 muffins with whipoed cream and nutella + hot tea

snack: an apple, small choc chip cookie

dinner: cabbage salad, 2 meatballs, a boiled egg, some chicken breast, slice of pizza, some strawberries with whipped cream, 2 OF THE BEST MUFFINS IN THE ENTIRE WORLD. <33

Water intake: 2.5 liters

Sleep: 9 hours (FINALLY!!)

Studying:

did a lot of math tutoring homework

read 10 pages only

Self care:

I love self care after a sweaty workout, today was my hair washing day too!!

Screen time: really high (for the blog and interactions here tho)

Emotion of the day:

Happiness, I love food freedom and I love my life and everything is going so insanely good!!! (p.s. its probably the muffins i made i had like 8 today and yesterday🥰🥰)

Thoughts for tomorrow:

I hope I have a really good day and do well in school and tutoring

I hope I feel well and enjoy eating and life and everything

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Reasons why I want to change my relationship with food:

I am constantly exhausted and feel dizzy and weak all the time

My body is unhealthy and undernourished

My brain cannot function properly with so little c@lories

People always ask if I'm hungry and worry about me

The guilt after eating is insane.

Hiding my ed is so difficult

I have not seen any positive changes in my body and no results whatsoever

I always over exercise and feel so miserable about it

I have lost so much of my muscle mass and just am overall so weak

I have missed out on so many ocasions to hang out and have fun

I miss food and sweets, and I miss eating without any guilt at all

St@rving cannot sustain fat loss, NEVER AND EVER

I am worth more than the number on the scale

Life is worth living, and this is NOT the way I want to live it.

I believe that life is a gift and it's about enjoying and cherishing every little moment we have. The way I have been wasting it worrying about things as looks and destroying my health is so sad and I'm so sorry that I've ever done this to myself. It has gained me NOTHING, my physical appearance did NOT change or maybe I got even fatter since my methabolism crashed, but my mental health is TEN TIMES WORSE. Losing weight should not be about who can hold on longer on 700 c@ls a day or who can hate themselves more everyday. I deserve to be happy and enjoy my one and only chance at life that I've been given, and not feel such emotions about the fuel of the body.

For everyone out there that is struggling, I know how comforting being burried deep in your ed is. I know you don't want/can't break the pattern, but please, try and find ways to do so. It took me years to understand how the body works and that it's not only about c@ls in vs c@ls out, not about this green juice or that 1000 c@l deficit. Please, stop surrounding yourself with media that makes it worse. You don't even have to change anything besides the types of media you consume. Change your mentality or let someone else change it, even if you dont even want recovery. E@ting disorders should not be romanticised, although I know how good and "right" it feels. I'll post soon a list of helpful media/youtube videos that completely changed my mentality and made me turn 180 degrees around, and they might help you too. In the meantime, please take care of yourselves and please actually enjoy your lives, you deserve it!! xoxo

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Daily check in – Day 13

Workouts:

4km night run with a friend :3

Steps: 16 037

Eating:

breakfast: yogurt bowl with chia seeds, cranberries, pomegranate, apple, tangerine and pb + some smoothie

snack: an apple, ⅓ sandwich

lunch: meatballs with broccoli and hot sauce, carrot, some coconut

pre run snack: a banana

dinner: a cucumber, a tangerine, greek yogurt + I made muffins for the first time and had like 4 (I've never eaten smth so insanely good!!!)

Water intake: 2 liters

Sleep: like 7 hours

Studying:

read 40 pages

studied for my geography test

did some math tutoring homework

Screen time: low?

Self care:

Really wanted to do self care today tbh

Can't cry about the elections here or my schoolwork so I made muffins🎀

Emotion of the day:

HAPPINESS, I GOT 2 PERFECT SCORES BACK AND I MADE REALLY GREAT MUFFINS AND WENT ON A RUN WITH MY BEST FRIEND!!!!!

Also a lot of anger because I've been so upset these days because of the results of the election, in a few weeks my country could NOT EVEN BE A PART OF EU OR EXIST ANYMORE OR IT COULD GO INTO WAR ANY SECOND.

Thoughts for tomorrow:

I hope I have tons of energy tomorrow to do a lot of schoolwork

I hope I become less angry about the election since it's not even my fault or my business and I can't even vote yet

Tomorrow I have school at 9 am so I get time to have a really nice cozy morning, study a bit and enjoy my breakfast too!!🌸🎀💗

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Daily check in – Day 12

Workouts:

played basketball for 25 mins

4km night walk

Steps: 13 575

Eating:

breakfast: yogurt bowl with chia seeds, banana, cranberries, tangerine + 3 brazil nuts

snack: an apple, ½ of a sandwich

lunch: big portion of sweet mac n cheese, ½ baked pumpkin, ½ carrot and some cabbage salad

dinner: ½ vanilla protein pudding, some yogurt with pomegranates, 1 rice cake with banana and honey, whipped cream

Water intake: 2 liters

Sleep: low quality, like 5h

Studying:

Did extra work for english like 2h

2 hours of english tutoring

Sreen time: really low

Self care:

Procrastinated for a bit but did everything for the physical self care!!!

Watched my favourite recovery youtube channel while painting my nails (thing that I never made time for but I've wanted for the longest time)

Emotion of the day:

Happiness, had a really great day, looked well and laughed a lot!!

Thoughts for tomorrow:

I hope everything goes really well on my math exam🙏

I hope I look and feel my best tomorrow!!

I will probably attempt at making muffins for the first time (?)

[angel-dustspo]

Daily check in – Day 11

Note: I promised to start to put my life back in order from today on, not sure if I should cut yet but I will eat more healthily

Workouts:

40 mins killer leg&glutes workout by growingannanas

Steps: 18 547

Eating:

breakfast: yogurt bowl with chia seeds, ⅓ banana, pomegranate and cranberries + baked pumpkin + hot tea

lunch: my family bought pizza so I had 1 slice, some garlic fries and a lot of cabbage & cucumber salad + some blueberries

dinner: chicken breast with broccoli and meatballs, ½ vanilla protein pudding (no chocolate today😋😋)

Water intake: 2.5 liters

Sleep: 8.5 hours

Studying:

read 50 pages

did 2.5h worth of math homework

Screen time: high

Self care:

Was really excited for self care todayy, did everything and a bit more too

Emotion of the day:

Happiness, I'm excited for my glow up plan!!!

Thoughts for tomorrow:

I hope I don't wake up puffy in the morning and my hair and face look so good

I hope I do really well in tutoring and be really productive all day long!!

[angel-dustspo]

Daily check in – Day 10

Workouts:

20 minutes summer HIIT by growwithjo

12 mins night workout by growwithjo

Steps: 10 342

Eating:

breakfast: yogurt bowl with chia seeds, ½ apple and cinnamon + 1 slice of pumpkin pie w/ powder sugar

lunch: made crepes with a friend!!! Had like 3 with jam or nutella and fruit/nuts + 1 hot chocolate w/ whipped cream💗

snack: some walnuts, ½ apple

dinner: chicken breast with meatballs and broccoli, a lot of chocolate overnight oats with some pomegranate, a lot of walnuts, ½ banana, ½ apple

Note: lowkey overate a lot and I still didn't listen to my cravings so I'm both unhappy and stuffed

Water intake: 2 liters

Sleep: 8 hours

Studying:

Completed my english tutoring homework

Finished a book and started another one (20 pages)

Did some math homework too

Screen time: high today

Self care:

Well I ate poorly today and way too much so that's 1 point off

Really bad personal hygiene

Emotion of the day:

HAPPINESS BCS I HANGED OUT WITH A FRIEND FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MONTHS AND ITS SO FUNNN (+ i was somewhat productive)

actual hangout pic (we played genshin and made crepes and hot choc) ⬇️

Thoughts for tomorrow:

I hope to be more okay with my eating

I hope to do a lot of homework and be really productive

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Daily check in – Day 9

Workouts:

FAV WORKOUT DAYYY: 20 minutes dumbell toned arms - growingannanas

20 minutes HIIT cardio by growwithjo

Steps: 11 300

Eating:

breakfast: a ham and cheese sandwich, ½ apple, a tangerine, almonds, some choc overnight oats with blueberries

lunch: fish with broccoli and peas, baked pumpkin, ½ apple, coconut

dinner: 2 egg omelet, pumpkin pie, caramel protein pudding

Water intake: 2.5 liters

Sleep: 9h (REALLY OVERSLEPT ON A TEST DAY.)

Studying:

Did so well on the physics test I think it's a perfect score (hopefully🙏🙏)

Read 40 pages

Did extra work for English (1 hour)

Screen time: low

Self care:

The only moment when actually I WANT to do my physical self care is when I'm sweaty after a good workout, so that's exactly what happened!!!

Emotion of the day:

Kinda neutral because I got in some arguments and overslept and I'm kinda stressed about finals and school

Thoughts for tomorrow:

I wish to do a lot of the schoolwork for the exam and some homework for the week

I'm hanging out with a friend tomorrow so I hope everything goes really well!!

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Daily check in – Day 8

Workout:

Played handball in p.e (25 mins)

Thursday is my rest day:33

Steps: 10 156

Eating:

breakfast: yogurt bowl with chia seeds, blueberries, kiwi and coconut

snack: apple, ⅓ of a sandwich

lunch: a lottt of fish with broccoli, peas and carrots + ½ protein cookie, 2 chocolate brownies

dinner: baked pumpkin, a lot of whipped cream, vanilla protein pudding, greek yogurt, almonds

Water intake: 2.5 liters

Sleep: 8h and 10 minutes

Studying:

2 hours of maths tutoring

did some homework

revised for physics test (tomorrow)

read 40 pages!!!!

Screen time: really low

Self care:

NOT in the mood kinda skipped important skincare steps

Emotion of the day:

Stress and anger, I have so much to do 24/7 and the work just keeps piling up and I also got into multiple arguments today

Totally NOT happy with myself

Thougths for tomorrow:

Actually allow myself to have chocolate and not eat it while feeling guilty

I hope I do well on the physics test

[angel-dustspo]

Daily check in – Day 7

Workouts:

4.5 km night walk

Played basketball (25 mins)

Steps: 13 156

Eating:

breakfast: 2 boiled eggs, a cucumber + a starbucks caramel frappucino with way too much whipped cream (SO GOOD AAAAAA)

snack: 3 tangerines

dinner: a boiled egg, 2 avocado rice cakes, a lot of sweet pasta, 3 chocolate brownies and 1 choc chip cookie :33

Water intake: 2.5 liters

Sleep: 8 hours

Studying:

read 30 pages

did some really hard math exercises

Screen time: 1h 30 mins

Self care:

(mental care) Allowed myself to eat all the carbs I wanted to today

FINALLY washed my hair the 2nd time in a week after MONTHS of not being able to

Really enjoyed doing skincare today

Emotion of the day:

Happy but not too happy and somewhat stressed ab how much school work I always have left TwT

Thoughts for tomorrow:

I want to do really well in school and tutoring

I hope I have the best day ever and keep enjoying every moment of my life!!

[angel-dustspo]

Daily check in – Day 6

Workouts:

Played handball in p.e (20 mins)

Did my favourite workout ever: 20 minutes toned arms with dumbells by growingannanas

Tried somerthing new: 25 minutes posture helping yoga by growingannanas

Steps: 10 541

Eating:

breakfast: yogurt bowl with chia seeds, blueberries, pomegranate and banana

snack: an apple, ½ tangerine

lunch: chicken soup, a carrot, some biscuits and a slice of apple pie

dinner: chicken breast with broccoli, vanilla protein pudding, coconut

Water intake: 2.5 liters

Sleep: 8h and 10 minutes

Studying:

Watched another 2h theatre play for English

Revised physics

FINALLY did my french presentation

I FINALLY STARTED READING SOMETHING AGAIN!!!

Screen time: low

Self care:

Did everything while multitasking so I'm not that content with the self care today

Emotion of the day:

EXCITEMENT, I'm in the best mood ever and everything in my life is going so well I couldn't wish for anything more

Thoughts for tomorrow:

I hope I have a great morning since I just got the starbucks at home coffee pods and I can't wait to try them!!

Should revise my maths a bit more

Enjoy my day and be as happy as possible

[angel-dustspo]

Daily check in – Day 5

Workouts:

20 minutes summer HIIT by growwithjo

Steps: 12 194

Eating:

breakfast: yogurt bowl with chia seeds, tangerine, pomegranate and almomds

snack: an apple and a tangerine

lunch: chicken soup, carrots, 3 slices of apple pie

dinner: an apple, some coconut, togurt and apple pie

Water intake: 2 liters

Sleep: 8h 15 minutes

Screen time: 3.5 hours (high)

Studying:

2 hours of english tutoring (for the final exam)

Finished the analisis for the Shakespeare play

Did some of the homework for maths tutoring

Self care:

Tired and i'm really running low on time but I always make time for my skincare

Emotion of the day:

Happiness, I laughed a lot and had a really good day!!!

Thoughts for tomorrow:

I hope I'll be able to complete tomorrow all the assignaments that stress me out so much right now

Should eat more balanced meals and get my protein in right

Should REALLY stop leaving everything last minute because it's STRESSING AF.

[angel-dustspo]

Daily check in – Day 4

Workouts:

30 minutes legs and glutes workout by growingannas

10 minutes stretch by emi wong

Steps: 10 300

Eating:

breakfast: yogurt bowl with chia seeds, tangerine, blueberries, pomegranate and hazelnuts

lunch: chicken soup, some coconut and a bit of smoothie + 1 chocolate brownie

dinner: chicken breast and meatballs with spicy cucumber salad + ½ caramel protein pudding + lowkey binged on some chocolate had like 10 squares but it was worth it!!

Water intake: 2 liters

Sleep: 9 hours

Studying:

Did the 7 hard space geometry exercises I didn't know how to yesterday

Completed all the assignaments for the following week

Watched a Shakespeare play for an analisis for English

Screen time: 5h (high)

Self care:

Took care of myself today, stretched, washed mu hair and applied all the products to it, changed my pjs. It was so fun!!

Emotion of the day:

Gratefullnes for breaking my bad habits and being productive💗

Thoughts for tomorrow:

I hope that I do well in english tutoring

I wish to be happy and fulfilled with my life and to keep improving!! xx

[angel-dustspo]

Daily check in – Day 3

Workouts:

20 mins dumbell toned arms by growingannanas

10 mins hourglass abs by daisy keech

Steps: 10 450

Eating:

breakfast: yogurt bowl with chia seeds, apple, banana and cinnamon + 2 slices of chocolate brownie + 2 squares of some strawberry cheesecake chocolate

lunch: chicken breast with carrots, sweet mac n cheese, biscuits and some of a green smoothie

dinner: mearballs with spicy cucumber salad, ½ protein bar, ½ protein pudding

Water intake: 2.3 liters

Sleep: 9h and 30 mins

Studying:

Done school homework

Did extra exercises for tutoring

Tried to do some hard math exercises but didn't quite succeed? more for tomorrow ig

Screen time: 3h + 2.5 on computer games (high)

Self care:

Found it so much easier to take care of myself!!! I love doing skincare but only after a good sweat like tonight xx

Felt fancy so I used a face mask🎀

Emotion of the day:

Gratefulness that I managed to be productive, eat healthy, workout and take care of myself💗

Thoughts for tomorrow:

Spend less time on social media

Actually pick up the book that has been sitting in the corner for weeks

Self improve but still enjoy life to the fullest!!

[angel-dustspo]

i love eating clean