#diet cw - ed cw - etc

[unopenablebox]

unfortunately i clicked on the reblogger who added the very long youtube comments to that post about 'abuser' not being an ontological category & it turns out they spend most of their time posting about how refined sugars and television are brain poison, which they know bc they bootstrapped themself out of having CFS by developing an intensive exercise routine and eating the maximum daily recommended dose of beef liver

so personally i recommend not looking at their blog

[sorrowandpride]

I'm glad that we're criticizing the societies that promote ozempic use for cosmetic weight loss, but I'm honestly sick of people accusing anyone who's lost weight of using it.

A reminder that nobody owes anyone an explanation for their weight loss (or gain). Just because someone's losing weight, doesn't mean they're using appetite suppressants for cosmetic reasons. There are plenty of illnesses, circumstances, and health conditions that can result in weight loss: eating d1s0rders; mood disorders; gastrointestinal illnesses (IBS, IBD, gastritis, gastroparesis, etc.); medications (such as stimulants for ADHD treatment, chemotherapy drugs, levothyroxine for hypothyroidism, or even ozempic when used for type 2 diabetes and/or symptomatic obesity** treatment); poverty (it's not uncommon at all for people to skip meals to save money on groceries); etc.

Unless they're ill and trying to get a professional diagnosis, nobody needs to divulge their health history.

**Some people do have conditions that can be complicated by obesity and/or higher body mass (such as type 2 diabetes, endometriosis, Ehlers Danlos syndrome and hypermobility spectrum disorders, osteoarthritis, metabolic dysfunction-associated steatotic liver disease, metabolic syndrome, various manifestations of cardiovascular disease, etc.), and I don't believe it's fatph0bic for them to desire or pursue (healthy and sustainable!!) weight loss as palliative or preventative treatment.

[r1poutmygvtz]

°•*⁀➷ Introduction °•*⁀➷

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Diagnoses: depression, anxiety, and derealization (depersonalization is not diagnosed however im aware i deal with it and need to bring it up next session) my therapist is trying to diagnose me with ptsd and my mom wants me to get diagnosed with anorexia

Be Aware: i don't censor most things but i will tag everything i post according to what's mentioned (tw guide below cut). Another thing; i struggle to communicate properly most of the time so i may sound dry or uninterested at times, also if you're venting or talking about something and i talk about my personal experiences, i am not trying to make it about me, i just don't know how to carry on a conversation or show sympathy in any other way and i apologize for that

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°•*⁀➷•* Stats °•*⁀➷•*

Height: 5'5.3

HW/SW: 136.6lbs

HBMI/SBMI: 25

LW: 98.6lbs

LBMI: 16.2

CW: 110.2lbs (updated Nov. 25th)

CBMI: 18.2

UGW: 90lbs

UGBMI: 14.8

°•*⁀➷•* Goals °•*⁀➷•*

GW1: 110lbs

GW2: 105lbs

GW3: 100lbs

GW4: 95lbs

UGW: 90lbs

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[ozempicdoll]

♡ intro

♱ call me cata or kate i rlly don't mind at all

♱ female pronouns

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♡ likes: lana del rey, reading, writing, sleeping, diet coke, ballet, poetry, movies, baby pink, nicole dollanganger, etc

TW ed (ana) and more stuff not suitable for sensitive people

cw: 55kg gw: 50kg ugw: 45-43kg ♡

[selfcare-with-senshi]

ദ്ദി ˉ͈̀꒳ˉ͈́ )✧ Welcome!

This is a blog meant to help younglings (and elders) who struggle with proper selfcare. A well maintained body, mind and environment are crucial to a good life, and I'll be happy to help!

This is not a fandom blog! But I will occasionally share positive Dunmeshi things too :)

Senshi ✧ he/him ✧ 21+ ✧ diagnosed w. AuDHD and PTSD

One of the greatest things in life is that you can start over whenever you want. Right now, you can choose to make the change you need. To be the change. In this very moment, you can choose recovery. Today could be the first day of the rest of your life. Even if nobody came to save you in the past, or nobody taught you what you need to know, you can learn to be there for yourself now - and you're stronger and more capable than you may feel.

Your experiences weren't for nothing. They shaped you into who you are. And once you can learn to get along with the person you are, you've won at life.

I steer away from discourse, fandom drama and the like. I don't engage in callout or cancel culture. I don't have a DNI, but I block people when I notice they support any hateful ideology (for example homophobia, transphobia, racism, bullying, callout culture, anti-recovery, etc...) Please keep in mind that I'm not a professional, but I'm some guy out there who cares and wants to see you succeed.

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[infinite-orangepeel]

more eaglescout!steve/perv!eddie bc i’m obsessed

CW: eddie being possessive, steve’s toxic parents (food issues, ED, physical abuse)

steve’s parents have always been overbearing and not in a loving way. they’re controlling, demeaning, and downright cruel.

steve’s mom is most critical about his weight.

she makes him weigh himself regularly and puts him on a diet whenever she thinks he’s gained too much. he has no say over his own meals and she packs his lunch every single day.

steve’s dad is abusive in other ways.

he wants steve to be a real man’s man. he beats hits him with his belt whenever he thinks he’s being too soft or ‘feminine’ in any way (which essentially translates to being kind or gentle).

he leaves steve bruised beneath his clothes and scarred over his heart.

they fuck with his head.

they close him off from so much of the world.

they don’t let him travel, date outside of the church, choose his own friends, etc.

he knows so little about anything outside of the claustrophobic bubble they’ve raised him in.

needless to say, eddie munson is the antithesis to everything they’ve ever taught him.

eddie munson breaks rules, pushes boundaries, throws up his middle finger at tradition—curiously drawn to darkness and oddities.

and as he gets to know steve, he notices something that he just can’t get out of his head.

all of his clothes—scouts uniforms, casual wear, briefs—have his family name written in sharpie on the label. it’s absurd. he’s an adult.

“what’s this about?” eddie asks pointedly one day, flashing one such label at a half-naked steve who’s hurrying to get dressed.

“mom does it to all my clothes. always has,” he shrugs and frowns, “i’ve asked her to stop.”

and maybe in another family dynamic it might be endearing. sign of a mother who just loves her son too much and can’t let go.

but steve’s family is fucked up. steve’s family is deranged. and eddie, coming from his own fucked up family, can only read the little labels as another way to suffocate him and hold him back.

“do you want me to do something about it?” eddie cocks an eyebrow at him, “because i will. just say the word.”

steve looks uncertain. whenever eddie gives him the opportunity to choose for himself, steve tenses up.

“it’s sharpie. it doesn’t wash out.”

eddie chuckles, smirks at him in that way that spells ‘trouble.’

“lucky for you i have scissors and i know how to sew. just lay back and relax, baby. let me take care of it.”

which is how steve ends up bringing eddie his entire closet so he can repeat what he’s done to the clothes steve was wearing the previous day.

methodically and with a joint between his teeth, steve watches as eddie cuts out each ‘harrington’ label, puts them all in a pile, and tosses steve a lighter.

“go on,” he says as they stand in his backyard, “light ‘em up.”

it’s symbolic. it’s ceremonial. it feels good. it feels freeing to watch all those little labels char and turn to ash.

eddie spends the rest of the evening with steve in his lap, sewing ‘property of E.M.’ into every last piece.

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[bbackonmybullshit18]

Lil baby rant CW

I am so so so done with people giving so much shit to people with 3ds like ana and mia. I'm so fucking fed up. They wanna praise people for being fat, like I fw body positivity OF COURSE I DO, but sometimes it's not body positivity and its just people prafyically saying "it's okay to be so fat you can't find clothes in your size." No bcs that'd not normal, being anorexic isn't healthy either but in this world I feel like it's more common to be morbidly Obese. Anyways that's not rlly what I'm mad abt.

Im also pissed off that people are so against weight loss injections like ozempic. Yeah. First of all, that's litterally a private medication, if someone is eligible and wants to take it for whatever reason who tf are you to call them a DEMON over it. My mum takes a weight loss medication because she was litterally struggling with a bad binge eating disorder and was almost type 2 diabetic and couldn't get ANY help vcs there's no help out there, especially in the UK, for adults with eating disorders, let alone binging because its SO NORMALISED.

If I want to lose weight, that's my fucking business. How I do it is my business. I'm 19 years old, I'm legally an adult, I know the consequences of what I'm doing but I'm not pro ana going round forcing everyone into this Ed like it's a cult and I worship ana like shes my god. To me, what I'm doing is just a HARSH diet. And maybe it is also a disorder, but why does that mean that you can call me every horrible name under the sun when I'm just minding my own business and trying to get thinner after all my life PEOPLE LIKE YOU called me fat- but now fat is supposed to be a positive thing? Wtf? So you can only be skinny if you have a fast metabolism and if you don't and try to lose weight in any way suddenly you're a disordered tumblr demon??? What the fuck is that.

You go to the gym to thin down - you're a gym rat, addicted to exercise and only eat protein.

You starve/restrict to lose weight - you're an anorexic tumblr demon HAHAHAHA LETS ALL LAUGH AT HOW WE CAN SEE THEIR BONES.

You take a medication to lose weight for your mental state or physical health - you're an ozempic demon, take the ozempic bcs ur too lazy to try and eat healthy.

You eat a healthy balanced meal, happy with ur midsize body but don't have a fast metabolism - you're fat and should lose weight.

You're obese and too lazy to change it - it's okay! Be happy in your own skin! Body positivity!

And the only people you ever see shaming others for their diet, body etc. Is fucking skinny people. Skinny people with fast metabolism who've never had to try.

[theteablogger]

Same anon re: costuming. CW for weight gain/loss & mentions of EDs

Yes, just as a couple of examples of things which I’ve dealt with which sprang to mind reading about Andy’s history and made me go “yikes”, from school:

- When taking measurements, were taught to *ask* people if they wanted to know them or not (if not, we wrote them down but didn’t say it out loud). I once had someone say before I could ask, “Please don’t tell me, I’m recovering from an eating disorder and can’t know stuff like that”.

- Re: not commenting on weight, that included changes. I re-measured someone from a start of the first semester show to end of the second and she looked significantly different. She kept apologizing because her measurements were larger and finally said that she’d actually lost a bunch of weight because she’d been sick and that’s why she’d been smaller before. I stuck to saying I was glad she recovered, but she was clearly scared of being judged for how her body had changed.

Those are just two things, but thinking about how he habitually talks about weight gain/loss, fatphobia, beauty standards etc around women—the negging, backhanded compliments and lectures from 2018, but also some of the stuff he reffed in that thread (and further back the way those types of situations were exploited for abuse!)—you can see why I find it alarming to think about that being a voice of authority in the context of an industry where actors are (far more than in the context of an art school) consistently under insane pressure with regard to diet and exercise culture, often at the expense of health.

With regard to stunts and SFF/Adventure genres, see here: https://amp.theguardian.com/film/2016/jun/29/why-stuntwomen-are-in-more-danger-than-men

The TL;DR is that tight-fitting costumes which cover less skin, high heels, shape wear etc all make it way easier to sustain injuries. I point it out mainly because it’s a pretty obvious difference between cosplay and actually doing things other than standing/walking around in costume, and also because it’s indicative of a culture where people are far less likely to be held accountable for safety than for making sure it’s all aesthetically pleasing. The “nightmare scenario” is always someone arguing over safety and comfort concerns (whether or not stunts are involved) because of the look and a performer not being able to overrule, and that tragically happens far too often. Even professionals don’t necessarily “call it out” among their peers, same with lookism & fatphobia from those who consider being skinny part of the job description.

It’s the very fact that AB’s online persona these days is all about awareness and sensitivity towards those issues that makes me both REALLY hope he’s serious for once and worried about who might suffer for it if he’s not, and it’s another case where “sensitivity” is used as a matter of knowing people’s “weaknesses”. That’s part of why learning the source of the thread shook me up so hard: it was because the ‘progressive’ industry language was almost right but just slightly off—and then “slightly off” was “Oh okay so when you say you’re intimately aware of people’s body image struggles, did you mean your job, or those times you psychologically tortured your exes? Or set off others’ dysphoria repeatedly? Or…” you get the picture :/

Thanks for writing back, anon! It's always helpful to get perspectives from people involved in costuming.

It’s the very fact that AB’s online persona these days is all about awareness and sensitivity towards those issues that makes me both REALLY hope he’s serious for once and worried about who might suffer for it if he’s not, and it’s another case where “sensitivity” is used as a matter of knowing people’s “weaknesses”.

Well put, and I agree. His persona has been this way at least since he appeared on Tumblr in 2011, and he's definitely said and done plenty of shitty things since then. That's one of the reasons it's always so hard to believe that he's changed: he performs sincerity very well, but when he feels like he can get away with something (like in the summer of 2018), he doesn't practice what he preaches.

[r0tten4u]

Block don't report!

About me ♡

TW: ED

My name is Mel (it's a shortened name of my actual name) and I started Tumblr just a couple of months ago. I've seen so many people with the same problems as me, such as with eating and self image.

I am pro recovery but I just don't want to right now, not when I'm already going somewhere.

I wanted to start posting to track my progress and my ups and downs, to ask for help and for tips, food recs and etc.

Height: 173cm

SW: 86kg

CW: 82kg

Gw: 75kg

Gw: 70kg

Gw:65kg

Gw: 60kg

Ugw: 55kg

Ugw: 50kg

Things I'm already doing:

1. Walking at least 7000 steps if I'm a bit tired but usually walk 10k.

2. I rarely eat now

3. I tend to clean to avoid eating

4. I constantly look at pictures of my favourite models to think about my goal

5. If I do eat I usually purge, luckily it's when my mum isn't home.

6. I drink only black coffee, diet cola and water

7. Whenever I shop for clothes I always buy a size small because I currently wear a medium, it's to motivate me.

I really don't know what else to write but I appreciate any advice, tips and kind words that anyone has to share :))

[ajarofpickledtears]

cw diet, dieting, diet culture, unhealthy eating habits

full offense but articles and guides on intermediary fasting read like fucking pro ana posts and tips and rules and advice

eat five days and nothing at all for two!

drink a lot of water so you don't feel hungry!

stages of intermittent fasting saybthat after 54 hours you reach the last stage like bestie that's more than two full days!

unless this is done under close medical supervision that's just fucking eating disorder behaviour

like ffs they're out there telling this shit to your average person that probably is better at fasting than making healthy meals or looking up what the body even needs etc, you can not tell me that people don't develope ed's due to this

[dr3dwlf]

— All About Marsh ៹!! ⸗  🪽

🫐 Basic Info

Age : 18

Pronouns : he/him

Active as of : September 2023

Other : ED + semi NSFW blog

— 🕯️☕️🧺🫐🪽 —

📄 Blog Overview

This is an ED blog, I will be posting / reblogging things that could be triggering to some. This includes bcs, spos, diets, restriction meals, restriction motivation, and more.

I added NSFW to the description as more of a safety net or disclaimer. I highly doubt I’ll be rbing corn or anything highly graphic. Most NSFW posts will either be horny text posts or my own horny thoughts, which I will tag accordingly!

Aside from ED / NSFW related stuff, I’ll also use this blog to like fanart, poetry, fics, moodboards, and memes. If I reblog anything unrelated to EDs I’ll tag it accordingly.

My tagging system:

#my posts ‹3 — Any original posts I make.

#daily log 🫐 — A daily log of my weight, steps, intake, etc. Hopefully I actually stick to posting everyday lol.

#ed moodboard ✦ — Moodboards that depict underweight bodies and/or restrictive imagery.

#ed collage ☆ — Collages that depict underweight bodies and/or restrictive imagery.

#not ed related •﹏• — Pretty self explanatory! I’ll probably use this for fandom related posts/rbs. (Keep scrolling for fandom info/ non ED stuff)

#18+ ✞ — Anything NSFW related, feel free to blog this tag if needed! :)

🦴 Stats

Sw : 128lbs / 58kgs (BMI 22)

Cw : 108lbs / 48.9kgs (BMI 18.5)

Gws :

125lbs / 56.7kgs (BMI 21.5)

120lbs / 54.4kgs (BMI 20.6)

115lbs / 52kgs (BMI 19.7)

112lbs / 50.8kgs (BMI 19.2)

110lbs / 49.9kgs (BMI 18.9)

107Ibs / 48.5kgs (BMI 18.4)

104Ibs / 47kgs (BMI 17.8)

100lbs / 45.3kgs (BMI 17.2)

97lbs / 44kgs (BMI 16.6)

95lbs / 43kgs (BMI 16.3)

93lbs / 42kgs (BMI 16)

★ 90lbs / 40.8kgs (BMI 15.4) ★

🧺 DNI / BYF

DNI

Uncomfortable with rare NSFW

Basic DNI (racist, -phobic, etc.)

Not ED or NSFW related

Proship, CNC / rape, shota / loli

Those true crime fans

Can’t think of anything else off the top of my head, if I don’t like you I’ll just block lol

BYF

I’m autistic, please be patient and tolerate my occasional “guys look at this thing I like”.

I have binge urges and often get stuck in binge / restrict cycles, don’t expect me to be the perfect ana.

I’m proana, meaning I support open conversation about EDs within ED spaces such as edblr, edtwt, and other forums.

I’m pro recovery for everyone except myself LOL

Idk how active I’ll be on here. I mainly use edtwt atm, but we’ll see how edblr works for me!

🖤 Interests

(Spinterest , Hyperfix)

TV

TLOU HBO

The Sandman

Hannibal BBC

Breaking Bad / BCS

Shameless

Archive 81

Drag Race

Adventure Time

ATLA / TLOK

Gravity Falls

Gotham

Movies

Howl’s Moving Castle

Spiderverse

HTTYD

Now You See Me

Anime (📓 = Manga also)

JJK 📓

The Promised Neverland 📓

Mononoke

AOT

One Piece

Soul Eater

Death Note

OHSHC

Tokyo Revengers 📓

TBHK

Free!

Given

Blue Lock

Podcasts

TMA

Red Valley

Malevolent

Archive 81

Games

Portal

FNAF

Pokemon

UT / DR

Tower of Fantasy

Roblox (play with me pls)

Enstars

Sky: COTL

Splat2n

Other

True crime

My OCs

Writing

Baking

Homestuck

[skinnywannabeesblog]

So one of my goals this year is to lose weight in a year (almost all my extra weight at least which is 60-65 kg.I started 114,5kg my diet and my cw is 108,8).

The catch is that i want to do it in a way that doesnt destroy me mentally because of my ed.I want to be able to enjoy this year and myself so when i reach my gw it can be the happiest day and not like "Yay i am happy but lets continue being sad and get stressed cuz of ed and continue our bad habits".

So i have set some rules for myself which is:

Try to lose 5kg per month at least

(although i try to at least get back to 90-80 kg and then start trying to lose 5kg a month)

1000-1500 cals but you can eat less than 1000 although dont eat for a lot of time too little so your metabolism doesnt stop.

Be kinder to yourself about your weight and your diet journal

Dont self sabotage.Like if you have one bad day and eat more or binge dont take it to heart but continue like normal while dieting even if you gain

Weight yourself once a day and note it

Eat all kinds of food as long as it is within your "calorie budget"

If you get bad side effects like bad headaches or feel dizy or as if you gonna faint etc eat at least 1000-1500 for a week.

Try to self improve and take care of yourself and by other means than just dieting(like fix bad schedule or habits etc)

Make your diet fun like keep a bullet journal,try new food you wouldnt eat before etc

Dont limit yourself to some specific foods and absolutely no fear foods.Eat whatever you want.This is a form of self sabotage not control since we both know that youll end up binging so hard once you get temted and eat your favorite fear food.

Fastings are acceptable as long its a day once a week but not every week.

So thats all my rules to lose weight in one year.This obviously is not your typical ed rules or mindset but you know....i just kind of got tired of my ed but i want the weight to be gone plus i am a art college student and i dont want to be the always tired person and sad all the time because of my mental illness...

Yeah so basically this is a semi ed semi trying to fix my mindset so recovery can be easier after this diet and rules.

Its too early to tell but so far i am 18 days in and i am doing great with these rules.Hope it stays that way and if i succeed to lose almost all my extra weight by the end of the 365 days ill post update with photos of before and after and my thoughts and if its worth trying this or not.

I just dont wanna have ed and hate myself at the same time anymore ;-;

[doodleybugg]

[TW ED]

if request are still open it would be really comforting for me a one shot about the Umbrella Academy comforting one of their sibling struggling with a restrictive eating disorder, and supporting them

of course !! thank you so much for requesting this <33 i hope you’re feeling okay and are on the road to recovery but if not that is also okay !! not everyone’s eds are the same but each and every ed is a hell of a struggle and i wish you well

cw ;; ed (anorexia), gn!reader (you/they pronouns used, no mention to genitalia etc), ed comfort, i absolutely hate luther but watch me try to make him a nice brother here rq, cal counting, tough talk, readers power is to read minds when they focus hard enough, au (when the gang time travelled at the end of season 2, it worked, they got back to the og timeline)

it was luther who noticed it first. noticed you counting calories before dishing up your plate during supper. he dismissed it almost entirely, assumed you were on one of those keto diets, what with their growing popularity. and you were looking rather thin. much thinner than normal.

allison wasn’t far behind, caught you scrutinizing yourself in the full length mirror against the wall in your bedroom. she was a little less gullible, but seemed satisfied when you pretended to be analysing the outfit you were wearing. she helped you match a hoodie you liked with the ripped, baggy jeans you wore and left again, humming softly to herself. you smiled at your reflection, relieved she didn’t catch on.

but as another agonizingly slow week passed, more people took notice. not of your disorded eating entirely, but small habits you couldn’t exactly hide. like the scale you kept in your room, or how insanely good you’ve gotten at doing math in your head despite how horrible your grades were back in school, how you just kept losing weight. even klaus mentioned it. klaus, who was always hopped up on drugs or guzzling a drink, had made a comment about how five’s fourteen year old hand could probably wrap around both your wrists with ease.

“i’d take that action” diego chuckled, but spotting the way you pulled your sleeves down well over your hands and crossed your arms, he froze. “what is with all this weight loss recently, y/n? it’s like you’re barely there.”

five looked through the kitchen doorway from where he stood next to the counter, into the dining room where you sat on the table next to klaus, and diego sat in a chair a couple spots over. allison was god-knows-where, probably sitting in a phone booth calling that same number again. you could recite patrick’s number by memory now, and maybe you were a little sick of it. luther was somewhere in the hallway across from the upstairs living room, you could hear his footsteps as he neared the bathroom, then he went back in the direction he came from. was he pacing?

you looked up, catching diego’s stare. he expected an answer, you were sure. an answer as to why you could see the bones in your limbs and why your cheeks were so hollow you could trace the outline of your skull. klaus had probably tuned out of the conversation by now, you thought, but you turned your head to the side and he was listening as intently as you’d ever seen him. his eyes, though bloodshot and bleary, were wide with interest. he, too, wondered the same as diego.

“i- i don’t know. is it some sort of crime to be skinny?” you laughed, nervously.

five made a noise from the kitchen, a small grunt as he shut the fridge. you could hear the worry in his tone, “well, no. but you’re not exactly skinny, y/n. skinny isn’t the word i’d use when i can count your ribs.”

you thought about your next move. he was closer to the truth than you liked him to be. in fact, now that you did think about it, everyone was.

the constant “have you eaten?"s, or the "want me to grab you something from subway?"s. the fact that, when you woke up two days ago, the scale was back in the bathroom you stole it from.

it looked like it was getting difficult for klaus to follow the conversation, as he’d moved his focus to rolling up a joint. you could probably go for one right about now, but the conversation at hand needed to be dismissed.

the front door opened with a creak, the house’s age showing, and you scrambled to escape the situation.

"allison!” you shouted, making sure to put a smile into your tone of voice as you rose from your spot on the table.

“she’s still not home?” viktor’s voice called from the doorway as he shook of his shoes. “it’s late, maybe i should- what’s going on in here?” he asked as he entered the dining room.

you sighed.

“i could ask the same.” luther spoke from the bottom stair, frozen mid-step. was the tension in the room that thick? you’d have to assume so based on their posture. each looked like a statue, unsure whether moving would set anything off.

“shit!” klaus mumbled, accidentally spilling an uncrushed flower onto the ground below his feet. that’s what jumped the conversation back up, oddly enough.

“listen, i don’t know if you need it right now, but i’m here for you. we’re here for you.” diego spoke slowly. as if he were a hostage negotiator asking you politely to let these innocent people go. at least, that’s how you interpreted it. he was just trying not to startle you like he must have with his earlier question. you nodded, trying to keep your expression blank, neutral.

“do you need it?” he raised a single eyebrow.

five entered the room next, toast on a plate and an avocado in his hand, knife dangling between his fingers. you saw him almost drop it, but defying gravity, the knife instead flew onto the table with a clatter. diego’s doing, trying to catch your attention again because you let his sentence hang alone.

“no!” but you spoke too quickly.

“y/n…” viktor trailed off at the sight of distress on your face.

“really guys! it’s just some lost weight, what are you all on about?”

“what about that diet? you’re still on it, right?” luther questioned, a large hand on your shoulder. you shrugged it off.

“diet?” five asked. he took a bite of his toast, though even while eating you noticed he couldn’t count as looking relaxed. be it this conversation, or the constant threat of the world ending, he alwayslooked concerned.

“it’s-”

luther cut you off mid-sentence, “spotted y/n counting as they ate. what’s it called.. kety? keto? it’s getting popular.”

and five instantly caught on. you could see it on his face. you could hear it in his thoughts. eating disorder, eating disorder, again and again as he buffered, crumbs along his lips. he set down the piece of toast and eyed diego. diego was thinking the same thing. you cut off your focus before you could hear much, but you caught the words bones, why, and food.

diego’s thoughts were much more scrambled than five’s, but way less than klaus’, you’ve noticed. still, with how ignorant he always was, when he was in that asylum he must’ve met someone else with an eating disorder. someone like you, the thought crept up your spine and you shivered.

“fine.”

“fine, what?” luther asked, still confused. he didn’t catch on as quickly as the others. viktor looked distressed, glancing between you, luther, diego, five, luther. wondering who was going to tell him.

“y/n has an eating disorder.” five didn’t stutter. you flinched. suddenly the words felt all too real when he said them aloud. luther’s mouth fell slack as he put everything together. 

“bulimia?” diego asked. he seemed to choke on the word, like he couldn’t imagine you having the disorder. you shook your head, eyes stinging, tears threatening your composure.

“an..” you trailed off, unsure if you could even say it. everyone’s eyes were on you. you’d tuned so far out, making sure not to read anyone’s mind, that you couldn’t even gather your own thoughts. diego nodded, seemingly educated on the word and it’s meaning.

you heard the front door open again, and someone shuffling nearby.

"hello?" allison's voice was hesitant, as nobody was just aimlessly wandering around the house as normal. you raised yourself as if to stand, but catching the way five raised his eyebrow, like a threat, you decided better and stayed where you were. allison clip-clopped her way to the dining room, shoes still on her feet, actively shrugging out of her black leather jacket. she, just like viktor and luther, froze under everyone's stare, though for not as long and definitely not as awkwardly obvious. 

it was five who spoke next, gave her a patient run-down of the situation, stopping every-so-often to give you a chance to chime in with "it's not like that!" or "really, guys, it's no big deal..", although you knew he would roll his eyes and shake his head at your antics, in the most caring way he knew how.

and, surprisingly, life continued. it wasn't the same, how could it be? but it kept going.

now luther would offer to workout with you, given that you ate a full meal with him either before or after. and every time you entered the kitchen it was like the conversation stopped - it did - until you'd taken a bite of something where someone could see you.

diego was still shocked, seemed to inch away from you whenever you were in too close of proximity. but you could tell it wasn't that he saw you any different, no, it was that he was scared you'd be the one seeing. seeing how eerily knowledgeable he was with the whole subject, he had the language under his belt. he could spot each of your nervous behaviors, and eventually had connected them to what they had meant. twitching fingers? maybe you could use some water. picking at your skin? he'd better go hide the scale. better yet, what if he'd just throw it out? it wasn't like anyone here needed it now. especially not you.

you felt like a criminal under lockdown, but you guessed that was how you all were raised. with a father that didn't have time for you past bank robberies or petty crimes, and no caregiver past a literal robot and a talking ape. this situation couldn't ever be normal with the umbrella academy. when the most affection you were shown was a kiss on the forehead from electronic lips, or a distant and cold breeze when the cameras panned away and your father's ile was replaced with more wrinkles and disappointment.

that's probably where this all started, the eating problems. or, that's what the therapist allison accounted for you says. because when children don't have control in their lives, they find something they can control. be it eating, sleeping, talking. and your childhood? you couldn't remember a thing you had sole control over, complete autonomy with. except the eating. except the weight loss that would finally get you the attention you so desperately needed and never, never got.

[figula]

cw for ed etc

so i've stopped trying to lose weight for now, and am trying to "transition" to a "maintenance diet" (clownery) bc i dont want to gain any of the weight back. i know how unlikely this is ofc

i am having such a hard fuckin time with it like it's so much easier to just eat one meal a day + be done with it than to be fighting for my life to be eating 2/3 normal meals like if i eat normal meals i end up eating SO MUCH FOOD and like being totally unable to stop eating snacks and it's so distressing lol i hate it!! im afraid of the hunger + the urge to eat that i had managed to ignore for like a yr + now im like trying to be more normal again im like hmm this is garbage tho... like eating small portions regularly requires infinitely more self control than eating either nothing or everything like i just want to eat one huge daily meal and be done with it

having no real goal in mind re: food consumption is so stressful idek what to do about it

[agirldying]

hi i just wanted to say that ED blogs are vent blogs too, and are safe spaces for those people. if you are accepting of people making art/content/vents of their trauma, you should be accepting people with EDs. Not all ppl venting about their ED is "proana" (obviously those who ARE proana should be blocked and reported). Their blogs are often the only place they can feel safe, and by reporting ppl with EDs you are taking that away from them. I could have misconstrued smth and if so, please let me know. I just think you're cool and I wanted to scope out your feelings on it, to make sure that you're not actually shitty. if you agree with me, feel free to just ignore this, I'm sorry.

Hi anon,

I appreciate your input. The thing is that I'm not necessarily reporting every single ED blog I see. But at the same time I think there's an... epidemic? of blogs claiming to be not pro but then posting thinspo and diet regimens. I also just think like. if you come to tumblr dot com and post things that are against TOS, you really shouldn't be surprised if your blog gets taken down.

The main reason why I report these blogs is like. Tumblr is a breeding ground for pro ana content and it's extremely easy for pwEDs to enable and be enabled by each other's content, especially with the alarming amount of minors being influenced by this content. It can be a deadly thing and I wish people were more mindful of the fact that people can and are already essentially encouraging each other to harm and kill themselves through EDblr.

So idk. when I come across ED blogs it just makes my chest tight knowing that this content is potentially directly harming those who interact. And so in that way I see what I'm doing as a good thing, and for ED blogs who are genuinely just venting and not posting thinspo, diets, or their bmi gw cw etc, I leave them alone.

But I honestly want to thank you because you've laid out something that's potentially a cognitive dissonance for me. I think I'm mainly just trying to reconcile the idea of like, when I want to protect trauma survivors, those with mental illnesses, and just safe spaces ig, I have to be aware of the fact that this may mean protecting ED spaces? in a way? Am I getting that right? I guess I'm just trying to get a sense of the nuance there because I don't want to just protect all ED spaces just as I wouldn't support vent blogs that are actually being harmful or what have you. There are limits to that inclusion and that's what I'm actively trying to figure out.

[vampacidic]

what are your thoughts on suou tsukasa. i think she is very egglike and also chubby

uu i've acfually never really dug into tsukasa lore LMAO she's just not a character my brain attached to.. i feel like i'd be obsessed with her if i dug into her maybe 2 years agai bc her struggle with expectations reeeeally would've reflected my own at the time but i never did.. i think she's cute. a bit of a try hard but in the cutest way possible. for some reason i have all of her gacha five stars on both music and basic.... i'm squeezing her like this