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Dear friends, please blacklist “breakdown blogging” if you need to; I just need to scream into the void
I need to pick an audiobook and put my phone down before I have another “guess I’m just not sleeping” night but also feeling crushed bc even if I medically transition I’m never going to be a cis man and I’m just. Yeah I need to put on an audiobook and go to sleep
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The executive dysfunction (from whatever) is kicking my ass
I need like a squeaky hammer and just. bop on my head to stop. I wonder if I could use the clicker training thing to do that
I managed to mostly stop myself whenever emotional flashbacks start with a phrase/mantra, it could work maybe
Oh it's not like, can't stop thinking about Thing so much as. I can't stop activity and switch to the things I want/need to do. Like sleep.
Like I am Reading This Book or Engaging In Very Active Discord or somehow like, rapidly switching apps but can't put phone down
Which is why I thought of like a squeaky hammer lol
or Drawing why does it. Listen I don't have adhd, this is being caused by burnout, so this is New for me and it's very odd [emote of myself facedown on floor]
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If my mental disorders don’t kill me stress sure will
#so many bills due#my animals are all having physical breakdowns and need to go to animal hospital#my car broke down so yet another expense#when it rains it freaking pours#the anxiety and stress of it all and feeling like ill never catch up is going to put me in an early grave#bpd#actually borderline#actually bpd#bpd feels#bpd problems#bpd stuff#bpd blog
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Me every time I log back in to this account
I'm thrilled you're still here! I'm not gonna make any promises but I've missed this blog
#tldr: i had a spectacular mental health breakdown i'm still working on#but my therapist said I should not let this blog overwhelm me with stress#because at the end of the day i'm just here to share some fashion history#it's not my full time job
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Shout out to
4 Savin' da day!!!!
#2000s emo#2000s scene#emo boy#emo kid#emo scene#scenemo#scene aesthetic#scene boy#scene fashion#scene hair#emo girl#emo hair#emocore#emo aesthetic#emo#scene queen#scene kid#scenecore#scene#emobility#emo bands#emo brainrot#emo blog#scene breakdown#scene belts#scene blog#emo gf#emo guy#emo grunge#emo goth
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i lose everyone because i can't keep myself in check. i want to be okay, i'd do anything to get rid of this anger but i feel like a walking time bomb that hurts everyone i love.
#anger issues#bpd#actually borderline#bpd anger issues#bpd splitting#bpd shit#bpd abandonment#abandonment issues#vent#abandonment#actually bpd#bpd thoughts#borderline personality disorder#borderline pd#bpd vent#borderline blog#borderline thoughts#breakdown#bpd stuff#anger issues bpd#bpd intense#bpd rage#bpd split#splitting#cluster b#bpd things
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Open Roleplay Starter
(TW: mental breakdown, vague bit of self-harm and small description of suicidal thoughts)
Bucky sat in a dirty alleyway, shadows swallowing his form so he wasn't to be seen. Something that he wanted right now. No, he needed it. If nobody saw him — noticed him in general — then he couldn't do more damage at least. God, he wasn't even sure in which country he was right now. What he knew through was that his head hurt like someone had tried to split it open from the inside. He knew what that meant and feeled like he would vomit yet nothing came out. He lifted his right hand, fingers burying itself in his scalp. It had happened again. HYDRA. The trigger words. It didn't matter what Bucky did. He always hurt someone. Over and over again.
He squeezed his eyes shut, tears escaping nonethelessly at the side of his face and dropped to the ground. He had brought Viktor Malric Finn and Callum and even another variant of himself that also had the trigger words. His titanium hand fisted the fabric of his dark combat pants. Viktor had given it to him so he would be 'proper equipped'. Yet another thing on the repeating list. How often would such things happen, would someone use this goddamn words? What if next time he wouldn't ''only'' abduct and imprison minors and variants, but kill again?
... Perhaps Steve had been good to leave. Perhaps it would be better for everyone if Bucky would just rot in some high security cell of some government. Or just would end it all together.
He couldn't hurt anyone then anymore. Not as the Winter Soldier, not as Bucky and not intentional or unintentionally. Never again.
Yeah, that sounded like a responsible idea.
((@ireallyliketacosokay and at everyone who wants or thinks about to join: Just do it!))
#marvel#mcu#bucky barnes#mcu rp#marvel rp#bucky barnes rp#hydra#winter soldier#winter soldier rp#rp blog#tw: mental breakdown#tw: vague description of self-harm#tw: small description of suicidal thoughts#marvel roleplay#mcu roleplay#open starter#open rp starter#open roleplay#heavy themes#heavy topics
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Had so much fun at TFCon Baltimore! Met so meany nice people and had a grate time. I hope I’ll be able to come back next year! Here’s some goodie’s I got at the con!
And shout out again to @oozeandgoo-art for the whirl sketch I love it so much!
#transformers#maccadam#tformers#tf idw#transformers idw#tf con#tfcon 2024#tfcon baltimore#tfp breakdown#tfp knockout#tfp kobd#idw ratchet#idw drift#dratchet#idw swerve#g1 prowl#tf earthspark#earthspark nightshade#tf nightshade#shockwave#idw whirl#tf jazz#blog#lovinglonerhybrid#artist support#comic con#idw optimus prime#idw megatron#had so much fun#like ahhhh
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Hope this doesn't sound rude, I'm simply curious, but is KOBD a thing in your au? I'm asking because ever since I joined this fandom they seem like that one ship every likes (to be fair I only been here for 2 months or so), so I'm a little suprise you never mention them
Oh it 100% is! I even have like a little arc for Sparkplug surrounding them because they come to earth and basically blackmail the autobots into making them a sparkling like Sparkplug (made from two bots).
Basically it goes over a lot of mental stuff with Sparkplug in debating the ethics of creating another Frankenstein’s monster like her. But then we see that it’s completely possible to make another one like her with both parents surviving and being fine, and it just makes everyone sit and think for a while. Because like it’s been said “Sparkplug shouldn’t really exist”, she’s made from a dying spark that caused her a lot of health problems.
Ultimately Knock out and Break down just hang out on earth for a while because they feel like it while Spark gets stuck babysitting a brand new Wildbreak.
The reason I haven’t done this is because I wanna do it kinda well and also I hate drawing Knockout.
But in all seriousness I love those two for real
#kobd#tfp kobd#asks#art asks#ask blog#ask box#ask#one spark au#transformers#transformers au#transformers prime#tf prime#knockout#tf knockout#breakdown#tf breakdown
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Introducing KOBD ( and Wildbreak) into Thorns and Thrones AU!!
These two play the part of Rescuers to both Sir Orion and Megatronus at a turning point in their quest!
I’m thinking KOBD are the ones who come across them after this scuffle in the snow gone wrong >:]
Knockout and Breakdown are currently lone travelers on a journey off to the Dinobot Isles! The couple ventured out of the desolate, ever-increasing decay of Decepticon lands in a hurry to secure a stable future for their adorable new addition.
With the re-entering strict Autobot lands clearly not presenting itself to be a safe option to settle down, these two, with their little one in tow, have been making the lengthy journey to the coastlines.
Allies anxiously await their arrival—both in determination to seeing their old friends safe, as well as being in great need of their skills as both healers and warriors.
Trouble is stirring in the cavernous mountains that aid in the sustainment of the Isles. Those who have ventured up for recourses are returning with fewer numbers, strange wounds, and even stranger stories of the web-wielding demon supposedly responsible.
Knockout and Breakdown are off to offer their help in exchange for a place to call home—but first they have to figure out what the hell an Autobot and LORD MEGATRON-!?!? are doing all the way out HERE??
Perhaps after Optimus (ohhh that’s his name!) and Megatron (whoops! merc cover blown) get patched up, their rescuers and new friends made in the Isles will wrangle them into an adventure in the mountains—for for Primus’ sake get them some new gear!!!
#transformers#thorns and thrones au#my art#oh my god these two are so in love I could barf#they are what Megs and Op WISH they were#cmon boys. the secret is simply ✨communication….not throwing a one liner and calling it good…or tapping 🍑 and calling it good✨#they will get there. TAKE NOTES#anyways KOBD breathes me life I needed them in my AU or I would surely die#baby Wybie graces this blog ONCE AGAIN 😤🤲✨💕🫶#kobd#tfa knockout#tfa breakdown#maccadam#transformers animated#tfa wildbreak
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can u make an earthspark breakbee stimboard and use the gifs where they’re both winking? im finishing up earthspark and i love those two so much
Earthspark Breakbee
i hope these are the gifs you meant :3 i love these guys sm and its another pair that i really wish they expanded on more... sigh. TwT idk why earthspark bumblebee reminds me of pizza but he does? lolol
X X X | X X X | X X X
#earthspark#bumblebee#breakdown#breakbee#maccadams#maccadam#transformers#stimboard#stim#stimblr#stimmy#stim gifs#visual stim#stim blog#yellow#grey#red#blue#white#food tw
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I feel like at some point I have to stop hitting new rock bottoms
#breakdown blogging#I could really use a win#hint hint hint#can my suffering at least mean trump doesn’t get re-elected this year#that and world peace feel like the only payoffs worth it at this point
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So it turns out I'm fucking burnt-out
you know. from existing.
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Kieran's reaction to y/n saying she would be fwb with him, but doesn't want to see his face or kiss him during it
THIS MAN WOULD GENUINELY BE SO HEARTBROKEN OH MY GOD LMFAOO
he has pretty thick skin but i feel like this would get him to genuinely break. He values his looks, you and having you so much and the fact that Y/N would give him what he wants but doesn’t want to view him at all???? He’d be thinking about your request for ages and ages, it would literally keep him up at night.
Again, this man has such a high ego, and basically nothing can bring it down — but this? He’d try to play it off as a joke but you can genuinely feel the mood switch.
Kieran is extremely desperate for you, but i actually don’t think he’d agree to this, it would be too heartbreaking for him knowing that the love of his life can’t even bare to look at his face whilst doing intimate things.
Hed probably try convince you for ages to get rid of that request and be friends with benefits without him having to cover his face.
#i feel like i’d actually breakdown if somebody ever said that to me holy moly#everytime kieran’s mind is at rest this moment will literally pop into his head and hed get all bothered LOL#this would break the extremely cocky man i fear 😣#purerae#yandere blog#male yandere#yandere headcanons#yandere#yandere oc#yandere x reader#yandere oc x reader#male yandere oc#yandere playboy
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A loud ass explosion just happened and the whole building shook. And while getting my dog from under the kitchen table I saw smoke coming out of neighboring buildings. There were two explosions actually, and my friend from across the city heard them too but only several seconds later due to sound delay. We heard them almost immediately because of how close they were. There are more missiles in the air. The air raid has been happening for hours already, and we had one earlier at night as well. It's 8 am right now. Cities like Kharkiv (north-east), Lviv (west), Odesa (south-west), Dnipro (south-east), Khmelnytsky and Vinnytsya (west-center) and Kyiv (north-center) were targeted and damaged. I think I'll update later, either with more information or just to say that the air raid is over and that we're ok
#i knew this was going to be a hard night because I had a huge mental breakdown but I thought it would be just nightmares#but I also anticipated this happening because russia likes to kill people before new year's eve#and also partly because fate always finds you in a tough spot to help you find out that there is a rock bottom underneath a rock bottom#ukraine#war in ukraine#stand with ukraine#important#russia#russia is a terrorist state#fuck russia#war blog#russian war crimes#kyiv
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not now honey, i'm busy thinking about what someone said to me 10 years ago that i'm still not over yet
#bpd#actually bpd#bpd shit#bpd thoughts#bpd vent#borderline blog#borderline pd#borderline personality disorder#actually borderline#vent#ptsd#borderline thoughts#actually ptsd#cluster b#actually cluster b#living with borderline#borderline problems#bpd stuff#black and white#breakdown#bpd splitting#bpd intense#bpd rage#bpd things#abandonment#abandonment issues#vent post#ptsd episode#ptsd flashbacks#actually cptsd
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