#bipolar disorder i

[tezriaetho]

idk as the days go by the urge to hang myself is getting stronger

[red-truck]

This is Roller in G1.

And this is him now in IDW.

Folks, Oppy's little drone son, Roller, is hella sexy now.

He's been Alex Milne-fied. And JRoberts made him addicted to whatever C32 is in human version.

That little gun he's carrying around as a drone make him look like a mini Megatron too. Can he be Megs's and Oppy's son? Pleaaaase?

[hussyknee]

Forgive yourself for the way you behaved when you were in pain. You didn't mean to drag your loved ones down with you. You were only thrashing and flailing and trying to not to drown. They didn't leave because you were a bad person. They left because they couldn't save you and had to save themselves. It's not an indictment of either your worth or their love. You didn't ask too much, they just couldn't be what you needed and had to make space for someone who could.

In another life, where you had had the help you deserved, where you had had the space to breathe, where something had been different, it wouldn't have happened. Sometimes, it's all just a consequence of circumstances outside of our control. None of you deserved any of this, and you all get to hurt and grieve and be angry that it all fell out this way. But don't be ashamed that the pain got the best of you. You didn't fall short any more than they did. You just became overwhelmed.

[h3lloyou]

im an embarrassment to myself. I feel so selfish for being so tired. My issues are all so minuscule.

[julyskyest]

Sorry there are no bipolar meds left for Dankovsky, the Executor brought me all of them

[warpedsenseofmind]

I’m trying to juggle so many different things. Booking a flight to Oregon for the first time alone on an airplane. I’m searching for the right documents to get my Real ID (fuck you America for making me go to the DMV). I most likely need to get it done in the middle to end of April.

I’m coming up with lesson plans for work but not really getting much prep time to do it. I have a SPED teacher I work under and have to collaborate with 3 other colleagues on a close basis as well as 3 more teachers.

I have 8 different doctors so managing my appointments is a lot.

AND I’m trying to go back to my Master’s program that I never started so I’m emailing 3 different people.. Making appointments, finding tuition money, learning how to use their website. Also I’m trying to avoid having to apply again because fucks no, I’m not writing another autobiographical statement and asking my undergrad college to send over ANOTHER transcript. You got me fucked up.

I am a hot ass mess and I need to stop adding stuff to my plate. I’m trying to get it all done but all I want to do is watch tv and smoke weed.

😊

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cw: mental health issues, unhealthy coping mechanisms, implied self-harm, heightened emotions and paranoia

[prismatic-ink]

when the humor so good people think you have a mood disorder

[h3lloyou]

i was taught from a young age that peoples love for me has always been and will always be conditional

[the-crazy-echidna-lady]

Can we please normalize some people not having empathy, or having low empathy.

Sorry that the low to no empathy neurodivergent person doesn't understand why they should apologize for your dog dying. Sorry that they don't see how it's their fault. Maybe you should've asked to vent too, because I know your ass didn't.

[smowyashe]

talked to the school councilor about gender stuff today, and honestly it really helped, i need to get my ass into therapy lmao, anyway she said something that i think a lot of yall (neurodivergent creatures) need to hear since this is the pronoun palace

she told me that people who are neurodivergent are less likely to be held down by societal conctrainst and things that neurotypical people consider to be normal, they just cant really comprehend it, and thats awesome because there's so much more freedom for exploration

because they arent as concerned with societal rules, they're more likely to experiment with their identity (be it gender, sexuality or otherwise) than neurotypical people, and at a younger age than most neurotypical people

thats why neurodiverse people are more likely to be genderqueer or polyamorous or alterhuman, and everything else considered by neurotypical people to be "weird" or "unusual"

experimentation, especially at a young age, is so important for a child's development, and we all experiment, for example, you may have been an emo in middle school but you're not emo now or you might still be emo

the only way you can know if you are something is to try it out

and if that means you use one label (like genderfluid) but then switch to another label (transgender) later on, you're not "going through a phase", you're doing somethign fundamentally important to your identity and growth

experimentation with your identity is important and you should never feel ashamed for changing what that identity is, because life is a journey and you dont need to have it all figured out before you turn 20 or 30 because some people dont figure it out until they're 60 or even 90

if you dont know whether or not something is truly for you just try to take it a step further (like getting a haircut or wearing gear or different clothe) and see if you like that, if you dont then its not for you and thats okay, if you do take another step and another and another and you might move onto something new or you might feel happy with who you are

and even if you are happy with who you are that can still change, and thats also okay!

i was so happy when i identified as genderfluid and im also still super happy now that i identify as transgender

be yourself, unforgivably <3

[gum-iie]

hear me out for like 3 seconds guys

[amartianonmars]

Meme doodle dump that I put minimum effort into

[burned0utstar]

I am in so much pain but at the same time so fine.

I am doing pretty fucking good, life is great, but I still wanna kill myself.

It's so confusing and just fucking with my brain.

What do you mean I want to admit myself to the ward in one second and am totally fine the next?

Rude. Just rude.

[ooppo]

Btw for anyone who needs to hear it: thinking that people are reading your mind/your thoughts are being heard by everyone is not normal. It's a symptom of psychosis and could be linked to a psychiatric disorder. This, too, goes with hallucinations.

This may seem like a no-brainer, but to teens who don't know what symptoms look like, they may jog it off for a number of reasons. I did, too, when I was in highschool! As a freshman I was having delusions/hallucinations and I didn't tell anyone because I thought they were cringe and weird. I chalked up my hallucinations to me being "tired". People who have psychosis often don't realize that what they're experiencing IS psychosis. This goes the same with other classmates/friends/loved ones. If someone comes to you with concerning behavior (even if they are joking about it) you should take note of it.

In highschool I remember a kid talking about how he could go into the matrix and he had a whole other world to protect/do missions in. He would also go still for long periods of time randomly. I thought he was weird and didn't think much of it, but those are symptoms of schizophrenia (delusions/catatonia).

I would appreciate it if this got a reblog so it could potentially help those recognize these symptoms in either themselves or others!

I wish I could have seen a post like this when I was younger. Then I could have avoided a lot of hardships and would have gotten treatment a lot sooner

[h3lloyou]

Constantly in a loop of “whats wrong with me” and when i get any semblance of the answer i immediately doubt myself