#mood disorder

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[deathchains]

[serenityquest]

[zebulontheplanet]

I don’t talk about my mental health here much because well, this is mostly an autism page. But I think it’s good to bring awareness to all things. As some people know, I was recently sorta diagnosed with bipolar type Schizoaffective. It’s been a journey for sure. We’re still figuring out things and starting treatment. If it’s bipolar, it’s bipolar, if not, it’s another mood disorder similar to bipolar.

Hypomania has been something I have experienced multiple times but never realized was hypomania and thought it was simply ups from BPD, which I am formally diagnosed with. I never before realized that my days of being so high, weren’t BPD. However, hypomania has caused many things, and I’d like to talk about it.

Disclaimer: Hypomania is a Bipolar term. And is not something people with BPD or other mood disorders experience.

Hypomania has caused me to take on a religion I do not believe in and become obsessed with it. It’s a full on delusion. Hypomania has made it so I joined an online cult and put all my time into it. Hypomania has meant that I don’t sleep for days at a time (i sleep!! Just less than 3 hours at a time. More like naps.) I go high, do everything, do adventurous things and things I wouldn’t normally do, then I crash and sleep for a few hours, then I’m back at it again.

Hypomania is SCARY to me. It causes extreme paranoia, extreme mood swings, and extreme ups and downs in my moods.

It causes me to self harm, to hurt myself, to do things to my health that I wouldn’t in my right mind do. I won’t use my mobility aids, I’ll stop taking my medication, I’ll convince myself I’m unstoppable. I’ll walk miles even though my body can’t physically handle it. I’ll be in less chronic pain, if any, and therefore think I’m cured and on top of the world. I think I’m superior, I get shit done that I haven’t done in months and manically clean, organize, and yeah. My hypomanic episodes are not for the weak.

I get frustrated easily, I say rude things, I ruin, or almost ruin relationships with my carelessness and anger. I think of breaking up with my fiancé, even though I love them very much and would NEVER want to do that.

Hypomania is not a silly thing. I almost ruin my life EVERY SINGLE TIME. It’s hard to deal with hypomania. It’s hard to deal with me when I’m hypomanic. I’m hyper, I’m high. I’m all over the place. My heart races, and I feel like I just took a drug. I’m not myself. Me hypomanic is NOT me.

I wish more people realized that hypomania wasn’t just some silly thing, that it wasn’t something that is just silly goofy intrusive thoughts that you do. That it wasn’t just dying your hair and spending some money. (Although some people do that during hypomanic, it’s just so much more than that!!!) Hypomania is life changing. Realizing you’re hypomanic is life changing. Realizing that all your life those big highs and lows were something is life changing.

Don’t undermine hypomania. Don’t say that it’s not life ruining. Don’t say that it’s not “that bad”. It’s bad. Some people experience more calm hypomanic episodes, and I have DEFINITELY experienced more calm ones. But my hypomania is extreme most of the time. Let’s stop undermining hypomania. It’s a lot, and I wish more people realized that.

[tombfreak]

We need more positivity posts and awareness on Bipolar Disorder. Really sucks to go onto the tags and see stuff about Borderline PD instead cuz people tend to mix the disorders up

I want to see more people talking about manic episodes and how terrible they are. Talk about how you have a complete lack of judgement, absolutely no social filter, because your thoughts are racing at 1000mph and pouring out of your mouth faster than you can process. Talk about the snappy irritability and the rage because everything is overwhelming, and you can't catch yourself. Talk about how you say really uncomfortable and unpleasant things, or get into arguments, or rant/ramble/overshare for hours. Talk about all the relationships it ruins. Talk about how you start projects, spend all your money on them, stay up all night planning for them, just to drop them the next day. Talk about how you never really know when you're manic until you crash, and how awful the clean up is. Talk about the dangers, the recklessness, the risks. Talk about the poosible psychosis. Talk about how nobody understands what your condition is like. Nobody understands how intense it is, how everyone waters it down, how you can't control it even if you wanted to. Talk about how theres not much of a cure for it at all.

And talk about the depression. How it's more severe than typical depressive episodes (not in a trauma Olympics way, but for perspective). Talk about the suicide rates, and the substance abuse. Talk about how isolating and suffocating it feels. Talk about how intense it is, like there's 500lb weights on your feet dragging you down. Talk about the strength it takes to get out of bed regardless. Talk about the rejection sensitivity, the hopelessness, the disappointment. How everything feels like confirmation that nothing is worth it. Talk about how your mind is always against you. Talk about how this feeling can last months with seemingly no end in sight.

Most importantly, talk about treatment, and how recovery and managing bipolar are completely possible. Talk about having hope, and being compassionate and understanding to the ugly sides of this disorder. Talk about ways to healthily cope. Talk about how we see each others efforts, and how amazing those efforts are. Talk about the ways you can live a full, happy life regardless, and that you deserve it regardless of any issues you might have faced/caused in the midst of your episodes. Talk about forgiving yourself.

Talk more about bipolar disorder

[psychotic-tbh]

Things I’ve Learned as a Disabled Person

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You did not commit a crime simply by being mentally ill or disabled!

You are not wasting anyone’s time or energy by simply existing as a mentally ill or disabled individual!

Please surround yourselves with love, support, and positivity whenever you find the opportunity!

You deserve compassion regardless of your symptoms or experiences!

You are not a monster or an abuser for being disabled or mentally ill!

You can and will find people who love and understand you, or at least try to understand to the best of their ability.

You can and will find people who support you, regardless of what that support looks like!

You do not have to need the same types of support as others. As long as you do what is best for you, that’s all that matters.

At the same time, it’s okay to need accommodations, no matter the type!

You can always work towards coexisting with others, and I hope that you will be surrounded by those who do the same for you!

You do not have to stretch yourself thin and overextend yourself to make others happy!

It’s okay to advocate for yourself! And, if you cannot do this because of your mental illness or disability, it’s okay to allow someone with your best interest in mind to advocate for you!

While you don’t need to force it (and it probably helps more not to force it), please hold onto the hope that things will not always be at their worst!

If it helps you and isn’t hurting anyone, it is nothing to be ashamed of!

Finding support is huge! It doesn’t have to be folks in your immediate area, online support is acceptable as well! What matters is that we are uplifting and supporting each other and ourselves.

There are so many things I’ve learned as a disabled person. I hope to learn many more

Please feel free to share what you’ve learned as well, or please share if you found any of this helpful! /not forced

[silkcamus]

BPD content on Tumblr and other social media websites are a small but important reason why I refused my BPD diagnosis at 15. It cemented in my head that BPD was constant, hopeless, and destined people to lead unstable and unfulfilling lives.

I want to see representations of people with BPD who have loving parents/friends/community. Representations of people with BPD who can lead productive and healthy lives.

I am not perfect in this aspect, but I think a small part of the struggle is having NO role models to show me that I can still have a productive day at work/school despite my big emotions and mood swings.

[louisentheirbees]

just a girl and her mood disorder against the world

[madpunks]

feel free to leave a reply or reply in tags/reblogs, i know there are way more experiences than these 12 but i'm extremely curious because i have repeatedly been told that SSRIs are not good for bipolar people but I see that we get prescribed them all the time, anyway. please feel free to boost this, i want to hear from other bipolar folks.

[feelingsickagain]

every time i see a post with #bpd im like,,,man we really are all one in the same miserable creature aren't we?

[aliens-and-the-earth]

Bipolar flags for bipolar people!! (Including people who are questioning or adjacent)

We were requested by our system friend who was questioning bipolar to make some nice flags for them, so yes we ourselves do not have bipolar however this was done at the request of a potentially bipolar person for anyone who is like iffy on using flags that didn’t have the approval of a bp person (idk how to word it)

Top left flag is for Bipolar I

Top right flag is for questioning or adjacent Bipolar I

Bottom left flag is for Bipolar II

Bottom right flag is for questioning or adjacent Bipolar II

(We don’t know how to do image IDs so if someone else could that would be awesome!!) Non symbol flags will be posted later

Absolutely no DNI for these flags as we want them to be accessible to as many people as possible!

If anyone wants us to make an alternative dimmer version just ask!

[hbeepoetry]

End of the Carnival Ride in my Past, Present, and Future Life

[thatnerdio]

"Y'know, I don't think I rreeaalllyy count as disabled," I say as I take over 5 pills a day just to function

[local-lover-boy]

I am so close to throwing a fit istfg

[shjiyemis]

A page full of self portraits and agitation.

[faramirsonofgondor]

do y’all ever reminisce on the past and just go “damn i was really batshit crazy then” and proceed to remain batshit crazy or no.