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[h3lloyou]

drop kicking this here because its my favorite feelings wheel and i have to scroll through like 5 images of the same 15 shitty color wheels that dont help me just to get to this one

[airotciv83]

We stopped by the book fair at Madeline’s school today. She’s pretty excited about a new Pete the Cat book and two books about unicorns. #bookfair #madelineroselouisedenney #maddygoestoprek https://www.instagram.com/p/BpDBIr-hl1q/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1qbkrfyimwfgu

[h3lloyou]

Original photo by livingwithjuliette on instagram

[h3lloyou]

needing to have a very explicit way of how your beloved will never leave you while also being severely triggered into a self sabotaging downward spiral by being told “i will never leave you. I promise” is the tragicomedy duo of the century

[h3lloyou]

i wanna be loved… i wanna be popular…

why is it that by the end of the day im always wanting to end it all

I wish i didnt have to wait for good things to happen to me

and I wish i could appreciate when they do happen instead of thinking about the bad things that will come after it

[h3lloyou]

i dont care about you anymore. I dont know if i keep telling myself that to convince myself its true, or to remind myself not to look for you again.

[h3lloyou]

truly, how stupid am i? Mourning a relationship i knew could never work out from the beginning. The emptiness i feel in my heart without your presence contradicts the way i think of you. I can help feeling this intense switch of love and hate, with no in between. I yearn for you to come back, but if you did, i would take every chance i could get to hurt you the way you hurt me.

[h3lloyou]

how fuckin heartless do you have to be in order to block me with no incentive to tell me about not wanting to contact me anymore? What a fucking hypocrite you are to tell me how you hate it when people ghost you with no warning, and then have the absolute obnoxious audacity to do that shit to ME? Did everything between us mean NOTHING TO YOU? HOW FUCKING DARE YOU TAKE ME FOR GRANTED.

[h3lloyou]

. Angél de la Guarda

. lord,

. these days are degrading

. though the foods delectable,

. watering my mouth, so dearly.

. you look up, so longingly for a taste

. that i can't offer you,

. for even i do not have it.

. i plead for my life,

. beg for my meal at the foot of the table

. look away in shame,

. guilt. i have nothing to say to you

. even with your attempts of my attention,

. your blood, at the crux, pulled down

. onto the wine cabinets across me.

. "ni de noche, de ni dia,"

. i reach for your portrait,

. broke glass of wine pools at my feet,

. i kiss your hands goodnight,

. and say my final words.

. amen. It's been years.