#bipolar thoughts
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my head hurts. i miss the old me, the hopeful one. the one that had the ambition and the energy. the one that didn’t feel so lonely and sad all the time.
i hate this new me.
#mentally tired#actually sad#depressing life#depressing shit#i'm sad#kinda depressing#actually bipolar#actually bpd#actually borderline#bipolar thoughts#bipolar things#bipolor#bipolar disorder#bipolardepression#bipolar 1#bipolar mania#bpd favorite person#bpd vent#bpd feels#bpd thoughts#bpd problems#bpd splitting#bpd#borderline personality disorder#borderline thoughts
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My princey boi
#cat of tumblr#cute cats#cats of tumblr#cat#kitty#kitty cat#actually schizospec#mental health#mental illness#abilify#schizophrenia#seroquel#bi polar 1#bipolar disorder#bipolar thoughts#bi polar#actually schizophrenic#actually bipolar#actually mentally ill#schizophrenic#schizoaffective#schizo spectrum#schizospec#schizo
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nichts fühlt sich real an, wenn ich’s nicht mit dir teile
#plottwistedstory#eigenes#poesie#zitate#dereality#bipolar diaries#bipolar thoughts#bipolare störung#mentalheathawareness
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being active on tumblr again feels like running back to an ex that u know is only gonna fuck you up more
#that being said i missed it here#mental illness#actually bipolar#actually bpd#bpd thoughts#bipolar thoughts#bipolar 1#bipolar 2#@nor3×14#@nor3xia#shblur#shblrr#drugs cw#drugblr#ana blr
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#I decided to post this bc I thought others might relate to what I was trying to do#bipolar#bipolar vent#vent art#artists on tumblr#random art#i draw sometimes#sorry for being depressing#bipolar things#bipolar thoughts#bipolar type 1#bipolar type 2
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Just comfort me
#bipolar disorder#bpd#bipolar 2#mental health#bpd problems#bipolar thoughts#mental illness#tired#actually bipolar#comfort
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im manic but like in a depression way
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Sometimes I wonder if the hypomania is worth the crash- or if the crash is just punishment for daring to feel alive for a moment
#actually bipolar#mental illness#bipolar 2#bipolar thoughts#mental health#how dare i#feel alive#depression
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It’s true, I feel like a monster sometimes. I really do. Look at how I hurt people. Look at what I do.
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Life with A Mental Health Disability Leave Mother. I go back to work Halloween. It’s been almost 5 months and I’ve needed every second.
#therapy#emdr therapy#ifs#mental health awareness#mental health#bpd feels#bipolar2#actually apd#actually ppd#actually bipolar#bipolarlife#bpd vent#healing#bpd thoughts#bipolar thoughts#spilled thoughts#crystal healing
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suic1de has been heavy on my heart lately
#mentally tired#mentally drained#mentally exhausted#actually mentally ill#mentally unstable#mentally fucked#mental illness#mental health#actually sad#depressing life#depressing shit#i'm sad#kinda depressing#actually bipolar#actually bpd#actually borderline#borderline personality disorder#bpd favorite person#bpd vent#bpd feels#bpd thoughts#bpd problems#bpd splitting#bipolar things#bipolar thoughts#bipolor#sorry for being depressing#bpd#tw depressing stuff#my inner demons
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Foggy morning - making me feel nostalgic
#foggy aesthetic#foggy#fog#actually schizospec#mental health#mental illness#abilify#schizophrenia#seroquel#bi polar 1#bipolar disorder#bipolar thoughts#bi polar#schizophrenic#schizo spectrum#schizoaffective#actually schizophrenic#schizospec#winter#fall aesthetic#fall autumn#autumn#autumn vibes
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I wish i could get off my meds.
My mind beats to the same rhythm as my heart. It says: do-it, do-it, do-it. For a glimpse of a moment i saw what it feels like to become one with my art.
I'm not really good at it, but still, at some point, me and the canvas became two halves of a single being, and i knew i could be really good at it. It was incredible. I experienced it with writing many times before, but not with anything else.
I desire to create paintings that don't make any sense. I wish i could dedicate my life to it, to get better at it, i want to give myself away in colours and words because this way, i can become infinite.
I want that kind of orgasmic creativity that will make me lose control.
Now when I know what it's like to be out there, what i could achieve, i don't want to get back to my restrains. I didn't even stop using meds, and i can just imagine what it would look like if i did. What kind of art i would be able to make.
My doctor calls it destabilized, i call it awake.
It kinda makes me wonder what my creativity is made of, if it can be completely killed with some additional anipsychotics. Just a symptom? Maybe.
This is the only life i will get. Am i wasting my true potential by ignoring my call? By choosing the stable life? I have no idea, but getting off my meds is just a wishful thinking. Maybe in another world, i will decide to do it. But for the sake of me and everyone around me, it won't be this one.
I'm just not sure which one is worse. The madness? Or its loss?
#bipolar disorder#bipolar mania#bipolar#bipolar thoughts#mania#manic episode#manic depression#painting#mental health#creativity
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Wenn mir kalt ist, dann ist da nichts, was heiß genug sein könnte um mich zu wärmen & wenn mir warm ist, dann kann ich mir kein Eis kalt genug vorstellen um mich zu kühlen.
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#bipolar diaries#bipolare störung#bipolar thoughts#plottwistedstory#mentalheathawareness#bpd mood#mood swings
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Never get attached!
Oopsie too late but guess what? I'll live! And you will too. Fuck em!!!!!!
#positive thoughts#positive bipolar thoughts#don't get attached#it'll be alright#bipolar thoughts#actually bipolar
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Just forget it, not like I was important anyways
#bipolar disorder#bpd#bipolar 2#mental health#bpd problems#bipolar thoughts#mental illness#actually bipolar#when you cry yourself out
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