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I want to be understood so badly, but the second someone gets too close, I rewrite myself just to keep them guessing

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Just got out of therapy. After listening to my chaos and trauma dumping for an hour, I’m pretty sure my therapist is Googling ‘how to unhear things’

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Therapy today. Time to unload my existential dread while my therapist calculates how long they can fake a supportive smile before they crack

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The only constant in my life is that I'll either love you too much or not enough, and I can't decide which is worse

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My soul is a revolving door of faces I’ve loved too much and lost too quickly. I wonder if anyone regrets walking out or if I’m just the disaster they survived

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Loving me is an act of self-destruction, and I’m selfish enough to let you try

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Some people collect comic books. I collect reasons to feel completely worthless

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I don't know who I am, so I try to become who you want me to be-and I lose myself a little more every time

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So, I created a space for anyone who is struggling with OCD, intrusive thoughts and magical thinking. It’s brand new and I’ll be posting there daily and will be available to answer any questions or offer support. If you are struggling please feel free to join even if you’re not diagnosed yet.

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Every ‘I love you’ feels like a promise that I’ll ruin you, and every ‘I can’t do this anymore’ feels like proof I was right all along

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I split the world into black and white, but no one warned me that I’d end up being the biggest shade of gray

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I am a masterpiece of contradictions: too much and not enough, fragile and fierce, desperate for love but terrified of it

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There’s a version of me in the highs who feels like a stranger but wears my face better than I ever could

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I just saw my psychiatrist today. They wanted to know how I’m managing and winced when I said, ‘I’m like a chaos goblin with a PhD in overthinking.’ Then they took notes like they were planning to add it to their resume. Sorry, doc, this one’s all mine

* I’m fairly certain this may be why all of my meds were upped today..

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Today’s adventure: dragging my anxious, panicky, hypomanic, agoraphobic self to my psychiatrist like I’m auditioning for Survivor: Mental Health Edition. Spoiler: I’m losing