#THESE HORRIBLE FEELINGS PERSIST

[meat-huge-pain-endless]

peeling my skin off and tearing my hair out and screaming and crying and vomiting and walking into traffic and

[sleepy-the-loz-enthusiast]

Fluffvember Day 3:

Nature walk

This isn't the usual little pencil sketch, but I sort of forgot about this at the last minute- so enjoy a little digital doodle with a photo I took in the background.

I hope you like the little Minish!Four and Fairy!Hyrule !!

[rebeccasbiscuits]

I’m thinking so many thoughts after that episode, which was wonderful and hilarious, but something I’m very much thinking about is where someone on twitter pointed out the contrast between Rupert going to the club every single day for six weeks to wear Rebecca down vs Ted coming to her office every day for biscuits and genuinely wanting to get to know her. I’m especially thinking about how this adds some more context to Rebecca’s point of view on that as well. We see her disparagingly calling him ‘relentless, and nice’, and her desire for her love of the biscuits to not make her dependent on him providing her with something.

The moment I’m thinking about most is the one at the end of episode 5, where Ted storms in after finding out she sent Jamie away. The biscuit reveal at the end has always felt crucial in this way, but even more so in this context. Her experience has been with the relentless interest and charm until the other person pulled back the layer of charm and showed that this charming nature wasn’t genuine, and in a way I think here, as Ted yells at her, it lets her feel a bit vindicated, or at least secure, in her belief, or lack of belief, in the nature of other people. But then Ted continues the biscuits, and the extension of kindness they represent, no matter how angry he is, and not only that but reveals he has been (without having told her) baking the biscuits himself. His only deceit was hiding an extra kindness he didn't even seek self serving credit for, despite knowing how much she liked the biscuits. Obviously this works so interestingly as another anti-Rupert parallel in a Ted/Rebecca sense, but I love it even just generally in the context of how it’s visible that this is what shakes Rebecca in that scene, because it shakes the view she has of how people treat people after her abusive marriage and isolation, which is allowing her to go on with the plan that will hurt so many of them. It disarms her because even when she has done something bad, and Ted is expressing legitimate annoyance about it, he will not stop extending this relentless kindness and generosity to her, even when he has not got what he wanted, the way she experienced Rupert doing once he had got what he wanted. Ted’s not only relentless, not only nice, he’s also sincere.

[hanzajesthanza]

geralt is also a most real depiction of good quality fatherhood and great girldad representation because EVEN THOUGH witchers don’t even experience aging at the same rate as non-GMO humans, EVEN THOUGH it would be “biologically impossible,”

geralt having had been raising a pre-teen girl for maybe a few months to a year already “gave the impression of having aged,” his “face slashed by wrinkles.” the emotional toll on this man from raising she-devil ciri

and this is only the very beginning of the saga. BEFORE everything goes to shit. the wrinkles have set in

[mitamicah]

As a sort of sequel to this (and hoping that sharing my silly ideas will cheer me up) here's what I'll take with me to the Sweden concerts:

My "beautiful" sign :'D (Is it too much?? I am not sure 😅)

90+ Malmö stickers (and my post it blog for Gothenborg although not shown here):

Gifts for the boys!! (In the Minion pencil case I bought in Helsinki none the less :3):

Bunny ears!!! (screamed Kris to me :'D)

And the rest of the keychains (now with Swedish prices as well) :3

[neverbeforeandneversince]

I need to vent

[volfoss]

Pretty happy to get 25% thru this book tonight tbh! Hoping to get 50-60% thru tomorrow if all goes well :)

[roman-o-cheese]

Happy “panic attack at the thought of doing anything” season guys!!!🎉🎉🎉

[that-crippling-urge-to-run]

I imagine freedom as a sort of foreign concept sometimes and not something I can gain.

It is as simple as running away, disappearing through the cracks of society. It is not having a home beneath a wildfire of plagues.

If freedom was a drink, it would be tea. All natural and sour and bitter but unaltered and delicious.

I think freedom would taste like dandelion tea, bitter and hard to manage but delicious yet. I think it is sweeter than the current acorn.

It would be drinking dandelion tea, looking to the sky.

It would be wonderful, for everyday to be started with a sky not diluted with light pollution or smog. To see the sun in its fullest, purest form instead of seeing it with a layer of filth over it.

It would be lovely, to see the sky through the canopy.

It can be beautiful, to sleep in trees. Cold, lightless nights gentled by the sound of the night, and broken by an early dawn. It would be beautiful, to be full of twigs and leaves instead of concrete and rebar.

When I look at the forests, I do not see a beautiful landscape, I see home.

I am rational, I will not run but I know in my narrow that the moment I have no obligations to society anymore I will leave, and I will return for only three things.

One day I will be in a tree and that is enough for now.

[starbuck]

my executive dysfunction is absolute SHIT right now. i feel like i’ve lost the ability to do fucking everything. i’m so desperate that i finally googled what can be done about it and google helpfully informed me that i might have carbon monoxide poisoning

[birdy-bird27]

During class today we were discussing once more Alaska Native history and I think about the absolute tragedy of so many families and people being displaced from their homes. Being ransacked and people being dehumanized. I think about how that is actively being done right now in Palestine and it breaks my heart constantly. The same thing that happened to my own people is happening once more. Nearly a year now they have to face the absolute horrors and constantly pushed out of their lands.

There are so many go funds me right now dozens that need funding, but one that I want to link here the boy Named Muhammad who is nicknamed Uncle Tito who is currently in the northern Gaza Strip.

I found his tik tok one day and He performs for the children there to bring hope and some much needed moments of happiness to them. I find that his work he is doing is absolutely important. Key to resistance is joy despite everything and he is bringing that to the kids. I really wanted to highlight him and his own fundraiser.

If anyone could donate anything it can make a difference in his and his families life.

[databent]

my mystery illness hurting me -_-

[lynxgirlpaws]

[winged-void]

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[can-of-w0rmz]

It has been FIVE DAYS of having gone from “constant mild cold symptoms” to “I’m-struggling-to-get-out-of-bed-and-haven’t-updated-my-journal-in-days” sickness and I’ve decided denial is the best way to go so from this moment forward I’m deluding myself into thinking I’ll be completely better tomorrow and hoping I don’t Victor-Frankenstein-ify my ass and pass out in the middle of my English classroom because I was too stubborn to just wait until I was actually better

[sadpurpleblood]

i hate to say it especially since i deeply care about them but im not beating the means-to-an-end allegations.