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roman-o-cheese · 5 days ago

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Happy “panic attack at the thought of doing anything” season guys!!!🎉🎉🎉

#time change hits and BOOM everything is paralyzing and terrifying!!#it’s so fun!!#I’ll make sure I don’t push people away this year #that’ll make things worse #but UUUUUGH OMFG #Annoying #i feel very useless whenever I’m like this #and i constantly seek validation to prove to myself something i don’t know #I think I’m trying to prove that even like this I’m not completely useless #that people care even when im this pathetic #it’s annoying because I only started to feel better in like August?#getting broken up with definitely didn’t help but I hope this feeling doesn’t last that long again #bc it drives me crazy #yap yappity yap #I am so annoying!!! why do people like me!!! why can’t I just be normal!!! I wish I could be useful!!!#no one should look up to me or admire me like they do #I’m barely holding myself together why do people think highly of me #im pretty pathetic #but it’s fine I’ll be okay #there are people who love me a lot #even if I tell myself they shouldn’t they will love me anyway #things will be okay again. I don’t need to be strong I just need to push through #maybe there’s strength in that or maybe I’m just trying to make myself feel better #i just don’t know what to do with myself when doing anything brings that horrible weight on my chest #but I’ll persist. I always do and I will do so again

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chalkrub · 17 days ago

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dinosaur in a lab coat - would you trust her with operating the centrifuge

#my art #oc #mockley #anthro #furry #dinosaur #i like the headshot especially so i'm including it too #unintentional redraw of the mockley ref from back in may. this is the natural mockley pose i guess - this is her official render #so i included the symbolism thing again with some slight edits #grhaggh i love her i'm ripping her to pieces with my mind.....my doddery old bint #okay i've got a lot to do tonight. why i did this today of all days i don't know but for people who want art from me #keep yer eyes peeled #also i'm gonna also use this for oc-tober. lol #for the monster prompt. mockley's a monster...literally to us and more metaphorically in her universe #also for ages i was trying to make mockley's species a dinosaur but like evolved. different and weirder #now i'm like embracing full dinosaur i'm too tired to make up a new species i can't....i surrender

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ricky-mortis · 26 days ago

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Hatchetfield Doodles!

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 3 months ago

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Ghouls night out

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #Scopophobia #Don't be mean Lan Wangji - the dead girl aesthetic is a curated one. Support women's rights to look dead!#I have been waiting for this scene for ages...the ghost girl entourage is such a good look for WWX.#And by gods does the audio drama actually do something interesting with one of them.#Namely that we actually get to see WWX talk with them and learn about who they were and what they left behind.#I love necromancer characters but it's way too common for them to be like “Go! Ghost no.145!” like they're a pokemon #and not...you know...someone who had a whole life that they left behind.#I love me a necromancer who has an awareness to whose soul/body they are using. It adds a lot of flavour!#MDZS is a little hit or miss with this. I think the fans do a lot of the work with making Mo Xuanyu a bigger character.#Yi City has this in spades. Even though we don't individually get character backstories #We get many painful reminders about how these 'corpses' were people.#We also get a few lines about how WWX used whatever corpses he could get his hands on (including grandparents - Woof!)#MDZS often (but not always) likes to remind us that every sacrifice and every ghost was a person.#It is so close to nailing the landing regarding the deconstruction of the necromancer character.#Anyhow. You may have noticed the uptick in quality in the last two comics. Rule of three means next one is going to be a treat B*)#See you all very soon!

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beddybites · 3 months ago

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please don't ever get rid of that smile i love so much

#demon slayer #kny #shinobu kocho #kanae kocho #kocho sisters #shinobu kny #kanae kny #artbites #art #artists on tumblr #digital art #demon slayer fanart #kny fanart #this one goes out to the people who asked me to draw kanae #i think abuot them a lot #i understand shinobu. i do #also if u recognize the pose its from an old sketch i did!#i love that sketch so i wanted to do smth w it!

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mythalism · 3 months ago

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solas: uwuuu you disrupted my ritual and trapped me!!! now im stuck here and it’s all your fault wahhh poor little old me stuck in the fade in a prison that i designed myself within my realm that i created where im supremely powerful and can “casually reshape reality” with a thought and i have an anchor that lets me open rifts physically in and out of here BUT NOW IM TRAPPED!!!!! 🥺🥺😣😣😰😰

meanwhile solas:

#people keep getting defensive of him on my other post about this as if they are interpreting me saying this as criticism????#which is cray bc I adore this man #i literally love that he is an untrustworthy manipulative cunning brilliant strategist and trickster #BUT NO MATTER HOW SOFT AND ROMANTIC WE HAVE SEEN HIM BE #WE HAVE TO REMEMBER #HE IS STILL AN UNTRUSTWORTHY MANIPULATIVE CUNNING TRICKSTER STRATEGIST #WHO EFFORTLESSLY WON 4D MIND CHESS WITH A QUNARI SUPER SPY #personally i cannot wait to be bamboozled by him #anyway this was prompted by listening to the podcast #where he is also being suspiciously incompetent with magic rituals in a way that just does not make sense….#idk what he’s up to but i know he’s up to something #corseque has a lot of great posts on trickster mythology and why we should be suspicious of him being trapped #highly recommend #anyway I’m watching ur ass solas….#solas #da:v #dragon age #dragon age the veilguard #solas dragon age #dragon age the veilguard spoilers #dav spoilers #da:v spoilers

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tuttle-did-it · 3 months ago

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You know, it's genuinely sad to me that aging favourite character actors no longer have any fun murder-mystery tv shows to guest-star as murders on.

#murder she wrote #matlock #diagnosis murder #father dowling mysteries #agatha christie’s poirot #columbo #quincy ME #ironside #perry mason #there are a few others #yes i know there are murder mystery shows on now #but i'm talking specifically about the silly old fashioned ones that have guest stars as murders who used to be quite famous #and yes I know they have rebooted several of these buy none of them are watchable #but that is a whole lot of white people #still fun shows tho that had fun guest stars #yes yes I’ve seen the hallmark movies they are awful and usually don’t have good guest stars #and whilst i love these shows there are way too many white people #I just wanna see old people on tv drinking tea or eating chilli and chasing after murderers.#Perry mason was actually quite young. I want someone over 50 or 60 at least.#and give me more older people with disabilities. I wanna see canes and wheelchairs.#yes the nun in father dowling played a nun in #sister act #but Perry mason was brought back when he was older so he still counts.#yes I’ve seen poker face and it’s good. but I want older people on my screen.

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corpsentry · 4 months ago

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a glass sun 1/2

#my art #my stuff #this is really fucking long so im gonna have to break it up into multiple reblogs #(howling) WAUGHHHHHHH #i love aishang by xiaoshiguniang #i love to implicate my alma mater in my art about being gay in the shittiest most conservative corner of singaporean society #by some terrible trick of fate i ended up in the conservative chinese christian cishet circuit from primary school to end of hs #obviously i am not most of these things but there i was. Depressed #and there i was after that at Liberal Arts College. the 4 years i spent there were a clusterfuck #but like a good and outrageous and lively clusterfuck #and i graduated in may this year and when i came back it was for the first time in 10 months. it was like. what da hell #like i love being here in specific ways but there is also the pain of being seen as something you're not constantly #can i blame them? i ask myself this every day. for most of my ex classmates and relatives i Am the only not cis person they know #idk my lottery number was bad this corner of society really is that bad #and so its like. idk dawg anyway i aint offering solutions but u get it like it fucks with your head to be misgendered either which way 24/#but to leave them behind would be to leave the only people who knew me for the first 19 years behind. and thats a lot of my life #i am 23!!!!!! ough #anyway. whatever. if u liked it i have a ko-fi #reblogos appreciated

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slfcare · 28 days ago

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the most difficult thing about growing as a person socially, as in getting out of your shell and noticing that you are, is that there will still be times when it doesn’t feel like you’ve grown at all! times when you can’t really connect with anyone around you, times when you fail to enter into an existing conversation, times when you say the wrong thing (or nothing at all when in hindsight you probably should’ve). but that’s also kind of the best thing, because that’s the thing that helps you realize that sometimes, it’s not you or your lack of skills or any shortcoming. sometimes certain environments just aren’t for you and certain people aren’t your people, and that’s okay. that’s human. it’s okay to not feel the progress you have made all the time.

#and that goes for every type of growth #backstory of this post:#after I came back after a few months of doing my international internship I felt so much more confident #it was easier making friends and walking up to people #i took more chances #and generally just heard it a lot from those around me who kept telling me how much i’d changed #this was further supported by my first office job that went pretty well #but then came my grad internship. and while i love the work and have met some great people I noticed it was difficult again #there was one office lunch where no one spoke to me at all! it was my first week and I didn’t know what to say #if i should even say anything #we were all sitting at the same table #not one person even glanced my way #it made me doubt myself; i was doing so well before #was that even real? why can’t I just speak up? this is not the way to connect with people #especially in my first week!#but you know what #i was still doing well. i just had to factor in the fact that these were all middle aged people talking about reality shows i didn’t watch #and bikes i knew nothing about #as well as people who knew i was the new intern yet didn’t speak to me at all even though I’d introduced myself to them all individually #and even so #people I couldn’t really talk to about MY interests outside of work either #my point being:#it’s okay to not feel a connection with everyone you meet #it’s okay to fall back into old habits even though you’ve developed new ones #it will never unravel the process you’ve made and the connections you’ve built #you’re doing fine #after this internship I will surround myself with people who reaffirm that belief #growth in the self #self love #positivity

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riumeri · 1 year ago

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"Huh? You got a weird email from me yesterday? U-um, yeah, about that... My account was hacked, so you can just ignore it."

#mob psycho 100 #mp100 #kageyama ritsu #reigen arataka #hanazawa teruki #comic #teruritsu #riteru #(if you squint)#i struggled A LOT with this comic for the past several months so i'm happy it's finally done!!!#inspired by a chain email my friend sent me in 2010 #and also i'm just a huge fan of ritsu being Dramatic.#(also also sneaking in teruritsu crumbs for myself and like. the 5 other people who love this rarepair lmao)

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inkskinned · 2 years ago

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something bad happened to you, and you died, and you came back wrong.

not wrong all the way. the little ways. you forget important dates, stopped going out with friends. it's harder to make you smile. you're apathetic towards things you used to love, afraid of places you used to go to cheer up. quieter. flinching. different.

you came back for love. you're still here for love. what pulled you back was a brightness so loud that even death couldn't outshout it. death heard the call and smiled at you and said okay. go home. somebody is waiting for you.

but you came back different. like lot's wife; you've turned into salt. you used to chirp through life in hops and skips; but now you lose skin just standing up. you have to move slower, skimming across this world without-touching-it. most things feel dull - until they're suddenly all-too-much. life, and being alive just rushes up and over you and you get hopelessly crushed.

you try to explain it to them: it is ugly, but this is what you are, now. the huge golden hoop of your halo now a little bronze ring. you are still watering your plants and wearing the same clothes. after all, you worked hard to come home. this life; so odd and off-color, now that you are wrong.

but they waited for you - it's just that they wanted the "you" that happened before this. the "you" that could sing in the show and hug people tight and look at a blade without breaking down to cry. the you with a smile in pictures. god, holyshit, it's like looking at a completely different person, isn't it. that other-you; the one they actually wanted.

you are the consolation prize. you are the body that forgot the ghost. you are the memory of the bad thing, and the death after; like you are wearing that memory as a banner. you are a fragment, an assembly. simulacrum. you don't make eye contact in mirrors, afraid the light will glance off and your true nature will flash back at you.

you hear them talk about it in their hushed, desperate whispers. sometimes they even admit it to your face; harsh and violent, acid thrown at christmas dinner. god, can you just fucking be normal again. you do not remember what normal is. you had to climb so far to get back here; you are far too exhausted. you want to open the glass door of your heart and show all the gears. can you help resolve whatever got messed up?

you try so, so hard. you came back for them. because you believed they would love you, even when you were so horribly broken. because you believed they would be patient. because you believed unconditional meant "without exception." you cannot do things the same way. you just get tired too quickly these days.

you want to put them on a couch and pour them the tea with hands that shake more than they remember. you want to line them up and draw them a map of where you have had to wander. you want to show every bruise in a backsplash; the little helpless ant of your soul carrying all that weight, over and over. you want to say: yes! it is different! but i did it for love!

you want to say: "i'm not the same, but i'm yours and i'm here. can that be enough?"

#this is very obviously about my battle with #ptsd #but i think it's also like a pretty apt metaphor for a lot of things like setting boundaries or going to therapy or choosing recovery #i was thinking about the 'comes back wrong' trope and i was like. oh no i have feelings about this bc i have mental illness #and once i stopped masking - i was WRONG. i was different #here's the good news: i am now INNUNDATED with love. fucking swimming in it. excelling at it. the people who stayed #learned my new self. my new different body and how i am different but i am trying. they have held me so tightly #and my life no longer feels quiet. it is not based in my suffering. it feels like i have been growing a tree in my chest #and now it is flowering.#it is so lovely to be surrounded by people who have said - oh! you cut off so many branches i was worried you weren't the same. but now...#... this is just a new you. and i love you. and i love that you're different and happy.#(but yeah also im nb so i was absolutely influenced by Trans things)

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ariadne-mouse · 6 days ago

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god Arcane S2 is so good. I love not knowing any of the source material, because I'm just consuming the story as it is - with absolutely exquisite visuals and beautifully orchestrated emotional arcs. The ending had me legit crying and loved every moment of it.

#there is incredible character work throughout but #it struck me multiple times while watching the variety and depth and interest of all the female characters in particular #as something that it is easy for a show to wobble on #but not here like truly bechdel test WHOMST #this show is about messy rich complicated *people*#and i really love the choices they made with the animation in a lot of places - like who says you need to have one style all the way throug #arcane #arcane spoilers #arcane season 2 #arcane s2 #op

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jomeimei421 · 7 months ago

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Felt a bit nostalgic watching RT shut down…Here are the og faves again for old times sake 💙

#rvb #agent washington #agent Carolina #lavernius tucker #michael j caboose #epsilon #my art rvb #ahhh a lot of feelings…of course I stepped away from rt as a company a long time ago #but RvB is special to me!! it was my first fandom experience ever #and the community here on tumblr specifically was so instrumental to me growing up #I really could not have asked for a better community of artists and writers to grow up in. I know it sounds like platitudes when I say #that everyone was super nice and talented but REALLY. People were so kind to me and somehow I became well known despite #my art and writing and me in general still being immature and hashtag cringe #I found my creative legs and #people would respond to my stuff with walls and walls of support in the tags and we would do exchanges and events every year #I made my first lyric comic and it’s still doing extremely well on YouTube even today!! my dad who passed away recently always loved it #and my favorite RvB writer came out of hibernation to write me a bunch of text wall asks about it #I’ve never had another fandom experience quite like RvB #I still keep in touch with many of my friends from that time period even though we’ve all moved on the other things #these guys will always always have a place in my heart #so long reds and blues….

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heartorbit · 2 days ago

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make a wish! 🍃

happy 1st anniversary, in stars and time 🤍

#ok hold on #isat #in stars and time #siffrin #isat siffrin #Okay. WAAAAH WAUUUUUGHWAYUUAU T_T.. HAPPY BIRTHDYS IN STARS ANDB TIMEEEE #i need that FAWKING ARTBOOOOOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#idk where else to get sappy about it but tmblr tags are probably the best spot i'll get. isat is very dear to me ..#i played it when i was going through a lot of terrible grief and it really hit home for me #and as i still navigate this terrible grief it gives me a reminder that there are people out there feeling just like me #and even peolle who might not understand still care and love and cherish you. and youre loved way beyond what you really know #the art of losing isnt hard to master .. etc etc #also its nice to see a character who cant remember basic shit all the time. my personal siffrinism #siffrin is like the kim dokja of your computer. The ones who know know.#sniffle. thanks isat. thanks dev.

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yujateaandpi · 2 months ago

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Instagram comments:

can’t you make these faster— lol I don’t want to watch the show can someone explain everything to me— *really unhinged rude comment*— first— *completely off topic comment that’s clearly an ad*— umm not to hate but why does he have six fingers lol— I don’t get it *followed by the most lack of comprehension explanation*

Tumblr comments:

Take your time OP! Drink water! :) — *just the sweetest nicest most thoughtful analysis*— *Really clever question/ theory*— what’s your favorite food? :3 — *Very politely worded repost request* — *cool shared detail about the show’s lore* — *legit suggestions for making the story more accessible*— Make sure to take breaks! :)

This is why you guys are my forever primary audience.

#I just stopped reading Instagram comments. Better for the soul that way #my eye started twitching at some of them #don’t get me wrong I do get lots of lovely comments on Instagram too. There’s just a lot to sift through.#I also don’t get people who throw temper tantrums for not understanding the story but say that they never watched the show. Bestie??#yujateaasks #thirtymoreyearsau

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andy-clutterbuck · 9 months ago

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The Ones Who Live - 1x01 - Years

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