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i’m thinking about Lake superior…… seeing that shit was literally crazy
#I don’t think my brain understands it#ugh specifically Lake superior in Duluth#I flew outout to see mcr (as well as a friend I hadnt seen in three years)#and they took me to basically like all of the lighthouses#and it was just so surreal#its vast and it feels like it will never end#but it does#hi canada!#a friend was telling me a story how he knows a kayak guide who takes people put on lake superior#And people regularly get lost and blown out into the middle and end up in Canada#and i walked pretty far out on a catwalk to one of the lighthouses on superior and the wind itself?#the thought of being blown in the water and the currents taking me
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Instead of writing a fanfic like a normal person this oneshot turned into two separate, contextless things,
#sorry it’s how my brain works (sometimes can only see things in terms of tv scene-)#tumblr exclusive video fancy…#dcmk#my art#(quietly coughing and spluttering) OK alright I can feel the creative brain explosion slowing down. geez#coughs.#nyways. weird that there hasn’t really been a main case where poison is involved in a certain way#If I watch my own scribbled boards for too long im gonna get too embarrassed to post. Send post#Subarus hair is still infuriating by the way like take that off your normal hair is easier. The beanie is easier#you like Have to have the side corners on this haircut or it doesn’t look right#anyways. shiho ptsd moments I think she kind of gets irritated that shinichi doesn’t react the same so when he does she gets like#weirded out and vindicated and a little protective. Like woah wait. Love that you understand me rn don’t like that you feel bad I am going…#to…………. ssssssssssit here about it…………………………….. uhhhh. do you want. a rubix cube to get your mind off it#I don’t want to talk about my feelings I just want you to get it. you don’t wanna talk about your feelings either which is……………. Hmmmmmm#I like her. love of my life miyano shiho#masumi sera#conan edogawa#ai haibara#akai shuichi#let conan swear. HE SWEARS A LOT BUT LET HIM SWEAR IN ENGLISH I KNOW HE KNOWS THEM#man needs his emotional support akai family they like him#rigorous trials to being approved by the akai matriarch but everyone else likes him already and have already picked him up multiple times#and shuichi would let him swear
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I really like your drawing of httyd Hiccup and Toothless ! They are so adorable that I can enjoy watch it all day, if possible, I want to see more interaction between them!
The boys :)
#I don’t think anyone will ever understand the amount of love I have for gift of the night fury#that fucking short#it changed me#my brain chemistry is altered#httyd#how to train your dragon#hiccup haddock#hiccup#httyd hiccup#art#digital art#my art#hiccup how to train your dragon#hiccup httyd#toothless httyd#httyd toothless#hiccup and toothless#toothless#how to train your dragon hiccup#gift of the night fury#gotnf#httyd art#my artwork#artist#artists on tumblr#artwork
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Demise and ghirahim remind me of rose quartz and pearl from Steven universe
DO IT FOR HIM…..
#I cannot disagree anon#there are a couple.. themes that rose/pearl gets into that I don’t think fit them and I would not like to explore with ghirademi but#the vibes are simply immaculate#I don’t know if I could explain what I mean. my brain is fried. but I hope you all understand#the legend of zelda#skyward sword#ghirahim#ghirademi#demise#crossover#Steven universe#also I’m so sorry to the su tag for putting this bullshit on your feed but hi#I must tag appropriately#ask#anon
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Half questioning my memory of the post s4 era, half side eying a certain character, so correct me if I’m wrong, but I don’t think there was ever a time when the Buddie fandom fully took the single “Evan” from the season 4 finale as Eddie receiving “Evan” privileges from then on. From my recollection, fics stayed mostly consistent with their uses of “Evan” by Eddie, perhaps just with an emphasis on important moments (love confessions, Christopher’s adoption papers, wedding vows, NDEs, etc.) after the finale. And I had to stop myself from wondering why that is because I know why. We all know. Because nobody wanted to use “Evan” in fics when Buck had just told his parents that people who know him call him Buck. So Buddie fandom heard that, accepted it, and uses it only sparingly. In canon and fanon, even Maddie only rarely uses “Evan” anymore, and it feels even less common for her to use post-Buck Begins (if at all, actually). So the fact that Tommy and BT fans tend to use “Evan” (at least, this has been my experience) is so utterly jarring. Buck told everyone his preference, and I believe LFJ has spoken about being told to use only “Evan” when referring to Buck, so I simply do not understand anyone who believes that BT is in love already or endgame. Yes, it could go the “Buck gave Tommy ‘Evan’ privileges off-screen” route, but then why push it off-screen? It would be a major allowance made for a new love interest, and a significant step in Buck’s character arc. Yet we see nothing of the sort. So why would anyone believe that’s what happened? The last we heard, Buck had told his parents and everyone else to call him Buck exclusively, with the minimal exception of Maddie (who was, for most of his childhood, his one and only lifeline and confidant). That sort of history and characterization is not ignored if there is not something very wrong with the writers’ room. It was not even ignored by a significant portion of the fandom post-season 4, although Eddie gaining permanent “Evan” privileges would’ve been a strong indicator of a Buddie endgame (had an on-screen explanation of Eddie gaining this privilege been released). It was not ignored, and it did not change the nature of Buck in fic nor fanon. So why in hell is the same not holding true for a brand new relationship like BT?
#buddie#apologies for the rant#it just annoys me#that for 3 years this facet of Buck’s was understood and accepted by basically the entire fandom#but enter T and suddenly people are using ‘Evan’ like Buck didn’t literally walk through fire every single day of his life to keep from#being known as his parents’ ‘Evan’ again#this was literally not a problem before this past season and now everry time I see ‘Evan’ used in fics I cringe#soemtimes even when it’s Maddie or Eddie using it in a canon/character-aligned way#it’s the very definition of YOU DO NOT KNOW THIS CHARACTER to my brain#anti tommy kinard#anti tevan#anti bucktommy#anti bummy#anti bt#evan buckley#eddie diaz#and like#who cares if T is using it in canon???#he’s literally known Buck for all of 5 months at MOST#this is not a case of endgame ship getting privileges regarding each other that others don’t#this is a case of T and BT stand not understanding Buck as a character or person#even watching the whole show does not absolve someone of this weirdness because why is anyone following the lead of Tree 6 on anything Buck#maddie buckley han#maddie han#maddie buckley#btw if you’re a BT who somehow stumbled on this post despite like 4 anti tags that are easily filtered - just walk away#I am but an annoyed buddie fan who thinks that watching this show for deeper stories#is better than latching on to the newest white boy of the month#911#911 abc
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I am a frequent indulger in University AUs, and Aventurine is always depicted as a business student. I love to see it, but to me, he is a high school dropout who somehow managed to work his way into a recruiting position in a mega corporation (the IPC lol) and is frequently at the university for hiring fairs and things
#ratio is a prof who’s also studying for one of his many phds#thinks aven at least has his undergrad degree#and is shocked to find out he hasn’t been to school since he was like 14#jaw on the floor impressed#I mean it comes off as him being upset and arrogant#but he’s genuinely never been more attracted to anyone#tries to get him to enroll in literally any major because he thinks he’d be so much more unstoppable with a formal education#like no I don’t think you’re stupid#I think you’re so incredibly smart and I don’t understand why you wouldn’t want to cultivate your mind#anyway#no thoughts only them#hsr#honkai star rail#university au#dr ratio#aventurine#ratiorine#aventio#hsr aventurine#GOD they’re in love#they won’t leave my brain
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CrypticGod!Merlin and Worshipper aka fanboy Mordred CRACK AU - Part 3
Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3
Merlin learns that being a god in semi-mortal form is very difficult when having a strong follower like Mordred.
Mordred, like many who pray to their god as some kind of anchor, will often pray something along the lines of ‘Emrys, give me strength and courage’ or ‘Emrys, please be with me through this difficult time’ unconsciously.
Except, unlike the normies, his commitment and belief are EXTREMELY STRONG, so when he prays strong enough, HIS GOD ACTUALLY SHOWS UP:
Arthur, charging him during sparring: Come on, Mordred! You can do better than this!!
Mordred: (anxiously praying) Emrys helps me
Merlin, suddenly appears between Arthur and Mordred, with Arthur about to smash him with the sword: THE FUCK—
Obviously, he is banned from praying during sparring, but occasionally Merlin will still pop up out of nowhere when he is anxious, and the knights eventually have to get used to it:
Arthur: Today, the neighbouring kingdom’s knights will join us for the practice, and there will be some competitions. I hope all of you are ready to protect and uphold the honour of Camelot’s knights. Any defeat is unacc—-
Arthur:
Arthur: any defeat is understandable, for one must lose before learning true victory, so please don’t get too stressed, especially you, Mordred.
Mordred: How do you know I am stressed?
Gwaine, carrying Merlin, who pop up above his head the moment Arthur said ‘defeat’, on his neck : Yeah, I wonder how
As their relationship improves, the power of Mordred’s prayer gets stronger. Not only can Merlin feels his emotions and more in-depth thoughts through the prayer, it also affects Merlin’s power, in both endearing and also straight-up ridiculous ways.
Lancelot, whispers: You are very upset because of that Lord Asshole’s shitty comment toward the Druids, aren’t you.
Mordred, calm and composed: No, I am a knight of Camelot and a grown man, I will not be bothered by something so trivial. I am not upset at all.
Lancelot: You aren’t praying to Merlin now are you.
Mordred: How is that relevant?
Merlin: *BARGING INTO THE MEETING* *SHOOTING FIRE BEAMS FROM HIS EYE, DESTROYING THE PATH AS HE WALKS* *GRABBING LORD ASSHOLE BY A COLLAR THEN PROCEEDS TO GERMAN SUPLEX HIM ON THE TABLE*
Arthur, watching this happens for the third time this week:
Arthur: Mordred, we talked about this, you have to express your thoughts and feelings verbally, not by praying to Merlin
Merlin: Don’t force him Arthur! He will talk when he is ready!
Arthur: STOP SPOILING HIM YOU ARE JUST HAPPY YOU GET TO PUNCH NOBLES
Also, when he is extremely happy, he prays to Merlin as well, like ‘Thanks Emrys for all the good fortunes that happen to me today’
Elyan: Arthur complimented Mordred at training today didn’t he? Maybe saying something like ‘you are going to be one of Camelot finest knights soon’
Percival: How do you know??? you were not there today????
Elyan, watching Merlin’s skin glows, not even in an oh so beautiful ethereal way but like a radioactive sun way: It’s .. hard to miss…
The first time Mordred wins a tournament, Merlin radiates for three days straight. His voice also sounds godly with all the weirdly smooth echoes and harp melody complimenting his every word. Mordred is exhilarated. Arthur is going insane. Merlin finally officially bans Mordred from praying to him.
#cryptic god!merlin and no1worshipper!mordred au#i dont think mordred will stop praying tho#mordred wont stop praying until his emrys can fight the sun with barehands#merlin#bbc merlin#merlin crack#mordred#sir mordred#arthur pendragon#merlin bbc#merlin au#bbc mordred#incorrect merlin quotes#merlin shitpost#crack post#i just love it when things could have been good then the good escalate into chaos#i jsut had a martini and tipsy me was like yes Merlin crack au i don’t understand how my brain work ok?#my post
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On Isolde and Many Doors (and One Key)
Thinking about Isolde and how she feels like she is constantly trapped in a small cramped room full of 1 million doors. Each door represents a presence that haunts her, an identity that lives inside her that calls to her from beyond the grave, a new mask to dawn.
If every person in the world were to have a room, most would have just one door, their own. But not Isolde.
Isolde feels like an empty vessel who is only there to serve as a point of entry for other people and their spirits. She has been forced to become so repressed by her environment, upbringing, and her nature as a medium that she finds it easy to forget herself. Her “self” is not someone she has ever been allowed to know.
The room grows increasingly smaller, claustrophobic and strangling her with pressure as the amount of doorways in it only increase, every new person she meets a new doorway she is plagued with, a new voyeur who has granted themselves full access to her life and her body. Something she is now willing to let them do. It is easier that way. Easier to let someone else command her vessel, something that never solely belonged to her to begin with. An escape from all the pressure, the expectations, the perfection demanded from her. It is something she should do. The duty of someone like her. Something to hide her wretched face from view, to give the people what they want, to uphold her family’s legacy. A performance that was never allowed to end. Each new door lead right back to that.
The only exception is Kakania. The only person Isolde believes has ever really seen her as more than a host for other identities or something to mold into shape, prop up as a set piece. A perfect lady. The star of Vienna. A tragic heroine. A dangerous hysteric witch. A curse manifested. The only one who was ever interested in finding Isolde’s door and that door alone. When she is with Kakania, a new door does not appear in that ever shrinking empty room, although at first she expects it to. For the first time she meets someone and is not greeted with a new ghost to haunt her. Not a door. But a key. A key that Isolde knows can unlock her own door, even when she herself cannot find it.
#reverse1999#reverse 1999#r1999#kakania#reverse 1999 kakania#isolde#reverse 1999 isolde#e lucevan le stelle#isolde x kakania#Can u tell I’m insane about them#also can you believe this interpretation isn’t even me being shipper-brained it’s like. a pretty direct interpretation of the canon text#It’s based basically 1:1 off of Isolde’s side story#like their dynamic already was destroying me but the side story made them maybe my favorite pair in the entire game#the shit they have going on is too tragic and beautiful and all consuming for me to not be obsessed w them#also if u had issues sympathizing or understanding Isolde during chapter 6 I highly recommend reading the side story#I felt like I didn’t rlly grasp her character fully in the main plot but this side story??#but after reading her side story … 💔💔 she feels so real to me#anyway. Enough yapping out of me.#I don’t think literally anyone is going to read this huge block of text I’m forcing upon u all but like.#Whatever I wrote it mostly for me anyway.#bc if I didn’t it would’ve continued to fester in my brain
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I enjoy drawing SUE ME !!
#another case of ‘it’s not same face syndrome it’s LORE’#because this is Aegis and they’re a god who changes their appearance to match their demigod conduit person#(aka Liam in this case)#(so basically he’s Liam if Liam slayed)#I’ll give you ONE guess as to what Aegis is the god of#and if there’s one thing I’m gonna do#it’s overuse procreate lighting effects for MAX atmosphere#my art#digital art#procreate#artists on tumblr#digital illustration#illustration#original art#my ocs#doodle#art#drawing#artwork#my artwork#original character art#original character#character design#oc#oc artwork#oc artist#digital artist#the problem with me not talking about my symbolisms a lot is nobody but me will understand why I think I’m big brained#because I put those specific flowers on the skull </3#yeah I COULD explain but what if I don’t want to 🤨
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I did that. We love u logie sarge.
#he needed to hear it ok#if he got one more question abt food or kilometres he was gonna lose it#he looked so sad#but after this he looked so smiley :)#I am so sorry for face revealing like this#I don’t normally show my face but this is important#gotta support the boy#he definitely is a polite cat btw can confirm#formula 1#f1#formula one#williams racing#we are williams#logan sargeant#ls2#f1 memes#williams#he also winked at me but I think my brain refused to process that#understandable#have a nice day
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It’s very kind of people I speak other languages with to assume that my slow comprehension and endless requests for repetition are as a result of us not speaking my first language, when in reality, my auditory processing is just complete shit.
#linguistics#second language problems#I mean it’s definitely harder in my non-native languages to understand what people are saying#but it’s not fucking easy in my L1 either lmao#people are confused because I can see them thinking#‘oh they speak so well so surely they’re very proficient’#‘and yet they don’t understand what I’m saying?’#auditory processing disorder#auditory processing issues#adhd#neurodivergent#your local autistic linguist here!#*stares blankly at someone else speaking as I try to make my brain translate their mouth sounds into words*#I’m an English teacher and sometimes my students are like ‘my goal is to watch English shows without subtitles!’#and I’m like ‘babe *I* can’t even do that and it’s my native language’ XD
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I discovered these paintings by James McNeill Whistler recently, Nocturne in Black and Gold: Falling Rocket (top) and Nocturne in Black and Gold: The Firewheel (bottom). I’m sharing them because they make me think of Nevermoor, as so many things do.
With paintings, a nocturne refers to the depiction of night. This is derived from the musical term, where a nocturne refers to a musical piece that is “inspired by, or evocative of, the night.” These both just come from the fact that “nocturne” essentially means “of the night”.
On a basic level, this just reminds me of Nevermoor by the aesthetics. The dreamy nighttime setting strikes me the most, but also the sparks of yellow fire that make me think of Wunder. Think of how many important scenes happen at night- Morrigan on Eventide, the Museum of Stolen Moments, and the Hollowpox in Courage Square. But the concept has me thinking, obviously, about the Wundrous Art of Nocturne. The only songs we know are Morrigan and Squall’s, who both chose nursery rhymes as their Nocture. Their choices make me think of lullabies, sung at night… and there’s lots to think about with that.
#does anyone else see or understand my vision…..#nevermoor#nevermoor in the wild#another post from my drafts cuz I feel bad I have no art to share#only art history classes I actually took was animation history and then ancient and medieval so most of my info or knowledge from#anything later relies on me looking it up and seeing what research and info is online and etc etc etc#anyways. love whenever magic (of the wundrous arts variety) in nevermoor is compared to art or the process of making art. <333#I need to make a Pinterest / some other sort of site where I can share everything visually that reminds me of nevermoor. but also filterabl#and also where I can add notes for why different stuff makes me think of nevermoor or what I associate it with…..#bc I’m often sharing architecture in the discord but I also am always bookmarking clothes and stuff that I don’t share lol#I saw two clocks the other day at a history museum and also an alway thinking abt the Prague astronomical clock so my brain is always like:#‘wow just like the skyfaced clock :) nevermoor :)#circling back if anyone knows some sort of site like Pinterest where you can have bunch of images with notes and also filter between#different attributes pls lmk. I’m not a coder so I can’t think how to make smthn like that myself lol#I started this post like a month ago that’s why I don’t have anything better to say besides ending with ‘much to think about’ lol
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It hurt in the beginning, but it hurt much MUCH more later on. You aren't even really aware that things are happening to you. They are subtle like that. After all, They have had the chance to prefect this process down to almost the second of becoming like Them.
Unfortunately, the perfected method is very painful. You feel it in your bones. Just a dull ache that makes you think of growing pains as a child. Something that once was easy to do; no longer works for how your body is structured (like climbing a tree or how when you used to cry, it would always be with tears that made your face too hot).
The shift from bones to being in your muscles would seemingly happen over night. Tendons feeling too rubbery and bendable and cartilage always became brittle. The nosebleeds became normal, and you are reassured that it is normal. (After all, it is to them.)
Eventually, it buzzes under your skin. Sometimes it feels like a phone vibrating under anywhere that might have blood, but then others it's impossible not to think of their being insects just under the first layer. (There are no bugs in the End. You know that. At least, you haven't seen any Endermites...) You hear it in your ear drums. Your teeth rattle ever so slightly in a way that makes your jaw hurt. The perpetual motion makes stomachs easier to upset and falling asleep almost impossible.
But eventually, after sitting too long in discomfort, you find out the meaning of these sorenesses. It is so much easier to mold something if it has been made pliable. They desire to bend, to snap, to stretch you as far as you'll go and then go farther.
Watchers are massive things in their fullness. Large and hulking creatures that can blot out the sun at their full hight. But one simply does get to being that size naturally. No, they had to be pulled up; spines and fingers being elongated, arms and legs extending out, and smiles made even wider to show more teeth.
The smile is why Grian doesn't ever bother having one shown. He hates to remember hooks pulling at his cheeks.
-Phantom
The way you go from DMing me to put him in a microwave, to this, is always fascinating, really, a littol gift to me 🫶
I think the Watcher holds his hair back when he’s sick, or gently rubs his back when he’s sore, even though it’s their fault he’s like this!!
#ask#watcher grian#body horror#it’s such a slow process. i think it just happens to anyone in that domaine… or using the magic.? the more he eats?#taken on trips to use magic. to guide. to watch. and then slowly realizing what’s happening when his hands don’t stop hurting#boy ur growing talons 👍#the vibrating/buzzing in his skin is his pineapple blood 😭😭😭 it’s canon to me#i understand him . i also get pain in my fingernails and ear cartilage#he’s going to grow eyes on his brain bloodborne style#anyway thank U twin for this u fuel me and my insanity over grian#creatureAU
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the way shadow moves off screen in this clip sends me into SHAMBLES every time the screenplay of this is brilliant
#IT GAGS ME#ITS SO FUNNY HELP#I don’t think you guys understand how drastically this clip has rewired my brain#all my previous memories are gone there is only this clip#I want to make a ‘sonic x but it’s just shadow clips I like’ thing except I don’t know how to edit 👍#shadow the hedgehog#sonic the hedgehog#sonic x#sonic#sonic tag#bugpost
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Unfortunately now that I’ve finally seen it, I 100% cannot stand the Solavellan ending and like I knowww that’s in large part because I’ve been functioning on a different level with the ship the entire time but it’s just sooo forgiving of Solas and sooo tragic for Lavellan and does not include the most fascinating element of their dynamic to me which is ‘Solas starts to see the value of the current world because of how much Lavellan loves it and is so deeply part of it’ and in fact fully discards it because Lavellan just fucks off to fade prison for “true love”
#datv spoilers#datv critical#it is not the worst thing about the datv ending (that’s the secret ending doing character assassination) but listen#I have spent so many years loving Lavellan in a ‘framed photo on my desk for over five years’ sort of way#and the entire game just feels so cruel to her (and those who loved the past games because wtf do you mean everyone is Ferelden is dying)#and then to have her end reward to All The Shit The World Has Done To Her For Over A Decade#is fade prison??? leaving it all behind for fade prison because she’ll get her kisses in???#anyways I think the solavellan ending should be that solas binds his godhood to the veil to sustain it and goes to live a mortal life with#lavellan and her dalish tribe and just shutting up about how things should be and how the dalish don’t understand#and just accepting how their culture is good and beautiful just as it is#and lavellan gets to share what she loves and build a beautiful normal life#they can sit under the tree planted for the death of my lavellan’s mother and watch her nephews play and enjoy both how even if the world#is radically different and was broken it has grown into something worth loving and#that all the effort lavellan expended to save everything was worth it#anyways I can and will talk about datv for hours but alas it is not in the same ways I can about dragon age in general#I am biting biting biting biting biting forever#brain thoughts
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Me, giving anything to anybody: You won’t hurt my feelings if you get rid of this.
#I hate giving gifts#I feel like I’m burdening people with stuff#I also hate receiving gifts for the same reason#I get stressed out if I own too many things and haven’t got my brain to understand that other people probably don’t think that way#anyways I was recently diagnosed with ocd and I kinda how that’s the explanation for this and I’m not just the worst person ever#kinda hope**#anyways I’m crocheting a blanket for my sister for her wedding and that’s what this is about
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