#apologies for the rant

[loveforlandonorris]

🎤 Lando's F1 interview after finishing P2 in the Miami GP (with Eng subs):

I'll try to have Lando's Sky Sports interview subbed & posted later today as well. I just need to get something off my chest after yesterday, but I'll put it beneath the cut.

I'm still so gutted for him yet again having the better pace and yet being forced to stay behind his "teammate". The inverted commas are very much intentional as it's becoming increasingly apparent that McLaren are only interested in supporting one of their drivers this year, while sidelining the other. And the one they're pushing aside is the one who has stuck by them since the beginning, even in years when they lacked a competitive car. And McLaren see fit to repay Lando's loyalty by treating him as a background character in Oscar's story.

It's beyond ridiculous now, even going as far as posting a 'team photo' where Lando isn't visible and only tagging Oscar in the post.

Needless to say, I won't be posting in the McLaren tag anymore as it's clear they don't deserve him. In spite of the efforts of McLaren and certain commentators to peddle this narrative that Lando is the inferior driver, at least we can see things for what they really are, and can recognise that Lando being sabotaged ≠ being surpassed.

[bastart13]

I've commented before that Iseul's route has a lot of flaws, but screenshotting season 5 has genuinely made me uncomfortable in this scene

Unfortunately, Iseul is consistently written as lacking care/respect for other people and being emotionally manipulative, especially towards Solaire

It's the common joke that Iseul is banned from the kitchen because Solaire caught him having sex there. That makes sense for both their characters that Iseul would do that and Solaire would ban him for it

However, whenever it's brought up in his route, the writing treats it like Iseul is not in the wrong. It consistently dismisses Solaire and reduces her into an angry joke whenever they approach the kitchen. Then, when Solaire unbans him to console him while his mother is in a coma, the moment he and the MC return to the kitchen, they immediately try to have sex and Solaire walks in on them.

Iseul not caring about the place and trying to have sex in the kitchens made sense, but the previous seasons were about him learning to accept responsibility to others. This is the most basic respect he could afford Solaire and it's turned into a joke

Then, when they apologise, Iseul and the MC first don't feel like they need to despite breaking the only rule Solaire has enforced. MC has to elbow Iseul into apologising, and when he does...

It's a classic manipulation tactic, when you've done something wrong, you self-flagellate or turn it into a joke to turn the responsibility onto the other person to console you or dismiss their own anger because you've made them feel like it's an overreaction. Dropping to his knees, trying to kiss her feet, calling her exaggerated titles, it's all to make her uncomfortable and force her to forgive him just to get him to stop. It's honestly gross

Honestly, this route hasn't made me feel great about Iseul's character because he consistently refuses to care about anyone other than the MC. I don't like that it doesn't feel like he's friends with Solaire. Iseul is meant to be down-to-earth about hierarchies, so it feels strange that he's coming off like a noble dismissing a servant because he wants to do what he wants despite the extra work it gives them (like, having sex in a kitchen where food is prepared for an entire castle is a health risk and Solaire would have to clean up after them)

It's sad because I really like Iseul is every other route but here, he's written to be aloof, distant, and uncaring. Iseul is lazy and scared of responsibility, but he cares about people and that's what motivated him to fight in a war despite the burden.

This is just another scene in a long line of scenes that makes me feel uncomfortable reading it, because it's from the perspective of someone who doesn't think Solaire deserves a real apology

[shadowsatdawnx]

not these mfs asking if this fanart of azriel rescuing elain from hybern is actually a fanart of gwyn because they don’t remember az rescuing elain but DO remember the off page rescue of gwyn. and then DOWNVOTING THE PEOPLE THAT SHOW YOU THE CANON TEXT OF AZ RESCUING ELAIN!

so y’all just admitting you’ve only read ACOSF then.

[dailymothanon]

I read a little about lighthouse keepers, mostly about what they wore 🤔 apparently they had uniforms, but often keepers didn't wear them because the weather would be either too hot or too cold or whatnot, and just be uncomfortable for what the job was! But Navy blue vests and trousers w/ the hat is the base of what the uniform was to be. I like Maine's nautical vibe when it comes to coastal Maine 😌

uncolored version cuz uhhhhr the colored version doesnt itch my brain completely right

[sneeze-weed7]

twins

MY THOUGHTS ON THE GAME (TLDR at the end) ok so i absolutely adored soothsayer. i think it was an amazing expansion on the original. while the original kathy rain was about kathy accepting and letting go of her past, soothsayer is kathy acknowledging and working on her flaws in the present. i LOVED the expansion on the character of doppelganger kathy. she really became more of her own person, and i found her attachment to the doppelganger version of kathy's parents really interesting. her quest for revenge starting kathy's own quest for revenge was so bittersweet, and to me she really felt like a genuine reflection of kathy's flaws rather than simply an evil version of her. i really liked the timeskip! i enjoyed the realism of kathy not being an immediate success both in her job and being a healthier person. her relationship with eileen was so sweet. i felt like their reconnection was a little rushed, but it makes sense considering their bond and the fact that the game is more focused on the mystery solving. its clear that eileen and kathy have a very deep friendship, and i loved how well they worked together in the end. gameplay wise, i had a great time! the art style was gorgeous, and the puzzles were challenging without being insanely difficult. the malleable was my favorite location in the game, and i think the challenges there were even better than in the og, ESPECIALLY eric's section. although it was more of a classic whodunnit than a ghost story, i really really enjoyed it! (TLDR: kathy rain 2 is really good u should play it)

[catsandgoodbooks]

I’m sorry, I just have to talk about c!Techno and c!Punz because I can’t stop thinking about them. Please let me talk about c!Techno and c!Punz. They literally interact once, with the Butcher Army/attempted execution fiasco, and they don’t even talk then. They are almost completely unrelated. There’s no reason to think (or talk) about the two of them and their relationships with each other, at least not based on what is explicitly stated in canon.

But they’re surprisingly similar, and the way other people see them mirror each other. They are both extremely loyal and are deeply involved with c!Dream and are seen as weapons, tools that can be bought and used without any regard for their opinions on the matter. But the way their loyalty is expressed is different, and their relationships with c!Dream are different, and the way they react to be dehumanized are different, and I want to talk about that a little bit because I just can’t stop thinking about them please help.

c!Techno doesn’t like c!Punz. He doesn’t like the fact that they’re complicit in just about everything (including multiple governments and completely unrelated public executions) and the goodwill they got from saving him from the Butcher Army didn’t last very long, especially because he knows they only got involved because c!Dream told them to/paid them to. His opinion of them only further sours after the Eggpire, because, even if they weren’t there for the Red Banquet, they were still working with the Egg. In AUs where c!Punz ends up helping c!Techno (especially if c!Dream is involved), Techno does not trust them one bit and suspects they’re just playing the long con so they can sell him and Dream and the Syndicate out. In versions where Punz tells Techno everything, including the Staged Finale, he thinks they were stupid for not saying no, you can’t do that, to Dream. 

So c!Techno doesn’t like, or trust, c!Punz. But it’s more than just that. c!Techno sees c!Punz as the opposite of him, the person he would hate to be and the person he fears he is, the person who everyone treats him as and expects him to be. A tool, a weapon, something you can buy with some coins or a sob story and point in the direction of your enemies. c!Techno fights so hard against the dehumanization that he faces, reinstates over and over again that he’s a person, not just The Blade; c!Punz accepts that conception of them, leans into it, because it keeps them safe and stops people from asking questions and provides plausible deniability. But, for c!Techno, c!Punz is exactly what their facade is, and that means c!Punz is exactly what he refuses to become.

c!Techno doesn’t like thinking about c!Punz.

c!Punz doesn’t like c!Techno. They don’t like the way that c!Techno broke c!Dream out of prison just to take away his armor and abandon him; they don’t like the fact that he broke c!Dream out so late. They’re tightly strung and hold grudges and need someone to blame so they can distract themself from what the hell is going on, what the fuck was happening in that prison, especially because they don’t know who they can blame for this but Sam and themself and everyone who let them happen. c!Techno’s a better target for their wrath because he’s safely out of reach and c!Punz knows they could never act on it. Just bottle up your anger and stick to the plan.

But it’s not just that they hate him either. c!Punz hates c!Techno, sure, but they’re also jealous of him. c!Techno can be angry and get upset and let other people know about it. c!Techno can get revenge. c!Techno can protect the people he loves. c!Techno can assert his humanity. And c!Punz can’t do any of those things, or, at least, they’re not allowed to.

c!Dream thought that c!Techno was powerful enough to be openly aligned with. c!Dream thought c!Techno was powerful and dangerous enough that he would let him break him out of Pandora’s, banked on c!Techno getting him out, and c!Dream would never let c!Punz do anything like that. c!Dream calls c!Techno a friend despite everything he’s gone through and struggles so much to do the same to c!Punz.

(Deep down, c!Punz almost wishes they were c!Techno)

[dazednstoned]

I've seen an influx of claims that people are “demonizing” John or “turning him a villain” and I think that's an odd response to people calling out things he actually did.

It's almost like what he did was awful and he should be held accountable for it. His later growth does not just dissolve his past, especially a past that consists of abandonment and years of neglect.

The damage of his actions seems to be lost on a lot of you. Try picturing a single mother, now throw in the fact that she's 17, a former prostitute, living in a gang, and is a woman in the 1800s unable to make a safe and proper living.

John didn't do "some damage" he turned Abigail's world upside down. He left her alone with a baby to raise all by herself. I don't think many of you grasp the magnitude of that and the position that put Abigail in.

[cutpaperbleedswater]

As a fandom, I love the way we’ve labelled Hijacked (semi-recovered) Peeta as an absolute menace. Boy would deadass sit cross legged, leant back in his chair at lunchtimes softly laughing at something someone said and just go ‘what an absolute bitch’ with the tone of RuPaul when Jimmy Fallon said ‘this is the first time a drag Queen has been on the cover of Vogue’ and he replied ‘ a drag Queen? A drag queen?! Honey, I am the queen of drag’. With that sexy purr kinda deal. And when they’re showing him the tapes of the real events of the Games and he probably still thinks Katniss/Gale was a thing and every time Peeta comes on screen kissing her, he just shakes his head ‘what a slut’, ‘shouldn’t expect anything less from such a whore’, ‘damn girl, chill’ or ‘I’d also kiss myself if I looked that smoking half dead’. The hijacking definitely boasted some ego and I follow the belief Suzanne did not write a fully straight character in the whole series, Peeta is definitely at least bi, preferring Katniss, but definitely not minding intimate guy touches.

Or when his daughter gets a bf (we all know Peeta would be THAT parent) and he breaks up with her and Peeta’s just like ‘it was a mercy to him you two ever dated ’ and Katniss just stares at him, moving into comfort her daughter.

Or when Haymitch makes a cruel joke which affects Katniss and Peeta just returns fire and leaves with his wife without saying another word.

Overall judge verdict, Peeta is a little menace. He do got that younger sibling energy.

[foxglove-gate]

OH MY GOD. we have had the thalia casting for ONE DAY and already the racist shits r crawling out of the gutter to talk mess. and they r like "book accuracy! book accuracy!" blah blah blah- i don't see them attacking walker?!?? like- i get it if u want to keep the book character descriptions in ur head. whatever. but then to turn around and attack JUST the black girls?!?? the hypocrisy drives me INSANE. not that ppl should even be getting this crazy abt casting. in a KIDS SHOW. it DOES NOT MATTER. keep ur racist opinions to urself. attacking these actresses is NOT OK. i cannot believe that ppl r this comfortable to blatantly put their racism on show, behind the weak ass excuse of "book accuracy."

anyways. i cannot wait to see what tamara smart does as thalia, ik she's gonna eat that role up ❤️

[thatsamushroom]

yeah you think I wanna love with this stupid mental deficiency? You think I can do something about it? You think I wouldn't just fckin rip it from my brain if I could?

[allamericanb-tch]

me bc i only have 16 days of school left

[yerimbrit]

what other games do u play ? :3

my new apartment wifi is dookie and im going thru fortnite relapse..

not the fortnite relapse 😭

i play a lot of games! persona 5 royal (im also on a p3p playthrough), fire emblem, honkai star rail, zenless zone zero, portal, and i also like rhythm games :-)

im not a big fan of fps or shooter games but i had this huge fortnite phase in like 2017 ish and it was... something 💀 but im def gonna hop back on once the nj collab drops

ik u play stardew but same for u what games do u play?

[problematicgoldenchild]

constantly looking through aromantic tags to see if anyone else can put how i’m feeling into words about wanting love but not being able to have it but also not wanting it bc it’s too much work but love songs are so nice but i haven’t “dated” since middle school nor have i liked anyone since and i just want to have a crush on someone at least but i physically can’t like anyone but maybe it’s cause i talk to the same people everyday and i wanna escape with fictional crushes or fantasies but i can’t get the same joy from it anymore so i just try to force it and end up ruining things i used to love but it still means a lot to me bjt i couldn’t give a shit about it anymore and there’s people that can say something that i relate to but it’s never quite right and my other aromantic friend can get crushes and still find people attractive and doesn’t understand what i’m saying and jesus christ i’m only in high school this isn’t that important but here we are

[disneyphantomlover]

2 years.

I was in unnecessary pain for two years, and it's finally lightening up. I slipped down the stairs and hurt myself. Had multiple Xrays, only to be told that I didn't break or fracture anything. Even had a ligament injection that made it WORSE. Then, when I'm in tears at the office, I get told "there's nothing else we can do for you". I'm crying, asking what the hell I can do because I can barely do anything anymore, and get told nothing.

It took a kind, worried man from church to say "Hey, I know a few guys. Trained them well. Lemme get you an appointment real quick." Once I'm back at 100%, I'm gifting this man homemade wine and treats. Because I got an appointment. And had 3 different medical professionals act with shock when I said I only had Xrays. I finally had an MRI done. And turns out? I fractured my tailbone. And it's obvious to anyone with eyes for that.

It took two years. Finally got a different procedure that actually makes it painless to fucking sit down. It's slow, but working. And may only take a week to actually get rid of all the pain.

I'm not saying this as a takedown of medicine or insurance, that's pretty fruitless on this site. But I'm just... Angry. Relieved. Frustrated. Hopeful. Maybe I can sit and draw again.

[kuunibal]

Aidoneus, how do you not go entirely insane not being with your darling? (Asking for me, because I feel like I am about to go rabid in a similar situation)

I'm sure the blog definitely helps a lot, but I mean how do you just resist the urge to send your darling a paragraph about how you'd do anything for her and love her dearly?

I distract myself, I suppose. I try to indulge in hobbies and regularly interact with people in real life outside of her even though it feels excruciating at times. And the blog helps so instead of sending said adoring paragraphs to her, I can vent them on here.

In my situation, I kind of have a love-hate relationship with my darling (it's not really "hate" and more "I am tired of feeling hurt over you" though), so it might be different/easier than your situation. That said, I hope it goes alright for you.

[Skip the text under the cut if you don't want to hear me rant about my beloved. I also vaguely mention sex and whatnot, so be warned.]

In response to your second paragraph, although I make an immense effort to not to act on it for the most part, every once in a while I actually do confess how I feel (I do not necessarily recommend this). I never want her to be uncomfortable with me still caring about her the way I do, so I try to be honest at least about that. Because if complete strangers assume that we are together while we are out and affectionately say things like "he must really love you" when I think I am not doing anything more than platonic, then I must not be as subtle as I believe. So she knows very well that I still love her dearly. Somehow she has not gotten rid of me yet, and we are still friends (with the occasional benefits).

She recently low-key tried to proposition me since she has been single for a while and it has been months since I last fucked the loneliness out of her, and I very, very gently refused. Not for lack of wanting, mind you, I can never not want her, I just know that it is not good for me. Two days later, she enters another relationship. I resist the urge to show my affection now because I must, because she made the decision that we are strictly friends, and because I will always respect her wishes even at the expense of my own. You ask me how I don't go entirely insane, but I think we are way past that, and I have just gotten better at rationalising/hiding/ignoring it over the years.

On a lighter note, if your situation is similar to these latter two paragraphs, I recommend playing some sad Joji and Laufey or similar songs. There is just something incredibly sobering about thinking of replying with a risky text right when "Let You Break My Heart Again" starts playing on shuffle.

[camoooh]

Went to the on campus pharmacy for pick up my T prescription and I believe there is a special place in hell for transphobic pharmacy techs. Told her my preferred name which is usually fine to find me on the system, nobody else has an issue with it but she wasn't happy so I quietly gave her my legal name and she made me repeat it louder then she repeated it even louder and I just glared at her. Then there was some other issue so she called over another tech and was using my deadname and referred to me as "she" which i corrected stony faced and she just looked so offended. The other tech was making apologetic faces at me. Like it's not that hard. It's really not. None of the other techs have an issue with me they're all great what is your problem Jesus