#apologies for the Rant

[1doesnotsimplyhavejust1fandam]

Half questioning my memory of the post s4 era, half side eying a certain character, so correct me if I’m wrong, but I don’t think there was ever a time when the Buddie fandom fully took the single “Evan” from the season 4 finale as Eddie receiving “Evan” privileges from then on. From my recollection, fics stayed mostly consistent with their uses of “Evan” by Eddie, perhaps just with an emphasis on important moments (love confessions, Christopher’s adoption papers, wedding vows, NDEs, etc.) after the finale. And I had to stop myself from wondering why that is because I know why. We all know. Because nobody wanted to use “Evan” in fics when Buck had just told his parents that people who know him call him Buck. So Buddie fandom heard that, accepted it, and uses it only sparingly. In canon and fanon, even Maddie only rarely uses “Evan” anymore, and it feels even less common for her to use post-Buck Begins (if at all, actually). So the fact that Tommy and BT fans tend to use “Evan” (at least, this has been my experience) is so utterly jarring. Buck told everyone his preference, and I believe LFJ has spoken about being told to use only “Evan” when referring to Buck, so I simply do not understand anyone who believes that BT is in love already or endgame. Yes, it could go the “Buck gave Tommy ‘Evan’ privileges off-screen” route, but then why push it off-screen? It would be a major allowance made for a new love interest, and a significant step in Buck’s character arc. Yet we see nothing of the sort. So why would anyone believe that’s what happened? The last we heard, Buck had told his parents and everyone else to call him Buck exclusively, with the minimal exception of Maddie (who was, for most of his childhood, his one and only lifeline and confidant). That sort of history and characterization is not ignored if there is not something very wrong with the writers’ room. It was not even ignored by a significant portion of the fandom post-season 4, although Eddie gaining permanent “Evan” privileges would’ve been a strong indicator of a Buddie endgame (had an on-screen explanation of Eddie gaining this privilege been released). It was not ignored, and it did not change the nature of Buck in fic nor fanon. So why in hell is the same not holding true for a brand new relationship like BT?

[shadowsatdawnx]

not these mfs asking if this fanart of azriel rescuing elain from hybern is actually a fanart of gwyn because they don’t remember az rescuing elain but DO remember the off page rescue of gwyn. and then DOWNVOTING THE PEOPLE THAT SHOW YOU THE CANON TEXT OF AZ RESCUING ELAIN!

so y’all just admitting you’ve only read ACOSF then.

[dailymothanon]

I read a little about lighthouse keepers, mostly about what they wore 🤔 apparently they had uniforms, but often keepers didn't wear them because the weather would be either too hot or too cold or whatnot, and just be uncomfortable for what the job was! But Navy blue vests and trousers w/ the hat is the base of what the uniform was to be. I like Maine's nautical vibe when it comes to coastal Maine 😌

uncolored version cuz uhhhhr the colored version doesnt itch my brain completely right

[wouldtheybecomeafearavatar]

Sighs. Would Dr. John Watson, MD (from the BOOKS FROM ARTHUR CONAN DOYLE'S BOOKS (or granada holmes that works too from what ive heard) FOR THE LOVE OF GOD NOT BBC SHERLOCK PLEASE NOT THAT. I CANNOT STRESS ENOUGH HOW MUCH IT CANNOT BE BBC SHERLOCK) be an avatar of the Eye?

Don't worry anon, I'm not exactly fond of BBC Sherlock either. One of the worst versions of Watson especially IMO.

[catsandgoodbooks]

I’m sorry, I just have to talk about c!Techno and c!Punz because I can’t stop thinking about them. Please let me talk about c!Techno and c!Punz. They literally interact once, with the Butcher Army/attempted execution fiasco, and they don’t even talk then. They are almost completely unrelated. There’s no reason to think (or talk) about the two of them and their relationships with each other, at least not based on what is explicitly stated in canon.

But they’re surprisingly similar, and the way other people see them mirror each other. They are both extremely loyal and are deeply involved with c!Dream and are seen as weapons, tools that can be bought and used without any regard for their opinions on the matter. But the way their loyalty is expressed is different, and their relationships with c!Dream are different, and the way they react to be dehumanized are different, and I want to talk about that a little bit because I just can’t stop thinking about them please help.

c!Techno doesn’t like c!Punz. He doesn’t like the fact that they’re complicit in just about everything (including multiple governments and completely unrelated public executions) and the goodwill they got from saving him from the Butcher Army didn’t last very long, especially because he knows they only got involved because c!Dream told them to/paid them to. His opinion of them only further sours after the Eggpire, because, even if they weren’t there for the Red Banquet, they were still working with the Egg. In AUs where c!Punz ends up helping c!Techno (especially if c!Dream is involved), Techno does not trust them one bit and suspects they’re just playing the long con so they can sell him and Dream and the Syndicate out. In versions where Punz tells Techno everything, including the Staged Finale, he thinks they were stupid for not saying no, you can’t do that, to Dream. 

So c!Techno doesn’t like, or trust, c!Punz. But it’s more than just that. c!Techno sees c!Punz as the opposite of him, the person he would hate to be and the person he fears he is, the person who everyone treats him as and expects him to be. A tool, a weapon, something you can buy with some coins or a sob story and point in the direction of your enemies. c!Techno fights so hard against the dehumanization that he faces, reinstates over and over again that he’s a person, not just The Blade; c!Punz accepts that conception of them, leans into it, because it keeps them safe and stops people from asking questions and provides plausible deniability. But, for c!Techno, c!Punz is exactly what their facade is, and that means c!Punz is exactly what he refuses to become.

c!Techno doesn’t like thinking about c!Punz.

c!Punz doesn’t like c!Techno. They don’t like the way that c!Techno broke c!Dream out of prison just to take away his armor and abandon him; they don’t like the fact that he broke c!Dream out so late. They’re tightly strung and hold grudges and need someone to blame so they can distract themself from what the hell is going on, what the fuck was happening in that prison, especially because they don’t know who they can blame for this but Sam and themself and everyone who let them happen. c!Techno’s a better target for their wrath because he’s safely out of reach and c!Punz knows they could never act on it. Just bottle up your anger and stick to the plan.

But it’s not just that they hate him either. c!Punz hates c!Techno, sure, but they’re also jealous of him. c!Techno can be angry and get upset and let other people know about it. c!Techno can get revenge. c!Techno can protect the people he loves. c!Techno can assert his humanity. And c!Punz can’t do any of those things, or, at least, they’re not allowed to.

c!Dream thought that c!Techno was powerful enough to be openly aligned with. c!Dream thought c!Techno was powerful and dangerous enough that he would let him break him out of Pandora’s, banked on c!Techno getting him out, and c!Dream would never let c!Punz do anything like that. c!Dream calls c!Techno a friend despite everything he’s gone through and struggles so much to do the same to c!Punz.

(Deep down, c!Punz almost wishes they were c!Techno)

[dazednstoned]

I've seen an influx of claims that people are “demonizing” John or “turning him a villain” and I think that's an odd response to people calling out things he actually did.

It's almost like what he did was awful and he should be held accountable for it. His later growth does not just dissolve his past, especially a past that consists of abandonment and years of neglect.

The damage of his actions seems to be lost on a lot of you. Try picturing a single mother, now throw in the fact that she's 17, a former prostitute, living in a gang, and is a woman in the 1800s unable to make a safe and proper living.

John didn't do "some damage" he turned Abigail's world upside down. He left her alone with a baby to raise all by herself. I don't think many of you grasp the magnitude of that and the position that put Abigail in.

[cutpaperbleedswater]

As a fandom, I love the way we’ve labelled Hijacked (semi-recovered) Peeta as an absolute menace. Boy would deadass sit cross legged, leant back in his chair at lunchtimes softly laughing at something someone said and just go ‘what an absolute bitch’ with the tone of RuPaul when Jimmy Fallon said ‘this is the first time a drag Queen has been on the cover of Vogue’ and he replied ‘ a drag Queen? A drag queen?! Honey, I am the queen of drag’. With that sexy purr kinda deal. And when they’re showing him the tapes of the real events of the Games and he probably still thinks Katniss/Gale was a thing and every time Peeta comes on screen kissing her, he just shakes his head ‘what a slut’, ‘shouldn’t expect anything less from such a whore’, ‘damn girl, chill’ or ‘I’d also kiss myself if I looked that smoking half dead’. The hijacking definitely boasted some ego and I follow the belief Suzanne did not write a fully straight character in the whole series, Peeta is definitely at least bi, preferring Katniss, but definitely not minding intimate guy touches.

Or when his daughter gets a bf (we all know Peeta would be THAT parent) and he breaks up with her and Peeta’s just like ‘it was a mercy to him you two ever dated ’ and Katniss just stares at him, moving into comfort her daughter.

Or when Haymitch makes a cruel joke which affects Katniss and Peeta just returns fire and leaves with his wife without saying another word.

Overall judge verdict, Peeta is a little menace. He do got that younger sibling energy.

[gerald-says-hi]

OH MY GOD. we have had the thalia casting for ONE DAY and already the racist shits r crawling out of the gutter to talk mess. and they r like "book accuracy! book accuracy!" blah blah blah- i don't see them attacking walker?!?? like- i get it if u want to keep the book character descriptions in ur head. whatever. but then to turn around and attack JUST the black girls?!?? the hypocrisy drives me INSANE. not that ppl should even be getting this crazy abt casting. in a KIDS SHOW. it DOES NOT MATTER. keep ur racist opinions to urself. attacking these actresses is NOT OK. i cannot believe that ppl r this comfortable to blatantly put their racism on show, behind the weak ass excuse of "book accuracy."

anyways. i cannot wait to see what tamara smart does as thalia, ik she's gonna eat that role up ❤️

[pjo-fan-2200]

PJO Godly DNA Theory:

So as far as I know, in the books its never really explained past "gods dont have DNA" and I mean with some "godly magic" handwaving I guess you could make that make sense but I have a better theory.

First the other theories:

The gods have no DNA and demigods only have half their DNA

Problems: relies entirely on hand-wavy "godly magic" for everything to work, doesn't really explain anything. Also how does legacies work then? since the demigods don't have any godly DNA, they just pass down their human DNA.

2. The gods do have DNA just like humans do

Problems: Incest/Inbreeding makes this one pretty controversial, but beyond the obvious inbreeding issues it makes more sense scientifically.

3. My theory: When gods assume human form they create a fully human form which includes DNA, but since they assume human form independent of other gods, there are no inbreeding/incest worries beyond half-siblings

Explanation: We know that the human form most of the gods are seen in is not the base/natural form of the gods, instead they take the human form because witnessing the gods' true forms will kill any mortal or semimortals (unless you have a badass "talk your soul back from the dead girlfriend). Since the these forms are their true forms instead of the mortal ones, the mortal forms don't necessarily have any DNA relations between gods. The gods form the same or at least similar forms everytime they look mortal which leads to a similarity between their demigod children, that does not necessarily apply to their godly children. Which is why demigod children of Zeus may all look similar but they won't have the same similarities with hermes.

What does this mean: What it means is that unless you share a godly parent (or are related on the mortal side of things) you don't have to worry about dating because you are no more (biologically) related than with a random human off the street. It provides a better explanation than simply "Have no DNA" since DNA is such a vital part of every living thing, and substituting it with handwaving "godly magic" is boring.

What do yall think?

[allamericanb-tch]

me bc i only have 16 days of school left

[yerimbrit]

what other games do u play ? :3

my new apartment wifi is dookie and im going thru fortnite relapse..

not the fortnite relapse 😭

i play a lot of games! persona 5 royal (im also on a p3p playthrough), fire emblem, honkai star rail, zenless zone zero, portal, and i also like rhythm games :-)

im not a big fan of fps or shooter games but i had this huge fortnite phase in like 2017 ish and it was... something 💀 but im def gonna hop back on once the nj collab drops

ik u play stardew but same for u what games do u play?

[problematicgoldenchild]

constantly looking through aromantic tags to see if anyone else can put how i’m feeling into words about wanting love but not being able to have it but also not wanting it bc it’s too much work but love songs are so nice but i haven’t “dated” since middle school nor have i liked anyone since and i just want to have a crush on someone at least but i physically can’t like anyone but maybe it’s cause i talk to the same people everyday and i wanna escape with fictional crushes or fantasies but i can’t get the same joy from it anymore so i just try to force it and end up ruining things i used to love but it still means a lot to me bjt i couldn’t give a shit about it anymore and there’s people that can say something that i relate to but it’s never quite right and my other aromantic friend can get crushes and still find people attractive and doesn’t understand what i’m saying and jesus christ i’m only in high school this isn’t that important but here we are

[disneyphantomlover]

2 years.

I was in unnecessary pain for two years, and it's finally lightening up. I slipped down the stairs and hurt myself. Had multiple Xrays, only to be told that I didn't break or fracture anything. Even had a ligament injection that made it WORSE. Then, when I'm in tears at the office, I get told "there's nothing else we can do for you". I'm crying, asking what the hell I can do because I can barely do anything anymore, and get told nothing.

It took a kind, worried man from church to say "Hey, I know a few guys. Trained them well. Lemme get you an appointment real quick." Once I'm back at 100%, I'm gifting this man homemade wine and treats. Because I got an appointment. And had 3 different medical professionals act with shock when I said I only had Xrays. I finally had an MRI done. And turns out? I fractured my tailbone. And it's obvious to anyone with eyes for that.

It took two years. Finally got a different procedure that actually makes it painless to fucking sit down. It's slow, but working. And may only take a week to actually get rid of all the pain.

I'm not saying this as a takedown of medicine or insurance, that's pretty fruitless on this site. But I'm just... Angry. Relieved. Frustrated. Hopeful. Maybe I can sit and draw again.

[kuunibal]

Aidoneus, how do you not go entirely insane not being with your darling? (Asking for me, because I feel like I am about to go rabid in a similar situation)

I'm sure the blog definitely helps a lot, but I mean how do you just resist the urge to send your darling a paragraph about how you'd do anything for her and love her dearly?

I distract myself, I suppose. I try to indulge in hobbies and regularly interact with people in real life outside of her even though it feels excruciating at times. And the blog helps so instead of sending said adoring paragraphs to her, I can vent them on here.

In my situation, I kind of have a love-hate relationship with my darling (it's not really "hate" and more "I am tired of feeling hurt over you" though), so it might be different/easier than your situation. That said, I hope it goes alright for you.

[Skip the text under the cut if you don't want to hear me rant about my beloved. I also vaguely mention sex and whatnot, so be warned.]

In response to your second paragraph, although I make an immense effort to not to act on it for the most part, every once in a while I actually do confess how I feel (I do not necessarily recommend this). I never want her to be uncomfortable with me still caring about her the way I do, so I try to be honest at least about that. Because if complete strangers assume that we are together while we are out and affectionately say things like "he must really love you" when I think I am not doing anything more than platonic, then I must not be as subtle as I believe. So she knows very well that I still love her dearly. Somehow she has not gotten rid of me yet, and we are still friends (with the occasional benefits).

She recently low-key tried to proposition me since she has been single for a while and it has been months since I last fucked the loneliness out of her, and I very, very gently refused. Not for lack of wanting, mind you, I can never not want her, I just know that it is not good for me. Two days later, she enters another relationship. I resist the urge to show my affection now because I must, because she made the decision that we are strictly friends, and because I will always respect her wishes even at the expense of my own. You ask me how I don't go entirely insane, but I think we are way past that, and I have just gotten better at rationalising/hiding/ignoring it over the years.

On a lighter note, if your situation is similar to these latter two paragraphs, I recommend playing some sad Joji and Laufey or similar songs. There is just something incredibly sobering about thinking of replying with a risky text right when "Let You Break My Heart Again" starts playing on shuffle.

[camoooh]

Went to the on campus pharmacy for pick up my T prescription and I believe there is a special place in hell for transphobic pharmacy techs. Told her my preferred name which is usually fine to find me on the system, nobody else has an issue with it but she wasn't happy so I quietly gave her my legal name and she made me repeat it louder then she repeated it even louder and I just glared at her. Then there was some other issue so she called over another tech and was using my deadname and referred to me as "she" which i corrected stony faced and she just looked so offended. The other tech was making apologetic faces at me. Like it's not that hard. It's really not. None of the other techs have an issue with me they're all great what is your problem Jesus

[dancingdreamer]

7 and 12 for the ask!!

7. Three words from your native language you like the most.

Oooh this one's tricky cause English has stolen so many words and phrases from other languages... the first three that spring to mind are Blossom, Melody, and Kaleidoscope!

12. What do you think about English translations of your favourite prose/poem?

OK I'm gonna take a two-pronged answer for this one. To flip it around, I absolutely think English stuff should be translated into other languages! Getting to see another cultures spin on something is always super interesting and can make for sometimes beautiful, sometimes hilarious, results!

Conversely, (because this is about American-isms) I do think that there are some things that just don't translate well out of their origional context - take the American attempt at The Inbetweeners. That show worked in the UK because it was crafted to, and played specifically to the British sense of humour in a way that just fell flat with the way they tried to "translate" it. This is becoming more of an issue, I think, where media assumes the US to be the "global" audience, and so gradually the nuances of individual cultures get stripped away in order to appeal to the American market 🙃