#tw vent ish?

[prognosis-undiagnosable]

Long Ramble Post

I am so confusion. I tentatively made a friend in university last semester. I think we might have to just be arms length casual friends. I don't know maybe it's just because they were high? But they like doubled down about it as in they repeated saying that it was a red flag. Context I told them I make it fun out of lying to my parents.

I mean if I have to lie for my own safety why not make some fun out of it?

I don't know they repeated it was a red flag like 3 times even though earlier in our video call they literally brainstorming/thinking out loud about what to say to their father about accidentally tipping too high.

They also made some weirdgiest comments here and there. One about trying to make a relation about me talking about feeling like an imposter about being Asian because I'm a interracial adoptee. Saying how it's like them being white LGBTQ+ and being friends with a lot of POC LGBTQ+ friends or something. I think they were trying to empathic and just went the wrong way about it, but ehh.

In that same call they were poking fun at how I "uh-hm" in like acknowledgement of what they were talking about/show them that I'm listening. Which I was completely fine with, but then when I poked fun at them for saying their catchphrase "lock in" they were confused because they know that I know it's their catchphase and they say it all the time.

I don't know I'm being really nit picky I think and making a huge deal about everything, but like I don't know. I don't want to get too far being friends with them if they turn out to not be a mostly good friend?

TL;DR

Thinking about distancing a new-ish friend for lowkey being a hypocrite and saying it's a red flag to lie to your parents.

Verdict: Currently to keeping them off Close Friends on Instagram (our main form of communication). And trying to find a friend for a second opinion.

[baileyboo2016]

why do i feel like my dads bitchass mother is gonna outlive all the other grandparents-

[stargirlanthem]

every day, i feel less and less real ✶⋆.˚

[antikr1sta]

(tw sh/blood/vent art) "i hate it here, i hate the smell and fluorescent lights, but most of all I hate you", he utters, gazing at his own face in the reflection of a dirty mirror; as both are only hanging on by a thread.

blood/injury tw ↓

..yeah.. i really really hate it here

[al-luviec]

vito

[nonbinary-vents]

Saw a post recently from @jewish-sideblog recently about how people view the scope of the shoah and it kind of solidified something that's been bothering me for a while now. I think one thing that goyim fundamentally don't understand about the shoah is that it had huge effects on Jewish communities in the whole world, not just Europe, and not just during the genocide itself. Like, two of my grandparents were born and grew up in the British mandate. Amin Al-Husseini, the grand mufti of Jerusalem at the time, literally met up with Hitler to discuss the implementation of the shoah and a possible final solution in the Arab world. He also barred Jews from escaping to the mandate. If the shoah had just gone on a little longer, that part of my family would probably have been murdered

The shoah had gigantic ripples in the Middle East. Without it, the Mirzachi expulsion wouldn’t have been able to happen. And the expulsion still affects Mizrachim today. Most of us have bad family stories, most of us can't even visit the places we spent the diaspora in. The highest number of Jews in Islamic MENA countries is 10,000 in Iran, the place my family is from, where there used to be 100,000. In the Arab states it is so much worse, with the highest being around 1,00, but most countries having less than 50

That’s just one example, but there’s many more. This stuff went so far as to affect Ethiopia, which expelled its ancient community of Jews (or, at the very least, banned them from practicing or teaching Hebrew). Even years after the shoah, it caused so much suffering for Jews everywhere, wether Nazi countries or not. Frankly, it’s kind of baffling to realise that most people think it was a self contained event, when it was literally the climax of thousands upon thousands of years of violent and vitriolic Jew hatred— of course it would ripple. The shoah was an earth shattering event that changed Jews forever, it is something that every Jew, even ones who thankfully had no ancestors murdered because of it, feels so horrible deeply. Everyone, everyone, not just the Nazis, not just the Axis, was a part of it

[b0mb-sh3ll]

was going thru the feels last night and the universe took it too literally 😭😭😭😭

drawn legit FOUR (4) hours apart.................

[leosh444]

"Omggg, I haven't eaten in two days, I have anorexia!!! Look, we're eating disorder besties!"

I worked out for literal hours until I was soaked in sweat, coughing and on the brink of fainting.

I can't stand up without seeing flashes of white in my vision.

My hands start to visibly shake whenever i have to eat dinner.

It's gotten to the point where my parents have to forcibly sit me down and force feed me.

I can nearly automatically count calories of most foods.

Thinking about food makes my stomach hurl.

I go on defeceit for literal days, and then binge, then purge.

I walk around with my whole body feeling light and dazed, and my legs heavy and tingling.

My whole body hurts.

I have literal meltdowns when I go over my calorie count.

I'm not allowed to leave the table for half an hour after dinner.

I refuse a plate bigger than my nine year old sisters.

I have screaming matches with my parents over how I need to eat. (Said parents caused this)

I stay up for hours doing workouts as quietly as possible in my room until i pass out.

I tried to cut the fat off my stomach.

I watch Mukbangs and look at photos of disgusting food to avoid eating.

WE ARE NOT THE SAME, TANNA FUCKING WILDE.

[cvtmyhearttopieces]

would you hate me too if I told you everything I think of myself?

[morpheusdreamt]

So I lay myself down in the shape of a body

I live in the figurative

[pierrotdoesnteat]

something something dog trapped in a human body something something make human body perfect. yk

please do not reblog this post with tags.

[sourtomatola]

Do you think if Eclipse came crawling back to Sun and Moon looking like this, they might've helped him?

Another star trapped Eclipse

[fadedlilrat]

I am human but I'm not. I'm a thing but I'm not.

I live in two worlds. Many worlds. Some feel true, some feel like concepts that I'll never fully reach.

No matter how much I reach my arm out for those worlds, I will never reach them.

But I have to keep reaching or else I'll get sucked into the others.

-Lucid/Lurid (he/she)

[stansavvy]

The amount of people misusing the word delusional is unbelievable to me

No, you are not delusional for wanting to do something slightly above average, you sound like you're having a little donut while going "I'm so bad"

Its all so silly fun and games until someone is actually delusional, in which case it's hilarious and they're a freak

[prognosis-undiagnosable]

TW: Vent

Fucked everything up. Got tipsy on his last night here and trauma dumped all over him. Like he was sober and shit. Like I kept apologizing then doing it all over again. He was like it's okay because you're drunk right now. Fuck.

But in the end it's for the best he can finally go off into the world and leave this fucken mess behind.

Tw: Freakout

My campus crush saw a throw away story post I made on Instagram doing the shittiest turns (ballet) ever. Kill ME. No one really views my second account I thought it's be fine. Fuck. My dog shit hair cut is on there. Fuck.

He did say looking disrespectful soooo I don't know.

I feel like it's a lie and he's just a supportive goober, but like argghhhh, I just want to always look semi hot for him lowkey so tjfhrufhrbhr

[spooksforsammy]

My mind racing but also so quiet. Because so fucking much want say but idk why. Idk what say. It stuck but I want it out. It make my brain hurt. I feel physical mental pain with the thoughts stuck in my brain I want it out.

I want to talk to people. I want to get my thoughts out. I want my voice to match my thoughts I want them to actually know what I have to say. It hurts it fucking hurts. Shit I hate it I want a voice I want a voice so fucking bad