#cw selfhate

[antikr1sta]

(tw sh/blood/vent art) "i hate it here, i hate the smell and fluorescent lights, but most of all I hate you", he utters, gazing at his own face in the reflection of a dirty mirror; as both are only hanging on by a thread.

blood/injury tw ↓

..yeah.. i really really hate it here

[membrane-attack-complex]

i want to rip my skull open and remove my brain

[nihilism-0]

I'm not a stalker,i'm your guardian angel.

[lostmf]

By @desnos

[alice-the-demon]

(CW: panic attack, self-hate thoughts)

"Your fault."

[bloodbittennails]

Posting shblr in school is crazy

wdym the guy behind me might see my awful post

…no he can’t

(T ^ T)

[lostmf]

[sigmarara]

So I'm at school right? And suddenly I stand up and I feel smt wet running down my leg under my jeans and like I cut there yesterday and I'm pretty sure that the wound opened and the blood just decided to run down my leg so that's a fun first day lmao

[mothronan]

girls i used to say that i get so obsessed with people that i carve their name into my thigh as a joke

i dont think it's a joke anymore

I AM NOT CONDONING THIS BEHAVIOUR BY THE WAY. I AM SHARING IT TO COPE WITH IT AND SEEKING FOR SUPPORT.

I DO NOT CONDONE THIS.

PLEASE DONT DO THIS.

[littlescarleterror]

Everything hurts and i want to hurt myself so badly but i dont have anything i dont understand whats wrong with self harm the onky person its hurting is me and i know how ti do it safely if its a coping mechanism that works i dont understand whats wrong with me doing it its so fucking stupid and j dont understand anything i dont understand school i dont understand basic english sentences or words i dont understand anything at all im just a stupid fucking idiot who vant get anything right and i want to kill myself, my school clearly doesnt care about me seeing as they decided to leave me in a room alone with 3 blades on me that they knew i had its fucking stupid, and them only doing bag checks after i admitted yo having them and not when they saw me walk out the bathroom with fresh cuts and told them i had just cut myself, the school clearly doesnt care what happens to me they just care about getting in trouble so if they dont care that much ill show up everyday in shorts and a short sleeved shirt showing off what ive done to myself they shouldn't have a problem with it considering everything else they so fucking obviously think of me

[kekeiraa]

drawing jose everyday until his birthday | 9/18 - 9/23

its his birthday tomorrow :]

[machathemorrigaesystem]

ugh today has been stressful as hell, and im currently mad at myself for developing crushes on some people and the fact im so tired i had a Freudian slip ...... I hate this, i hate having these crushes, they are useless, i won't have a chance, im pathetic, i don't deserve relationships (including the one i have with sage),i don't deserve friends, i deserve to be alone forever, to suffer,

tw suicidal idealation for cut

right now I don't want to be alive, som im going to sleep so i can not be conscious

[cyellolemon]

Meet my new ocs!! :>

Lore and info below the cut!

The pink hair guy with the silly creatures in his torso is Emilien (Emi for short) (he/it pronouns) some times after his top surgery he had these cute mouth entities that woke up in his scars (he's not really enjoying their presence)

That tall long green hair man is Sohan (he/him) he's a cashier who is gonna find out about Emi's creatures and be fascinated by them. Could be a good thing for Emi since it had a crush on Sohan since some time (despite the fact that they never really talked) but actually Sohan is like. an unsympathetic and unfriendly asshole. He doesn't care about Emi as a person at all

Because of Emi's mixed feelings about Sohan, the creatures will be very hostile toward him, so he won't be able to study them. And because he really wants to, Sohan will try to force himself to fall in love with Emi

[lordfreg]

[ptihihi]

Hi! It's been a really long while since my last post, especially considering that I've deleted most of it out of self doubts and anxiety. I wish to share some news, ig

Watch out for any triggers

Past, uh, years were really hard for me, and it's still is, but I trying to find some joy anyway despite everything my brain doing and saying to me. It became really hard to draw for me, I'm not sure why. Each time I pick up a pencil I want to smash it to my head and it's really not good, but I'm trying to overcome this because drawing is something I really liked to do and want it to stay that way. And while I'm working on that part, I've decided to find something else I would enjoy the same, and it turned out to be crocheting! I've been doing it for over a four month I think? I want to publish a post with what I've done so far after this one, so check it out of you're interested:)

Overall I'm not sure how I've been doing, I was really close to hurt myself really bad a lot of time for the past year only, but I had a lot of good things going on as well, and I'm doing better each day I hope. I do hope also that I'll overcome my fear and past experiences about therapy and start a new one, so wish me luck.

I don't really plan to get back to regular posting, but I do wanna share something at least once a month, to see my progress and see if anyone would enjoy it.

Thank you for reading this, I hope y'all doing well.