#tw anger problems

[la1npilledg1rl]

“have you ever just cried because you’re you”

[promiseimfine]

I don't know if i'm getting better or worse

[everyones-favorite-butchboy]

im out as a trans man. and i think i pass decently well. so, if transandrophobia isnt real, why do i get threatened in bathrooms and catcalled and brushed off by other men? why do i get infantilized and harassed and threatened? why am i discriminated against if im a man. men have privilege!

thats cuz these terf bitches wanna minimize trans issues and make ALL men seem scary and evil and gross. news flash, bub, the only people that are scary and evil and gross are the misogynists, racists, and queerphobes. so, in other words, people like you! yeah im a man but im a TRANS man and i cannot be a man without being transsexual. stop ignoring us and our voices. we didnt spend the majority of our lives being pushed aside for being “girls” only for you to say that “youre men, your opinions dont matter.” seriously, dude, fuck. off.

[uncanny-tranny]

Something I absolutely hate that's done for some reason:

Person: Isn't that typical narcissistic behaviour? *Lists out behaviours and tactics done specifically by abusers of literally all neurotypes*

There is no such thing as an "abuser disorder" because abuse is a pattern of behaviour. Stigmatizing disorders like NPD only contributes in horrifically negative things and discourages people from seeking help when they may need it. You can call out abuse without essentializing it with an Abuser Disorder.

[sleeplessv0id]

I don't believe in God. anymore

but I hope he loved me. at least once.

[nai-neko-nyan]

Anybody got some tips on how to regulate your emotions?

[zookeeper9872]

Do I burn (gym, caffeine, anger)? Or do I drown (nicotine, alcohol, relapse)?

[bpdarlingx]

My boyfriend thinks I’m too thin now. I keep going between wanting to half recover for him & wanting to get even sicker - I’m so tired.

If I ruin this relationship I’ll never forgive myself, but I equally don’t want to face myself & my past.

[su1c1d3wh0r3z]

either i'm just a really bad person and my parents see me for what i am and tell it to me OR i'm actually NOT a bad person and it's actually my parents that are the problem...

[no-more-lies12]

WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LOVE ME?

[odiabonecessario]

I'll never forget what you did to me and I hate you with every inch of my being for that

[promiseimfine]

I'm fucking CONFUSED

[thefictionalgirl]

The youngest daughter

You heard about me a lot,

She mentions me all the time,

They mention me all the time,

How she had to protect me

from the problems I've never caused.

You heard about me right?

But what do you know?

The lazy and unreliable one

in every story?

That's only natural for you to believe,

Because you know I believe that too.

The one who is admired,

The one who is loved.

And the one who doesn't care,

never try to be enough.

One who's "too much"

all the damn time.

And I know you heard about me,

And I know you heard,

How I spend a lot,

Someone your blood and flesh,

gets not as much as you thought.

Mom favours her,

Dad loves her the best,

She does whatever she wants,

a luxurious nest.

You practically heard this a lot, what I'm going to tell you,

Listen to me even though you know–

They sacrificed a lot, for building her life,

She did nothing, but she's the one at the edge of a knife.

Uncivilised, uncompromising and not so nice

No matter who becomes a virtue, she's always the vice.

The oldest's anger and dissatisfaction,

maybe not always it's the case,

But whenever the question is raised,

"They love you the most, they treat you the best"

Arrogant, rebellious and the unpleasant,

She gets that alot, that's how you describe the youngest.

And for whom, parents never cared about you,

And for whom, you had to refuse the last piece of cake.

For whom, you had to give up on your room,

For whom, you'll not be praised even for how much you make.

And you try, to go back on words, to change the fate,

because of the little girl, you want to, but you cannot hate.

And I guess y'all know about these,

The cat, the mouse and the piece of cheese.

And the cat leaves and moves out,

The mouse didn't know how to cope up,

So that's why she always shouts.

But then, how about reading some things unknown ?

What happens to the girl, why doesn't she smile anymore? Why does she always frown?

Did she have to take the responsibility of always being good?

She didn't need to be compared, she didn't need to be called rude.

You were busy complimenting the comparison,

An Individual, who was never known and given a reason.

Good or bad, she never wanted them,

You all made her the antagonist here who loves to complain.

And with the tag of being spoiled one,

she became the alter ego of yours,

The princess with a large mansion

And who never endures.

Someday you leave,

Making her all alone,

She never cries,

She has now grown.

It's the best, cause you never want to see

The teenage self in her eyes again,

Where everything is immature- love, happiness or pain.

She never had the idea of how the world works, right?

She said, "no I'm fine" whenever you charged her,

But the question in her eyes didn't surrender.

Hopeful- she wanted you to try a bit more,

"She never shares, she just knows how to close the door"

You wanted to be a teacher, punish for her mistakes.

She just wanted a sister to share her aches.

Hard or soft, whatever the feelings were,

She just never trusted you again,

And why would she do it?

You became a traitor

You never took the share of her pain.

And where were you, when she was on her knees,

Praying to make it all stop?

You were not there when she got home.

You were not there when she was trying to build her rome.

She never blamed you for choosing your happiness.

But why's that different when it comes to her?

Why can't you all see

That she too has a lot of scars?

To have nothing,

It must be hard, it must be bad,

But I had you,

Then why have I always felt sad?

I cannot describe the mixed feelings,

Maybe this all happened because of us.

I love you more than my life,

I cried a lot, weren't my eyes enough obvious?

I was not a criminal, nor you were,

We could have made it better, I swear.

But you never ever tried,

And I always denied.

You left the room, you left me alone,

Now you ask me about my feelings? Why have I never shown?

Was it so easy for you to abandon everything?

I know it's not bad, but why can't I do nothing?

TELL ME TELL ME I WANT TO KNOW,

don't you know that this crappy delinquent always feels so low?

After all this time,

After screaming for so long,

You hear the depth of my voice,

What about my continuous melancholic song?

Can't you see it falling from my eyes?

Can't you see I'm tired of tossing the dice?

Constantly hoping to earn a six,

I'll pick the pieces up in order to fix.

I refuse to believe in cracks,

I will try, I'll try to give what it lacks,

But you can never give me back, the years I spent yearning in vain,

Even if you try to have a conversation with stories from the memory lane.

Distanced soul,

Unattached roles

How do you think it happened?

How do you know it's not for the best?

Because that's way she became her,

That's way of the youngest.

✒mystica

[rainywhispersblog]

I'm so fucking angry, all the time. I yell at everyone, and I'm never like this. I just want to scream in their faces, and I can't. I'm cooking dinner and fighting tears because I just got yelled at for my anger issues. When I'm not the one who throws shit or hits walls when I'm pissed. Idk what to do right now. I'm not even hungry anymore....

[sleeplessv0id]

[thecorporatetower]

We could literally tell anti-endos our system was originally formed/diagnosed/originally found out as/whatever by trauma and they’ll still say they’re the “real systems”. Fucking friendly fire! Just say you jump to fake claim others when their experience isn’t the exact same as yours. Just say you wanna control how other people are supposed to think and feel when it comes to systems (referencing the common mindset that being a system is supposed to be “miserable” and being a system is “not fun”)

Also please don’t put ableists on your dni and then turn around and say endos aren’t real.

Not up for debate or to argue on this, we’re saying our piece, and this is final.

-Natasha/Angel